THE TITLE IS NOT CORRECT: THE NAME OF THE NOVEL IS FALLEN AND IT'S A BL, PLEASE IGNORE THE TITLE AND READ BLURB .... nonymous 2:0: How does it feels like to drown?, To be covered not in water, but with the blood of this damn life.. I have experienced that, and trust me when I say am an expert on everything that's bad, you name it: Murder, bullying, depression... Everything!, and I had decided to live with that...Oh god, I was fine living that way and literally thought that would be how the last years of my university would go, but fuck, I was so damn wrong immediately he appeared along, the pest, and the dumbass roommate, I have never wanted: That dickhead, LUCAS! LUCAS: As a student who won a scholarship during his third year to a new university, life's gonna be pretty hard, meaning I would have to catch up with the notes, lectures blah blah blah (You know the rest), but what I actually cared about was to make friends, get along with my new roommate, and graduate happily like any other happy ever after, but what the fuck happened?... All my dreams immediately crashed down when I moved in and met him...The university demon, MY DEAR ROOMMATE! Note: This is a bl novel, not straight, and some parts are dark, but don't let it scare you away, cause what's a novel without romance and spice?....
Lihat lebih banyakSOPHIEFive days flew by, and I became a maniac, hysterical, ridiculous, but a maniac that couldn't forget about that damn guy Charlie, as if he had casted a spell on me.I was literally the complete maniac who couldn't concentrate, cause ugh, as much as I hated myself for it, a part of me kind of felt guilty for taking all the blame, even though he deserved itI know I should just like tell myself that forget about it, and really do listen to myself, but in reality?, in reality it doesn't really works that way, cause I was no Wednesday Addams like in the tv series, I had emotions, and there was no way to cut my heart out of me, but the most worst thing of them all, was that a part of me that was the most confusing part felt happy when he texted me again...Yes, he decided to play dumb, and let that incident slide, and still keep on texting me, and at first?, at first when he started to text me again, I was like what the heck was he trying to achieve by all this, I don't even use to re
SOPHIEI was alone, I was alone in the class, but I felt a bit sad, and it was because when I looked left and right, everyone seemed like a couple to me, and I see them doing lovey dovey couple stuff, Nah...screw them all!, but I really felt sad because of him, the one guy that I couldn't get out of my mind no matter how I tried (You know the one)....Him...Lucas!, and I also felt sad, cause the last time we talked, which was yesterday, he looked like a mess, well not that he wasn't still hot or anything, but he looked...really stressed out like what he had told me. He looked disturbed, and when I think about it more, it kinda made my sadness turn into frustration, cause even though he didn't really tell me the exact reason, I knew it was because of that dickhead, Elias!My prince charming was working his ass off for a person like him, and the more I thought about it, the more angrier I became, cause he, my poor prince charming, whether he liked it or not was slowly dying for someone e
ELIASI stared at the window of our room, I was alone, so I had a little time to think about everything that has being happening, bu...but at the same time, I didn't want to think, cause anytime I think about how Lucas was doing just so much for me just so that I could become normal again, I tarnish all his efforts by becoming more depressed, like my depression would literally increase to 40....50%?Yes, I do know that it was so shitty, and I should just probably talk it out with him, that I didn't want to be a burden to him anymore....well I kinda did actually one time. I did sat him down, and told him I could heal on my own just fine without him having to do so much for me. God, I really just wanted him to be the same old Lucas that I knew. and fell in love with, cause this super caring one felt as if I was.... pitied or something, but when I told him, he didn't take it seriously, and volunteered himself even more, and I...I was suppose to be happy that someone cared about me, and do
"We all have different kind of poison, the one that's mild, the one that makes you dizzy, but this one?...this one was the most toxic of them all...SOPHIE...Dark shade eyeglass- CheckBig hat- CheckUmbrella- CheckSelf esteem?....Self esteem- Not Check, cause it was ruined, completely, brutally, awfully ruined, cause ever since that damn day, which was two days ago. I have become some kind of spy that was literally masked up and hiding away, cause I might bump into him anywhere, and...and God, so far am literally going mad, cause I remembered that diary also contained how my high school life was a crampYes and like a pathetic side character, I didn't had some fairytale back in high school, hell no!, all I had was fucking shit, suffering, and oh, I even got bullied too, and it was like the main thing that reduced my self esteem to nothingGod, it was that worst that I literally had to change the way I look, and become a change version of me, but the heart always remembers the bad
SOPHIELike in every drama series, and novels, there is always a side character that would fulfill the author's wish, and sometimes help unite the main characters together...In this novel, I was that pathetic useless side character, and I knew it. I knew I was the girl who doesn't, and would never ever get the guy that she choses to like, cause I am no main character, or special person, but nevertheless, I would still give a brief introduction about myselfAm Sophie, and am literally dying a silent killing death, cause...it might be outrageous and completely odd and the most stupidest thing any side character could ever do, but am just going to confess either way...I have liked Lucas for so long...No, I am literally crazy for him, and Yes, it was that same Lucas that I was his drinking buddy, that same Lucas I had advice on how to win that cold guy Elias over, and heck yeah, it was that same red hair, green eyes Lucas that I had a big fat crush onYes, I do know it's so wrong and stup
LUCASWe stared at each other for some time in silence, and I guess this was truly what people called another definition of love: To stay in silence with your lover, and not feel awkward in the slightest about it, cause we both enjoyed the peace we felt by just looking at each other.The peace that I wished could go on forever and ever, cause I swear I was truly satisfied with it, but in the end, I was the same one who broke the silence, cause I wasn't the type that kept his complete feelings and thoughts hidden, so I just had to let him know what I had decided"Elias"I called out his name, and he looked at me immediately, and stopped playing with his thumbs like a cute little baby he was, but I didn't let his cutest get into my head, cause I didn't wanted to make any mistake, hell no...I wanted to be as serious as I could ever be"I have decided that I want to help you..."I blurted out to him, but damnit!, it didn't come out right like I had wanted it to be, and it obviously made El
ELIASI stared at the ceiling of the damn hospital, and feel angry with myself, cause even though I hated it, I still hopped my little legs to this damn place today, but when I thought to through, I guess I did that, because I didn't wanted to die, cause...cause I had a purpose to live now, regardless of all my fucking demonsLucas was my purpose, and the only one that I wanted to live for.As I thought about all this things, and kept on looking at the ceiling lifelessly, the door clicking sound brought me out of my thoughts, and made me immediately wipe the tears that had gather in my eyes away, cause I didn't wanted Lucas to see me cry, and become suspicious that something was wrong with me, but when I saw the nylon that contained some shitty pills that he carried in his hands, I knew the drama was over, he already knew my trauma, but....but I still wanted to play dumb in case he might still believe me over the doctorsI know I know it sounded so stupid, but I gave it a try, and imme
LUCASI looked at him with my shakily swollen eyes immediately I barged into his ward, and it made him startled, but he didn't say anything to me, no....He just looked at me in the eyes as well, but it was only for some seconds before looking away from me, and it made me realize that he regretted it...Regretted landing in the hospital, regretted being the cause of the heartbreaking look I wore on my red face, and it was all I wanted to know, that he still actually cared about me, and was hurting too probably as much I was, so I didn't yell at him like I had told myself I would do if I find him, cause it would be the most stupidest thing to ever do, especially now that his dark barely alive eyes told me that he needed me, even though he didn't say the words out loud, so I walked up to him, sat on the side of his bed, and took his cold palms into mine"It's alright..."I knew I should have been the most comforting I could ever be, and I should have literally been the prince who saved the
LUCASI arrived at the lecture room an hour before the lecture started, so I had a lot of time to talk to my new gossip buddy about everything, and when I mean my new gossip buddy, I mean the blonde hair beaming Sophie, who was waving happily at me with a sly smile on her face, cause she could already figure out that something was upGosh, am I really that easy to read?I thought to myself as I walked up to her, but immediately I did, she pulled me to the chair next to her, and whispered into my right ear"Tell me everything, now!"She commanded impatiently, and I guess it was normal for her to react that way, cause when I woke up that morning next to Mr. boyfriend, I had literally panicked, and typed to her about a little bit of my crisis about waking up next to Elias, but I swear I didn't tell her that we...that we did it, had sex, cause I thought it might be weird to say that, and I would have just be blabbering early in the morning, but now I guess I was wrong, cause the look on he
[Prepare you tissues darlings, you might need it]…"How does it feels like to burn, not in fire, but in hot dripping larva...How does it feels like to be lost, with not a single sense of direction...How does it feels like to want to tear your heart out, and rid of yourself of every single shit called emotions and feelings...How does it feels like to be lifeless and feel at peace like that is what you always wantedNot to go deep, What is the even the definition of peace?What is love?And what is happiness?...I don't know all this things, and to say I have ever even felt it was when I was a kid, you know innocent and all naïve, but now?, now it is something forbidden, and rather replaced with the feeling of been buried in a water, the feeling of drowning, suffocating, dying, even though you are livingI knew it all too well...A feeling that tore me apart, broke me into pieces, and made sure there was not any single remains leftA feeling that no fucking amount of shitty "Sorry" c...
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