CRUSH...ED

ELIAS

....

Dawn set in, and I look like a complete mess, so I returned back to the room, and took a shower, even though I didn't wanted to see his damn face, cause it reminds me how he was playing with my feelings, or should I say how he HAD played with my feelings, cause I won't ever let him again, never again, but before I could leave the room, the shit woke up and stopped me.

"You're back!"

He exclaimed, his voice high pitched, and hugged my back, he dared to, and if I was the same damn fool, I would have smiled inwardly and believe that he missed me and was happy now, but I wasn't a fool anymore, and I bet all this was just a damn act, so I push him away from myself, and turn around to see his stupid face as he fell to the floor.

He had this confused, surprised look on his face, and I guess it was because he might have thought we were already friends, but we ain't, we would never fucking be, and the best part is that he would leave here soon, cause 2 more days, and the week would be over, so as the damn deal

Now that I think of it, am glad he volunteered himself to leave this room if he failed, such an idiot

"Stay the fuck away from me"

I returned back from memory lane, and spat out those words to him, his face, before immediately leaving the room with a pissed expression decorated on my face, cause I was angry, so fucking angry, but...but what I was really angry about was the fact that it kinda fucking hurt me a little when I shouted at him, and watch him look at me that way, but...but I am...I am going to have to put myself together, or else my demons would mock me again.

"Put your damn self together, cause you ain't a fucking weak dumbling, God!"

I yelled out inwardly to myself as I made my way to the lecture, even though it was in my dictionary to never attend it, it's just that this time I attended it, so that I could occupy my mind with some other shit than him, but in the fucking end, I wished I didn't, cause not only did that good for nothing scumbag followed me like a lost confused puppy to the lecture theatre, and sat down a few seats that wasn't far from mine, but also did the damn old shit of a lecturer just had to ruin my entire already mess up life again

"On Monday, you all would give a presentation based on what I have taught you so far, so am pairing you up..."

He said, no he blurted out thoughtlessly and at that very point I wished I could disappear from the class, but his next words made me wish I was literally stabbed and killed right here, right now

"Listen to your names, cause you would be working together....

"Samantha and Beatrice

George and Kelsey

Milo and Jamie

Mirah and Axel

Elias and Lucas

Steve and...

ME AND LUCAS!??!!!

I yelled out loud angrily and banged my table hard, without caring that he was the fucking lecturer and I was the student here, and that I also literally just did that right in front of every shitty body, cause I cared less about their shitty opinions, but all he did was nod his dumb head calmly

"You heard me right!"

"Now sit down, or leave..."

He commanded me, he fucking commanded me (Some guts), and kept all with the name call, but I wish I could literally stab my pen in his damn throat, cause why on fucking earth did my name had to be paired with his, that shitty Lucas, of all people, WHY!!!

....

LUCAS

"ME AND LUCAS??!!!

He yelled out, stood from his chair, and hit his palm on the table, Yes he literally did it in front of the entire class, and it made some shitty people gossip, but I don't care about what anyone thought about us, because all I cared about was how angry he was when he yelled out, as if I was some kind of virus.

God, it hurts, and I feel so fucking sad, cause I thought...I thought that we were finally becoming close, or at least more than strangers who once hated each other, but this morning told me a different story.

I remember how he pushed me away, and told me to stay away from him with disgust, and some kind of pain in his eyes, and seriously, I couldn't take it off my mind ever since then, cause I really don't know why he was hurting, or what was hurting him to begin with. What even makes me want to lose my mind more, was that this fucking week reminds two stupid more days, and if our relationship keep draining like this, I might have to move out of the room, cause I had promised him that, even though I like him so fucking much.

All this made me so so sad, and made me fed up with my dramatic not so perfect life, but still I wanted to talk it out with him, and trust me when I say I literally actually wanted to say something immediately the lecture was over

"Elias..."

I called out to him, but he tried to walk away, so I immediately rushed up to him, and made him look at me in the eyes, his blue eyes had that same hurt expression that crushed me, but I was going to talk it out with him.

I told myself inwardly, but before I could as much say anything else, some damn brown hair guy who came from literally god knows where, just had to butt in, and interrupt me. Fuck!

"I know you are uncomfortable with this dickhead"

He glared at me with a wicked smile playing on his lips, and literally called me a dickhead, even though I had no clue who the fuck he was, so I shifted my attention back to Elias, and ignored the animal's words, even though it made me so mad, but I didn't chose to react, cause I didn't wanted to punch his damn face

"Elias..."

I called out to Elias again, and tried to hold his hand, so that I could take him away from that shithead asshole, but...but Jesus Christ, the brown hair literally stopped me from doing that, and interrupted again, and this time, Oh God this time I was really angry that I swear I wanted to punch him, I knew he noticed that too, but he, that fucker who was keen on pissing me, an innocent stranger off, curved his lips a little, and smiled out

"You don't have to do the project with him, because I can tell you are uncomfortable"

"WHAT THE HECK!!!"

I lose my cool at last, and yelled out angrily, and it made Elias look at my face, I guess it was because he probably might not have seen me this angry before, but fuck I was boiling like larva, but Elias didn't even say anything to me, but looked back at him, and in that exact moment, I died again.

"I would just skip the damn presentation"

His voice was low...cold...and didn't look fine.

Fuck, I watch him look at that nuisance, and found it difficult to speak, and it made me feel at ease a little, cause I realized he wasn't comfortable with this fucking stranger, just like I wanted, so I tried to touch his hand again, and take him away, but immediately my palm as much touches his, he yanks his hand away from me, and made my heart sink like stone

"Don't touch me!"

He spat out, and looked at me in the eyes, with the same hint of pain that I could, I might never be able to figure out

Why are you doing this to me, Elias?, and why aren't you telling me....

Do you gain pleasure from staying quiet, huh?

It hurts, it hurts so bad...

My heart arched, cause of his action and it made me break down, that I literally wanted to ask him why he was treating me like shit again, in front of that brown hair animal, without caring

"Why..."

My voice was low, shaking, and filled with all my pain, but I wanted to let him know, but in the end, that was all I could say before that asshole butted in again

"See, I know you are uncomfortable with this red hair British"

Brown hair animal chuckled out as he spoke, before flashing me a mocking glare as he called me British, even though he knew I hated that, but he didn't care, fuck who was he to ever have any conscience whatsoever.

I thought to myself as I tried to fight the urge not to punch him, but he chose, in the end, he finally chose to show me he could stoop so fucking low, and be much much worst

"So, be my partner instead, hmm?"

He, that fucker literally said out to Elias, and it made both of us look at him much more longer than before, but his gaze was on his target, Elias. To him, I was nothing

"After all, we were a thing before"

He moved closer to Elias, and whispered into his left ear.

Dear readers, when I watch him move close, it broke me into complete pieces, you know like ice that was tossed out of a room window, cause I hated it, and didn't wanted another to be near him other than me, cause he was mine alone.

Yes, I was fucking jealous, and boiling like larva, but immediately I heard that little piece of trash whisper those words out in a way that I would hear as well, my anger knew no bounds, cause the puzzle finally fell into the place, and I realized it was literally him, that same shitty trash that Elias had wrote about, that same shitty trash that fucked up, and broke Elias's heart once, and God, I couldn't take that, even though I promised I would keep a low profile and not result into violence.

To be the most straightforward I can ever be, immediately I realized it, I broke that damn promise, and push me away from my Elias, cause I didn't wanted Elias to have anything to do with a fucked up asshole like him, but hell no, I didn't stop there.

Immediately I separated him from my man, I punched his damn face hard, and damn, it felt so right

"Stay away from my..."

I yelled out, and almost said my man, but even though I stopped myself before I could, that fucker figured out what I wanted to say, and it made me literally chuckle that same damn way that always makes my blood boil, even though I literally just punched his face

"Why don't you choose then, hmm?"

After some minutes of silence, he lifted one of his eyebrows, and spoke out to Elias

"What?"

Elias immediately snapped back coldly at him, cause I bet he wasn't enjoying any of this either, but that fool just had to be keen on being an asshole

"Choose, if you don't want me to punch his pretty little British face back"

He spoke out again, and it sounded like a shitty command, but I wasn't scared, cause I knew if he actually punched me back, I would fight back, so I wanted to stand in front of Elias, and let that shit just face me directly cause I wasn't scared of a fucking asshole like him, but before I could, Elias stops me with his hand, and looked at my face.

He looked at my eyes, drowned in them even, and made my heart race awfully fast, and made me think that he was actually going to chose me, that...that I had literally won against his fucking ex, but I thought to quick, and it all sank immediately he broke the eye lock, and looked away from me, back to him.

"Be my new partner, but your old partner that you are abandoning, would be his"

He said it, but to me, it didn't sounded like he was talking about partners, and it killed me, it killed me like as if I was being stabbed in the heart over and over again, but he said it either way, and turned around, and vanished away from the both of us, before I could say anything, before I could think about exactly what just happened....He vanished away, and it made me realize that not only we were not friends, but also did he really considered me worst than his freaking ex

"I was worst than the brown hair, how?"

I asked myself, as I clenched my fist to stop myself from crying, cause this was like a rejection, the rejection that I had thought wouldn't hurt like this, but it did, it did so much, and that fucking shit made it worst

"Am sorry bro, but he had made his choice"

That fool moved closer to me, patted my shoulder, and whispered out to me. He fucking tried to sound sympathetic, but I knew that deep inside him, he was laughing hard, and mocking me, but he didn't stop talking

"So quit following his tail like a lost puppy, cause a devil, and a human can never be anything to each other"

He fucking said again, it made me lose control, so I punched his face angrily, and like I had freaking wanted to do again

"Damn you!"

I yelled out as I held unto my broken heart that was hurting so bad, but when he looked back at me, all he had on his face was a useless smile

"It hurts doesn't it, huh?"

He spat out at me, and tries to touch my face, but I shifted back away from him, and clenched my fist tight

"Leave, you fucking dick!"

I clenched my fist harder, and swore out to him, but he only laughed it all up

"Am already going, but before I do, I just want to let you know that Elias name sounds a whole lot better with Eliot, not some Lucas British!"

He moved away from me with a mocking smile playing on his lips, and fled away, before I could hit his damn face again, but immediately he was gone, all my anger melted away, and got replaced with pain, deep fresh pain like a knife being stabbed in my heart.

I hated it, I hated it so much, but hated more that I was really foolish enough to like a heartless guy like Elias, but in the end, and no matter how much I tried to make myself hate him for this, the more I wanted him, and try to see him in a different light...

The more I drank the poison, even though I knew it would end me!