CHAPTER TWO
Matapos ang gabing iyon ay nakatanggap na ako ng bouquet of bulaklak, everyday. Minsan pinapadala pa sa office ko, with sticky notes pa. I couldn't hide my happiness, I wanted to cherish every moment of him, so I kept the notes and put them in a notebook. I want to keep it. It's a sign of love.I believe that he’ll like me, agad. I am hardworking. Ideal woman, and definitely a wife. I will make Diego happy, and give him all my heart, and love.“ Happy ka girl? ” biglang sabat ni Dina, ang aking secretary, slash best friend. Ano na naman kaya ang nasagap nitong balita?“ Anong chismiss meron ka today? ” agad na tanong ko. Sekretarya kong marites kahit kailan, pero mabait naman yan at maasahan sa lahat.“ Hmm.. I just found out something intriguing, ” she said, and put the envelope in my table. Hindi ko alam kung ano na naman ang nasa isip nito, minsan kasi gumagalaw lang ito ng walang utos.“ Open it, sis. ” aniya. Bumuntong hininga pa ako bago ko pinulot ang envelope at binuksan ito. Nagulat ako sa aking nakita. I confusedly look at Dina.“ What's this? ” gulat na tanong ko sa kanya. She just shrugged her shoulders. “ Dina, ano to? Where did you get all of this? ” tanong ko ulit.“ I just want you to know that your future husband has a girlfriend, can't you get that? ” Hindi ko alam kung bakit ito ginawa ni Dina. Kinunan niya nang mga litrato si Diego, it's illegal.“ Dina, it's illegal, maaari kang mapahamak sa ginawa mo? ” Nag-aalala na wika ko, na may halong sakit sa natuklasan.Hindi ko alam kung totoo ba ang sinabi ni Dina, but why would Diego show interest in me if he has someone else? And why would he accept the marriage if he has someone else? Base sa litrato, they're sweet. The way he stares at her, shows how much he loves her.“ Baka kaibigan lang, Dina. Friends can be sweet, and clingy sometimes. ” kalmado na wika ko sa kanya. Inirapan niya lang ako, at halatang naiinis. I know why she doesn't like Diego since the day I confessed to her that I have a crush on him.“ Kaibigan? Girl, may kaibigan ba na nag se-sex? ” Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya. Mas lalo akong nasaktan sa aking narinig. “ Tulala ka jan, believe it or not, that Diego won't take you seriously. You're just blinded by love, ” galit niyang salita.Hindi na ako umimik dahil alam ko na lalaki lang itong usapan namin, at baka hindi na naman ako kausapin nito. Kaka-ayos lang namin kahapon, after I tell her that I accepted to marry Diego. It was not my plan to marry him, pero I want to give it a try and to make dad happy. After all, dad sacrifices everything for me. And helped me with my business, and I have learned a lot from him. Makabawi man lang ako, and sa deal nila ni Tito Edgar, bahala na si batman kung ano man yun.Lumabas na ng opisina ko si Dina. I keep staring at the picture, and wishing that one day I will also be part of him. Na makikita kami ng buong mundo na ikinakasal. I have been wishing to have an extravagant wedding, to let the whole world know that I am getting married to Diego Solise, isang anak ng sikat na bilyonaryo. And he is a billionaire himself.It's already eight in the evening, I haven't noticed the time because there is a lot of paperwork. I hurriedly left my office.I was in the parking lot, when I bumped into someone. Dahil sa pag mamadali ko hindi ko namalayan na may tao pala.“ Hala, sorry po. ” agad kong salita, and picked his cellphone. He wore a black suit. Leather jacket, and a helmet on his right hand.“ I was in a hurry, kasi eh. Pasensya na po talaga, hindi ko sinasadya, ” I said. He got his phone, and put it inside his pocket. He is tall. Has broad shoulders, has long legs. But, I can't clearly see his face, nakasuot kasi siya ng black mask.I smiled at him. But he didn't even bother to respond to me, and left me. Napangiwi naman ako sa ginawa ng lalaki na yun. Mukhang suplado. Medyo naiinis ako sa pag ignore niya sa akin, hindi ako sanay na ini ignore. Fame and everything is me. Fame. Money. I have it all.Agad na akong pumasok sa kotse ko, at umalis. Nakakainis yung lalaki kanina talaga. Hindi talaga ito mawala sa isip ko, lalo na ang mga mata nitong kulay asul. Infernes ang pogi niya kahit hindi ko naman talaga nakita ang buo niyang mukha. Hanggang dibdib lang ata ako nun, super tangkad din niya. Mas matangkad pa kay Diego. Pero mahal ko naman si Diego kaya height doesn't matter.Kinilig na naman ako sa tuwing naiisip ko siya. I badly want to see him, kaya lang busy siya these past few days. Kaya tanging papa-deliver na lang siya ng flowers. And sa picture, let's torment it kasi wala naman yung kwenta. Diego will be mine din naman, so I don't have to worry about it.Dumeretso na ako sa bahay nang madatnan ko ang mga kapatid ko na seryosong seryoso. Ano na naman problema ng magkapatid na ‘to?“ You're home, Ate. ” napa-taas kilay ako ng bigla akong tawagin na Ate ng bunso kong kapatid. Parang gusto kong matawa. Baka prank na naman to nila.“ Yes, why? ” Taas kilay kong tanong kay Mikey.“ Ate, since you're going to marry na, gusto namin na maging okay tayong lahat. I talked to ate Atacia, and Kuya Clifford. They agreed naman, Ate. ” Mikey said. Hindi ko alam kong totoo ba ‘to, pero kung plastikan naman pwede naman ako makipag plastikan.However, ayaw kong plastikin ang mga batang ‘to. They are too young, I have to be their role model. I have to discipline these brats, habang nandito pa ako.“ Mikey, Clifford, and Atacia. Umupo kayo. Nasaan si Tita Mel, and dad? ” tanong ko muna sa kanila.“ Dad, went to Batangas for a business meeting, and mom, she probably be in the salon again. ” Clifford answered. My forehead creases.“ Guys, ” simula ko. Tahimik naman sila. Atacia didn't even bother to look at me. Clifford was in his serious mood, and Mikey was listening attentively. “ As the oldest of this family, I am not against a villain na lagi ninyong sinasabi sa akin, ” simula ko.“ I am the daughter of Dad’s girlfriend, however my mom died before they could get married, so basically I become your illegitimate Ate. Ngunit hindi iyon dahilan upang magalit ako sa inyo, o sa mommy niyo. ” Mahabang wika ko.Atacia stares at me. She was the one who is good at scheming kaya lagi kaming nag-aaway ni Tita Mel. She's a spoiled brat. Atacia is a college student, together with Clifford. While Mikey is in grade 10. To be honest, I envied them. They had parents who raised them together, while me. I was raised by my nanny for 25 years.“ Ate, why are you saying this? We want to have a small talkie talkie, ” Mikey said. I secretly wiped my tears.“ I am saying this, dahil gusto ko lang malaman niyo na mahal ko kayo. Kahit hindi tayo magkasundo lahat. I understand. I don't want to get in your way, the reason why I always avoided you guys. Ayaw ko din na mag-away kami ni Tita Mel. Mahal ko si dad, and mahal ko kayo. I respect Tita, but I become a crazy person once I am being disrespected, ” ani ko.“ Ate, sorry. ”CHAPTER THREEI paused. Speechless. Emotional. Confused.I don't know how to react. For the very first time, Atacia Frowline apologized in front of me. Parang may kung anong matigas na biglang lumambot sa puso ko. Sa loob ng dalawangput isang taon, nagawa ni Atacia ang mag-sorry. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang maging reaksyon ko dahil hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa mag-sink in sa utak ko ang nangyayari. I still have doubts. What if it's just a prank? “ I know that I was so mean back then, I didn't accept you as my oldest sister. I was surprised back then, when dad took you home and said that you're my oldest sister. I was just ten, or eleven perhaps, when you became part of our lives. I got mad. I get jealous, and envied you for being a strong, independent woman. I just realized how amazing you are, that I must also rely on you. Pero habang iniisip ko na, kapag kinasal ka na ay aalis kana sa bahay ay parang may kung anong masikip sa puso ko, ” I got teary eyes. I want to hug her, and apolo
CHAPTER FOURNaging mas malalim ang halik ni Diego sa akin, I couldn't breathe but I didn't push him. Kusa na lang siyang bumitaw at tumawa. Nagulat naman ako sa kanyang biglang pagtawa at nakaramdam ng hiya.“ Sorry, I didn't stop myself. It's just because your lips are soft, and it's calling me, ” bulong niyang may halong pagnanasa. Napalunok naman ako ng aking laway, ang landi niyang tingnan. Shit. “ I can't wait to marry you, baby. Isang linggo na lang, at sa pagbalik ko, ayusin na natin ang kasal natin ha. ” anito. Ito na ba ang sinasabi nilang cloud nine? Ano ba tawag dun? Feels like cloud nine?“ S-sige, ayusin natin. ” pagsang-ayon ko sa kanya. Ngumiti siya at niyakap uli ako ng mahigpit, at sinubsub ang mukha niya sa leeg ko kaya nakikiliti ako. Pakiramdam ko tuloy ay mag-asawa na talaga kami. “ Boss, we can't be late. ” Biglang sabat ng secretary nito, halata naman na ito ang secretary niya. May tao pala sa kotse niya. Did he see the scenes, medyo nakakahiya. He scoffed.
CHAPTER FIVEHINDI ko na alam kung anong oras na, lasing na lasing na si Dina kaya minabuti na lang namin na umuwi. Mataas kasi alcohol tolerance ko kaya hindi ako agad nalalasing. Kanina pa kasi siya sayaw ng sayaw eh, naiinis ako kasi ang daming lalaki na lumalapit sa kanya at nanghihipo pa mga tarantado. “ Uwi na tayo, ” saad ko sa kanya at hinila na siya paalis sa dance floor. Nagpatangay naman siya sa akin, nang makalabas na kami ay may nakabangga akong lalaki. Sa sobrang lakas para akong tatapon, akala ko ay matutumba na ako kasama si Dina.“ Careful, ”bulong ng isang malamig, ngunit malalim na boses. Nag pantinagan ang aking tenga, naninindigan ang aking balahibo sa katawan, dahil sa boses nito. Hindi ko maiwasan na hindi ito tingnan, dun ko lamang napagtanto na may iba nang humawak kay Dina, at ako naman ay hawak ng lalaki sa aking bewang. Malapit na malapit lang ang aming katawan, ramdam ko ang kanyang hininga, at ang menthol scent nito na cologne ay mas lalong nag-palamig
A week without seeing Diego is a misery to me. I missed him so much. I still can't get his number that easy, I have to ask his relatives but I don't like them. They're so maatitude. I can wait naman so naghihintay ako kung kailan ko gusto, pero sobrang na-miss ko na talaga si Diego. Kumusta na kayo siya sa Dubai no, makakauwi na kaya siya today? One week lang naman yung business trip, I hope makakauwi na siya today. Nasa opisina ako nagbabasa ng ibang documents, may mga reports then about sa sales ng products namin. Reading some articles about our company, seeing how people positively giving comments, and their opinions means a lot to me. It just means that they like the products. As a business woman,. I have to know what other people prefer. The product they like, although hindi lahat ay nagiging masaya sa isang produkto pero hindi naman nagtatapos yun dun. Kaya nagsisikap din kami na mabigyan ng maayos na produkto at affordable ang mga kababayan. I have been in this business indus
Hindi ko alam kung ano nararamdaman ko ngayon, my dad greeted me today. It's my 26th birthday, and wasn't expecting na e-surprise nila ako. Tumayo ako mula sa pagkaka-upo, at hindi mapigilan ang mga luha na kumawala mula sa aking mga mata. Hindi ko kasama si dad buong buhay ko. I was already 23 when dad take me with him, kilala ko naman siya noon pa. Si Yaya Anne ang kasama ko buong buhay ko. She was like my second mother. Tumira na ako kay dad 3 years ago, at iniwan ang dating tahanan kung saan ako namulat sa katotohanan. At first, Dad tries to hide me from everyone. But, when I turned 18, he tells me everything. Ayaw kong magtanim ng sama ng loob sa kanya, hindi naman niya ako pinabayaan. Lumaki naman ako na maayos, at nakukuha rin ang lahat. Kahit palagi akong nakaranas ng pambubully ay hindi naman huminto ang buhay ko dun. I keep being a strong, independent woman, I never allow everyone to talk shit behind my back. At nakilala din ako ng lahat dahil ipinakilala ako ni Dad na anak
Gabi na at nandito na ako sa labas nang building. I was waiting for Diego. Kanina pa ako kinakabahan dito, at nanginginig na sa sobrang kilig, gusto kong tumili na parang ewan pero ayaw kong gawin yan dito sa labas nang building, baka ma viral pa ako gawin na katawa-tawa ng mga tao.Sobrang nakakahiya ata nun. Mapagkamalan pa akong gaga kapag ginawa ko yun. Diego texted me a while ago, that he will fetch me. At hito naman ako na sobrang excited bumaba agad nang building, kahit hindi pa tapos ibang files na kailangan pirmahan ko. Hindi ko maiwasan na hindi mapangiti. This night will be our first ever date.While waiting, patingin tingin ako sa aking paligid, ngayon ko lang napagtanto na may mga maliit na stores, and branch pala dito sa harapan ng building ko. Naalala ko dati may isang Nanay na nag-tayo ng kanyang tindahan dito mismo sa harap ko kung saan ako nakatayo. Ang sarap lang sa feeling, kasi hindi nawala ang pangalan ni Nanay Dona, at malaki na din ang tindahan niya.Si Nanay D
R18Bago pa matapos ang gabi ay inimbitahan ko si Diego sa aking kwarto. Unang beses kong nagpapasok ng lalaki sa aking kwarto. I told to myself, na ang unang makakapasok sa kwarto ko ay ang huling lalaki na aking mamahalin. And I am certain with that. I love Diego, kaya kong ibigay sa kanya ang lahat, at handa na akong isuko sa kanya ang bataan. Umupo siya sa kama at tahimik na nagmamasid. Nagpaalam na muna ako na mag shower lang saglit, tumago naman siya kaya iniwan ko na siya sa kwarto ko. Habang isa-isang hinubad ang aking damit ay biglang nag bukas ang pinto ng shower room. Gulat akong napalingon, and there I saw Diego. He was seriously staring at me. It was awkward, however I felt something strange. The feeling of wanting him. I was almost naked. Brassiere and undergarment left.He got inside without me saying a word. Maybe because I was actually waiting for him to come at me, and roughly kissed me. Pinned me on the wall. Harshly caressed my thighs, up to my mountain. I can f
He slowly slides his thing inside me. I feel the pain and hotness inside, huminga ako ng malalim ng mas lumalalim pa ito. It's too tight. At masakit. “ Are you okay? ” tanong niya sa akin. “ Medyo masakit, baby. Please, be gentle. This is my first time, ” sagot ko sa kanya. Bigla naman siyang huminto, at seryoso akong tiningnan. “ I will do it, slowly. I love you, baby. You're just so fuckin' wet, ” he said. Humugot uli ako ng malalim na hininga hanggang sa maramdaman ko na ito sa loob ko. Sobrang sakit. “ Shh.. it's okay, let's stay like this for a while until you can adjust. I don't want to hurt you, ” anito. He stayed for a minute, hanggang sa hindi ko na maramdaman ang sakit. He moved slowly. “ Is it still painful? ” tanong niya ulit. “ Hindi na. You can move now, ” agad kong salita. Alam kong nakakahiya ang position ko ngayon pero bahala na. This is it. Nagsimula na siyang gumalaw na hanggang sa pa-bilis na ito ng pa-bilis. Hindi ko naman maiwasan ang hindi umungol, “ shh