Chapter 33

My heart is very sad and lonely. I'm still hurting because of my final decision. I deserve to be hurt because I loved him!

It's hard to accept being away from your side Lucas, but I'll be patient. My heart is full of longing.

Yes, does it hurt? Too much hurts! I'm restless with sadness. Lucas was running through in my mind.

I know I hurt him now. I know he's suffering because of what I have done. It hurts for me to feel that Lucas felt it too.

I'm sorry Lucas! I left you without saying anything but you are still here in my heart. I kept loving you and I will never changed!

I know your world is still in mess right now. I know you're just so confused that you have to push me away from you.

But I believe your heart still loves. I know your heart still beats for me.

I know your heart is just hurting that's why you made me hate you. I know I failed you so you are very upset with me.

But even if you feel sorry for me Lucas! I will never push you away. I never get tired of loving you! You