All Chapters of Carrying The Billionaire's Child: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

My tears are blurring my vision. Pain stabs my heart deepen.My knees shakes. My hands were trembling from wailing. Every question runs through my mind.Why was Lucas able to let me go? Am I really worthless to him? Does he really not love me anymore?Why does it seem so easy for him to throw everything away? Why did he have to hurt me like this?I endured everything Lucas! I made myself fool! I fully accept you! I never got tired of loving you!Because I always thought you would change! So even though I was suffering from what you made? I can't run away from you! It's really hard on myself that I'm always the one who chasing after you Lucas! I keep making myself foolish. I feel sorry for myself!But I didn't drives you away! Because you are the only man I always dreaming! You're the only one who drives me fool.I can't escape from the memories we've made. Your sweet promises, your hugs. Your touches. Your kisses are too soft to feel.I scream into tears and gently rubbed my eyes. M

My heart is very sad and lonely. I'm still hurting because of my final decision. I deserve to be hurt because I loved him!It's hard to accept being away from your side Lucas, but I'll be patient. My heart is full of longing. Yes, does it hurt? Too much hurts! I'm restless with sadness. Lucas was running through in my mind.I know I hurt him now. I know he's suffering because of what I have done. It hurts for me to feel that Lucas felt it too.I'm sorry Lucas! I left you without saying anything but you are still here in my heart. I kept loving you and I will never changed!I know your world is still in mess right now. I know you're just so confused that you have to push me away from you.But I believe your heart still loves. I know your heart still beats for me.I know your heart is just hurting that's why you made me hate you. I know I failed you so you are very upset with me. But even if you feel sorry for me Lucas! I will never push you away. I never get tired of loving you! You

The coldness and sadness snuggled my heart. All things in the past flashed in my mind repeatedly. It hurts to think that all things left behind is terrible.Lucas's hugs are the ones that warm my arms. His kisses are so soft to feel. His hugs can heal my loneliness.Lucas, I will never forget the things we shared together, the nights, every moment we shared seems passing by right away.Your promises full of hope. Your eyes are so drowning when you stares at me slowly. Your touches made me flimsy.Not knowing that tears fell down from my eyes. It really hurts to remember about those moments. What happened in the past it just a nightmare.You loved me. I always fall in love with you Lucas all the time. We were happy with each other. I gave everything as early as you wish.But why is that? Suddenly your dreams disappeared? Suddenly you vanished from my sight like a bubble? Everything pops like a foam.Absolutely, it hurts to accept. But I remain hopeful. I remain in love. I remain faithf

It was the whole universe crashed at me when I watched Lucas and Clara's wedding. I was stunned as my tears fell down at the same time. It felt like my nerves were cut and my knees went froze. What I saw was painful. I feel like I'm being betrayed! My knees was weak! Not realizing my tears starts to fall again. I felt stabbing my chest. I can't accept it with myself.The man I love the most is now married. Tears kept falling down my face as I watched the video.It hurts! It really hurts! I feel I can't breathe. It was like stabbing my heart all of the sudden. My breathing is tighten.I love you Lucas! But why did you do this to me? Why were you able to fall in love with another woman? Why not just me? Why Lucas?It hurts! It felt like I was shot in my chest. It was like the cold ice was poured on my feet where I was standing. I can't move away.I shook my head terribly. My tears kept falling. I never thought all of this would happen.Lucas! My husband! You know my feelings for you h

"If Lucas truly loves you. He won't hurt you. He will not make you cry. He won't do things he knows will hurt you." My tears kept falling. I'm feeling unwell and hurt. I can't accept that the man I love left me alone.I only love you Lucas. My heart beats only for you! My world revolves only around you. You never fades away from my heart."It hurts to love someone who doesn't loves you. You will only be hurt because he has nothing to do with you."I artfully washed my face. My eyes just watered with tears. I kept sobs into scream. Ann's words hurt to hear. I know she said that to make me realize the truth. That Lucas doesn't love me anymore. That the man I love the most is just hurting me."But Ann. I love... I love him! We have a child. Until now he is still in my heart. I can't let him go." Even if I tried to push him away, I couldn't. I feel no anger towards him. I can't hate him instead."You and Lucas do have a child but he doesn't care about you. You will only get hurt if you