She confided in Jacqueline!

She winced in pained as the bandage was finally wrapped around her hand.

Xavier had just ran off probably still in his feelings as he indeed wanted to know how he could get his mate talk to him without being scared he could hurt her.

He for sure was there to protect her and not hurt her ever.

She deserved love and love she shall get but still she had to allow him give her the love she was running from.

She couldn't understand why Xavier had ran away, somehow she felt maybe it was because Jacqueline had come to help her from maybe his grip.

Maybe he was one of those who was going to hurt her if she sat there and was in deep thougjts, or if she didn't something which was had!

Most times back at the rogue pack when she had had her episode from the dreams she had when sleeping she would be bound with silver around her wrist as they burnt her body and she screamed all through the night and day as they all laughed at her and she probably knew they insulted her because she didn't hear what they were saying but they made sure to let her know she was nothing.

"Thank you doctor" she signed to Jacqueline as she touched the arm where she had been bandage feeling slot better because from the way she had fran out of the hospital room she had hit herself without knowing just in her emotions.

"You don't have to call me Doctor all the time Nathalia, I call you Nathie already right?" she noddes her head as the Doctor signed at her waiting to hear where the conversation was headed, "So why don't you call me Jacqueline or Jackie for short if Jacqueline is so hard for you to sign out" she said with a smile.

"Are you certain you want me calling you Jackie?" Nathalia asked as this was on of the things she had never been given back then.

The ability to be comfortable with someone so much so that she called them by their names.

Maybe indeed they were not going to hurt her and probably she had over maybe reacted with the Alpha, he was just explaining something to he, why did she had to go into deep memories when he was explaining things she had asked form him?

"Yes of course Honey, the words doctor is too formal and from everything I want to guess I am your friend right now right?" the doctor asked, from the way she spoke anyone would think she was talking to a little baby but those were the steps they had to take to make sure she was fine.

"So how are you feeling?" she asked as she noticed that she had gone into deep thinking when shs had said they were friends, she didn't want the young lady having yet another anxiety which could lead her to react in ways she could not control because of how ruin she was.

"I am sore and upset, why did the Alpha run awat, did I offend him? Is he going to punish me when he returns?" she signed sadness feeling her eyes as she could only imagine how his punishments would be he was one to show emotions just once at least she had noticed the times his emotions where real so maybe when he was mad his emotions could be extremely fury and she could not handle it.

Just thoughts!

"He went to clear mind from some work and he won't pumish you dear, he never would punish you okay" she signed back reassuring her she was in sweet and loving hands so she shouldbt have such thoughts.

"Really?" she asked still wanting to be sure and the doctor shook her head in acceptance as she wished fhs young lady who was her Luna would know they all loved her already and where there to make sure she didn't feel like she was a burden.

"Where are you sore? Are your ribs too painful for you?" she asked hoping she could take her mind off the fear she had deep inside.

"Just everywhere, I feel like I have been beaten even inside myind I feel like I have been beaten and I need some rest but I can't sleep b cause if I do I just keep remembering things that are too tuebulent for my mind" she signed hoping they could give her some drugs for that.

"You just need to try hun" she said as she insisted for her to sleep she didn't want to start giving her sleeping pills.

They could help but if she became too comfortable with sleeping pills it would now became an addiction and they didn't want her getting herself into an addiction just yet or ever to begin with.

"My heart hurts" she said those words her signage reducing as she couldn't understand why she felt like her heart ached, what could be the reasons why her heart ached it was hurting her the most, not even like her ribs was painful her heart hurt as though someone had stabbed into it, just like someone connected to her was feeling terrible about something and she just couldn't help but pray the perfect an felt better so she too could be fine.

"If you feel pain even in your heart then that means theesications are working and soon enough you just would be able to be extremely fine" Jackie signed with another happy smile as she knew they were finally succeeding with the treatment.

"When Xavier left when I was behind the tree i though he was the reason I was feeling pain and I was scared something could happen, but since he left I have been feeling this pain nonstop what could be the problem?" she asked looking at Jackie with eyes that wanted answers immediately.

Maybe if she got the answers she wanted then maybe she could you'd just finally have a less painful heart or so she thought.

"Remember when Xavier was explaining to you about a pull, that what is happening, he is far away from you hurt and in paims because he doesn't know how to help you hence the pull from him hurts your heart" Jackie explained slowly as she could.

"Did I drive him away from me?" she asked her bott lip quivering as she knew it was bad to have made him go away from her when he was probably only helping her.

"No you didn't drive him away Nathalia, he is here to love you, he is just hurt you have gone through a lot of things he can't seem to penetrate to save you that is why but you don't bother because he would be back"

The sadness feeling her eyes made Jacqueline worry now because she didn't want her running out of the room just as she had done earlier on.

"You and Xavier are mates and you are the Luna hence you are stuck with him forever as per what the moon goddess wants" Jacqueline signed as she explained.

Whilst she sat there thinking so she had hurt the man who was here to love her from all the captivity she had been through.

She wanted to go back to her family where they were at the Bright moon pack, they probably thought she was dead and here she was from the rogues now she was at the Silent Moon pack being told she was their Luna and she was stuck to the Alpha.

It did seem her life was always being stuck even if she didn't want to be stuck to anyone.

She didn't want this and that was what would kill Xagier if he knew the lady the Goddess had given to him might just reject him in the end.

Tears began to rush down her cheeks as she slowly dropped down to the gron from her bed at the room, Jacqueline pulled her up but she had pinned her thin self to the ground not wanting to be raised up.

She cried for about fifteen straight minutes and when she was done Jacqueline finally helped to pull her up because she had sent out her hurt emotions out through her tears.

"You don't want to be with the Alpa? Do you want to reject him? Don't you want to be our Luna? My Luna?" she signed in a saddened manner.

"Well, I don't know anything about him that's for starters, and secondly I won't be able to rest I just might think they would follow me and then your quite pack might be filled with fighting and I haven't heard any fights since I came here, what if I do something and he tries to hurt me just like Derrick?" she signed worry still evident in her.

"Who is Derruck Nathalia?" she signed back as she asked.

"The rogue, the head of the rogue, he always made sure I went through a lot of hurt and he was their leader, what if I get into this mate thing with the Alpha and he hurts me when I do setjing wrong?" she asked.

"Derrick is the rogue you were running away from?" she asked asher eyes widened.

Nathalia had explained to Xavier but kot Jacqueline and hearing this Jacqueline knew how heartless Derrick was they and their family had caused aloy of trouble at their pack hence their banishment.

"What happened when he had you?" she signed slowly hoping she could get the information from her.

"I can't tell you" Nathalia said in a slow tone through her sign she could feel the lady was not ready to talk.

"Please tell me the important stuff, that way I can help you Nathie please" she begged hoping and praying her request was granted.

She breathe out and explained all the torture, the near tape sessions she would have gone through if her wolf and some force wasn't pushing him away, the burn with the silver ware when she fought back, the insuly she never heard but saw from their laughters that they were making fun of her, the painful nights she was made to stand in the nude because she had refused to satisfy his special urges in ways that were very unpleasant.

The rotten food she was given after two weeks of not eating because she had tried to shift into her wolf, the beatings she had received ths day they had finally seen that she had a wolf and it was white she was brought another wolf who had been kidnapped that same night she was kidnapped and was asked to kill the wolf by noting and pietving through her heart so that they could finally term jet a rogue but when she refused to do so she was tied up, beaten to the fullest and blood dripoed off her body and she was starved for an entire month.

Some of her teeth where forced out of her mouth with no pity as they pulled it out since she had not used it to do the needful as she had been asked to do.

"Do you know how old I am?" she asked Jacqueline as she had known nobody knew how old she was.

"Dental records where made and I knew you are twenty four Nathalia" she said and she just opened her mouth still shocked that could be done.

She had never known that could be done because she had been locked in that room for one hundred and forty four months.

"Yes I was kidnapped and have spent one hundred and forty four months at the hands of Derrick, so I have seen the worst things my life has ever seen" she signed sorrowfully towards Jacqueline who was heartbroken she had even asked the lady to explain what she had gone through .

"Are you kidding me?" Jacqueline asked still in shock she had gone through all of that.

"Oh Nathalia I am sorry" she signed back as tears dripped her eyes and she hugged the young Luna.

Maybe they could continue this discussion when she had calm down because it seemed she was more hurt than the lady who ha dgone through all the stress and wickedness.