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SOPHIE"Sooo, we are a thing now, right?"I looked at the face of my nerd lover, and asked him, even though we had literally spent a whole year together, and it was kinda dumb to still ask that, but still...still..I wanted to hear those words from him, and in the end, he fulfilled my desire in the most cheesiest way possible"We are not a thing, but a couple obviously!"He told me, and it made my heart flutter, cause I wanted to hear those words for so long, but I didn't tell him that, instead I rolled my eyes at him, and parted my lips."Quit being Mr. smart pants already"I said, but I had this really big smile on my face when I did, cause I loved him for being such a big nerd, and immediately he heard me speak, he kissed me...it was passionate, and I loved it how he always makes me feel so special with it...Sorry, I loved how he always makes US feel so specialI touched my stomach, and looked back at his face"Do you think they would accept our baby?"I looked at his eyes, and aske
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[Prepare you tissues darlings, you might need it]…"How does it feels like to burn, not in fire, but in hot dripping larva...How does it feels like to be lost, with not a single sense of direction...How does it feels like to want to tear your heart out, and rid of yourself of every single shit called emotions and feelings...How does it feels like to be lifeless and feel at peace like that is what you always wantedNot to go deep, What is the even the definition of peace?What is love?And what is happiness?...I don't know all this things, and to say I have ever even felt it was when I was a kid, you know innocent and all naïve, but now?, now it is something forbidden, and rather replaced with the feeling of been buried in a water, the feeling of drowning, suffocating, dying, even though you are livingI knew it all too well...A feeling that tore me apart, broke me into pieces, and made sure there was not any single remains leftA feeling that no fucking amount of shitty "Sorry" c
Last Updated : 2023-05-29FALLEN: HIS ALONE A DEMON, NO THE DEVIL HIMSELF
ELIAS….Third stupid year started some weeks ago, and men! I feel on top of the world, cause not only would I be out of the fucking hellhole soon, but also because of the fact that am all alone, just like how I like it.Alone?Why on earth would anyone like to be alone?To give a brief flashback, let me take you back to my pathetic damn sad story.First year: I was bullied like a complete dickhead, that nothing good I do made anyone happy, they didn't even fucking cared that I was a living human, but that wasn't the climax, hell no!. The climax was my father, the only family I had left, dying and leaving me behind all alone, but life, fucking life finally became absolutely shitty and pointless when I found out that the fucking one I dated, only dated me so that he could learn all my secrets and sell me off to the freaking bullies, that was the finally draw...It made me cut myself away from the world, and vow to never tolerate any shit from anyone ever again. Fast forward to the prese
Last Updated : 2023-05-29FALLEN: HIS ALONE 365 DAYS WITH LUCIFER
ELIAS..."Is it that you're getting old, or have forgotten the damn incident that you literally chose to bring a new scapegoat into my room"I said...No, I yelled it out all at once immediately I stomped up to the damn housemaster with my voice pissed and ill mannered, but he didn't seem to care about the way I spoke to him. Instead, he sipped his damn coffee some more, that I wish I could just throw away, before finally looking at me"We, or should I say, I know you didn't kill anyone"He said with a cheerful smile on his shitty face, and placed his coffee on the table, even though I wasn't smiling one bit, because I was keen on making this old man get it into his damn skull that I was nothing but poison"I would do it..."I yelled out and looked straight into his eyes"I would make that green eyes life hellfire"I spat out at him, but he?, he only shrugged my words off as if it was nothing, and it fucking made my blood boil ten times more hotter than before, so I slammed my hand har
Last Updated : 2023-05-29FALLEN: HIS ALONE SCREW YOU!
LUCAS...At least the sun is shinning today...I woke up very early, and left for my lecture, cause I don't want to have to deal with that dickhead when he wakes up. Am at least glad that nuisance sleeps like a pig, and he ain't an early riser.As I walked to class, a thought popped into my head "Did he even attend any lectures at all?", but I immediately waved it aside, cause who was I to care about that trashy foul mouthed dickhead, and especially after all he had said to me yesterday, what a warm welcome indeed!I scoffed out as I thought to myself, but what made me more mad was the fact that when I went to the housemaster to complain about that blue eyes, all he said was that I had to deal with it, but how exactly on earth was I suppose to deal with a damn guy like that, that literally threatened me with my life, How!!??My mind was exploding, literally fucking exploding, as I died deeper into my thought, and scribbled out some nonsense in my book to ease my anger, but it didn't w
Last Updated : 2023-05-29FALLEN: HIS ALONE DON'T TALK ABOUT ME
LUCAS...I left that dickhead, and returned back to the class, thank goodness the lecturer wasn't there yet, or else my first official day would have been ruined because of that pile of shit, but I don't still feel at ease, so I typed with my phone as I walked, about the person that was murdered by the damn blue eyes, but what I got was that the toxic guy was innocent, and honestly, it made me so damn confused, if the internet was wrong, or if the university only covered up the shit that damn guy did, and if it was the case, that was so fucking messed up and disgusting!, but I couldn't still help feeling like I was in a maze, and it kinda made me think about that bright eyes that I had spoke with a while ago, so I wanted to ask him what he thought about this, but sadly, some trashy person was already sitting on the spot I sat down on, and he kinda looked like a thug, so I didn't wanted to look for trouble, and ruin my low profile, so I walked away from that direction to sit somewhere
Last Updated : 2023-05-29FALLEN: HIS ALONE PAYBACK
ELIAS.....After I had calm down and reminded myself of a reason to hate that British asshole, I returned back into the room, only to meet him still sitting down on the floor like a broken mess, and yes I don't feel any shitty remorse, rather it made me scoff out."If you keep sitting on the cold floor, you would freeze and be dead before sunrise"I tell him coldly, but still in the most genuine way I could cause it was the truth, but all that asshole did was glare at me with his swollen eyes that was as a result of his shitty tears...that was because of me, and looked away"If I die, it's none of your fucking business!"It was toxic, and he literally replied that way to me as he shifted his gaze away to the side, but I don't care, yes I don't care about his shitty damn drama, or if he listens to me, cause it was his pathetic funeral, and to think again, if he dies, he would finally be out of my life for good, and maybe finally make me get arrested at last, so I looked back at him wit
Last Updated : 2023-05-29FALLEN: HIS ALONE NOT A DEVIL AFTER ALL
WARNING, THIS CHAPTER MADE MENTION OF SELF HARM RELATED STUFF, READ WITH CAUTION.....LUCAS...."What the...""Bl...blood?"My voice broke as I saw cotton wool covered with blood, and it made all the adrenaline in me spike up, my thought did as well too, cause what the heck, what the HECK!!!!I rubbed my forehead, as I tried to think, to reason, to bring out a fucking explanation for it, but I don't think he had gotten hurt recently, so could this be from his new victim?My thought murdered me, and made my breath shake, as I immediately trued to back away from the bin, and run out of the room, but my shaky clumsy leg kicked it again in the process, and it spat out a burnt picture of person...someone, and seeing the picture come out of the bin, a curious side of me that I was sure would be the cause of my death, made me literally move closer to see who it was, and when I moved closer to the bin, and took the picture in my hand, even though some side were burnt, I could still make out
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FALLEN: HIS ALONE EPILOGUE: FALLEN
SOPHIE"Sooo, we are a thing now, right?"I looked at the face of my nerd lover, and asked him, even though we had literally spent a whole year together, and it was kinda dumb to still ask that, but still...still..I wanted to hear those words from him, and in the end, he fulfilled my desire in the most cheesiest way possible"We are not a thing, but a couple obviously!"He told me, and it made my heart flutter, cause I wanted to hear those words for so long, but I didn't tell him that, instead I rolled my eyes at him, and parted my lips."Quit being Mr. smart pants already"I said, but I had this really big smile on my face when I did, cause I loved him for being such a big nerd, and immediately he heard me speak, he kissed me...it was passionate, and I loved it how he always makes me feel so special with it...Sorry, I loved how he always makes US feel so specialI touched my stomach, and looked back at his face"Do you think they would accept our baby?"I looked at his eyes, and aske
FALLEN: HIS ALONE DEAR TO ME
Tell me every terrible things you ever did, and let me love you either way...LUCASI had a few more lectures that day, after little miss lover girl Sophie ran away from me, and seriously, I was so lonely all by myself, but I literally really won the award of being the world most lonely man ever, when I returned back to the room.The room that haunted me....the room that was filled with his memories everywhere, and the room....the fucking room that reminded me of every single thing about him, even though I was literally trying to forget about him...God"Elias..."I mumbled out his name for the first time in three days, and felt like my heart shattered again...well it did, and it was probably because I had broke my promise to never utter his name again, so that I could heal, but how on fucking earth was I suppose to live this way, when the entire room was originally his, and I always fucking imagine him next to me when I sleep, so after much thinking, I frustratedly packed up my bags,
FALLEN: HIS ALONE ALCOHOL AND ANGELS
SOPHIEI ran away from him, even though I knew his words were right, but I was still scared, and I really still wanted to completely figure it out, and there was no rush in figuring things out, were they?..I thought to myself, and tried to calm down, but in the messed up end, the more I tried to calm down, the more I deceived myself, and got more stressed so I resulted to drinking, and to getting myself drunk, so that I would just forget everything for a while, cause alcohol was the best remedy, but this pathetic side character ended up getting another bomb drop that same night....I was drunk, so drunk that I couldn't even walk properly, and knew that I might just literally die in the freezing night if I didn't return back to that hellhole room of mine (Yes, such shitty life I had)I thought to myself as I staggered back, even though my vision was blurry, and I couldn't see properly, or even think at all. To be honest, and after walking maybe in circles or something, all I knew was
FALLEN: HIS ALONE LOVE GURU
LUCASI told him I loved him, but he didn't say it back, and left me either way, sad huh?...I sighed out, and played with my pen as I told Sophie about every shit that happened two days ago. Yes, two days had flew by, and am literally barely alive, and No, I wasn't mad that I didn't ended the friendship with Sophie, because of what had happened that day...Nah, I would be too dramatic if I ended our friendship because of what she said to meTo be honest, I kinda even understood why, and I guess it was because she was literally at her limits then, it was obvious something was wrong with her, but all I did was blabber out all my worries to her, without even caring if she was fine or not, and to be really plain honest, I kinda feel bad about it...about always focused on myself, cause it's really shitty"I don't blame either of you, rather I blame damn life, it's shitty, and so dramatic, that you can't even be able to control any fucking thing that happens, ugh!"I heard her voice, it bro
FALLEN: HIS ALONE CHOICE
"Don't want to hide the truth, don't want to murder you, but with the beast inside, there's no where I can hide..."....ELIAS"Happy!"I yelled out to my inner demons immediately I closed the door, and left him, left him alone broken, and ruined.God, I was such a heartless being, and am so sorry Lucas, for every single pain I made you pass through, but...but this was for the best, wasn't it?...I closed my eyes, I was about to cry, but I stopped myself when I saw the fucking housemaster, he was looking at me, giving me a look that I had no clue of, but hated it, hated it so fucking much, that it made me instantly mad"I know you are fucking happy with all of this as well"I spat out, and glared at him, and I swear I could have just left like that...I wanted to cause it would be foolish enough to associate myself with the trash, after what just happened in the room, but before I could, he grabbed me by the wrist...How he, the old damn man miraculously manage to come out of his offic
FALLEN: HIS ALONE CHOICE
"Don't want to hide the truth, don't want to murder you, but with the beast inside, there's no where I can hide..."....ELIAS"Happy!"I yelled out to my inner demons immediately I closed the door, and left him, left him alone broken, and ruined.God, I was such a heartless being, and am so sorry Lucas, for every single pain I made you pass through, but...but this was for the best, wasn't it?...I closed my eyes, I was about to cry, but I stopped myself when I saw the fucking housemaster, he was looking at me, giving me a look that I had no clue of, but hated it, hated it so fucking much, that it made me instantly mad"I know you are fucking happy with all of this as well"I spat out, and glared at him, and I swear I could have just left like that...I wanted to cause it would be foolish enough to associate myself with the trash, after what just happened in the room, but before I could, he grabbed me by the wrist...How he, the old damn man miraculously manage to come out of his offic
FALLEN: HIS ALONE CHOICE
"Don't want to hide the truth, don't want to murder you, but with the beast inside, there's no where I can hide..."....ELIAS"Happy!"I yelled out to my inner demons immediately I closed the door, and left him, left him alone broken, and ruined.God, I was such a heartless being, and am so sorry Lucas, for every single pain I made you pass through, but...but this was for the best, wasn't it?...I closed my eyes, I was about to cry, but I stopped myself when I saw the fucking housemaster, he was looking at me, giving me a look that I had no clue of, but hated it, hated it so fucking much, that it made me instantly mad"I know you are fucking happy with all of this as well"I spat out, and glared at him, and I swear I could have just left like that...I wanted to cause it would be foolish enough to associate myself with the trash, after what just happened in the room, but before I could, he grabbed me by the wrist...How he, the old damn man miraculously manage to come out of his offic
FALLEN: HIS ALONE THE END...MAYBE
WARNING: HEARTBREAKING"I am yours, so please don't give me back to myself"....LUCASEvening set in, and the night was approaching, the sky was already dark too, but my heart was the most darkest of them allIt was empty....void of every emotion, it was so broken, and I knew it would never be fixed again, cause I searched literally everywhere, even the entrance of the university that was like so many kilometers away for him, only him, but he was still nowhere, and I really didn't know what to do anymore, I really didn't now that my owner had abandoned his puppyIt was no lie that I was scared, I needed help, and I would never forgive my father for this, cause did he really think that my grades would ever come up after causing all this shit...Mmm let me think, Never!, but even if it ends up miraculously coming up, he had already lost his son in the processDamnit!, why did you do this to me, huh?...And why did you leave me Elias...I cried out again, and I was the real definition of
FALLEN: HIS ALONE RED HEART
"The heart is red, but have you ever wondered the reason why it is?. It isn't red because it symbolizes love, and romance...No, hell no....but it's red, because it symbolizes blood, and pain, and darknessShitty isn't it?, well who told you to believe in fairytales, hmm?...… SOPHIE"I also have my own problems, Lucas"I whispered out to him, and looked away from his face. I knew it was heartless, cruel, and probably the most unthinkable think I could say and do, cause he was literally crying, and I...I said those words to his face...Ugh, I knew I was cruel, I needed no one to tell me that, but...but I swear I only said that, cause I was angry, and fed up, when I saw him barge into the class, I wanted him to notice my pale face, and ask me what was wrong...I wanted to tell him about my crisis, and about how I was losing my mind here, cause last night I literally had my first kiss with someone that stole my diary, but...but instead he tells me his problem, and it made me angry, and s
