The nightmares

After the stroll she had returned to her room and she was curled up in bed.

The blanket was extremely warm and she was reading a novel Jacqueline had given her for mental health.

She had not seen Xavier since she had spoken to him about what was done to her, she had not even told him everything but the minimal and he had just been hurting.

She could feel his pain as it shot through her chest.

He was upset about the entire issue and somehow she was getting upset as to why he was so hurt and not even letting her who had gone through all of the things fight her battles. Somehow she didn’t want him fighting this battle with her; she didn’t want him being hurt and upset.

He was upset and she for sure knew it was her fault and how could she curb the entire issue when she still was trying her best trust and want him around her.

She shouldn’t have told him, this was the reason why she didn’t want to let him into that dark past of hers.

Everything bad that had happened since she came here was always her fault and she didn’t want such a thing to keep happening because well as it happened it broke him and broking him meant his pack was going to suffer and if his pack suffered they might term him a weak Alpha.

“Hey Nathie, it is getting extremely late, maybe you should let the book rest whilst you rest too okay? You can continue this tomorrow” she said as she took the book from Nathie and she just gave the book away she for sure needed the rest because the wolves in the pack had welcomed her even though they didn’t know who she was but someone who had been saved by their mighty Alpha and whoever the Alpha brought in they always knew the person was pure because their Alpha could not just bring in someone they knew could cause harm to them.

“If you need me the bell by your bed will be the first thing you touch and I will be with you okay?” she signed showing her where the bell was and she also insisted a two time ringing was going to get her there to save her from whatever she was feeling.

“Good night Jackie” she signed and Jacqueline signed a goodbye to her too as she turned off the light and walked out of the room.

Smiling she tugged her blanket even closer to her skin, that was the best feeling she had felt since for a long time.

She had never had this feeling of having a good blanket and here she was she had one and she was excited she had been given this warmth.

And within a few minutes she had drifted off to sleep.

And then she had the worst nightmare anyone could ever want to have, she had been trying for the past weeks not to have these dreams return to her but it felt that they wanted to hunt her for an extremely long time.

Watching as the guard who sat by her not so much of a cell wickedly looked at her with wicked stares as she cowered in the corner because she was scared of what they were going to do to her.

She knew they were talking about her and the way they spoke she could sense it was a bad thing and she didn’t want to be connected to it but oh well, she was going to be taken in for their evil deeds so long as she was under them.

She started crying, trying to say something’s hoping she was making sense with whatever it was that she was saying and if they were even listening to her as he smirked.

His facial expressions alone showed that he didn’t want her saying or doing anything but for her to do what she was asked to do.

He had been doing this on a daily basis. When she rejected him today the next day he always returned to do what he had tried the previous day.

He started sucking in her neck, grabbing her wrist and then putting the silverware on her body so that she could feel more pain that she was already in as he had held her.

Ripping her shirt off her body, one of the reasons she didn’t have dresses was because he made sure he tore of the little she had to cover herself.

After sucking on her neck for sure she knew she was going to have bruises on that spot and as she cried from the pain the silver ware gave her he slapped her so hard that she just was hoping he could get his way and let her be because everything here just hurt her so much and maybe if he had his chance and her wolf let him she won’t  be in thus painful situation.

Maybe if he had access to her body she would not feel this much pain ever, maybe it was the best option for him to have his chance she prayed for her wolf to give way but her inner wolf fought, it didn’t want to be defiled by this man.

Fabric pulled into her skin as she was wrapped by the wrist where the silver ware was at and she let out a scream and as she whimpered he gave her a slap.

She stood there now trying to be silent as tears rolled down her eyes as he growled and she could know he was hushing her down with her red his eyes had become.

Whenever he was hurting her and probably didn’t want her fighting or trying to talk he made sure she saw the red of his eyes.

He started touching her in places she herself was not pleased touching by herself, she began to shake because well she knew if he continued it was going to lead to a situation she wanted because she didn’t want the pain but also because she wanted to be saved from this situation.

Yes! It had gotten to that situation where she wanted him to have intercourse with her but she knew how it could be painful with just the way he was treating her at the moment.

She knew from her parents as she grew that mating was something they thought in school so they could know how to maneuver through it but here she was wishing it was done to her even if she didn’t want it because she was in pain and the perpetrator wanted her dead just by these

He tried to penetrate but couldn’t and as she screamed for sure he used his hands to cover her mouth as her screamed where annoying him and he just didn’t like hearing her voice.

Several pushes but the entrance didn’t give him the chance as the other girls he had hurt and she had watched because he wanted them to see just what was going to happen to them as they were under him.

She knew she was going to die there if he didn’t stop what he was doing,

‘Damn, why can’t you let me penetrate’ the last words he said as he throw her down and pulled up his pants and spat on her as she tried covering her unclothe skin crying and not wanting to make eye contact with anyone.

Please moon Goddess anyone just help me.

Mama please? Papa pelase ? Lucy? She cried hoping they could just save her from all of these.

Help me! I beg!

Waking up t she was screaming as she wanted them to help her out. She had lived her past life and she hated every step of it and she never wanted to go through these ever again.

Grabbing the bucket by her side she throw up continuously as it felt she had tasted acid and that acid was Derrick and she hated him and wanted him to die.

As she was trying to take care of herself she had not rang the bell but Jacqueline was up and rushed into the room holding her hair back as she rubbed her back hoping she could feel better and what had happened to her that caused her to throw up.

Somehow she felt maybe, just  maybe as she was throwing up she wished she was throwing up the pain and trauma she had gone through but that was just something she couldn’t let go through vomiting because they always returned even when she didn’t want them there.

They were her demons, the terrible demons she feared and never wanted.

“They came, they wanted to take me, they made sure they touched and sucked on my skin” she cried as she held Jacqueline shaking she hoped she could just die because the way she felt was terrorizing and she could tell soon Jacqueline would be tired of her she had stressed the lady so much so that she didn’t know what she was going to do.

She was bleeding from down and it wasn’t her period but just the thought of what she had been put through it made her have that feeling of wanting to bleed for relief and somehow her mind did the work and she bled for what could be two to three weeks longer than that of her period and because this man had not taken care of her there after this crazy dream, her bed\ was drenched.

Jacqueline helped clean the sheets and helped clean her and gave her some pads and the made her go back to bed she needed the rest because Derrick had been a demon for real, he was a rogue that had to dies in and extremely painful way to put her through all of these.

Somehow as Nathalia laid down she felt the pain in her chest, Xavier had probably felt the pain she was in and she whimpered and a part of her wished he was there with her.

Sighing she finally was drifted to her sleep hoping she didn’t drift into another trauma she couldn’t handle.