The Past Part 18

ALEX'S P. O. V

Leaving the bar and his friends was probably an overreaction on her part. Still the point is she left, she could not voice her displeasure so she ran like a coward. What is wrong with her? Lucas and Leo warned her about Noah's past. Apart from the woman he was with, what hurt the most was how much he still cared about them.

As if her pain was not enough her mother sent her a message saying Parker wanted to speak to her. To apologize. To give them a chance. Never. No thank you. She would rather get shot five times and jump off a cliff into a pool of starving sharks.

Sometimes good people are hurt by monsters and are shamed for being victims. That the norm, right? The world sucks. She sucks. Her entire life sucks. Crying sucks.

She decided to do the one thing that she could think of to distract herself enough to ignore her demons. Whipping out bowels and ingredients. In the black of night Alex was cracking then whisking. Frustrated, hurt and tired.

The doorbell brought her out of her mounting stress control tactic. Might it be her best friends? They know not to bother her when she receives a call from her mother, she told them not to bother him.

looking trough the peep hole she saw Noah staring directly at her and she released a groan of hopelessness. The kitchen was a mess, she is a mess, her whole life is proving to be a mess. Now this guy is crazy enough to want to be apart of this... Mess for lack of a better word.

Noah waited outside with no plans of leaving and outside has to be cold, again he despises how much she cares. Resigned, she opens the door and took a step back allowing the alpha to enter.

"Mmn. It smells good."

"Yeah? It is just muffins. Cupcakes and cookies."

Her mind went back to working on her problems, about an hour later he took out the final trey and switched everything off. Clean up time.

A hand held her back and led her back to the sitting room and pushed her on the couch, next to her lay her art book with her pencils. Water was placed next to her and the man removed his jacket. What is he doing? She got her answer when the alpha began cleaning the kitchen.

Her mind is still raging, she has no idea what what her hand and mins is coming up with but the pencil felt like a paint brush. Moving like a waterfall it kept flowing until she realized the eyes are coxing her to relax.

She did not notice how much time passed but when she turned to see the kitchen spotless, dishes placed in their respective places. She was in awe that he was able to do that a short period of time.

Alex has never seen a alpha that treats her like Noah. No one has ever been so nice to her with a red string of manipulation attached... literally if it was not for Lucas and Leo she would have been a loner. A Rouge as she initially expected when she ran away from home... She did not deserve to be forgiven even if she is the one that has been wronged.

"Wow. This is beautiful. Perfect and I'm not saying that because it looks like me. You are really fantastic and talented Axx."

"Axx?"

"Yes. I want to always remind you of how strong you are... If you don't like its."

"It's fine at least there's a meaning behind you calling that."

Looking down she saw what Noah saw. It was him, the reason she did not hurt that bad, scream or throw a sissy fit. It was him, in the kitchen cleaning the mess was like a metaphor for her life... She sat on the couch watching him.

Eyes meeting his he saw sympathy and she hated it. Hated reactions people gave him when they saw the disarray of her life. If it was not sympathy sometimes it was plain out pity. He did not want either, those looks did nothing to solve his problems.

She mostly hated the look Noah gave her, she didn't want to look weak infront of an alpha but the look he gave her.... It look like he wanted to protect her from the world, hold on to her until its daybreak and promise he will not let go. Romantic... Shit she's falling. No.

Noah made her feel like he wanted to take all her pain away, not wanting to cry in front of him she disappeared into the bathroom. Locking the door she too deeo breaths before taking a long deserved shower.

Her flat was quite. That means Noah must have left. Why wouldn't he? He probably have better things to do.  As usual her apartment was quite and lonely, memories threatened to bring back what she could not forget.

Exhausted beyond belief, wearing she wore her favorite Spongebob square pants pajamas. She locked the door after going against calling either Lucas or Leo to keep her company tonight.

She hates the dark so at night instead of darkness, she dimmed the rooms light. She went in the kitchen to ensure everything is off and somehow left with a cookie in hand... When she entered her bedroom the sight surprised her.

"You still here? "

Her alpha sat paging through a magazine, she often paged through when she could not sleep which was often.

"I did say I want to be there for you now and if you give me forever."

"Ridiculous."

Inwardly she smiled, this man was threatening to break down her many walls... If she was not smart she is going to hand him all the tools he will need.

"If you do not complete drying your hair, you will properly get sick. Common give me the towel, I will do it for you."

That is not true but she opted out of saying a word, he took the towel from her hands. She sat the awkwardly, she now regrets abandoning Noah at the club for such a stupid reason in his eyes.

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NOAH'S P. O. V

Something more than what she said bothered him. When he arrived at the door the look in his fated eyes they told him that she is lost. Whatever happened to her must have really damaged her.

While cleaning he kept stealing glances at his fated mate where she sat. At first she was angrily scribbling, then after a while the pencil slowly relaxed. After sometime Noah finished cleaning up he was transfixed.

Looking at the baked goods he could not help but steal one of each delectable goods before using the biggest containers he found to package them. Delicious.

Eventually after sometime he joined her in the living room. He studied the the woman with a lost look, as hand continued its movement. When she glanced up at him he felt his heart skip a beat. This is love. If Jayden and Leo are making it work, there is no way he can let his fated mate go.

After complimenting her, Alex finally looked down at her art. Seeing the amazement in her expression as if she's seeing the drawing for the first time. There was a sadness that transfixed him.

An unusual surge of possessive, obsessive urge to ensure he never saw this look in his Alex's eyes surprised him but also felt right.

When she went to go shower... Noah decided to walk around the small flat that was so clean and organized he did not see a thing out of place, he placed every detail to memory. No family pictures, his best friends had two frames each and one where they are all together.

He found her room and sat on the bed and he took one magazine out of stack of 'Medical Facts.' It looks like the kitchen is her solace indeed because that was the only room with real light, the rest of the house was empty almost depressing.

Drying her soft silky hair, his little omega was patient enough to hold off her concerns but he found every excuse to touch her. He would never pressure his omega, touching her just assured him that she was safe and protected in his arms.

Alex did tell him that she does not like being alone and Noah had a feeling that she did not want to be alone tonight. So he stayed, the rest was up to her to kick him out.

"Thank you."

"Always."

She found her way to laying on his chest, not that his complaining things felt right. Alex broke the silence once more. Noah kept playing with her hair that tickles his skin, he than thanked the wolf goddess and fate for this opportunity.

"Do you want to hear a story?"

"I want to hear every story told by you, Alex."

"Why are you calling me Alex? Since I started here everyone called me by my birth name and I had to introduce myself as Alex. I hate my birth name that's im surprised you immediately started calling me Alex."

"Alex, from the beginning I have always followed my instincts with you.."

"Haha. You ridiculous."

Noah was serious.

"Story time?"

"Right. There is no main character. The characters are those in my drawing book. I will tell you the story from my point of view. Noah. Please do not interrupt me."

She pleaded and he nodded, he would be her safe place for as long as Alex wanted him. He understood what this meant and he would honor it like a gift it was. He pressed an encouraging kiss on her forehead. She yawned before she continued..

"I chose this university because its far from home, my mom and stepdad. They do not know where I live or perhaps they think I live in one of the campus dorms but I have to lie to them.

Before it was 'them'. It was just my mother and I. She was the closest thing I had to a friend back then. Although we did not have much we were happy or so I thought.... After we received what must be terrible news she changed then left me home alone.

She left for months. Thankfully during that time I was smart enough to save money, the old neighbor gave me food so without her I could just get by.

She eventually came back but she did not return alone, she found her perfect match, her fated mate. An important context is that once we get to a certain age we are forced to marry. Some families urge woman to marry for status, religion and wealth. That was my normal and assumed I would do the same too...

She found a man for herself and I was happy for her because I knew she deserves happiness. Besides it had been more than eleven years since dad left us, I was never going to be against her happiness. I was turing fifteen the following year at the time, skipped the tenth grade point is I was mature.

My step fathers nephew came to visit for the week my before mother got married and my mom asked him to look after me when they went on their honeymoon.... It was not a big deal we were about to start with finals and really he was not a bad guy, so I thought. I never took his advances as something to be majorly concerned with, I thought he perhaps saw me as his little sister.

One of the nights he came back drunk barged into my room and-... The next days after my parents left for their honeymoon he turned to a completely different person. He started forcing me to be with him and I never once agreed to his advances. Noah his an alpha he was stronger than I was.

And because of that I hated returning home after my papers, I even stayed an extra hour outside the library after it close before going home. I did not really have friends I trusted enough so I was trapped. I hid all the drinks in the house but he got drunk somewhere else and came back more furious.

When my mother came back I thought I would be safe, that my mom would see the bruises and come with me to file a report. Her husbands family now, hers. So she told me to not lay any charges and in return her husband would pay for my studies at the local university in a year. I couldn't believe her, they used the fact I am- never mind but they assumed it was my fault.

That was my pack, woman, omegas and dogs shared the same plack. I didn't want to accept the facts and what made it worse the last few weeks of exams they permitted him to be there.

You know, I needed her to support me. You hear about violation but when it happens to you, you freeze it is traumatic and if you have no one it is depressing. Again I have a brain condition that constantly gives me the unfortunate privilege relive the worst time of my life, at the worst times. So I ran away from everything before being trapped with a monster forever.

I applied to universities very far from home, earlier than I could. Thankfully Moon gave me a year to complete my studies while living in their dorms my step father paid for.

After that year I used the money I was paid off with to pay to be accepted for the university scholarship and accommodation fees outside where they assumed I still reside.

Tonight she called me just to tell me Parker wanted 'us'. I do not even think I can ever forgive my mother after everything, I can not and I tried too. Imagine. I hate my step father, I hate my pack and I hate that bastard the most. I would rather be Rouge than go though that again."

She buried her head in his arms. The urge to protect his little Axx even against her family intensified. From this day on- wards, she's mine. No one would hurt or even touch what belonged to him.

He is too playful but when the need arise for his seriousness he vowed to all involved in his mate's misery would never hurt her  again.