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"Not all stories have their damn happy endings, and sometimes the ones that we actually claim to be "Happy", are literally the ones that lies the most shitty pain....So is love really worth it, huh?...."I want to go home" I mumbled under my breath with so much pain and anger, as I kept on staring blankly outside..."Am sorry it's didn't work out like expected" His warm voice called out, but still that didn't make me feel any less bitterness...No never!...I bet he doesn't even have an idea of the shit I go through every darn day because of those bloody bastards....They all fled after they made mom decide to end her shitty life, I ain't gonna spare them now, it's going to be either I die, or they will, either way, No one would ever make it out alive, No one...."Ivy....Are you okay?" His voice reluctantly pulled me out of my misery, as I kept on staring blankly outside the window...."Just drive" I mumbled under my breath, with so much lifelessness already in my bitter voice ..."Look, am sorry"...."Damn, would you stop saying that shit already" I yelled out angrily....I...."Just take me home, please, I need to calm down" I pleaded frustratedly, as I kept on staring at the already darken sky, that matches perfectly with my hole fixed heart, but now there wasn't actually a word from him, as slowly guilt hit me right on the chest...."Am sorry I yelled out at you" I confessed, still feeling so frustrated with every shitty thing that was actually happening, as I stared blankly at him, as a little smile creeped right on the corner of his lips..."I just want you to know one thing....That I understand what this actually means to you"...His voice echoed right into my heart, as I immediately stared at him, with so much confusion and emotions rushing down to me, making a little blank frown appear on my face...."As much as I hate to admit this, She's damn right, you shouldn't really be helping a girl like me" I blurted out, staring blankly straight into his already widen eyes, cause I actually heard the shit that happened there, when they thought that I had finally left...."I...."Stay away from me, cause I am a psycho" I replied, still staring coldly at him, as he kept on fixing his gaze right on mine...."I can't" He blurted out, after some minutes of silence, as I frown my face the more...."Why?"...."Cause I like you that way" He mumbled silently, as a little smile slowly creeped on his face, before finally starting the car, as I stayed in absolute confusion for some damn minute....His words, I hate it, I mumbled under my breath, before slowly drifting my gaze back at him...."Can I ask a question" I blurted out, as he quickly glance at me, before drifting his gaze back on the road, as he quickly nodded his head gently, as I kept on staring at him blankly..."Why did you tell her that we were siblings, instead of just two random people" I blurted out, as he immediately arched one of his eyebrows, but decided to still keep calm..."Cause we aren't just two random people" He mumbled silently, as I kept on staring at him confusedly...."Still you could have said that"..."But I choose not to"...."Why?" I asked almost too quickly, as he immediately stopped the car under a little tree shade, as I questioningly stared back at his face blankly...."Why did you stop" I stared at him, with an obvious frown on my face...."Do you want a honest answer" He said, staring straight into my eyes, as I slowly nodded my head uncertainly...."Of course" I blurted out, as half of my brain kept on waiting for what he had actually wanted to spill out now, as I kept on staring blankly straight into his eyes...."I guess i was actually just been protective of you, I just can't tell that or any random stranger your actual name"... He mumbled as he kept on staring at me, with a little smile on his face, before slowly placing my hand on his, as he gave it a gentle squeezed, as I kept on staring blankly at him, cause I didn't actually know what to say next..."Is that the only reason" I asked, after some minutes of silence, as I kept on staring at him blankly, still so unsure of what I actually just voiced out.."Well I kinda also guess that some day, I'll end up getting married to you and it would be really awkward if I had said your actual name now", He blurted out, as I kept on staring at him..."Why are you so sure about the marriage" I asked with a mixture of anger and so many emotions racing inside my black heart ..."Shouldn't I be?" He asked, still holding my hand firmly, as I stared right into his light eyes lifelessly....."You'll end up getting disappointed" I mumbled with grit teeth, as I little smile slowly flashed across his face...."I don't care if you refuse me now, I would already keep on trying" His words rang into my brain, as I pressed my lips together blankly...."There's no place in my darn heart for love and nothing can change that, not now, not ever, cause it's bitter"... I mumbled, staring bitterly into his eyes....."But you always have a choice to decide"...."No, I don't" I replied, quickly looking away, as I pressed my lips together angrily..."All I want is revenge and that's all" I mumbled angrily back at him, but deep down it's strangely felt like I was trying to convince myself of something I really wasn't so sure of...."Are you falling in love with me?" He asked straight longingly into my eyes, as I my eyes quickly drifted away from his...."I want to go home" I mumbled silently, looking away frustratedly....."You didn't answer my question" His voice echoed out, as I kept on staring away...."Take me home, or l leave myself" I replied coldly, as he slowly let go of my hand, before finally starting the engines once again.....The remaining ride home was in absolute silence, as I slowly hopped off from his car to quickly leave ..."Wait.....I could hear his voice calling out faintly, as I hesitantly turned around to meet his light eyes once again..."Love just happens and you can't stop it" He blurted out with a little faint smile on his face, before immediately driving away, vanishing into thin air, leaving me doom with my own damn thoughts....What the fuck did he actually meant by that shit, I yelled out angrily, as I tried convincing my damn heart to just forget the shit he just said, but no, it didn't, as I kicked a peeble angrily....Arghhh, why does his words seems to have a shitty effect on me, I thought for a brief second, as I rubbed my head angrily.....He want me to feel this fucking way, he actually wanted me to, but I guess that he would be so disappointed cause, I can never fall in love, cause one thing is to fall in love and the next thing is heartbreak... Mom's love story never really did end happily now did it, so why on shitty earth do I want to witness the same thing, No never....He's wrong, cause if love seems to want to come into the picture, then kill it and focus on what you actually want and that's blood thirsty revenge...it's all I want and it's all I ever desire, there's simply no place for love in revenge, it just so impossible, I thought frustratedly, before finally heading home, with my boiling angry self........"I hide from you, you seek, I run, you find, When I smile, you caused it, I hate your aura, but it slowly drive me crazy every cursed day, I think am slowly losing it, but still I don't want to stop, Not one bit, not ever...I tell my darn self I hate you, but I don't think it's true anymore..........I placed my confused face flat on my bed, as all my darn emotions slowly flush through me, ranking my poor weary head more and more...I just really don't know whether I should cry or just vent out my anger and frustration on every darn thing, I just don't know.....What's wrong with me, I tell myself, as I could feel anger flooding through me once again, cause we actually just failed to find out any little piece of information about my mother...I thought angrily, as I kept on squeezing my pillow heartlessly, until the feathers begin to pop right out from it coverings....And oh to top it up, that fool's words keeps ringing on my head over and over again, I mumbled angrily to myse
....."You don't own me, I control my own feelings forever, and that's how it always gonna be, so love....Just get the fuck off my hair and finally let me be.....I think am gonna murder him now, but at the same time I just don't wanna and sadly, I really don't know why?...Am I actually going nuts or what the hell is happening to me now..........I marched out of my room in full speed, swiftly down the stairs, as I kept on tightly squeezing the life out of my jumpers, well not that it actually had one or whatever....All I could feel was my head constantly racking of what to actually say to aunt this time around, I rubbed my forehead for a brief second, as I kept on skipping most of the stairs....C'mon Ivy, just act cool and make up something to leave without shivering like a little pathetic leaf, I could hear my inner self yelling out to me, as I slowly breath out a huge sigh of determination over and over again...Before finally arriving down the stairs, with my eyes already quic
....."You walk into the dark, you should be prepared....You never know what you'll see, your wildest pain could just eventually come through, So what you gonna do?........."Ain't you coming in" He said, as I reluctantly hopped into the car, with the obvious frown still glued right on my face, before finally buckling in the seatbelts uncertainly...I guess I'll never know, until I get there, I repeated blankly to myself, as my dull eyes slowly drifted outside the window, to brace myself for the uncertain ride......."Why on earth have you brought me here" I asked, without wasting any more time, as I immediately hop out of the car, before staring blankly at him, with my already folded arms..."Cause of my dad" He replied absentmindedly, as he kept on adjusting his black t- shirt, but I ain't got time to sit back and just watch him make himself all pretty again...Not a chance, I thought frustratedly, before staring back at him with my already pressed lips..."What exactly do you me
....."Whispers, all I hear is whispers, They're fading, it's so faint and then it's gone....I thought this would be a whole lot easier than I thought, but I guess I thought wrong, and now damn memories keeps on dancing on my face over and over again..What to do now?.........."Whatever, partner in crime" I said, rolling my eyes, as I could see the smile on his face growing wider, before he finally stretched out his hand to me, that I reluctantly accepted, before finally walking along....I uncertainly placed my hand on his, as he led the way boldly, but to say the truth, all I felt was suffocated...Damn, this was going to be the second time that I would be at his house, but I already felt like it's the hundredth...Men, I really hate this place, especially that shitty fool that's unfortunately living here...I swear if I as much set my eyes on him, then it's going to be a massacre....I mean, how does this Charlie dummy tolerate that fool Ryan over and over again, I thought for a
....Things are happening, and I don't understand... Am confused and those teary feelings seems to be taken control of me....Watery eyes....Bitter eyes, this is so strange, but the more I drown, the more my bloody thirst strengthens......."How dare you come here" The faint voice yelled out, twisting my arm a whole lot tighter, as I slowly close my eyes, racking for the next thing to do, trying to regain my breath back....I have to do something, my head racked for a brief second, as I slowly let out a deep breath, before finally bracing myself to look round to see who it actually was....Hesitantly turning around, as my eyes slowly drifted up to the blurry image that was standing obviously boiling right in front of me, as my eyes slowly met up.....It was a man?, Well nothing special about that, but he was actually someone I've never seen before, that got my heart twisting....Tall figure, long black hair with beard eating up his face, covering almost all of his chin.....To think
..."This things I do not know, This feelings I've never felt before, this strange presence, I..Damn, I feel something, I really don't know what it is, it's eating me alive and all I keep on doing is to drown deeper.........."Well, here we are" His voice voice echoed, quickly bringing life back to me, as I slowly lifted my eyes up to stare at the old, but rather fascinating looking building...."Are you scared?" He whispered, as I slowly shook my head, before taking in a deep breath, with my already folded arms...."Am fine, Got it" I blurted out more coldly than I expected, before slowly drifting my gaze back at him, but he already looked away....Damn, I guess I was a little too harsh, my damn inner self spoke out, as I pressed my lips confusedly, before fiddling with my fingers frustratedly.."I...."C'mon let's go" He cuts me off, as I could tell the little hurt sound on his voice, but decided to wave it up, as I kept on looking away angrily...Damn, this is so pathetic, are we
...."The night comes, but the dead don't rest, neither do I....You want to kill me, break me, and cut me down, but if I cry, you'll bleed ......."I don't see the point saying I love you, when all you do is drift away the more I say it"...It was a whisper, but it felt a whole lot worst than that, as I could hear the words banging into my ears, watching his eyes flicker something so unexplainable, as well as my heart, that kept on ceasing all the damn words from coming outSomething's wrong, so wrong and I can feel it, it was from my heart, but oh God it's was just so shitty...."I .." I stumbled on my words, as the rest of the words got stuck on my eyes, that kept on staring in total confusion straight on his light, somehow magnetic ones...As he kept on slowly coming closer to me, but with every step he took, the more I stagger backwards, as my head kept on screaming just one, one life saving word to me..."RUN!" I could hear my inner self yelling out, as I cautiously took to my
...."You throw me into the ocean, am drowning, I should have knew...Five!.... Four!.... Three!.. Two!.... One!...Am.... dead!.......My heart was racing, but still I didn't stop, not for once, not ever...I could feel my legs flying, as I search for the way out of the emotional twisted warehouse, like a complete mad person that I actually am and hopefully I did, as I tried catching my breath, before heaving a big sigh of relief...Staring back at the warehouse, it was completely distant away from where I stood..Who knew I could ever run that fast, i thought, as I placed my palm at my forehead frustratedly, before looking away...Damn!, What the freaking hell just happened, I thought, as a wave of anger and confusion came clouding me, making my head hurt a whole lot worst than before...I want to fucking forget it, but no!, my damn mind will never let me, I would never rest after this crap, Never....I am helpless, Why God...My clumsy mind clouding so many thoughts at once, but w