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"Could all I've been longing for, be so easily to get, I really don't believe it"......."They are coming"...."What?"..."It's true"....."How do they even figure out"..."Don't know, just don't tell them anything"..."I...."They'll stop at nothing to get what they want"...."No, it can't be".."They want bloodshed, You have to stop them".."I'll try"........I walked angrily with my arms already folded, as my weary legs have already been arching for like an hour now, making me squeeze my face angrily...Oh shit, there are like a zillion restaurant at the lake side, and so far so good, this is going to be the third one am coming to now, I frowned as I kick the peebles, still so pissed off....Fuck, why on earth was that darn fool not specific, I thought to myself frustratedly, as I arrived at the third restaurant, that was also beside the lakeside, as a little frown slowly creeped up on my face....I hate to admit this, but I guess I was actually the bigger fool here, for not asking that dummy to be specific, I said stepping through a muddy slippery part, as my anger increases rapidly...But this is not even the rainy season, I mumbled pressing my lips angrily, as I tried moving another step...Damn!, I should have wore boots, instead of this shitty flats, I place curses under my breath, as I examine the muddy surrounding, still trying to figure out, how to completely pass it...Like seriously, what kind of moron builds a restaurant in a muddy area, I thought angrily for a brief second, still examining the shitty place frustratedly....Like men, how's anyone ever going to pass this shit, I place curses under my breath, as I kept on staring at the muddy hell angrily....I swear if it's not this restaurant, I wouldn't darn care anymore, but to head back home, my angry self spoke out, as I checked quickly if there was another way to pass, but no, this was the way...I racked my brain angrily, before looking at the muddy slippery part one last time, as I breath out a sigh of determination..."C'mon girl, You can do this, just don't you dare fall, all those athletic training couldn't be for nothing" I cheered myself...As I cautiously took the first step perfectly, as a little grin appeared on my face, before breathing out a sigh of relief, as I kept on concentrating fully on the slippery area...Okay, now the second step, I mumbled under my breath, before cautiously jumping a little bit, to avoid a more slippery spot, as I stood on my two feet victoriously....Great, now the third step and am free, I thought staring at the last obstacle in front of me, still determined, before taking a big breath to jump...I can do this, I cheered, as I finally lifted my legs, but sadly it betrayed me, as I squeezed my eyes shut...Already feeling my pathetic self falling, only at the last minute when am completely done for, to feel a tight strong arm around my little waist, as I slowly opened my frightened eyes to see no other person but that fool, Charlie...."Charlie?" I asked foolishly, as his arms kept on wrapped tightly round my tiny waist, still staring straight into my frightened angry eyes...Damn!, He just saved me, my mind told me the obvious, as a quick frown immediately formed around my lips, but if he actually did save me, then how...."Why ain't you falling" I questioned almost too quickly, as I could feel one of my eyebrows raising up, as I kept on fixing my gaze into his eyes, still feeling his tight arms around my tiny waist...."Cause am wearing boots" He grinned, now staring at me with a "Duh look", as the frown on my face grew a whole lot wider..."You should have wore boots" ....."And you should have been more specific" I shrugged out of his arms, already far away from that muddy hell, as I stood once again on my own two feet, still feeling uncomfortable as I kept on watching him grin dumbly, making me press my lips once again..."Why are you grinning, huh?" I yelled, pressing my lips together angrily, as he kept on staring at me, still grinning..."Cause I had told you not to get lost and you did" He blurted out, still fixing his gaze with me, but I was too angry to reply...."Why did you text me" I asked angrily, after some minutes of silence..."Whoa, so much for a thank you for saving me" He replied jokingly, as I frown my eyebrows even more...."You will never get a thank you" I replied, still staring at him pissed off, as he rub the back of his neck with his right palm...."I guess I should have expected it" He replied with a little hint of hurt in his voice, but I really didn't care about that, even though he actually deserves a thank you....If I had actually told him that, he might just think that I am actually being nice to him, and oh Lord, that was the last thing I ever wanted to do....."Look, are you going to tell me why you called or I get the fuck out of here" I replied, kicking a little stone into the water blankly...."Alright, I understand" I could hear his deep voice echoing, as I slowly look at him, only for him to quickly look away....What the hell was that all about, I mumbled to myself as I watch him dipping his hands into his pockets....."Everlign High" His voice echoed deeply in a serious tone, as I arch my eyebrows confusedly..."What?".... I questioned, almost too quickly, as he immediately turned to look at me, only to quickly shift his gaze once again...."I searched through my dad's room when finally getting home and luckily I found this piece of valuable information"...He said, as he kept on staring at the water seriously, with his hands still on his trousers pockets...But I really didn't care about the suddenly cold attitude, or did I?, Gosh Ivy focus... I mumbled, bringing my brain back in order, before staring back at him"So how does this relate with my mother" I asked questioningly, with my already folded arms...."Why don't you think for yourself" He blurted out, still staring at the clear water, as I slowly looked away....."Well I think it because she might just have gone to that same school" I said, staring back at him uncertainly...."Bingo!" He said, now finally looking back at me, almost immediately...."She must have gone to that school and we could just have something useful, Anything!,.... About her friends, where she lived and all" He said, staring straight into my eyes, as I tried processing everything down...."It's brilliant, but still not a full prove plan" I mumbled, staring back at him carefully..."We could actually find nothing" I whispered, still staring straight into his eyes as my heart sadly kept on wavering in doubt...Could we be actually close to seeking revenge, so easily.... My heart whispered coldly to me, as I stared at him, with a mixture of fright and fearful doubt.........."Something's fishy somewhere and I don't know what it is, there's obviously something more to it than the eyes sees, but the more I try figuring it out, the more I end up becoming the sore loser.........I stared straight into his eyes, as my heart kept on wavering in doubt...."We may actually find nothing" I blurted out, with a mixture of fear and doubt, as I slowly watch him breathing a huge breath, before finally staring back...."Have you ever heard of the quote that goes, "It better to try and fail than don't try at all" He said, as I arched my eyebrows in both confused and uncertainty...."But still that doesn't guarantee we would find anything" I blurted out blankly, as my mind kept on wavering in doubt over and over again, but all he did was to give a little stressful smile..."That's the whole point, we may find nothing but we would at least try and have our minds at ease" His warm voice spoke out and I hate to admit this, but for the first time I could feel myself ca
....."Behind the veil, we all have demons, but some are more murderous than the others.... Not some bluff, but a pure fact...."When faced with disappointment all over again, do you just back out, or struggle forward"....."CHARLIE'S P.O.V"....."What else do you know" Ivy's sharp voice sparked out, as I closely stared at Mrs Wilson strange tensed face, with my careful eyes...."Nothing else" She blurted out, almost too quickly, before once again staring at the blank document, as I could feel Ivy blood already boiling..."What the fuck do you mean by "Nothing else" Ivy roared out angrily, as I gently tried calming her down, before she actually just decide to punch me and that woman as well, right on the face....I stared warmly at her, before finally drifting my gaze back to our should I say "Informat" with a questioningly look..."I mean what about her address, where she lived, Parents, You must have knew something about those right?" I questioned, with my hands already folded up
...."Not all stories have their damn happy endings, and sometimes the ones that we actually claim to be "Happy", are literally the ones that lies the most shitty pain....So is love really worth it, huh?...."I want to go home" I mumbled under my breath with so much pain and anger, as I kept on staring blankly outside..."Am sorry it's didn't work out like expected" His warm voice called out, but still that didn't make me feel any less bitterness...No never!...I bet he doesn't even have an idea of the shit I go through every darn day because of those bloody bastards....They all fled after they made mom decide to end her shitty life, I ain't gonna spare them now, it's going to be either I die, or they will, either way, No one would ever make it out alive, No one...."Ivy....Are you okay?" His voice reluctantly pulled me out of my misery, as I kept on staring blankly outside the window...."Just drive" I mumbled under my breath, with so much lifelessness already in my bitter voice .
..."I hide from you, you seek, I run, you find, When I smile, you caused it, I hate your aura, but it slowly drive me crazy every cursed day, I think am slowly losing it, but still I don't want to stop, Not one bit, not ever...I tell my darn self I hate you, but I don't think it's true anymore..........I placed my confused face flat on my bed, as all my darn emotions slowly flush through me, ranking my poor weary head more and more...I just really don't know whether I should cry or just vent out my anger and frustration on every darn thing, I just don't know.....What's wrong with me, I tell myself, as I could feel anger flooding through me once again, cause we actually just failed to find out any little piece of information about my mother...I thought angrily, as I kept on squeezing my pillow heartlessly, until the feathers begin to pop right out from it coverings....And oh to top it up, that fool's words keeps ringing on my head over and over again, I mumbled angrily to myse
....."You don't own me, I control my own feelings forever, and that's how it always gonna be, so love....Just get the fuck off my hair and finally let me be.....I think am gonna murder him now, but at the same time I just don't wanna and sadly, I really don't know why?...Am I actually going nuts or what the hell is happening to me now..........I marched out of my room in full speed, swiftly down the stairs, as I kept on tightly squeezing the life out of my jumpers, well not that it actually had one or whatever....All I could feel was my head constantly racking of what to actually say to aunt this time around, I rubbed my forehead for a brief second, as I kept on skipping most of the stairs....C'mon Ivy, just act cool and make up something to leave without shivering like a little pathetic leaf, I could hear my inner self yelling out to me, as I slowly breath out a huge sigh of determination over and over again...Before finally arriving down the stairs, with my eyes already quic
....."You walk into the dark, you should be prepared....You never know what you'll see, your wildest pain could just eventually come through, So what you gonna do?........."Ain't you coming in" He said, as I reluctantly hopped into the car, with the obvious frown still glued right on my face, before finally buckling in the seatbelts uncertainly...I guess I'll never know, until I get there, I repeated blankly to myself, as my dull eyes slowly drifted outside the window, to brace myself for the uncertain ride......."Why on earth have you brought me here" I asked, without wasting any more time, as I immediately hop out of the car, before staring blankly at him, with my already folded arms..."Cause of my dad" He replied absentmindedly, as he kept on adjusting his black t- shirt, but I ain't got time to sit back and just watch him make himself all pretty again...Not a chance, I thought frustratedly, before staring back at him with my already pressed lips..."What exactly do you me
....."Whispers, all I hear is whispers, They're fading, it's so faint and then it's gone....I thought this would be a whole lot easier than I thought, but I guess I thought wrong, and now damn memories keeps on dancing on my face over and over again..What to do now?.........."Whatever, partner in crime" I said, rolling my eyes, as I could see the smile on his face growing wider, before he finally stretched out his hand to me, that I reluctantly accepted, before finally walking along....I uncertainly placed my hand on his, as he led the way boldly, but to say the truth, all I felt was suffocated...Damn, this was going to be the second time that I would be at his house, but I already felt like it's the hundredth...Men, I really hate this place, especially that shitty fool that's unfortunately living here...I swear if I as much set my eyes on him, then it's going to be a massacre....I mean, how does this Charlie dummy tolerate that fool Ryan over and over again, I thought for a
....Things are happening, and I don't understand... Am confused and those teary feelings seems to be taken control of me....Watery eyes....Bitter eyes, this is so strange, but the more I drown, the more my bloody thirst strengthens......."How dare you come here" The faint voice yelled out, twisting my arm a whole lot tighter, as I slowly close my eyes, racking for the next thing to do, trying to regain my breath back....I have to do something, my head racked for a brief second, as I slowly let out a deep breath, before finally bracing myself to look round to see who it actually was....Hesitantly turning around, as my eyes slowly drifted up to the blurry image that was standing obviously boiling right in front of me, as my eyes slowly met up.....It was a man?, Well nothing special about that, but he was actually someone I've never seen before, that got my heart twisting....Tall figure, long black hair with beard eating up his face, covering almost all of his chin.....To think
....."If I could frame our story as a snowflake in my heart, I'd freeze it with infinity, so we would never part....But like all stories, ours has come to it tragic end......"I love him" My fearful heart whispered to me the only word that I had forever kept on trying to avoid, that I had forever kept on running away from, but now it's had finally caught up with me after all...I could feel my lips slowly parting, but nothing ever did came out, as all I could do was close my eyes as I kept on trying to avoid everything, but no I just couldn't, it wouldn't just leave me alone...I am losing my damn mind right now and it's all because of them, my mind screamed out, as I could feel my shaky fist clenching..."It is all because of them" I yelled out, as I could feel my hands lifting up, but all I could damn do was keep on letting out all my frustration on my bed, scattering it, as I kept on tearing the pillows into shreds, bit by bit."Why does this crap always happens to me" I could f
....."Just as fast you fall asleep, I fell in love...I finally realized........It was him all along, it was truly him...But he would never be mine...I hoped it could have lasted longer...I hoped wrong.........."Get some sleep as well" I whispered again, but I guess she didn't hear, either way it didn't changed anything, I was dying and I knew it...Slowly I could feel my legs slowly moving away, it was shaky, but I tried holding myself, I tried preventing it from falling, as I kept on climbing the stairs that looked like a thousand, before I finally disappeared, before I finally did faded away into thin air...Slowly I could feel my shaky hands locking the room shut, as I could feel it immediately flowing down my cheeks...It was there yet again...No!, not again, I mumbled as I confusedly tried wiping it away, but still it kept on raining down my cheeks and I just couldn't stop it.I just couldn't...."What am I doing?" I whispered, as I kept on staring at my stressed reflect
...."The night is here again, everyone is happy, everyone is at peace, everyone except me........All would be save, but I?, I'll die yet again, for the second time........I could feel my legs failing me as I kept on staggering like the mad person that I am, but still that didn't changed my pathetic luck, it never fucking did.My legs kept on making the situation a whole lot shitty, it kept on threatening to fall, as I kept on watching my slender shadow walk lifelessly through the lonely roads.."Few blocks away, just few blocks away" That was all I could utter, as I could practically feel my damn self breathing in and out, like the sweaty scum that I am...It was just me and the lonely moon, yet it was so dark, my heart was, Everything felled apart.I never did knew it could be possible to watch your whole life crashing before your very eyes, yet that was exactly what happened to me....It felled apart and all I did was watch it as it felled..."I mean what I said earlier, trust
...."Why me?....That's the question, I'd never find the answer to..."I gave you the permission, so you killed me".........."Her life is hanging on this hands" His deadly voice echoed out, as he kept on waving his hands all over the air, The same hands, that kept on making me feel trapped more and more..."Why can't you let me be" I whispered, with all the frustration and helplessness, that came clouding me, but still he felt nothing, no remorse, nothing at all..."Why can't you?" I could feel my voice coming out weaker than I expected, as the little teardrop fell right off my eye...He knows I'll fall, he shitty did.This was his plan all along, it was all his.Am walking right into my own death and I know it, but there's nothing I can do now, even if I try..."So tell me, what's your answer going to be" His sharp voice blurted out, as my shaky eyes slowly lifted up to meet his..."You still think am messing around, don't you?" He spat out angrily with grit teeth, before letting ou
....."What would you do to save the person you love the most, Would you give your dignity?, life?, everything?, and fall down flat on your face...I did and it crushed me completely...."Am smiling, but it hurts...I did this to save, but all I did is get burnt"......"P.O.V"...She left and guilt came flushing through me, my damn mind finally clicked back to normal, only then, did I realized what the shit I had just done....I could feel my palms becoming sweaty, as my mind told me to stay still and just let everything slide by, but my heart wasn't on the same side."Run you fool, run go catch her before she finally disappears from your life forever".My heart cried out, as I could feel my shaky legs moving...."Ivy?" I whispered, but she was already long gone, as my head kept on spinning over and over again"No I'll die without her" I mumbled angrily to myself, as I could feel my legs already taking the lead, only to stop halfway, as I slowly turned back to place the hurtful letter
......Fire for fire, Violence with violence, but no...this ain't fair one bit..........."I thought you saw everything, huh?" I yelled back, staring at him with all the burning anger in my eyes, but his expression changed everything....It scared the life out of me, cause all he gave was that awful deadly grin of his once again, as I could feel the urge to scream, run and just disappear completely, but I just can't....His eyes tells me "AM A FOOL", but my mind don't want to believe that, or else I'd be shattered...."Who said I didn't?" He brought me back to life with his question, that sounded more of a statement, as the grin on his face grew a whole lot wider, that kept on making my heart sink the more....Is...th...this what...he....wanted? I questioned my spinning head, as my eyebrows tilted up fearfully, but the more he stares into my soul, the more I found my darn answers....No!, he possibly co.. couldn't, I reassured my beating heart, as I could already feel uneasiness flu
...."You throw me into the ocean, am drowning, I should have knew...Five!.... Four!.... Three!.. Two!.... One!...Am.... dead!.......My heart was racing, but still I didn't stop, not for once, not ever...I could feel my legs flying, as I search for the way out of the emotional twisted warehouse, like a complete mad person that I actually am and hopefully I did, as I tried catching my breath, before heaving a big sigh of relief...Staring back at the warehouse, it was completely distant away from where I stood..Who knew I could ever run that fast, i thought, as I placed my palm at my forehead frustratedly, before looking away...Damn!, What the freaking hell just happened, I thought, as a wave of anger and confusion came clouding me, making my head hurt a whole lot worst than before...I want to fucking forget it, but no!, my damn mind will never let me, I would never rest after this crap, Never....I am helpless, Why God...My clumsy mind clouding so many thoughts at once, but w
...."The night comes, but the dead don't rest, neither do I....You want to kill me, break me, and cut me down, but if I cry, you'll bleed ......."I don't see the point saying I love you, when all you do is drift away the more I say it"...It was a whisper, but it felt a whole lot worst than that, as I could hear the words banging into my ears, watching his eyes flicker something so unexplainable, as well as my heart, that kept on ceasing all the damn words from coming outSomething's wrong, so wrong and I can feel it, it was from my heart, but oh God it's was just so shitty...."I .." I stumbled on my words, as the rest of the words got stuck on my eyes, that kept on staring in total confusion straight on his light, somehow magnetic ones...As he kept on slowly coming closer to me, but with every step he took, the more I stagger backwards, as my head kept on screaming just one, one life saving word to me..."RUN!" I could hear my inner self yelling out, as I cautiously took to my
..."This things I do not know, This feelings I've never felt before, this strange presence, I..Damn, I feel something, I really don't know what it is, it's eating me alive and all I keep on doing is to drown deeper.........."Well, here we are" His voice voice echoed, quickly bringing life back to me, as I slowly lifted my eyes up to stare at the old, but rather fascinating looking building...."Are you scared?" He whispered, as I slowly shook my head, before taking in a deep breath, with my already folded arms...."Am fine, Got it" I blurted out more coldly than I expected, before slowly drifting my gaze back at him, but he already looked away....Damn, I guess I was a little too harsh, my damn inner self spoke out, as I pressed my lips confusedly, before fiddling with my fingers frustratedly.."I...."C'mon let's go" He cuts me off, as I could tell the little hurt sound on his voice, but decided to wave it up, as I kept on looking away angrily...Damn, this is so pathetic, are we