Chapter one
“ Dad, I made up my mind po, ” I nervously said to my dad, who's busy reading the newspaper. He lifted his face and confusedly looked at me.“ I am accepting to marry Mr. Solise, ” I said. His eyebrows furrowed.“ Is that all you have to say? ” Aniya, in his baritone voice. I nodded. Akala ko ay magagalit siya, because it's been three months since he asked me to marry his closest friend's son, Diego Draven Solise.“ Y-yes, dad. ” I know dad was disappointed, however, I can't deny the fact that I am head over heels, Diego. He was my long-time crush. My first love.“ That's a good news, Caroline. ” biglang naging masigla si Dad, and left me to his room. I followed him sa sala, and there hawak ang kanyang cellphone.“ Good news, Amigo. ” Masayang wika ni dad sa kanyang kaibigan. Si Mr. Solise lang naman ang tinatawag niyang Amigo everytime they talked. Ang daddy ni Diego, “ My daughter is accepting the proposal, so the deal is still good? ” kunot-noo kong tiningnan si Dad.Anong deal ang pinag-usapan nila? Dad hasn't said anything about the deal, or something, etc.Nakinig pa rin ako sa usapan nila dad, hanggang sa matapos na. I have to know kung ano ang pinag-usapan nila dad na deal.“ Dad, ano ang pinag usapan niyo na deal ni Tito? ” agad na tanong ko. Nilingon niya ako at hinawakan ang kamay.“ It was nothing iha, sa amin na lang iyon ng Tito mo. Prepare for tonight, honey. They’ll be here for dinner, ” Dad said, and left.Naiwan akong tulala, parang may hindi tama. Kaya siguro gusto ni dad na ipakasal ako kay Diego, dahil may usapan sila ni Tito Edgar. Dad knows that I like Diego for so long, however he didn't even bother, or care about it. Pero ngayon alam kong may binabalak si Dad. It is about business again, sigurado ako.Perp sige lang, makakasama ko naman si Diego habang buhay.Thinking about marrying him makes me giggle. Ano kaya ang itsura namin kung makasal na kami ni Diego? Will he be happy to have me?Dinner time…The family has arrived, they're elegant as usual, nothing's new to this family. They're the richest among other businesses I know. As a business woman, I know how people's minds go. But in this family, money is everything. They don't care if their businesses are flop, or successful. The Solise family has a bunch of businesses, however it keeps unsuccessful. Pwera lang sa isa, na nasa pamamalakad ng mag-amang Solise. Si Diego, at Edgar Solise. The other businesses they had ay parang katuwaan lang ng pamilya, hindi sila takot pumalya. At kahit pumalya man ang business na iyon ay mabilis din naman silang makakaahon, or makakabawi sa lahat ng ginastos nila sa business na iyon.Nahihiya akong e approach ang pamilyang ito, dahil sa sobrang taas nila sa kanilang sarili. Lagi nilang sinasabi na hindi daw kami magka-level ng kayamanan. Oo, mayaman sila. Pero mayaman din naman si dad, and my siblings are successful successors in the future,kung hindi mga tamad. And me, I build my own business without the help of those higher ups. Ibang businessman and woman ay umaasa lang din sa ibang mas mataas pa, they invested, but it got wasted kasi bigla bigla na lang pu-pull-out mga investors.“ Good evening, tita Melissa. ” bati ko kay Mrs. Solise. She just grinned at me.Sumunod na naman si Allisa. And as usual, lagi niya akong iniirapan. Sa kanilang lahat si Diego at Tito Edgar lang ang walang sayad sa pamilyang ito. I haven't seen, Diego baka late lang siya. Stiffany was here din, Kuya Harold, Kiefer din. Mga attitude na magkakapatid. Tito was talking to dad sa garden, I don't know kung ano pinag uusapan nila.“ Caroline, asikasuhin mo nga bisita mo. Why are you just standing there? ” Tita Andrea said. She's my stepmom. I have step siblings. Atacia, Clifford, and Mikey Frowline. Lahat din maatitude, pero ako mas matanda sa kanila.“ Tita, everything was settled, so please, stop commanding me. ” aniko at inirapan siya. We are not close to each other, we are like aso’t pusa everytime na wala si dad.She's a pretentious bitch.Nang nasa hapag-kainan na kami ay lahat tahimik, wala pa rin si Diego. It makes me sad, kasi I am really excited to meet him. Nasa edad na din naman ako eh. I am twenty-five years old already. Handa na din naman akong bumukod. Actually, having a family was not in my vocabulary, I know that time will come that I will need someone to be with. Pero hindi ko inaasahan na magkakagusto talaga ako kay Diego. And worst pa is I am in love with him.“ Sorry, iha.. if Diego was late. I am sure he is on the way, ” Tito Edgar said.“ Don't mind it, Tito. Okay lang po, ” I said and smiled sweetly.“ You're always the sweetest, iha. Diego will never deny someone like you. Independent. And at a young age, you already had a business, you're so hardworking. You're really something, unlike my girl. Party-goer. ” he said, which made his daughter roll their eyes at me, Stiffany.What a shame. I acted as if I am not bothered, pero gustong gusto ko na talaga tusukin mga mata nila. Lalo na itong si Stiffany, super m*****a para namang may binatbat, puro paganda lang alam, at TikTok. Anong business kaya ang alam nitong patakbuhin? Kairita.Nag-simula na akong kumain nang may biglang nag-interrupt. Ang gwapo ko palang mapapangasawa. I am so in love.“ Sorry, guys. It was a traffic jam, ” he said, and smiled at me. Oh my god. Akala ko lalabas na puso ko. Sa akin pa talaga nag smile.I tried to keep my posture, ayaw kong mag wala dito. Kinikilig ako ng sobra. Gusto kong sumigaw, tumuli, at mag wala. Fuxk. Ang gwapo, at ang hot pa. My Diego.“ You're here, iho. Have a seat, ” sabi ni Dad. Umupo naman si Diego sa aking tabi. I have to calm down.Huminga ako nang malalim at palihim na binuga ang hangin sa tagiliran ko na hindi nila nahahalata.“ Hi. ” I stopped. My breathing stopped. My ears are hot. And my heart beat is going crazy. His voice is so fuckin’ hot. Sheesh.“ H-hi, ” sagot ko naman na hindi pinapahalata kung gaano ako kinikilig.“ Kain kana, Iho. After this dinner, let's talk about your marriage. ” Tito Edgar said.“ Is this for real dad? ” tanong ng kapatid kong si Atacia, who has a crush on my future husband.“ Yes, Iha. This is the reason why we're here tonight, ” wika ni Dad.Bigla naman akong kinakabahan. Tahimik lang si Diego, hindi ko makita na masaya siya, maybe because he was going to marry me? And was forced?Nang matapos na kaming kumain ay nasa sala na kami. Lahat tahimik. Hindi ko rin alam kung ano sasabihin dahil ayaw kong pangunahan si Dad. I just hope na hindi ako magsisisi sa desisyon kong ito.I have no other intention, accepting it has also a benefit for our company. I think, bubukas naman puso ni Diego para sa akin. That he will love me, and accept me as his future wife. Mabait naman si Diego, magiging close kami. And he will fall in love with me.“ We already talked about the wedding, and Caroline, my daughter, she will set a date. ” Dad said. I was speechless,as they all looked at me.“ Uhm, I haven't had a date in mind, dad. How about you, Diego? ” nahihiyang wika ko.“ Next month, ” agarang salita nito. I don't know if he is serious or not, next month agad?“ Yes, pwede naman next month, habang hindi pa masyadong busy si Diego ay makasal na sila ni Caroline, ” pagsang-ayon naman ni Tito Edgar.“ So, it is settled? ” tanong ni Dad.“ It came from Diego, so it's settled. ” sabat ni Tita Melissa.Lahat ay sumang-ayon na. I know that this is my decision, at sana ay hindi ko to, pagsisishan.CHAPTER TWOMatapos ang gabing iyon ay nakatanggap na ako ng bouquet of bulaklak, everyday. Minsan pinapadala pa sa office ko, with sticky notes pa. I couldn't hide my happiness, I wanted to cherish every moment of him, so I kept the notes and put them in a notebook. I want to keep it. It's a sign of love. I believe that he’ll like me, agad. I am hardworking. Ideal woman, and definitely a wife. I will make Diego happy, and give him all my heart, and love. “ Happy ka girl? ” biglang sabat ni Dina, ang aking secretary, slash best friend. Ano na naman kaya ang nasagap nitong balita?“ Anong chismiss meron ka today? ” agad na tanong ko. Sekretarya kong marites kahit kailan, pero mabait naman yan at maasahan sa lahat.“ Hmm.. I just found out something intriguing, ” she said, and put the envelope in my table. Hindi ko alam kung ano na naman ang nasa isip nito, minsan kasi gumagalaw lang ito ng walang utos.“ Open it, sis. ” aniya. Bumuntong hininga pa ako bago ko pinulot ang envelope at
CHAPTER THREEI paused. Speechless. Emotional. Confused.I don't know how to react. For the very first time, Atacia Frowline apologized in front of me. Parang may kung anong matigas na biglang lumambot sa puso ko. Sa loob ng dalawangput isang taon, nagawa ni Atacia ang mag-sorry. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang maging reaksyon ko dahil hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa mag-sink in sa utak ko ang nangyayari. I still have doubts. What if it's just a prank? “ I know that I was so mean back then, I didn't accept you as my oldest sister. I was surprised back then, when dad took you home and said that you're my oldest sister. I was just ten, or eleven perhaps, when you became part of our lives. I got mad. I get jealous, and envied you for being a strong, independent woman. I just realized how amazing you are, that I must also rely on you. Pero habang iniisip ko na, kapag kinasal ka na ay aalis kana sa bahay ay parang may kung anong masikip sa puso ko, ” I got teary eyes. I want to hug her, and apolo
CHAPTER FOURNaging mas malalim ang halik ni Diego sa akin, I couldn't breathe but I didn't push him. Kusa na lang siyang bumitaw at tumawa. Nagulat naman ako sa kanyang biglang pagtawa at nakaramdam ng hiya.“ Sorry, I didn't stop myself. It's just because your lips are soft, and it's calling me, ” bulong niyang may halong pagnanasa. Napalunok naman ako ng aking laway, ang landi niyang tingnan. Shit. “ I can't wait to marry you, baby. Isang linggo na lang, at sa pagbalik ko, ayusin na natin ang kasal natin ha. ” anito. Ito na ba ang sinasabi nilang cloud nine? Ano ba tawag dun? Feels like cloud nine?“ S-sige, ayusin natin. ” pagsang-ayon ko sa kanya. Ngumiti siya at niyakap uli ako ng mahigpit, at sinubsub ang mukha niya sa leeg ko kaya nakikiliti ako. Pakiramdam ko tuloy ay mag-asawa na talaga kami. “ Boss, we can't be late. ” Biglang sabat ng secretary nito, halata naman na ito ang secretary niya. May tao pala sa kotse niya. Did he see the scenes, medyo nakakahiya. He scoffed.
CHAPTER FIVEHINDI ko na alam kung anong oras na, lasing na lasing na si Dina kaya minabuti na lang namin na umuwi. Mataas kasi alcohol tolerance ko kaya hindi ako agad nalalasing. Kanina pa kasi siya sayaw ng sayaw eh, naiinis ako kasi ang daming lalaki na lumalapit sa kanya at nanghihipo pa mga tarantado. “ Uwi na tayo, ” saad ko sa kanya at hinila na siya paalis sa dance floor. Nagpatangay naman siya sa akin, nang makalabas na kami ay may nakabangga akong lalaki. Sa sobrang lakas para akong tatapon, akala ko ay matutumba na ako kasama si Dina.“ Careful, ”bulong ng isang malamig, ngunit malalim na boses. Nag pantinagan ang aking tenga, naninindigan ang aking balahibo sa katawan, dahil sa boses nito. Hindi ko maiwasan na hindi ito tingnan, dun ko lamang napagtanto na may iba nang humawak kay Dina, at ako naman ay hawak ng lalaki sa aking bewang. Malapit na malapit lang ang aming katawan, ramdam ko ang kanyang hininga, at ang menthol scent nito na cologne ay mas lalong nag-palamig
A week without seeing Diego is a misery to me. I missed him so much. I still can't get his number that easy, I have to ask his relatives but I don't like them. They're so maatitude. I can wait naman so naghihintay ako kung kailan ko gusto, pero sobrang na-miss ko na talaga si Diego. Kumusta na kayo siya sa Dubai no, makakauwi na kaya siya today? One week lang naman yung business trip, I hope makakauwi na siya today. Nasa opisina ako nagbabasa ng ibang documents, may mga reports then about sa sales ng products namin. Reading some articles about our company, seeing how people positively giving comments, and their opinions means a lot to me. It just means that they like the products. As a business woman,. I have to know what other people prefer. The product they like, although hindi lahat ay nagiging masaya sa isang produkto pero hindi naman nagtatapos yun dun. Kaya nagsisikap din kami na mabigyan ng maayos na produkto at affordable ang mga kababayan. I have been in this business indus
Hindi ko alam kung ano nararamdaman ko ngayon, my dad greeted me today. It's my 26th birthday, and wasn't expecting na e-surprise nila ako. Tumayo ako mula sa pagkaka-upo, at hindi mapigilan ang mga luha na kumawala mula sa aking mga mata. Hindi ko kasama si dad buong buhay ko. I was already 23 when dad take me with him, kilala ko naman siya noon pa. Si Yaya Anne ang kasama ko buong buhay ko. She was like my second mother. Tumira na ako kay dad 3 years ago, at iniwan ang dating tahanan kung saan ako namulat sa katotohanan. At first, Dad tries to hide me from everyone. But, when I turned 18, he tells me everything. Ayaw kong magtanim ng sama ng loob sa kanya, hindi naman niya ako pinabayaan. Lumaki naman ako na maayos, at nakukuha rin ang lahat. Kahit palagi akong nakaranas ng pambubully ay hindi naman huminto ang buhay ko dun. I keep being a strong, independent woman, I never allow everyone to talk shit behind my back. At nakilala din ako ng lahat dahil ipinakilala ako ni Dad na anak
Gabi na at nandito na ako sa labas nang building. I was waiting for Diego. Kanina pa ako kinakabahan dito, at nanginginig na sa sobrang kilig, gusto kong tumili na parang ewan pero ayaw kong gawin yan dito sa labas nang building, baka ma viral pa ako gawin na katawa-tawa ng mga tao.Sobrang nakakahiya ata nun. Mapagkamalan pa akong gaga kapag ginawa ko yun. Diego texted me a while ago, that he will fetch me. At hito naman ako na sobrang excited bumaba agad nang building, kahit hindi pa tapos ibang files na kailangan pirmahan ko. Hindi ko maiwasan na hindi mapangiti. This night will be our first ever date.While waiting, patingin tingin ako sa aking paligid, ngayon ko lang napagtanto na may mga maliit na stores, and branch pala dito sa harapan ng building ko. Naalala ko dati may isang Nanay na nag-tayo ng kanyang tindahan dito mismo sa harap ko kung saan ako nakatayo. Ang sarap lang sa feeling, kasi hindi nawala ang pangalan ni Nanay Dona, at malaki na din ang tindahan niya.Si Nanay D
R18Bago pa matapos ang gabi ay inimbitahan ko si Diego sa aking kwarto. Unang beses kong nagpapasok ng lalaki sa aking kwarto. I told to myself, na ang unang makakapasok sa kwarto ko ay ang huling lalaki na aking mamahalin. And I am certain with that. I love Diego, kaya kong ibigay sa kanya ang lahat, at handa na akong isuko sa kanya ang bataan. Umupo siya sa kama at tahimik na nagmamasid. Nagpaalam na muna ako na mag shower lang saglit, tumago naman siya kaya iniwan ko na siya sa kwarto ko. Habang isa-isang hinubad ang aking damit ay biglang nag bukas ang pinto ng shower room. Gulat akong napalingon, and there I saw Diego. He was seriously staring at me. It was awkward, however I felt something strange. The feeling of wanting him. I was almost naked. Brassiere and undergarment left.He got inside without me saying a word. Maybe because I was actually waiting for him to come at me, and roughly kissed me. Pinned me on the wall. Harshly caressed my thighs, up to my mountain. I can f