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Chapter 38

Author: Bon_Racel
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I sadly wiped out the tears that falling into my cheeks. This is too much tears. I tried to smile but I couldn't. My heart still feels sad.

I want to let go of what I felt for you Lucas but I can't. I feel love for you Lucas every single day. My heart can't let you go away.

You love someone else like Clara. But here is my heart! Keep loving you Lucas! I keep going fool with your love.

Lucas! You teach me how to kill my own feelings for you! You teach my heart how to let go someone like you Lucas.

I want to close my heart so it won't hurt anymore. I want to forget everything! I want to scream! I want to run away from this all shits!

But there is nothing. My heart stops when it come to you Lucas. I can't let you go. I'm hurting! I'm mad at myself. I really love you on a fool way.

I can't stay away from you even if I try! I can't escape my love for you Lucas even I try! I felt so empty.

I thought we were destined? I thought it was just the two of us to be together? I thought there was n
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