PROLOGUE Umiiyak ang kalangitan… katulad ko. I tried to wipe my tears away pero hindi ‘yon nauubos sa tindi ng sakit na nararamdaman ko. My heart’s badly broken… at unti-unti na itong sumusuko. I’m waiting for my husband to come home. I’ve been waiting for him for days already. Hindi na ako makatulog nang maayos kakaisip kung nasaan ba siya at sino ang kasama niya. I clasped my hands and walked back and forth while looking at the clock. It’s already 2 am and I’m still here, desperately hoping that even for once, he’d come home to me. Ilang oras pa akong naka-upo roon sa sofa na hindi ko na namalayan pa ang oras. Napatayo lang ako nang biglang bumukas ang pinto at bumungad sa akin si Raven. I looked at him from head to toe and I just clenched my jaw because there’s no words coming out from my mouth, ni hindi ko nga alam kung paano magsisimula. “B-Bakit ngayon ka lang? Anong oras na, nag-alala—” “Stop with your drama, Archella. ‘Wag kang umarte na para bang nag-aalala ka,” he coldl
CHAPTER 1 “Mama, wake up now!” I opened my eyes when I heard my baby boy. I heard him chuckled when I pulled him towards me. “Ah, do not tickle me!” “You’re so kulit! Mama is tired pa, anak,” I said while tickling him. His laugh is music to my ears. “But we need to buy groceries pa! We’re out of stock na.” He pouted. I stopped tickling him and pulled him to lay beside me. “Why are you so tired ba, Mama? Where did you go last night? You went out with your friend?” Nagiging madaldal na talaga ang anak ko. “Yes, anak. I went out with a friend. We just talked about business,” I explained. Bumangon siya at humarap sa ‘kin. Humalukipkip pa siya at tinaasan ako ng kilay. I smiled, amused. “Business? But he’s courting you,” suplado niyang sabi. “What? Who told you that?” I got alarmed. Paano niya nalaman na gustong manligaw ni Chase?! “So he’s courting you nga po, Mama? Hm, I don’t like him to be my Daddy. Choose a good man to be my Father.” “Zyair, kanino mo natutunan ang mga iyan,
CHAPTER 2 Nanatili akong nakatayo roon habang nakatulala. Nang maalala si Laurel ay kagad akong umakyat sa kwarto para tawagan siya pero nagulat nalang ako nang makita ang isang bodyguard na hawak na ang cellphone at laptop ko. I ran to him and tried to get my belongings but he was too tall and bulky. Wala akong kalaban-laban. “Ibigay mo sa akin ‘yan!” Sinubukan kong kunin sakaniya pero hindi ko rin nagawa. “No! Laurel!” I yelled, almost crying while thinking of Laurel who’s probably waiting for me to come. My shoulders shook as I looked at the bodyguard’s back. Pumasok ako sa kwarto at naghanap ng kung anong gadget na magagamit para matawagan o matext si Laurel. Nanlumo ako at napa-upo nalang nang walang nakita kahit na halos halughugin ko ang buong kwarto. Even my old phones weren’t there anymore! Parang talagang plinano na ito! I cried helplessly while trying to open the door. The bodyguards were too strong, hindi ko man lang mahawakan ang handle. “Let me go! Let me go! I need
CHAPTER 3Raven and I decided to sleep next to each other. We didn’t have a choice because that’s the only available room. I put a pillow in between us so that we wouldn’t be that close. Even in my sleep, I was thinking of Laurel. The next day, I woke up with no one beside me. I looked around the room and even downstairs until I realized that Ivan has already left for work. He’s not studying anymore while I’m in my last year. I just toasted a slice of bread for breakfast and decided to buy a coffee on my way to school. When I arrived, si Laurel kagad ang una kong hinanap pero hanggang sa natapos ang lahat ng klase ko, hindi ko man lang siya nakita. I don’t have a driver because our parents thought that Raven will always drop me off, e iniwan nga lang ako ng isang ‘yon. I rolled my eyes while walking towards the waiting shed. I’m planning to take a taxi so I could go home fast. The house was dark and empty when I arrived. He’s not home and I have all the time and space just for myse
CHAPTER 4He was working when I entered the room. He didn’t even give me a single glance. Umirap ako at pumasok na sa banyo. While showering, I kept on thinking why he was mad. Ano bang nagawa ko para magalit siya? At akala ko ba walang pakielamanan?I went out wearing my sleepwear. I brushed my hair using my fingers while slowly walking towards the bed. Hinintay kong tumingin siya sa akin pero hindi nangyari ‘yon. Umirap akong muli at inayos nalang ang space ko sa kama. Umupo ako sa kama at hihiga na sana nang magsalita siya. “Aren’t you going to tell me where you went?” he asked with a cold voice with his eyes still on the screen of his laptop. “Why do you have to know?” sabi ko habang nakatingin sa laptop niya. Up until now, I don’t have a phone! Gusto ko nang marinig ang boses ni Laurel!I saw how his jaw clenched when I looked at him. Tumalim ang tingin niya sa laptop at mas umingay ang pag-tipa niya sa kaniyang keyboard. Kumunot na ang noo ko dahil nararamdaman ko na ang gali
CHAPTER 5When I woke up the next day, my head was throbbing in pain. I tried to stand up but I ended up falling back to the bed. Hindi na ako sumubok pang tumayo at humilata nalang doon. Napunta ang tingin ko sa bintana at nakitang maliwanag na. Nang dahil doon ay bumangon na ulit ako dahil may pasok pa ako.I was smiling on my way down but it faded immediately when I saw Raven in the kitchen with an apron on. Lumapit ako sakaniya nang walang kahit na anong emosyon sa mukha. Bakit nandito pa rin siya? He should be in his office right now… or with that Marianne Beige!“What are you doing?” I asked as I grabbed a cup to make coffee.He didn’t answer me. He just continued cooking breakfast. I frowned while watching him because a question suddenly filled my mind. Bakit gumagawa pa siya ng breakfast kung pwede namang sumabay nalang siya roon sa kay Marianne.“I’m not eating, I’m late for school,” I said as I sipped on my coffee. Tatalikuran ko na sana siya nang marinig ko siyang magsalit
CHAPTER 6I ignored him because he was also ignoring me. Naiinis lang ako dahil paano ko makakausap si Laurel kung ganitong hindi niya man lang ako pinapansin, ni ultimo sulyap ay hindi niya magawa.Sunday ngayon kaya walang pasok, ganoon din siya. Nanatili lang kami parehas sa bahay pero ni isang beses, hindi kami nag-usap o nagdikit man lang. Busy ako sa pagbabasa ng mga libro at pag-iisip kung kailan ako makakabili ng cellphone. Pwede akong humiram sa mga kaibigan ko pero hindi ko ‘yon naisip kagad dahil nakulong ang isip ko sa katotohanang kasal na ako kay Raven. It just won’t sink in.I was in the library when Raven entered. Naka-upo ako sa couch na medyo malayo sa table kung saan madalas nagta-trabaho si Raven. Kaya lang naman ako pumunta rito dahil alam kong hindi siya magta-trabaho ngayon. Hindi ko in-expect na papasok siya rito ngayon, hindi tuloy ako makagalaw at makaalis. I just stayed seated. Umakto pa akong hindi ko siya napansin pero kagad siyang sinundan ng mata ko nang
CHAPTER 7 Matapos nang nangyari sa school, tuluyan na akong hindi pinansin ni Raven. There are times na ako na ang lalapit at magsisimula ng usapan pero hindi niya talaga ako pinapansin. Late na rin siya kung umuwi, minsan nga ay hindi na siya umuuwi. Pero kahit na ganoon, hinihintay ko pa rin siya sa hindi malamang dahilan. I only have one week left before I graduate from college. May mga plano na ako na na-buo at hindi na ako makapaghintay pa na masimulan iyon. Tutal hindi naman ako kinakausap at pinapansin ni Raven, hindi naman niya siguro malalaman ang mga ginagawa ko. I looked for a job before I graduate. I made myself busy. I stopped waiting for him to come home pero pinagluluto ko pa rin siya. Minsan kinakain niya at madalas ay hindi. “You have a whole company waiting for you, Arc,” Amara said while typing on her laptop. Siya ang nilapitan ko para tulungan akong maghanap ng trabaho dahil magaling ‘to si Amara pagdating sa mga gig. Marami siyang pinagkaka-abalahan sa buhay.