Kabanata 61

I was very devasted when everything I have fell apart back then. I used to think that nothing hurts more than what I went through in the past.

It was nightmare.

But knowing that someone laid his life on the line just to save me from a bigger and more miserable nightmare is a different kind of pain. He didn't have to do it. Hindi niya kailangang makialam. I refuse to accept how his love for me lead him to do stupid things.

His father is a leader of a syndicate. It was given that he is dangerous. But he played his father's dirty game and betrayed him just so he can save me. Ganoon niya ba ako kamahal...para isugal ang buhay niya maprotektahan lamang ako?

I couldn't accept it. It was too painful. Paano kung hindi siya nakaligtas sa pagkaka-coma? Paniguradong habang-buhay akong lulubog sa pagsisisi at sakit!

Tulala ako habang nakaupo sa gutter sa labas ng restaurant. Nasa loob pa ng restaurant ang tatlo at ako lamang ang lumabas para magpahangin. At sa totoo lang, wala akong mukhang mai