Sumabog ang malakas na musika sa buong lugar. The blinding strobe lights, bottles of liquor, gyrating bodies, people dancing wildly and drunk people seated on the couches welcomed me. Hindi na kami mag-aalala dahil lahat kaming magkaibigan ay nasa legal na edad na at responsable naman sa mga kilos.
I spotted my friends at the right corner, malapit sa dancefloor. Kumaway si Shane sa akin, doon ko napansin ang dalawa pang lalaking hindi pamilyar sa sa akin na nakikipag-usap sa mga kaibigan ko.
"There she is!" Macy beamed. "Ang hot naman talaga! Nagliliyab ang kagandahan sa malamig na gabi!" She teased. Natawa ako roon at inikutan siya ng mata. Shane whistled playfully.
"Sana all may dede," Giana laughed.
I sat beside Jayle whose busy texting someone. Nakangiti pa at animo'y kinikilig. Siniko ko siya ng bahagya. Lumingon siya sa akin, nangingiti pa sa kausap.
"Oh, hi! Sexy naman!" She beamed. I smiled at her and put my purse at the table. I poured the Jack Daniels on a glass while listening to the girl's conversation.
I glanced at the two guys who's now gawking at me. Malagkit ang tingin ng isa samantalang ang isa naman ay nakatingin lang na parang inoobserbahan ako. I almost roll my eyes at the former whose smirking arrogantly.
"Ay, by the way," Macy spoke. "This is Marcus," tukoy niya sa lalaking seryosong nakatitig sa akin. The man nodded and smiled a bit. I smiled back too, na naging ngiwi na yata nang lumipat ang tingin ko sa isa. "And this is Brent. They are my classmates."
The annoying man grinned at me. "Nice to meet you, beautiful," he said in a rasp voice. I almost scoffed at Shane's little giggles when he spoke. Mukhang type niya pa yata. The man looks fine, though. Pero kagaya lang pala ng kampon ni Del Rosario. Perv and arrogant.
I just nodded coldly and averted my gaze. Giana simply pinched the side of my waist. I flinched a bit and looked at her confusedly.
"Mukhang type ka," nguso niya roon sa mukhang manyak na lalaki. I lazily leaned on the headrest, pinaglalaruan ang ngayo'y hawak na baso ng alak.
"Walang may pake," I said.
She laughed a bit. "Napaka- harsh mo talaga." Napailing siya at sumimsim sa baso.
"Anong balak niyo ngayong bakasiyon? Two months na lang end na ng school year," Jayle said at ibinaba ang shot glass na may lamang vodka, bahagya pang nakangiwi. I never really liked its taste, mabuti siya at nakakaya niya.
"Ako, we're going to US to visit our grandparents." Shane said.
"As usual, pupunta kaming La Vida," tukoy ni Giana sa probinsiya nila. "Annual family reunion," she added.
"Buti pa kayo, may plano. Ako, sa bahay lang. Well, my parents don't want to risk it." Macy shrugged.
Her father is a congressman and her mom is a criminal lawyer, parehong nasa field kung saan uso ang marurumi at madudugong laro. Delikado nga para sa kaniya iyon kaya mas mabuting mag-ingat. Lalo pa at kalat na sa lahat ang balak na pagkandidato ni Tito Sebastian, ang kaniyang ama sa pagka- senador, at si Tita Merrigan na kaniyang ina naman ay may malaking kasong hinahawakan at balita ko'y sindikato ang kalaban niya. Lalong mapipika ang mga kaaway ng kaniyang mga magulang dahil pareho silang kilalang mahusay sa larangan ng politika at abogasya, baka madamay pa silang magkakapatid.
"Ang boring niyan, babe," Jayle commented. "But its for your safety naman. Balita ko mas lalong nagiging aggressive ang mga kaaway niyo. You need to be extra alert and careful."
Macy nodded at that. "Well, I understand naman. I'll just try to be productive everyday siguro, para hindi ako maburyo." She turned to me. "How 'bout you? Anong plano?"
Nagkibit- balikat ako. "Wala akong plano. I'll probably just stay inside the house or...do some things to ease my boredom." I said.
"Things like what?" The annoying guy suddenly interrupted. I almost rolled my eyes but I don't wanna be that harsh so I kept my poker face.
I raised a brow. "Things that should be out of your business," I lazily said. Sinaway ako ni Shane habang ang iba kong kaibigan ay nagpipigil ng tawa. Si Giana ay nakisegunda pa sa pagsaway pero natatawa naman.
Ang isang lalaki ay nangingiti pero nanatiling tahimik. He's kind of fine than this cocky creature. Pormal at mukhang marespeto kaysa sa kasama.
Jayle laughed a bit. "Sorry sa kaibigan namin. She's just like that," she added. The man smirked.
"No, it's fine." He said.
Hindi ko na lang siya pinansin at inabala ang sarili sa pagsi-cellphone.
Umalis ang dalawang lalaki kalaunan. Anila ay maaga ang lakad sa kung ano. The annoying man even had the guts to wink at me before leaving. Napangiwi na lang ako roon.
My friends became louder as the time passes by. Lumalalim na ang gabi, ganoon di ang pagdagsa ng mga tao sa lugar. The party is at its peak. Sobrang lakas na ng tugtugin at lalong nagkakagulo sa pagsasayaw at katuwaan.
Meanwhile, I am feeling nauseous. Aminado akong hindi malakas uminom. My friends have high alcohol tolerance samantalang ako ay hindi pa yata nakakalimang shot ay nahihilo at lupaypay na.
"Guys! Tara dali!" Si Shane na mukhang kagagaling lang kung saan. She looks wasted now, halatang marami na ang nainom pero kaya pa ring tumayo ng maayos.
"Why?" The sleepy Giana asked. Namumungay ang mga matang bumaling sa kaibigan. I looked at her with my blurred vision. Jayle yawned and rested her head on my shoulder.
"I think I saw someone," her eyes darted at Macy na ngayo'y nasa ere na ang inumin, natigilan nang makita ang mapanuyang tingin ni Giana.
"What?" Macy asked. Giana grinned and put her palm on her cheeks, umaaktong kinikilig.
"The bartender!" She giggled. The sleepy Jayle shifted on her stance snappily.
"Eh? Saan?" She asked curiously.
"Omg! Kaya naman pala binabalikan ni Maxima! Super hot!" Pinapaypayan pa ni Shane ang sarili, mukhang interesado talaga roon sa sinasabing bartender.
"Weh? Tara nga, tignan natin," ani Giana.
"Stop it!" Impit niyang saway. The four stood, ready to confirm the news. Sumunod ang bahagya pang gumigewang na si Macy sa kanila. "Don't do anything stupid! Nakakahiya sa tao!" I heard her yell.
It took me a little while to realize that I am all alone and very dizzy. My eyes are almost dropping, umaalon ang pakiramdam at nasusuka. I want to go home and sleep.
Sa mga ganitong sitwasiyon, hindi ako umiinom ng mahigit sa dalawang baso ng alak dahil alam kong mahina ako sa bagay na iyon. Ngayon lang ako nakainom ng marami. I stood up and walked sluggishly. I am a bit slurry but I managed to walk my way to the restroom. Walang katao-tao sa loob noon nang makarating ako. I leaned my head against the cold wall. Mainit ang aking pakiramdam at nahihilo pa. It took me minutes to compose myself and freshen up. Medyo umayos na ang aking pakiramdam matapos makapagsuka at maghilamos. Bahagyang nabawasan ang pagkahilo ko bagama't namimigat na ang mga mata. On my way to our table, my phone rang. Dad's name flashed on it. It's already 1 am so its very unusual for him to call this late, I think it's important. Pahirapan man ay mabilis akong nakalabas sa bar at sinagot ang tawag. Namuo ang pawis sa aking noo at leeg dahil sa pakikipagsiksikan sa mga tao. "Dad," I called. "It's late. Something wrong?" He sighed tiredly. "Nothing, hija. Nasaan ka?" "I'm
Ilang sandali pa ay kumalma na ako ngunit nanatili kami sa ganoong posisyon. No one dared to move nor speak. I find the moment calming and peaceful, na para bang matagal na kaming ganito sa isa't isa kahit na ang totoo, mula noong high school ay ngayon lang kami naging ganito kalapit sa isa't isa. His heartbeat is calm but his breathing is heavy. I felt the urge to bury my face in his chest but I stopped myself. I don't think it's right, given our past encounters at school. We're not even friends. He sighed and hugged me more. "Feeling better now?" He asked. I nodded. Bahagya akong kumalas sa kaniyang yakap, hinayaan niya akong makawala. Inayos ko ang aking suot na dress. Pinulot niya ang nahulog kong purse at inabot sa akin. Hinanap ko rito ang aking scrunchies para masikop ang magulong buhok. Nanonood lang si Forth sa aking ginagawa. Nahirapan akong sikupin ang buhok dahil sa hawak na purse. I tried but I fail eventually. Itinigil ko na lang iyon. Hinayaan ko na lang na ganoon an
He drove away from our house at 3 am. Halos nahuhulog na ang aking mga mata sa antok at pagod, at ganoon din siya. He looked tired and sleepy. I texted my friends the next day. I said sorry for leaving without a word. Nag alala ang mga ito dahil bigla na lang akong nawala. Nagdahilan na lang ako na nagpasundo dahil inaantok na, pinili kong ilihim ang nangyari. The next days passed like a whirlwind. Simula noong nangyari sa bar, medyo umayos ang pakiramdam ko sa presensiya ni Forth. Tuwing nagkakasalubong kami sa school, nagagawa ko na siyang ngitian bilang pagbati. Hindi tulad ng dati na iwas na iwas akong mapadapo ang tingin ko sa kaniya. "I'll be leaving next month," Jayle pouted sadly. Nandito kami sa cafeteria para sa lunchbreak. Kaming dalawa lang dahil may klase pa ang iba. Giana is a stem student, si Shane ay may cooking class at si Macy ay humms. Kaming dalawa ni Jayle ay abm, kaya minsan lang talaga na makumpleto kami dahil abala rin ang ibang kaibigan sa ginagawa. I sigh
The lightness I am feeling from the scene earlier was shortlived as I settled on my seat during dinner, feeling the uncomfortable silence with my parents. I can sense that something is going on between them and I can't help but observe them. I looked at my Mom who looks stressed and tired. She is focused on her food. Then my gaze turned to my dad who looks worn out. I can really sense that something is off between my parents. Dati naman nang tahimik ang hapag namin pero hindi ganito kabigat ang atmospera. "Mommy," I called softly. She looked at me and raised a brow, her gaze softened a bit while looking at me. "Are you both alright po? You both look tired," I asked. I know it is not good to talk about this in front of the food but I can't help it. Maybe...they're too stressed about work? She smiled a bit. "I'm fine, Selene. We're just tired from...work," she said and focused on her food again. Meanwhile, I am not convinced. It seems like there is something else but I don't want t
Nakalipas ang ilang sandali at hindi na siya nagreply. Sampung minuto na at wala pa rin siyang tugon. Gusto kong batukan ang sarili dahil para akong tangang nakaabang sa reply niya. Napaismid ako at sumandal sa headboard ng kama at tumitig sa kisame. Napapitlag ako ng tumunog ang phone ko para sa isang tawag. Thinking it was one of my friends or some unknown people, I answered it. "What?" I asked coldly. I am not really in the mood to entertain someone. I can't believe I am being like this just because I didn't get a reply! The other line remained silent. I looked at my phone. The line is still connected. My forehead creased because the number is unregistered. "Who's this? Don't waste my time please." I was about to hang up when I heard a husky chuckle on the other line. My lips thinned. I know who it is. "Hi. Sorry, are you busy?" "Yes," I breathed. "I am busy. Don't call or text me. I'm doing something." malamig kong sabi. He sighed. "I'm...actually outside your house,"
Bagsak ang katawan ko pagkapasok at nakatulog kaagad. Nabasa ko lang ang mga mensahe niya nang magising ako, informing me that he got home. Nakita kong may bago siyang mensahe kaninang alas otso lang ng umaga and it is already ten in the morning. Forth: Good morning. Forth: I guess you're still sleeping. Don't forget to eat breakfast when you wake up. Napangiti ako roon. Bumangon ako sa pagkakahiga at sinuklay ang buhok gamit ang daliri. Me: Good morning. Kakagising ko lang. Naligo muna ako at nagbihis bago bumaba para kumain. Natigilan pa ako ng makita ang mga pinsan ko na nasa living room. They are my cousins from Daddy's side. Anila ay pupunta kami sa bahay ng aming lolo at lola sa Batangas. Kanina pa pala naghihintay ang mga iyon sa akin at kanina pa ako kinakatok sa kuwarto. Biglaan lang daw at tumawag si lolo at nakiusap na bisitahin sila. Sumama ang mga babae kong pinsan sa pag-akyat ko. Halos magdugo na lang ang tenga ko sa ingay nila. Si Shanaiah lang ang hindi masy
Ilang saglit akong naghintay ng tawag niya. Malapit ko nang hambalusin si Mon ng hawak kong unan dahil napapakapit pa ito ng parang tuko pero buti na lang ay nag-ring ang cellphone ko. Kinuha ko ang unan sa tabi ni Desmond saka dire-diretsong pumanhik sa taas. Mukhang hindi naman ako napansin ng mga pinsan dahil abala sila sa panonood. For some reason, I felt excited about something like a kid that was brought in an amusement park for the first time. I went inside our room and slumped on the bed. "Hello," panimula ko at tumitig sa kisame. "Hi, Ma'am. Are you going to sleep now?" "Not yet. Nagmomovie marathon kami." I replied. "With your cousins?" Tumango ako kahit hindi niya nakikita. "Yeah." Ilang sandali kaming natahimik. Tanging mabigat niyang paghinga ang naririnig ko sa kabilang linya. The silence is not awkward, though. It's comforting and peaceful, even. "You still there? Bakit ang tahimik riyan? Where are you?" he suddenly asked. May narinig akong kaluskos sa kabi
Napapansin ko ang madalang na pag-uwi ni Dad. Madalas ay parehas silang wala, minsan pa kapag umuuwi ay nagtatalo sila ni Mommy. Thinking it was just some business matters, I didn't let it get through me. Sa mga araw na lumipas ay mas lalo kaming nagkalapit ni Forth. There were times that we'll go out to eat, have road trips at midnight, shop for things, and watch movies. Those memories are all just simple but happy. "Aren't you sleepy yet? Pwede namang next time na lang tayo pumunta roon," Forth said while his eyes are on the road. From gazing outside his car's window, I turned to him and I was welcomed by his breath-taking side profile. The city lights illuminated his beautiful eyes and his aristocratic nose and prominent jaw are kissed by the darkness, giving it a manly shadow. "Hindi pa naman ako inaantok. Sanay akong hindi matulog mg maaga dahil nanonood ako ng series sa n*****x," I said and stared at him more, adoring one of the Creator's masterpiece. "How about your pa