Intimacy Part 22

ALEX P.O.V

During their drive to Noah's family house they argued... Noah rented a car that was so expensive for just two days. Toby tried to reassure her of Noah's status here but she did not want to hear anything. Eventually Noah turned back and she chose a nice but less expensive car for them to rent.

"See. This is comfortable."

"Alex, Noah is like a king here... this small car-"

She shot the tiny peep squeak an icing glare and he immediately changed his position. She refuse to hurt such a small creature but if it continued running its mouth all bets are off. her wolf snarled in a low deadly tone and the tiny man was then covered by her best friend.

"Lex your eyes..."

"Whats wrong with her eyes?"

Shooting the tiny man one more glace she was distracted by what Noah considered funny. Her wolf looked ahead but she felt herself resting on her paws and watching 'The office.' She also found that to be funny and laughed eventually the episode ended and they got to talking. At first it was about his favorite shows, her favorite boy band and shared interests which is art.

They got to know each other better through a trip. She eventually realized her comfort levels around Noah surpassed her normal comfort around his best friends. It felt like it was just the two of them in the car and she hates to admit Noah grew on her... there is no other reason for her wolf to have formed a great fondness if this was not fate. His an alpha, she reasons against the sweet feelings bubbling deep within.

[For once let us be happy.] His wolf defends.

Alphas hurt, steal, destroy and take over lives.

[Our fated is not that monster. Give him the benefit of your unjust doubt.]

"Hey. Axx.. Wake up... Sorry. You were mumbling in your sleep. We going to stop for the night and continue our travels tomorrow. I will go book us all separate rooms, Lucas."

Lucas nods and gets out of the car she turned to see a drowsy Toby and then her best friend.

"Wait here we will come back for you."

They nod undoubtedly still drowsy. She knew that the estimated six hour drive was made extensive due to her indecisiveness nature that is why they are yet to make it to his pack land. She turned to face Toby once more and the small man took leaned back as if afraid and she hates that she unintentionally intimidated such an adorable creature.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you."

She gave the guy apologetically look and he slowly relaxed leaning forward his face expressing so much curiosity.

"Your eyes turned red."

She gave the little guy a questioning look.

"My eyes are not red. You must have seen a trick of light that somehow flashed in my eyes?"

He shook his head in denial but before he could speak the alpha man returned cutting the conversation short, she welcomed the distraction. Its not the first time people query about her eye shift. There was a particular day when she had a nightmare, it felt like a something was ripping to come out and that something was caused her so much pain she doubled to her knees screaming. She slept in Leo's bed who was woken by her cries, he tried to get close but she roared and he cowered back in holding his phone to his ear. New teeth replaced her wolves based on the fullness and blood... Her sight was foggy, nothing made sense but all she knew is that she was angry not a her friends but her, dream. The moment she saw his face she got furious but the fear in Leo's eyes made her self aware enough to take a step back. Apparently her eyes turned red, her teeth sharpened and her nails ripped her clothes off exposing herself in front of her best friend.

"Sometimes my wolf want to join our conversations especially when I'm angry. Toby I do apologize for scarring you a bit, Noah lets get going I'm really tired."

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No man has ever stayed around this long without getting bored, impatient and or irritated with her. That is the reason she is surprised Noah is yet get impatient with her boundaries she set. At this point she assumed the alpha would change his mind and band her from meeting his family. Somehow if he did, it would have really made her very sad. Why?

This guy is intriguing. Alphas in my previous pack are completely different from the alphas he has met especially, Noah. The alpha treats her more like a boyfriend than servant as she would be basically treated in her old pack if she married without love or fate by her side.

She thinks back to the time Noah cleaned her kitchen, when he cooks or wash the dishes those are the things she allowed him to offer in his apartment but ultimately she preferred to do it herself. Noah even took it upon himself to take her to and from school. He also allowed her inside his home just a couple of times to organize his much larger apartment in order to comfortable being inside. He gave her full reign to his entire apartment just to make her comfortable being there.

She only went there to either watch movies or to use his much grand kitchen for their dinner dates when she does not feel like being around people. His an alpha but he does not enforce his pheromones on her. Noah treats her well and his views on commitment in a relationship just evolves the two of them.

Who is this man? He cannot be perfect, right? Of course his not but his flaws are covered by all the reasons his a great guy in her untrained eye. Regardless of who he is, she will soon meet his parents, the reason for his being. She needs to know what her wolf is getting them into, she honestly does not understand why her wolf insists Noah is theirs... Okay. Yeah sure. She hates to admit that the hot Asian man grew on her. He eased her many scolding nightmares, offered her sanctuary and for the first time ever... Someone pull her out of her mind and cleaned her kitchen, she usually insists on doing everything herself but at that moment it felt like allowing his presence made her feel less alone. She felt her phone ring and she turned to face Noah, its Jayden.

"Is Leo alright? How is he? We can come back if something happened. Jayden. Speak!"

"You not giving him a chance to." - Leo

"Ah. Thank goodness Leo. Are you fine? I am so sorry I took you to the bar. I am terribly sorry I left you in Jayden's care and took off without at least telling you, I-"

"Ah. Noah. Stop your lover please. Lex I love you but you giving me a headache." - Leo

"Sorry." -She whispered facing away from Noah.

No one knew how guilty she felt for allowing a heartbroken Leo to coerce her to go to a bar, defying Lucas orders (defying an alpha she considers her own). Knowing that Leo was not assaulted nor was he terribly injured eased her overwhelming guilt. It also made her extremely grateful Leo did not suffer from the same fate as she did.

She never wanted to leave Leo's side but his boyfriend, Jayden insisted she leaves with Noah to fill the gap for himself and Leo who has a fever. She only relented because Jayden has a few things to explain to Leo regarding his alleged cheating. He did not cheat on her friend therefore she currently has nothing to be mad about which would ultimately made her presence there worthless. Although it did subconsciously make her wonder if Leo blames her too (she blames herself)?

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"Look sorry Lexy. I am just tired. I woke up very angry because of some alpha here but it was all a misunderstanding. Listen here Lex, this was never your fault so tell that busy brain of yours I am fine. When are you coming back from your in- laws?"

Werewolves have super hearing so she is sure as hell, Noah is listening in on their conversation since there was no music playing.

"Stop. Leo do not go there..."

She warned now, trying her best to not hang up on one of her best friends.

"Okay fine at least go through with what you planned to do. Life is too die a vi-"

"Leo! Shut up. I swear payback is a bitch. Bye."

Before she hung up she heard the evil minx laugh. Damned Leo, his making her more nervous. Hoping Noah did not hear that she put her phone away and ran into the bathroom. Opting to take a shower, Leo was right of course and tonight would be a perfect time if she were to be serious about it. It is very bad to plan intimacy before marriage or at least a commitment is wrong but if their fate is right she has nothing to worry about, right?

She doubled his dosage of suppressants and spent a week researching the PTSD and talking herself up as was recommended. Leaving the bathroom in nothing but a towel wrapped around her body. She noticed the gaze of the alpha appraising her, that hunger made her feel desired.

"You can go in now. Noah-"

"Yes. Axx"-

He winked not hiding where his attention resided, flushing She rummaged for something in her bag.

"I got you something. Open it while you in bathroom and tell me what you think. Tell me w-what y-you think a-about it when, you come out."

She gave him the small box wrapped in blue and purple ribbon binding it all together.

Curious Noah took the box and disappeared into the bathroom. One thing she loves the most about her fated is that-Wait, love? Shit, fated? Yes. She has fallen. Noah has never pressured her to do what she did not want nor feel comfortable doing and fuck-

If she is going to try intimacy with someone, she wanted it to be Noah. She has no reason beyond infatuation but it was better than forever recoiling from physical touch. This man did grow on her like a tumor. He is her first love. All she can do now is hope Noah never breaks her heart because it was his. She surrenders her heart and accepts her love for the guy. Oh shit she fell.