LUCAS
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At least the sun is shinning today...
I woke up very early, and left for my lecture, cause I don't want to have to deal with that dickhead when he wakes up. Am at least glad that nuisance sleeps like a pig, and he ain't an early riser.
As I walked to class, a thought popped into my head "Did he even attend any lectures at all?", but I immediately waved it aside, cause who was I to care about that trashy foul mouthed dickhead, and especially after all he had said to me yesterday, what a warm welcome indeed!
I scoffed out as I thought to myself, but what made me more mad was the fact that when I went to the housemaster to complain about that blue eyes, all he said was that I had to deal with it, but how exactly on earth was I suppose to deal with a damn guy like that, that literally threatened me with my life, How!!??
My mind was exploding, literally fucking exploding, as I died deeper into my thought, and scribbled out some nonsense in my book to ease my anger, but it didn't work one bit, cause my damn mind just had to keep making me remember about that good for nothing blue eyes, that literally made me cry my eyes out last night
"God, is he always this toxic, huh?"
I thought yet again to myself, but I guess I was so lost, that I didn't realize the time I had literally blurted it out loud, cause immediately I did, a light cat eyes gay turned to me, and arched one of his eyebrows up
"Are you talking to me?"
He asked me, and I immediately shook my head, cause I didn't wanted to be on anyone bad list, but in the end, I guess my curiosity got the better of me, and it immediately made me change my mind
"Uh...hey mate"
I tapped him, and it made him look at me with the same confused look on his face, but I didn't care, cause all I wanted was to find out about that toxic damn blue eyes and if he was just trying to scare me so I leave his room, or if he was really a freak, so I spoke out
"Do you know anything about about..."
I parted my lips and looked at him, but when am halfway through my sentence, I realized I don't even know the damn guy's name (how fucking wonderful), but worst I had no idea how I was going to describe him without sounding like a maniac, so I shut myself up, and stayed mute, but luckily, he was some kind of mind reader and immediately read my thoughts
"Fuck, did he mess with you too?"
He touches my fearful palm, and asks me with a concern look on his face, but when I didn't reply, cause I wasn't really sure if we were literally thinking the same thing, and he was actually talking about the same damn guy, he reads my thought again, and decided to describe him
"Elias, that damn dark blue eyes psychopath?"
He asks me again, and it made me finally nod my head
So that's was his fucking name: ELIAS!
I thought to myself, but I don't say it out loud to him, instead I don't want to go off topic
"Well yeah, I mean he sort of in a way did"
I replied back to him, as I let a frustrated fed up sigh escape my lips, but I don't stop talking, I don't want to keep fucking dying in silence either, so I looked back at his face again, and blurted out
"Am living in the same room with him"
I emphasized my sentence more, and watch as his bright eyes immediately popped out as if to tell me that I had literally walked into death's arms...well to give it a brief thought, I guess I did
"Dude, it's bad luck, no it's the worst thing that an ever happen to anybody here"
He said to me, and I nodded my head defeatedly cause what I had experience last night was enough to make me believe it, even though I still kinda felt he was literally telling me to my face how my life sucks too
"If you know what's good for you, you need to pack out, and stay anywhere else, but there...Even the sewers is better!"
On a normal note, anyone would have...I would have thought that his words were an overstatement, but when I think back to how the blue eyes, am sorry...how that damn ELIAS was, I support him again, and guess he was right
"Then can I crash at your room?"
It was a slip of tongue, but I asked him either way, and hoped that maybe I would luckily escape hell fire, I don't even mind sleeping on the floor, but in the end, in the sad pathetic end, he turned me down, because him and his roommate like to party, but I don't feel really sad, cause I don't like alcohol that much, and loud music too
"It's alright broski, I can help you get a good apartment"
I heard his voice again, and it sounded like some kind of music to my ears
"Really?!"
I exclaimed, and at the same time asked him and started to beam up like a girl who just got proposed too, but I don't care if am a little bit girlish sometimes, hell no, cause all I cared about was trying to escape that hellhole of a room, but before I could as much say any other word, my eyes look to the side, it was unintentional, but I saw...I saw HIM!, THAT FUCKING BASTARD!
Fuck!, he was literally watching me, but...but why?
I whispered out to myself, and immediately left the light eyes, and got up from my seat, before he could as much as me where I was going, and what was wrong, but before I could reach the existing door and run away, Mr. toxic mad man, Elias, caught up with me, and grabbed me by my right hand outside to a secluded hallway
"You and I, we are going to have a little chitchat"
He held my hand tighter so I don't run, and looked at me in the eyes with a displeased look on his face, but damn!, damn am the one who was more angrier cause spying on me, and dragging me up here was so fucking unacceptable, so I stopped being a shitty coward, yanked my hand away from his grip, and moved away from him until I created the distance I wanted, cause his face?, looking at his face so close makes me remember what he had did to me yesterday...how I was a complete trash to him, and a ball for him to kick with
"No thank you, cause I am not your fucking slave"
I looked into his eyes and tell him...no, I made it clear to him that he doesn't own me, and immediately walked away before he could say any fucking thing, cause who exactly did he think he was to mess with me as if I was not a living human, SCREW HIM!
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ELIAS
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"You and I, we are going to have a little chitchat"
I held his wrist tighter, and looked at him in the eyes with a so displeased look on my face, cause I really don't appreciate his little ass asking everybody, or should I say fucking gossiping about me to some shit, but before I could lecture him about having manners, he yanks his hand away from me, and backed away as if I was some kind of shitty plague
"No thank you, I am not your fucking slave"
Little Mr. green eyes swore out to me, and walked away before I could say anything, and it made me scoff out frustratedly, but unexplainably...unexplainably am not boiling with rage like I was suppose to, and I guess maybe it was because I considered his little shitty attitude entertaining, before I cut him into millions of piece and ruin his entire life and pride
SOPHIE"Sooo, we are a thing now, right?"I looked at the face of my nerd lover, and asked him, even though we had literally spent a whole year together, and it was kinda dumb to still ask that, but still...still..I wanted to hear those words from him, and in the end, he fulfilled my desire in the most cheesiest way possible"We are not a thing, but a couple obviously!"He told me, and it made my heart flutter, cause I wanted to hear those words for so long, but I didn't tell him that, instead I rolled my eyes at him, and parted my lips."Quit being Mr. smart pants already"I said, but I had this really big smile on my face when I did, cause I loved him for being such a big nerd, and immediately he heard me speak, he kissed me...it was passionate, and I loved it how he always makes me feel so special with it...Sorry, I loved how he always makes US feel so specialI touched my stomach, and looked back at his face"Do you think they would accept our baby?"I looked at his eyes, and aske
Tell me every terrible things you ever did, and let me love you either way...LUCASI had a few more lectures that day, after little miss lover girl Sophie ran away from me, and seriously, I was so lonely all by myself, but I literally really won the award of being the world most lonely man ever, when I returned back to the room.The room that haunted me....the room that was filled with his memories everywhere, and the room....the fucking room that reminded me of every single thing about him, even though I was literally trying to forget about him...God"Elias..."I mumbled out his name for the first time in three days, and felt like my heart shattered again...well it did, and it was probably because I had broke my promise to never utter his name again, so that I could heal, but how on fucking earth was I suppose to live this way, when the entire room was originally his, and I always fucking imagine him next to me when I sleep, so after much thinking, I frustratedly packed up my bags,
SOPHIEI ran away from him, even though I knew his words were right, but I was still scared, and I really still wanted to completely figure it out, and there was no rush in figuring things out, were they?..I thought to myself, and tried to calm down, but in the messed up end, the more I tried to calm down, the more I deceived myself, and got more stressed so I resulted to drinking, and to getting myself drunk, so that I would just forget everything for a while, cause alcohol was the best remedy, but this pathetic side character ended up getting another bomb drop that same night....I was drunk, so drunk that I couldn't even walk properly, and knew that I might just literally die in the freezing night if I didn't return back to that hellhole room of mine (Yes, such shitty life I had)I thought to myself as I staggered back, even though my vision was blurry, and I couldn't see properly, or even think at all. To be honest, and after walking maybe in circles or something, all I knew was
LUCASI told him I loved him, but he didn't say it back, and left me either way, sad huh?...I sighed out, and played with my pen as I told Sophie about every shit that happened two days ago. Yes, two days had flew by, and am literally barely alive, and No, I wasn't mad that I didn't ended the friendship with Sophie, because of what had happened that day...Nah, I would be too dramatic if I ended our friendship because of what she said to meTo be honest, I kinda even understood why, and I guess it was because she was literally at her limits then, it was obvious something was wrong with her, but all I did was blabber out all my worries to her, without even caring if she was fine or not, and to be really plain honest, I kinda feel bad about it...about always focused on myself, cause it's really shitty"I don't blame either of you, rather I blame damn life, it's shitty, and so dramatic, that you can't even be able to control any fucking thing that happens, ugh!"I heard her voice, it bro
"Don't want to hide the truth, don't want to murder you, but with the beast inside, there's no where I can hide..."....ELIAS"Happy!"I yelled out to my inner demons immediately I closed the door, and left him, left him alone broken, and ruined.God, I was such a heartless being, and am so sorry Lucas, for every single pain I made you pass through, but...but this was for the best, wasn't it?...I closed my eyes, I was about to cry, but I stopped myself when I saw the fucking housemaster, he was looking at me, giving me a look that I had no clue of, but hated it, hated it so fucking much, that it made me instantly mad"I know you are fucking happy with all of this as well"I spat out, and glared at him, and I swear I could have just left like that...I wanted to cause it would be foolish enough to associate myself with the trash, after what just happened in the room, but before I could, he grabbed me by the wrist...How he, the old damn man miraculously manage to come out of his offic
"Don't want to hide the truth, don't want to murder you, but with the beast inside, there's no where I can hide..."....ELIAS"Happy!"I yelled out to my inner demons immediately I closed the door, and left him, left him alone broken, and ruined.God, I was such a heartless being, and am so sorry Lucas, for every single pain I made you pass through, but...but this was for the best, wasn't it?...I closed my eyes, I was about to cry, but I stopped myself when I saw the fucking housemaster, he was looking at me, giving me a look that I had no clue of, but hated it, hated it so fucking much, that it made me instantly mad"I know you are fucking happy with all of this as well"I spat out, and glared at him, and I swear I could have just left like that...I wanted to cause it would be foolish enough to associate myself with the trash, after what just happened in the room, but before I could, he grabbed me by the wrist...How he, the old damn man miraculously manage to come out of his offic