BOYFRIENDS

LUCAS

I stared at my red face in the mirror of the bathroom, and felt like I was going to explode any minute from now. Why?...

It was because I didn't really know if what happened last night really happened, or if it was all the effect of the alcohol I had drowned myself with.

"Yes it was a dream, right??"

I asked myself, and almost concluded that it was, but when my eyes diverted down to my empty bare chest, I think otherwise again, cause I normally don't sleep with only boxers on, also...also I woke up this morning next to him, and...and....

"Oh fuck!"

I rubbed my forehead, and stopped brushing my teeth, cause I...I couldn't fucking concentrate about any single thing apart from that thought...that thought that was enjoying making me this mad, but...but I couldn't stop thinking, and overthinking, cause if what happened last night truly did happened, what if he denies everything, or tell me that it was some kind of goodbye sex before he kicks me out of this room today, huh?

I rubbed my forehead harder, and looked at my reflection, but all I saw was a sad confused puppy who didn't know what to do

A PUPPY!...

His voice immediately sang in my head, and I remembered how he had called me that last night, but still couldn't figure out if it was a dream or not, or if he only did that to discard me today in the name of "I hate you", cause having your first time with the person you really really like sounded too good to be true, so in the end, I decided to have my bath, and just run away before he would wake up, so that I would have some time to think clearly about what happened, and what to do next

Deep down, I also wanted to avoid him, until I had placed my thoughts back in order, and was completely ready to face him, but what happened in the shitty end?...

In the shitty end, and immediately I opened the door to take some clothes to put on, cause I had literally grabbed the wrong set of clothes...

God, I opened the door, and wanted to quickly put on my clothes and flee like a damsel in distress, I saw him face to face, I saw him, the one I wanted to literally run away from

Damnit, what kind of freaking karma is this, when I did nothing wrong to anybody, huh?"

I screamed inwardly to myself as I quickly looked away from his face, and swallow hard

Ain't I screwed now?

....

ELIAS

We did it...the last night, or should I say I did it to him, I finally confessed what I really felt about him, and made him literally have sex with me. I know, I know that I might have completely ruined my bad boy image, and fallen slave to love once again, but I don't care anymore, cause I believed, I knew that Lucas was different and the one for him.

I thought to myself and God, that sounded so fucking cheesy, but I meant it, and to say that having sex with him was the best thing ever, was an understatement, cause I felt so much, so freaking much more for a guy that I didn't even know the exact particular time I fell in love with, and trust me when I say am damn happy that he is mine now, and that I was brave enough not to let him go

Yes, I know I should literally hate myself for not bottling up the feelings for him, and it might be so stupid that I didn't let him go, when he finally wanted to get out of my hair at last, but the truth was that I didn't wanted to do that anymore, and I really didn't wanted to be the bad guy to him, no matter how stupid I may look. Yes, I can still hate everyone, the whole world even for giving me so many trash in life, but he was an exception, and the little 1% that wasn't cramp to me

As for that bastard words to stay away from Lucas, fuck that damn Eliot, cause I have had enough of him, and decided I won't ever let Lucas go, even if it meant it made the demons inside me grow angrier, even if it meant our happy ever doesn't even last forever. Cause hey, if we can be happy even for a little while being together, am satisfied

I tell myself, but myself immediately faded away and twisted, when I realized that I was only thinking about all I wanted all this while, and if Lucas actually liked what we did last night, and if....if

"Damn, he wasn't going to play dumb or regret it and reject me, was he?"

I literally blurted out and asked myself immediately I thought about the other side of the coin, and it kinda made me so fucking confused, and scared at the same time about exactly what we even were to each other, cause even though I had told him I loved him last night, he...he didn't really say it back, and I was scared, damn scared if he rejects me mercilessly, cause fuck!, it would literally kill me, it would literally kill anyone to get rejected by the one they love, especially after having sex and giving away your virginity to them

Yes, am not a big tough guy after all, cause he made me realized that I could still feel things for someone, and honestly, if he really rejects me, I seriously would not know what to do next, or which direction to take. God, it would be so fucking pathetic, and the hunter (me), would become the crushed prey

Damnit, why didn't I secretly recorded him last night, so that I can blackmail him if he rejects me

I thought to myself, and rubbed my forehead with my right palm, but when I think it through again, it made my eyes widen, cause I actually sounded like some kind of real psychopath for thinking that, a real psychopath that he always calls me, but why should I even care about being a psychopath or not, cause I literally don't know what to do anymore

I thought harder to myself, and tossed the pillow angrily to the side, but got more angrier and kinda sad that he wasn't sleeping next to me anymore, like he had did last night, and it kinda wanted to make my inner demons take over again, cause I was weak, and sad, and a love mess, but....but I didn't wanted it to happen, I didn't wanted to hear those damn voices today, until I found him, and clear things up, so I get up from the bed as fast as I could with only the boxers I was wearing, but I didn't care, cause I was alone in the room, right?

I thought to myself as I rushed to the bathroom to have my bath, and search for my target, but I ended up getting the shock of my life, when I watched the door open, and him come out from it, with only a pair of boxers on, a different type of boxers than what he was wearing last night, and his wet body...and...and...Damnit!, I scanned my awful perverted eyes on his body and his face, and heard my mind scream out to me that he was just like a hot desert, but immediately my eyes went back to his face, and pierced with his, his ears turned red, and he looked away from me, but it makes me feel ...hurt

"Was he really regretting everything?"

I asked myself and couldn't help to feel like I had just being stabbed right in the heart

...

LUCAS

I saw him, and immediately looked away, but it wasn't that I regretted having sex with him, hell no, I didn't regret one bit of it, but I looked away, because...because seeing him first thing in the morning after giving my virginity to him, made my heart pound rapidly in a way I never even knew it could, but it did, so I looked away so that I just don't die

Yes, I knew it was completely foolish to be like me, to be falling for someone the more when you weren't even sure anymore, if they would regret it and kick you out of their room, but trust me when I said I couldn't stop my heart from racing, it was like some kind of automatic act that I couldn't control...

An automatic act that made me blush harder, cause he was standing right in front of me, but when I finally looked back at his face, and saw the hurt expression he was trying so hard to hide, decorated all over his face, I immediately realized he misunderstood the whole thing already, and was kinda probably thinking what I had being asking myself as well

God, did he really think I was regretting everything?

I asked myself, and immediately parted my lips to tell him that wasn't the case at all, and instead I was the one that was hoping he wasn't regretting everything, but...but but before the words could leave my lips, he firsts me to it

"You won"

I heard his voice, he said, and looked at me with an unsure hurt look on his face, that made me lift one of my eyebrows up immediately, cause I really didn't know exactly what he was talking about, but he quickly made it clear to me

"You won the deal"

He completed his sentence, and placed his right hand at the back of his head, and smiled at me a little sad smile, before looking away from my face, but...but it was difficult for me to keep a straight face, and hold back my laughter, cause he was so fucking cute when he said that, but at the same time the look he had on his face told me he was damn serious about what he was saying

"So if you still want to leave me, you can do that"

He whispered the last words out, and looked into my eyes in a serious way, when deep down he knew he didn't wanted that, and the most cutest thing of them all, was that he even let out a deep breath as soon as he was done speaking, or should I say immediately he was done blurting out that rubbish to me, cause it felt like rubbish in my ears, cause I didn't wanted that either, when infact I was the one that was silently praying for him not to kick me out of the room.

Anyway that was the climax, cause I knew how hard it was for him to tell me that, because he didn't wanted to force me to stay, and it would be cruel, so cruel for me to confuse him anymore, and play games with his heart.

Yes, and at first I thought it would be the other way round, and I would be the one that would be telling him not to leave me, but he instead chose to show this vulnerable side of him, and hell no, I wasn't going to let it be in vain, so I took a step, and moved closer to him, and it made his eyes widen, but I didn't care cause I wanted to show how much I loved him, and decided that actions were far better than words to convey it, so I...so I became bold and brought him to myself, and held his waist tightly, and when my lips touched his, I saw how his eyes instantly closed shut, and inwardly, I...I was bursting with so much joy, cause I honestly can't love him less, especially when he shows this cute version of him

"I can't leave you, cause I like you so much"

I whispered into his left ear when I broke the kiss, and loved how his entire body shivered at my words, and...and I wanted to enjoy more of his reactions, so I kissed his nose, and looked at him in the eyes

"So be my boyfriend already Elias, hmm?"

I was bold again, I really was, and said to him as I looked at him in the eyes and held his waist tighter, and my lips smiled wider when I saw how his blue eyes widened again. I knew he must probably be having an hurricane of emotions inside, I was too actually, and couldn't even still believe the fact I asked him that, but I don't regret it, I don't regret it one freaking bit, cause I want to him in my hands and protect him forever, and I wanted the whole freaking world to know that he was mine now, and when I mean the whole world, I meant that fucking bastard, Eliot, and anyone else that had bullied him, and made him feel worthless

"They are all really such shitty fools!"

I yelled out inwardly to myself, but I immediately slapped the thought out of my head, cause I didn't wanted my anger to reflect on my face, so I slapped it away, and looked back at his face for an answer to my question, and his face...his face was actually blushing for the first time ever, the tip of his nose were all red, and so where his ears, and I couldn't help but to scream "Cute!" inside my mind, and hold tighter this perfect pretty blushing blue eyes guy closer to me

"So...so tell me, what would the answer be?"

I whispered into his left ear again, cause I loved the reaction he made last time, but this time, and when I did that, he chose to make my heart dance more, use his cold palm to cup my face and crash his lips right on mine

"Yes"

He mumbled in between kisses, and it made my lips smile out, but I didn't wanted him to break the kiss, so I kissed him back some more, until we both lacked of air, it was only then did he ended the kiss

"Damn..."

He whispered out and hugged me tight like a little kid, and I bet he did that so that I don't see his blushing face and laugh at him, but I couldn't help to grin, and hug him tighter, but when I did, he immediately pulled me away abruptly from himself, and it made one of my eyebrows arch up

"It's...it's something wrong?"

I asked him, even stammered out midway, cause I didn't wanted it to be some kind of fairytale that I had just woken up from. Hell no, I would literally die...

"It's nothing"

His voice broke into my thought and reminded that I wasn't dreaming, and those words...those words he told me immediately, and looked into my eyes, and it kinda made me scared again about what he was going to say next, but I didn't let him see it, or else he might keep his mouth shut, and bury his words to himself

"I know..."

He paused his sentence and sighed out

"I know that I shouldn't have snooped through your stuff, but it's just that your grades are messed up"

He confessed out to me, but I breath out peacefully at last immediately I realized that was all that little blue eyes snooper wanted to say

Don't worry, I also snooped through your stuff, and read your book again, even though you clearly told me that you would disorganize my head from my body if I ever did that again

I looked at him with a cheesy smile on my face, but I didn't say that out loud to him, Never!, cause he might still cut my head off if I told him that, so instead I nodded my head, and agreed with his words, cause he was right, thinking about whether he liked me or not made me lose focus and killed my grades, but I was sure I was going to build them up now that my boyfriend was by my side (Men, that sounded really cheesy, but I don't care though)

Let me be cheesy and sheepish all I want, cause no one would stop me

"I can build mine up again in a jiffy, but look whose talking, your grades are even much worst than mine"

I laughed out, and told him, no I mocked him, and it made him pot his lips like a baby as he tries to speak, to protest maybe, but I don't let him do that

"Shush, I must see you in the lecture theatre today"

It was a command, not a promise, and after giving me puppy eyes for a bit, he finally gave in

"Ugh, Fine!"

The lazy Elias mumbled out frustratedly, and I immediately pecked his lips, cause he was just so cute, even when he was frustrated, and I was really glad I did so, cause pecking him made him brighten up immediately

"Just go"

He stops holding my waist, and shoos me away immediately I had put on my clothes.

He shooed me cause he was blushing again, and I don't protest, even though I wanted to spend more.....In fact, I wanted to stay in the room, and talk to him forever, cause deep down I didn't wanted to attend that fucking lecture, but I just had to go, cause of my shitty grades

"Damnit, if only our grades were perfect, we would have skipped today"

I argued with myself, but I didn't wanted him to know, so I kept on smiling back to him until I slide my bag sideways on my body, and headed for the door, but before I walked out, I turned around to look at him, and whispered out "I must see you in class Mr."

I said to him, even though I might have sounded like a mom, but I didn't care, nor did I regretted it when I saw how his ears turned red again

"Okay Mr. Lucas, or should I say boyfriend Lucas"

He teased me back with his tomato face, and it made me laugh out (Men, I want to go hug and kiss him again), but I can't, or else we would both get carry overs, my scholarship might be taken away from me, and my dad would literally skin me alive

I can't let it happen, so I just waved at him, and close the door gently, but immediately I did that, it killed me, it killed me so much, cause I so badly wanted him, No....He was my freaking addiction, but I just had to go