I would never forget her words she threw on me too. That was my cue to stop."Minsan, ang sakit mo ring magsalita no," bumagsak ang balikat ko at yumuko. I don't want to let her see me breaking but God, I couldn't help it. Tangina, tumagos sa buto iyon. Nanginginig ang kalamnan ko."Tama ka, I'm an asshole. A jerk. No one would love me like you do. Sige, iwan mo na ako katulad ng iba. Gago ako diba?"Pumunta pa rin ako sa bahay nila, gusto ko sanang mag-paalam, na huli na 'to dahil tanggap ko na. Pero, nalaman na ni Yael. Tinanggap ko lahat ng suntok niya, tadyak niya, sipa niya, lahat lahat sinalo ko kase kasalanan ko. Pinatos ko kapatid niya sa likod niya. Sinira ko ang tiwala ng bestfriend ko. Ginago ko siya. Kasi, kung matino ako ipagpapaalam ko siya ng maayos pero wala e, gago talaga.There are kinds of love. Love that nourishes you to grow, to bloom and become better. And there is also a love that restricts you and that forbids you. It leads you to misunderstandings until you ten
Love made us do crazy things. To what extent? To something one couldn't imagine he could do.You know what? I did crazy things for him. Things that were against prejudice.I saw Brent on the bench along with his team mates. Alam kong sobrang pagod ito sa game nila kanina. But I needed to do this. It's now or never.Tumikhim muna ako bago hinawakan ang mic. My hands were shaking and sweaty too. I think I might faint soon. I took a deep breath.Ito ang maganda kapag staff ka ng radio room, you could confess your feeling or shout out what you wanted to. And yes, you heard me right, I was planning to."Paging, jersey number 14 Brent Trence Jimenez. Yes you." Napatingin siya sa mga speakers. Kitang kita ko ang gulat sa mata niya. We have CCTV's here that's why I could see his reaction. Pang ilan lang naman ako na nagconfess sa kanya rito at alam kong hindi na ito bago sa k
I grew up believing that you can achieve something out of your will. When you let your passion and love as a driving force to get whatever you want, you could have it.That's why I always did my best. I wanted to excel and show to everyone that I have something to be proud of.But as time passes by, these beliefs have turned into disbelief.Things would not be always on your side no matter how you eagerly and desperately want them. Things woulf not be always meant for you no matter how desperate you would be.Maganda ka. Hindi ka dapat tinatapon ng kahit sino ng basta-basta.I stared at my own reflection. Tangina! Ang ganda ko! Tapos, walang hiya iyong Brent na 'yon para paasahin ako at pagmukhain akong tanga.My God! I was dumped!Years have passed yet the same feeling I f
My heart was still beating so fast like it's going to lose its grip inside my chest. Hindi ko alam na kaya ko ng sabihin sa kanya ang mga salitang iyon.What did he think of himself? Porque gwapo siya. Gago pa rin siya! I would never forget that day where he dumped me. It would be forever be vivid in my mind.I took a quick bath. Isinalampak ko ang sarili ko sa kama pagkatapos no'n. I tried to sleep, kahit na alam kong hindi na naman ako makakatulog dahil sa kanya.I dozed off to sleep right after I closed my eyes.I woke up as the rays of sunlight touched my skin. I prepared myself and did my usual routine. Thank God, I only have two classes today. First year was not that yet too stressful. Konting mga activities pa lang, that's why I could manage.I only have kuya with me now. Lalo na si Mama nag-abroad. I understood that my mother had to go there
Nakita kong pinunasan nito ang kanyang ilong. Tumalikod ako at dumiretso muli sa ring. "Wait, Yna!" I heard him calling me but I ignored him instead."Please, let me talk to you." Pinakita ko sa kanya 'yong kamao kong nakakuyom."Gusto mo pang makaisa?" Umiling siya. "Iyon naman pala eh, stop bothering me!"Napansin kong nakasunod pa rin siya. "Seriously, Brent? You won't stop pestering me?!""I'll do whatever you want. Just talk to me please." His voice sounded almost a pleading. Naningkit ang mata ko nang humarap muli sa kanya."You'll do whatever I want?" He nodded in response."Fine, beat me."
Just thinking about what he said made me blush more. Hindi pa rin nawawala ang pag iinit ng pisngi ko. Damn you, Brent!I'm mortified! Gosh! I glared at him when I heard him chuckling. "Hoy! Tumigil ka na nga!" Saway ko sa kanya."Will you stop making fun of me? Nakakainis ka!""Shit, you're cute, Yna.""Huh?" I didn't expect him saying that. I took that cue to get my food and left him there.Bwisit siya! Hindi ko siya pinansin kahit na naririnig ko siyang tinatawag ang pangalan ko.I locked the door and caressed my chest. How could he make my heart beat every time?
I stood still. Nakaawang pa rin ang aking bibig matapos niyang sabihin iyon. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. Tatakbo ba ako o aalis? Yayakapin ko ba siya kasi nagseselos siya o hindi?My mind was always in chaos when he's around.What he said still blew my mind. Nagpakawala naman ako ng isang malalim na hininga. I couldn't find the right words to say."B-Brent...""Sobra ka naman ata, Yna. Lagi mo akong tinataboy okay lang sa 'kin. I know it's my fault to begin with, pero 'wag naman ito." I bit my lower lip."W-What do you mean?""Don't hang out with that man." may pagbabantang tinig nito.
I blinked. The kiss was too fast but still what he did can't be easily forgotten in just a snap.Brent smiled widely after our lips parted.I couldn't even move. I stared at him in disbelief. I am still dumbfounded.Yes, I've been fantasizing this for how many years. But still, this felt surreal. Gusto ko siyang suntukin pero hindi ko magawa.He was my first kiss actually. Glad I saved my first kiss for him. Pero, naiinis ako!I remained still. I heard him calling my name but I ignored it."Hey," untag niya."Ha?"