His Tormenting Love

They say the Almighty gives the toughest battle to His strongest soldier. Hindi ka Niya bibigyan ng pagsubok kung hindi mo kayang lagpasan. Ang lahat ng problema ay may solusiyon. Matatapos rin ang unos. I can't agree to that. I can't understand why all of this happened to me. Looking back, realized I've been fighting most of my life. Na hindi natatapos ang paghihirap, sakit at pagdurusa ko. Na kahit anong gawin kong pagdilat sa dilim, wala akong mahanap na liwanag. Na kahit anong pulot ko sa mga nabasag na piraso ng pagkatao ko, hindi ito muling mabubuo at lalo pang nadudurog. No matter how hard I try to be tough, I'll always end up failing like a fragile glass. I'm not strong. Magmukha man akong malakas sa harapan ng lahat, alam Niya kung gaano ako kahina kapag kaharap ko ang sarili ko. Kaya bakit ganito? What is His reason for putting me in this bloody battlefield? I smiled sadly as the cold breeze embraced my body. I am living in the dark all my life. Kahit pa ngayong payapa ang

I wiped the sweat off my forehead and neck using my hanky and combed my damp hair. My phone rang again. I glared at it. Pahamak. I saw Manong's name on the screen. "Ma'am. Sandali lang ho, ah? Traffic kasi eh. Malapit na po," I rolled my eyes and sighed. "Okay po. Just make it a bit fast po, please? I badly wanna go home." I said and hung up the phone. Napapikit ako ng mariin nang maalala ang senaryo kanina. Everyone from our batch knew about Forth's reputation. Some even find it amusing and cool. While me? I hated it. I don't like guys playing with someone's feelings. They are bunches of idiots. I jumped a bit at the presence of someone beside me. My heart thumped. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba sa gulat, o kaba. Syempre, sa gulat. Bakit naman ako kakabahan, diba? Hindi naman ako ang nahuling nakikipaghalikan. I lazily turned to him. "What?" Kailan ba ako makakauwi. I'm so tired. Dumagdag pa ito. His brow shot up. "Nasaan ang sundo mo?" Aniya at sumandal sa pader ng waiting shed na

Sa mga ganitong sitwasiyon, hindi ako umiinom ng mahigit sa dalawang baso ng alak dahil alam kong mahina ako sa bagay na iyon. Ngayon lang ako nakainom ng marami. I stood up and walked sluggishly. I am a bit slurry but I managed to walk my way to the restroom. Walang katao-tao sa loob noon nang makarating ako. I leaned my head against the cold wall. Mainit ang aking pakiramdam at nahihilo pa. It took me minutes to compose myself and freshen up. Medyo umayos na ang aking pakiramdam matapos makapagsuka at maghilamos. Bahagyang nabawasan ang pagkahilo ko bagama't namimigat na ang mga mata. On my way to our table, my phone rang. Dad's name flashed on it. It's already 1 am so its very unusual for him to call this late, I think it's important. Pahirapan man ay mabilis akong nakalabas sa bar at sinagot ang tawag. Namuo ang pawis sa aking noo at leeg dahil sa pakikipagsiksikan sa mga tao. "Dad," I called. "It's late. Something wrong?" He sighed tiredly. "Nothing, hija. Nasaan ka?" "I'm

He drove away from our house at 3 am. Halos nahuhulog na ang aking mga mata sa antok at pagod, at ganoon din siya. He looked tired and sleepy. I texted my friends the next day. I said sorry for leaving without a word. Nag alala ang mga ito dahil bigla na lang akong nawala. Nagdahilan na lang ako na nagpasundo dahil inaantok na, pinili kong ilihim ang nangyari. The next days passed like a whirlwind. Simula noong nangyari sa bar, medyo umayos ang pakiramdam ko sa presensiya ni Forth. Tuwing nagkakasalubong kami sa school, nagagawa ko na siyang ngitian bilang pagbati. Hindi tulad ng dati na iwas na iwas akong mapadapo ang tingin ko sa kaniya. "I'll be leaving next month," Jayle pouted sadly. Nandito kami sa cafeteria para sa lunchbreak. Kaming dalawa lang dahil may klase pa ang iba. Giana is a stem student, si Shane ay may cooking class at si Macy ay humms. Kaming dalawa ni Jayle ay abm, kaya minsan lang talaga na makumpleto kami dahil abala rin ang ibang kaibigan sa ginagawa. I sigh

Nakalipas ang ilang sandali at hindi na siya nagreply. Sampung minuto na at wala pa rin siyang tugon. Gusto kong batukan ang sarili dahil para akong tangang nakaabang sa reply niya. Napaismid ako at sumandal sa headboard ng kama at tumitig sa kisame. Napapitlag ako ng tumunog ang phone ko para sa isang tawag. Thinking it was one of my friends or some unknown people, I answered it. "What?" I asked coldly. I am not really in the mood to entertain someone. I can't believe I am being like this just because I didn't get a reply! The other line remained silent. I looked at my phone. The line is still connected. My forehead creased because the number is unregistered. "Who's this? Don't waste my time please." I was about to hang up when I heard a husky chuckle on the other line. My lips thinned. I know who it is. "Hi. Sorry, are you busy?" "Yes," I breathed. "I am busy. Don't call or text me. I'm doing something." malamig kong sabi. He sighed. "I'm...actually outside your house,"