ELIAS
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"Is it that you're getting old, or have forgotten the damn incident that you literally chose to bring a new scapegoat into my room"
I said...No, I yelled it out all at once immediately I stomped up to the damn housemaster with my voice pissed and ill mannered, but he didn't seem to care about the way I spoke to him. Instead, he sipped his damn coffee some more, that I wish I could just throw away, before finally looking at me
"We, or should I say, I know you didn't kill anyone"
He said with a cheerful smile on his shitty face, and placed his coffee on the table, even though I wasn't smiling one bit, because I was keen on making this old man get it into his damn skull that I was nothing but poison
"I would do it..."
I yelled out and looked straight into his eyes
"I would make that green eyes life hellfire"
I spat out at him, but he?, he only shrugged my words off as if it was nothing, and it fucking made my blood boil ten times more hotter than before, so I slammed my hand hard on his table, without caring of the fact that it would definitely make my palms red
"Don't you understand am dangerous?"
I spat out louder to his face, and squeezed my lips even more
"Am not suppose to be fucking here, but in jail, and..."
"With the way you speak, it seems like you haven't visited the therapist I recommended yet"
He cut my words off!, that damn mad man cut my words off, and sipped his coffee again, and made my teeth gritted as I finally slapped the cup away from his damn hands. The glass shattered on the floor into a million pieces, but I don't care in the slightest, so I shifted my attention back to him, and his displeased fed up look he had on his face, but like I said, I didn't fucking care
"Did your damn head fucking think that I would literally go to that shit, huh?"
I raised an eyebrow up, and asked him, but he didn't reply, so I scoffed out, and turned around to leave, only to stop myself when I had walked a few steps away
"If you don't want anymore drama, he must pack his shitty trash and leave before dusk"
I whispered out a dead lifeless tone to him without looking back at his face, and finally walked away
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LUCAS
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Am lost in my thoughts, so confused even, but still, I arranged my bags at the bed that was vacated, cause to think again, why on earth should I listen to that insolent dickhead
"He ain't the boss of me!"
I yelled out to myself, but immediately I do, the door flicked open, and the devil himself dressed in an all dark colors that could win a depressing pageant walks in, and scares the shit out of me, but I don't want him to see my fear, but...but at the same time, I was still so very uncomfortable around him, so I backed away, and rested my back on the cold wall, as his cold eyes examined my clothes that I had brought out of my luggage, before glaring at me with his dull blue eyes
"Tell me, are you deaf!"
He said as he took a step closer to me, and it made my heart race, cause I had already foolishly trapped myself by resting my back against the wall, so there was nowhere to run, Damnit!
Or is it that you like been a complete fucking idiot nuisance?"
He said again in a mocking mirthless tone, as he took another step closer, and made me swallow hard, but this dickhead didn't stop, NO!, instead he took yet again another step closer that I could clearly see his face now, his...eyes, his...red...perfect...lips..
But...but I freaking thought you wanted to get away from me, so what the heck was happening right now!!!
The thought raced really fast in my head, as I tried to find a way to escape, and not lock eyes with him, but...but the devil who already sensed I was uncomfortable, and found pleasure in it, didn't back away, he didn't let me go...
Instead, he rested his left hand on the wall to block my way of escaping, and flicked two of his fingers on my forehead, and damn, it hurts so much, but I dare not scream out in pain, cause I was tired of him seeing me as a British baby that was like a feather
"Well tell me green eyes, and kinky hair, what part of "You can't fucking stay here" you don't understand, hmm?"
He flicks my forehead again, and called me green eyes, and kinky hair, and it makes me really angry, cause that wasn't my name or nickname either, and I hated being called what I don't like, so I gathered the courage I was obviously suppose to have, cause I was a dude, and not some fragile female, and finally looked at him right in the eyes that seemed to drown me...break me
"What...what if I don't believe you?, that you actually killed someone?, cause if you really did, you obviously wouldn't still be here?"
"WHAT!!"
I dropped the banger, and he replied sharply to me, and let his guard down, because he was shocked, and it made me figured out it might be the first time anyone had ever spoke out and challenged him this way, but I don't let that thought dwell in my head for too long, so I used the opportunity to slide under his hand, and free myself from the wall, and immediately I did, I watch as all the demons he had took over him, and made his blood boil as he immediately looked at me, but I don't care, I don't WANT to fucking care, cause I want to give this cold guy a taste of his own medicine, and show him who exactly was the dickhead here
"Do you really think that am stupid, huh?"
I look at him in the eyes and spoke out, and to be honest, I enjoyed every bit of it, and of the way his angry expression twisted into confusion, but he didn't interrupt me...I bet he was too speechless to do that, so I kept on speaking
"I know you might wanna scare me, cause a person like you don't really look like an ideal murderer"
I parted my lips, scoffed out and actually said it to his face, without stammering this time, even though deep down I wasn't brave like I sounded, cause deep down when he stormed out of the room minutes ago, I had used the opportunity, and my laptop to search if there was any available apartment I could stay in, but found none, so in the end, I decided I just have to deal with him, and this ill luck
"I might look like a weak feminine guy, but let me tell you, your cheap words can't scare me"
I spat out again with a grin on my face, cause it felt so good to also murder him with my words, but I thought wrong, so fucking wrong, cause immediately he heard me, he chuckled out a heartless sound, and made the grin on my face disappear, and immediately he saw that too, he laughed louder, and took a step closer to me
Damnit, DAAAAAMMMNIT!!!, this dickhead was literally enjoying this
I screamed inwardly to myself as a frustrated frown appeared on the side of my lips, and again, it was everything he always wanted
"You can say any shit you want, but am the one that should be reminding you, that am the kind of person that can help kill and hide a dead body"
He looks at me in the eyes, and smiled as he saw fearful tears swell up in my shaking ones, but...but he doesn't fucking stop talking, yes he was that wicked
"And if you keep pissing me off, just remember I know how to hide a dead body"
He finishes his fucking sentence, and pats my cheek with his cold hands, and it made my breath shakes, but...but I don't let him win, and I don't freaking want to give him satisfaction, pleasure, and make him smile wider, so I parted my already champ lips, and said the roght thing that popped into my head
"Tell me, is being a fucking psychopath something you like, or something you do?"
I asked him with a mixture of fear, anger and frustration in my voice, hoping it would make the damn smile disappear, but damnit, he only chuckled out as if to tell me that I was a fool, before touching my left cheek again
"Both is wrong"
He brings himself closer to me, and whispered into my right ear, and it caused shivers down my spine, I swear I couldn't help it, and it caused shivers down my spine, and made my legs wobbly, but..but I don't dare to fall, or else it would give him more damn satisfaction, so I tried to push him away from myself, but my hands fails me, I pushed him though, but I end up falling down along with him (How "Wonderful" indeed)
He, that damn heartless guy was on the floor, while my shaking body was on top of him, what the....so immediately my eyes met his, I tried to stand up immediately, but he doesn't let me, he doesn't freaking let me, rather his cold left hand that felt like he had refrigerated it held unto my waist tightly, while his right hand shifted the strands of red hair that was on my right eye to the side, so that I could see him properly, and honestly, I couldn't literally make no single sense of what exactly was happening
Why was he this close?, why was he doing this?, didn't...didn't he wanted me to leave, didn't he hated me and suppose to push me away and slap my helpless face?, then...then why was he always so close to me any fucking chance he got!!!
I tried to think to myself, to find any answer, any meaning to this, but...but my head is blank, so blank, and my brain like a low computer is dead, so...so all I could do was stare into those dark blue eyes of his, that drowns me every single shitty time, but he finally parted his grinning lips and spoke out
"Being a psychpath is something I am, darling"
He finally replies to my question, but I don't even remember what I had asked him clearly, cause all I wanted was to get the fuck away from him, so I did, it was so difficult, but I did, I summoned the courage, and forced myself away from him, and immediately stood up on my feet
"I...I..."
I looked into his eyes and tried to speak, no...I wanted to yell out to never ever touch me again in his fucking life, but my damn voice fails me, and it made him laugh out mockingly at me as he gets up to his feet, and walked closer to me
"What's wrong, pretty boy, hmm?"
He insults me and pats my hair, but I immediately shifted away from him, and parted my lips angrily, cause if he can be damn good at making people mad, I can be too...
"I do not fancy a psychopath, but I like psychopathic things like staying here!"
I blurted out angrily and stormed away from him, and laid on my bed with my face faced to the wall, cause I didn't want to continue this fucking shitty conversation anymore, but he?, that blue eyes imbecile laughed at my words out again, before I heard him speak with his voice dripping with cold hatred
"Fine suit your damn self, you can stay here, cause you are a nobody, and do not exist"
He spat out, and I heard his footsteps, he stormed out of the room and barged the door hard. Immediately he did, tears flew out of my eyes, cause it hurts, it fucking hurts so much, having to spend the next 365 days or more with a fucking Satan!
LUCAS...At least the sun is shinning today...I woke up very early, and left for my lecture, cause I don't want to have to deal with that dickhead when he wakes up. Am at least glad that nuisance sleeps like a pig, and he ain't an early riser.As I walked to class, a thought popped into my head "Did he even attend any lectures at all?", but I immediately waved it aside, cause who was I to care about that trashy foul mouthed dickhead, and especially after all he had said to me yesterday, what a warm welcome indeed!I scoffed out as I thought to myself, but what made me more mad was the fact that when I went to the housemaster to complain about that blue eyes, all he said was that I had to deal with it, but how exactly on earth was I suppose to deal with a damn guy like that, that literally threatened me with my life, How!!??My mind was exploding, literally fucking exploding, as I died deeper into my thought, and scribbled out some nonsense in my book to ease my anger, but it didn't w
LUCAS...I left that dickhead, and returned back to the class, thank goodness the lecturer wasn't there yet, or else my first official day would have been ruined because of that pile of shit, but I don't still feel at ease, so I typed with my phone as I walked, about the person that was murdered by the damn blue eyes, but what I got was that the toxic guy was innocent, and honestly, it made me so damn confused, if the internet was wrong, or if the university only covered up the shit that damn guy did, and if it was the case, that was so fucking messed up and disgusting!, but I couldn't still help feeling like I was in a maze, and it kinda made me think about that bright eyes that I had spoke with a while ago, so I wanted to ask him what he thought about this, but sadly, some trashy person was already sitting on the spot I sat down on, and he kinda looked like a thug, so I didn't wanted to look for trouble, and ruin my low profile, so I walked away from that direction to sit somewhere
ELIAS.....After I had calm down and reminded myself of a reason to hate that British asshole, I returned back into the room, only to meet him still sitting down on the floor like a broken mess, and yes I don't feel any shitty remorse, rather it made me scoff out."If you keep sitting on the cold floor, you would freeze and be dead before sunrise"I tell him coldly, but still in the most genuine way I could cause it was the truth, but all that asshole did was glare at me with his swollen eyes that was as a result of his shitty tears...that was because of me, and looked away"If I die, it's none of your fucking business!"It was toxic, and he literally replied that way to me as he shifted his gaze away to the side, but I don't care, yes I don't care about his shitty damn drama, or if he listens to me, cause it was his pathetic funeral, and to think again, if he dies, he would finally be out of my life for good, and maybe finally make me get arrested at last, so I looked back at him wit
WARNING, THIS CHAPTER MADE MENTION OF SELF HARM RELATED STUFF, READ WITH CAUTION.....LUCAS...."What the...""Bl...blood?"My voice broke as I saw cotton wool covered with blood, and it made all the adrenaline in me spike up, my thought did as well too, cause what the heck, what the HECK!!!!I rubbed my forehead, as I tried to think, to reason, to bring out a fucking explanation for it, but I don't think he had gotten hurt recently, so could this be from his new victim?My thought murdered me, and made my breath shake, as I immediately trued to back away from the bin, and run out of the room, but my shaky clumsy leg kicked it again in the process, and it spat out a burnt picture of person...someone, and seeing the picture come out of the bin, a curious side of me that I was sure would be the cause of my death, made me literally move closer to see who it was, and when I moved closer to the bin, and took the picture in my hand, even though some side were burnt, I could still make out
ELIAS...I walked into the room, tired cause it's been a long damn day, and I didn't wanted any shit anymore, but what did I see there?....I see some no good nobody having the damn gut to snoop into my stuff...my fucking diary, without having a second thought, and any foresight in his empty skull"What the fucking hell..."I yelled out with all the rage boiling inside me as I rushed up to him, grabbed the book from his damn hands, and pushed him away, making him fall on the hard floor, but I don't care, I don't fucking care how he squeezed his face and let out a little groan, hell no, I don't fucking care about any single shit"What gave your damn filthy hands the right to touch my book, do you want to die!"I yelled out and God, I wanted to pounce on him, to punch him a million and one times, even if he dies, but...but...I hold myself cause I don't want the floor to be stained with his damn blood, so I looked at his damn face, and watch as his eyes shook, but this time it wasn't cov
LUCAS..."What's wrong with me?"I thought to myself, no...I racked my head without mercy, but in the end, I found no answer to it apart from realizing that I don't want to leave this room....not anymore, but...but I want to...help him, I know I know it's like the most shittest thing I would ever want to do, and am probably, really going to regret it, but, but I who is a pathetic loser wants to help him, even though the old me would have done literally everything to stay away from himUgh, it's so complicated and frustrating, and was literally like a puzzle I still don't fully understand, but...but all I knew was that I don't want him to hate me more than shit, cause it would make the guilt I have for reading his diary kill me, so when Mr. "Not a devil" returned few days after that incident, to pick up a notebook, probably his assignment, I dared to risk my life again, and blocked his way before he could leave"Am sorry"Yes I did it, the person who didn't feared getting slapped by hi
LUCAS...."Today, am going to help you with math 304, since your G.P is trash"I told him with a wide cheesy smile on my face, cause I felt happy that I successfully found a way to drag him to this empty lecture room today, so that I would be his tutor, and we could study at last, but still this blue eyes didn't wanted to cooperate with me"Really? My G.P sucks?.."He raised one of his eyebrows up, and looked at me with a fake surprise look on his face, but I knew he was mocking me in someway, and really didn't care if he carries over any course, damnit!"I had said it when you dragged...when you kidnapped me and brought me here, but I guess I would say it again..."He quit acting surprise and folded his arms, he was frustrated again for the hundredth and one time today"I. DON'T. NEED. YOUR. FUCKING. HELP!"He said angrily to me, right in my face, and got up to leave, to ditch me, but I don't want it to happen, so I immediately held unto his arm as fast as I could to stop him"You ar
LUCAS...."I can't leave you alone, not when am trying to be your friend"I know he is an asshole, but I told him either way with a wide smile on my face, cause it was the truth, but immediately he heard my words, I saw how one of his eyebrows arched up, and it made me realized that he was confused, probably thinking hard about something, maybe about why I was able to tolerate him, but the truth was that when I make a deal with someone on something, I make sure I win, and plus, I was also trying to be his friend, cause, I mean looking at him from this angle, he was kinda sorta....cuteNo wait, what the fuck did I just think about right now!Immediately I realized the fuck I had just literally thought about, I stopped smiling, and looked away from him to snap myself completely out of it, cause I don't ever want to feel any shit for a person I was sure doesn't give a damn about me, or else I would be heartbroken, and hell no, I don't want that, cause my heart is too fragile, so I stylis
SOPHIEFive days flew by, and I became a maniac, hysterical, ridiculous, but a maniac that couldn't forget about that damn guy Charlie, as if he had casted a spell on me.I was literally the complete maniac who couldn't concentrate, cause ugh, as much as I hated myself for it, a part of me kind of felt guilty for taking all the blame, even though he deserved itI know I should just like tell myself that forget about it, and really do listen to myself, but in reality?, in reality it doesn't really works that way, cause I was no Wednesday Addams like in the tv series, I had emotions, and there was no way to cut my heart out of me, but the most worst thing of them all, was that a part of me that was the most confusing part felt happy when he texted me again...Yes, he decided to play dumb, and let that incident slide, and still keep on texting me, and at first?, at first when he started to text me again, I was like what the heck was he trying to achieve by all this, I don't even use to re
SOPHIEI was alone, I was alone in the class, but I felt a bit sad, and it was because when I looked left and right, everyone seemed like a couple to me, and I see them doing lovey dovey couple stuff, Nah...screw them all!, but I really felt sad because of him, the one guy that I couldn't get out of my mind no matter how I tried (You know the one)....Him...Lucas!, and I also felt sad, cause the last time we talked, which was yesterday, he looked like a mess, well not that he wasn't still hot or anything, but he looked...really stressed out like what he had told me. He looked disturbed, and when I think about it more, it kinda made my sadness turn into frustration, cause even though he didn't really tell me the exact reason, I knew it was because of that dickhead, Elias!My prince charming was working his ass off for a person like him, and the more I thought about it, the more angrier I became, cause he, my poor prince charming, whether he liked it or not was slowly dying for someone e
ELIASI stared at the window of our room, I was alone, so I had a little time to think about everything that has being happening, bu...but at the same time, I didn't want to think, cause anytime I think about how Lucas was doing just so much for me just so that I could become normal again, I tarnish all his efforts by becoming more depressed, like my depression would literally increase to 40....50%?Yes, I do know that it was so shitty, and I should just probably talk it out with him, that I didn't want to be a burden to him anymore....well I kinda did actually one time. I did sat him down, and told him I could heal on my own just fine without him having to do so much for me. God, I really just wanted him to be the same old Lucas that I knew. and fell in love with, cause this super caring one felt as if I was.... pitied or something, but when I told him, he didn't take it seriously, and volunteered himself even more, and I...I was suppose to be happy that someone cared about me, and do
"We all have different kind of poison, the one that's mild, the one that makes you dizzy, but this one?...this one was the most toxic of them all...SOPHIE...Dark shade eyeglass- CheckBig hat- CheckUmbrella- CheckSelf esteem?....Self esteem- Not Check, cause it was ruined, completely, brutally, awfully ruined, cause ever since that damn day, which was two days ago. I have become some kind of spy that was literally masked up and hiding away, cause I might bump into him anywhere, and...and God, so far am literally going mad, cause I remembered that diary also contained how my high school life was a crampYes and like a pathetic side character, I didn't had some fairytale back in high school, hell no!, all I had was fucking shit, suffering, and oh, I even got bullied too, and it was like the main thing that reduced my self esteem to nothingGod, it was that worst that I literally had to change the way I look, and become a change version of me, but the heart always remembers the bad
SOPHIELike in every drama series, and novels, there is always a side character that would fulfill the author's wish, and sometimes help unite the main characters together...In this novel, I was that pathetic useless side character, and I knew it. I knew I was the girl who doesn't, and would never ever get the guy that she choses to like, cause I am no main character, or special person, but nevertheless, I would still give a brief introduction about myselfAm Sophie, and am literally dying a silent killing death, cause...it might be outrageous and completely odd and the most stupidest thing any side character could ever do, but am just going to confess either way...I have liked Lucas for so long...No, I am literally crazy for him, and Yes, it was that same Lucas that I was his drinking buddy, that same Lucas I had advice on how to win that cold guy Elias over, and heck yeah, it was that same red hair, green eyes Lucas that I had a big fat crush onYes, I do know it's so wrong and stup
LUCASWe stared at each other for some time in silence, and I guess this was truly what people called another definition of love: To stay in silence with your lover, and not feel awkward in the slightest about it, cause we both enjoyed the peace we felt by just looking at each other.The peace that I wished could go on forever and ever, cause I swear I was truly satisfied with it, but in the end, I was the same one who broke the silence, cause I wasn't the type that kept his complete feelings and thoughts hidden, so I just had to let him know what I had decided"Elias"I called out his name, and he looked at me immediately, and stopped playing with his thumbs like a cute little baby he was, but I didn't let his cutest get into my head, cause I didn't wanted to make any mistake, hell no...I wanted to be as serious as I could ever be"I have decided that I want to help you..."I blurted out to him, but damnit!, it didn't come out right like I had wanted it to be, and it obviously made El
ELIASI stared at the ceiling of the damn hospital, and feel angry with myself, cause even though I hated it, I still hopped my little legs to this damn place today, but when I thought to through, I guess I did that, because I didn't wanted to die, cause...cause I had a purpose to live now, regardless of all my fucking demonsLucas was my purpose, and the only one that I wanted to live for.As I thought about all this things, and kept on looking at the ceiling lifelessly, the door clicking sound brought me out of my thoughts, and made me immediately wipe the tears that had gather in my eyes away, cause I didn't wanted Lucas to see me cry, and become suspicious that something was wrong with me, but when I saw the nylon that contained some shitty pills that he carried in his hands, I knew the drama was over, he already knew my trauma, but....but I still wanted to play dumb in case he might still believe me over the doctorsI know I know it sounded so stupid, but I gave it a try, and imme
LUCASI looked at him with my shakily swollen eyes immediately I barged into his ward, and it made him startled, but he didn't say anything to me, no....He just looked at me in the eyes as well, but it was only for some seconds before looking away from me, and it made me realize that he regretted it...Regretted landing in the hospital, regretted being the cause of the heartbreaking look I wore on my red face, and it was all I wanted to know, that he still actually cared about me, and was hurting too probably as much I was, so I didn't yell at him like I had told myself I would do if I find him, cause it would be the most stupidest thing to ever do, especially now that his dark barely alive eyes told me that he needed me, even though he didn't say the words out loud, so I walked up to him, sat on the side of his bed, and took his cold palms into mine"It's alright..."I knew I should have been the most comforting I could ever be, and I should have literally been the prince who saved the
LUCASI arrived at the lecture room an hour before the lecture started, so I had a lot of time to talk to my new gossip buddy about everything, and when I mean my new gossip buddy, I mean the blonde hair beaming Sophie, who was waving happily at me with a sly smile on her face, cause she could already figure out that something was upGosh, am I really that easy to read?I thought to myself as I walked up to her, but immediately I did, she pulled me to the chair next to her, and whispered into my right ear"Tell me everything, now!"She commanded impatiently, and I guess it was normal for her to react that way, cause when I woke up that morning next to Mr. boyfriend, I had literally panicked, and typed to her about a little bit of my crisis about waking up next to Elias, but I swear I didn't tell her that we...that we did it, had sex, cause I thought it might be weird to say that, and I would have just be blabbering early in the morning, but now I guess I was wrong, cause the look on he