It was the whole universe crashed at me when I watched Lucas and Clara's wedding. I was stunned as my tears fell down at the same time. It felt like my nerves were cut and my knees went froze. What I saw was painful. I feel like I'm being betrayed! My knees was weak! Not realizing my tears starts to fall again. I felt stabbing my chest. I can't accept it with myself.The man I love the most is now married. Tears kept falling down my face as I watched the video.It hurts! It really hurts! I feel I can't breathe. It was like stabbing my heart all of the sudden. My breathing is tighten.I love you Lucas! But why did you do this to me? Why were you able to fall in love with another woman? Why not just me? Why Lucas?It hurts! It felt like I was shot in my chest. It was like the cold ice was poured on my feet where I was standing. I can't move away.I shook my head terribly. My tears kept falling. I never thought all of this would happen.Lucas! My husband! You know my feelings for you h
I sadly wiped out the tears that falling into my cheeks. This is too much tears. I tried to smile but I couldn't. My heart still feels sad.I want to let go of what I felt for you Lucas but I can't. I feel love for you Lucas every single day. My heart can't let you go away.You love someone else like Clara. But here is my heart! Keep loving you Lucas! I keep going fool with your love.Lucas! You teach me how to kill my own feelings for you! You teach my heart how to let go someone like you Lucas.I want to close my heart so it won't hurt anymore. I want to forget everything! I want to scream! I want to run away from this all shits! But there is nothing. My heart stops when it come to you Lucas. I can't let you go. I'm hurting! I'm mad at myself. I really love you on a fool way.I can't stay away from you even if I try! I can't escape my love for you Lucas even I try! I felt so empty.I thought we were destined? I thought it was just the two of us to be together? I thought there was n
"If Lucas truly loves you. He won't hurt you. He will not make you cry. He won't do things he knows will hurt you." My tears kept falling. I'm feeling unwell and hurt. I can't accept that the man I love left me alone.I only love you Lucas. My heart beats only for you! My world revolves only around you. You never fades away from my heart."It hurts to love someone who doesn't loves you. You will only be hurt because he has nothing to do with you."I artfully washed my face. My eyes just watered with tears. I kept sobs into scream. Ann's words hurt to hear. I know she said that to make me realize the truth. That Lucas doesn't love me anymore. That the man I love the most is just hurting me."But Ann. I love... I love him! We have a child. Until now he is still in my heart. I can't let him go." Even if I tried to push him away, I couldn't. I feel no anger towards him. I can't hate him instead."You and Lucas do have a child but he doesn't care about you. You will only get hurt if you
My tears just falls all along. Does it hurt? Yes! Hard to forget? Too much! Crushing feelings? Always!Why did I choose to love you Lucas even though it hurts? Because I don't want to find someone else. You are the only one my heart wants. Only you and nothing else.Why should I choose to stay? Because everything is important to me! That's why I choose to stay. You are the man who made my heart beat.Lucas! I know it's painful that I can break your heart! I know I hurt you a lot. I know your heart is bleeding too much. I know that I'm invalidated in your heart Lucas! You don't even love me! You will always remember that I love you so much! You still remained in my heart! My tears keeps falling. I feel very sad. The pain is crushing my chest.It hurts! It's hard to let go everything! Happy days! Promises kept alive! It's very tedious. I'm having such a hard time! Everything is so suffocating. How can I forget someone important in my life?How can I forget you Lucas? Say it's all wro
"Andrie, son!"My heart is trembled down with fear. I don't exactly know where Andrie is. I'm so worried about my son. Where is he? I can't find him.I left the office to look for Andrie. He was just here a while ago and now he's suddenly gone.Where did Andrie go? He's missing! I can't find him somewhere.My heart throbs faster. I was very nervous because I couldn't find Andrie. Where can I find him for now?Not knowing my tears easily drops down my cheeks. I never dreamed of losing Andrie from my sight. I can't forgive myself if it will happen. My tears fell down all at once. I start to cry again. I promised to myself that I would never lose Andrie. But why is this happening?My son Andrie! I need to find you as soon as possible. Where are you? I need to see you! I can't lose you son! I don't want that to happen!"What are you doing here kid? Why did you enter with my office? Why did you break the vase on my table? You shameless! Who are you?" I peeked into Lucas's office because
"Do you still love him? Do you have feelings for him?"I looked at Ann's face sadly. I still holds some papers regards the company.If she asks me if I still love him until now? If I still have feelings for him?In short yes. Till this present I still love him. He is the man who always caught my heart forever. He's my first loved eversince.Until now, my heart clearly loves you Lucas. For the man I love, all the memories still holds my heart. It's hard to let go away.Yes it hurts! I'm hurting until now because you loves someone else. Your heart is already beating for another woman. A woman like Clara owns your heart.Now, we are not even dedicated to each other. At least I truly loved you Lucas. I loved you with all myself. I don't regret that you became a part of my past.Fate is just really playful in our paths. We both loved and got hurt. We were happy for a short moment.I thought there was no end to everything. I thought we were be together. I thought it was not the end. But it'
"Mommy I want to play with them. It's nice there, mommy. There are many children playing out there." I can see the joy in Andrie's eyes as he smiles at me. He watched the children playing on the playground over us.I accompanied him to the playground to play. For somehow the sadness in his heart will fade away.Seeing Andrie happy makes me happy too as a his mom. The sadness in my heart disappears when I'm with him. I have to show to Andrie how beautiful the world is. Because Andrie wants us to go out together. I let him go because I know he only gets to be a kid once. Being a kid is once in a lifetime and never happens again.I know his heart is very cheerful because there are many children here on the playground. Andrie needs to explore it as a child. I'm love to see my son happy. Laughing like there's no problem. I'm happy for him."You can play with them son. But don't go too far."I pinched his soft cheek. I messed up his hair too on his forehead. He just smiled at me. Andrie
My knees were shaking where I stood up. I was froze at all of the sudden. I remained standing in front of the kidnappers. Myself trembled down and fear ran up to my neck.Some of my tears falls down from my eyes. It suffocate me to see my son in arms of the kidnappers. I never dreamed of seeing Andrie on this situation.No! I feel my tears fall down again. I'm so scared. I'm hurting and suffering. I feel so weak when I saw them kidnapping my son."Mommy!" Andrie shouts on air.Andrie cried as he calling my name. A kidnapper is holding him. Kidnappers didn't want to let my son go.Andrie holds the kidnapper's arm tightly. He's trying to escape but he couldn't. He's trying to do his best."Son Andrie! Let him go, please! Have mercy on my son!" My tears dreadfully falls again from my eyes. I shook my head. I can't bear to see my son suffering. I'm screaming at this moment. I can't stop my tears from falling.They hurts my son. Andrie can't escape from them. Andrie keeps crying. I feel