When we thought that everything's going in accord, our happiness were stolen away in just a snap. Zalayne was diagnosed with Leukemia. It was devastating as a mom seeing my daughter wincing in pain every time we go to hospital. It was hereditary because my father had that disease before which led to his death. "Go, Daddy!" My daughter cheered ecstatically. Ganyan siya simula nang sinama namin siya. This was the first she'd be out that's why she can't contain her excitement. Napapangiti lang ako sa ca-cutan niya. She was giggling while watching her daddy on the court playing baskteball together with my other kuyas.Ngumiti ako habang pinagmamasdan ang anak kong masayang masaya. I hope this little joy won't be taken away within our grasp.My heart clenched painfully. Itinago ko pa ang mukha ko para hindi ako makita ng anak ko. I don't want her to see me in this state. She'd be sad for sure but I couldn't help it. Mabilis kong pinunasan ang luha ko."Ang galing ni Daddy, naka-shoot o
"Kapatid mo?" Yael was browsing his gallery and I saw his picture with a girl. Seems like his sister. Bakit tinanong ko pa?Si Yael, bestfriend ko 'yun. Kahit na siraulo, maasahan mo naman 'yun.We were at our bench, resting after an intense game. Fuck, my elbow still hurts."Yeah, ganda nya no." aniya."Oo nga, sexy pa." I licked my lips I stared at the photos together with his sister.Ngumiwi ako nang hinampas niya ako sa twalya. "Gago ka, 'wag kapatid ko! Mga galawan mo!" singhal niya. Sinapak ko naman siya sa braso."Tanga, hindi ako manunulot ng kapatid, oy! May girlfriend ako, siraulo ka ba?"Gago ba siya! Hindi rin ako pumapatol ng bata!"Ako ba niloloko mo Brent? Kahit may girlfriend ka na, kilala kita.""Baliw, hindi ah." kontra ko pa.Binatukan naman niya ako. "Kanina ka pa ha!" hinimas himas ko ulo ko."Utot mo Brent, wala pang isang araw ang pagpapalit mo ng chixx, gusto mo isa-isahin ko?" panghahamon niya."Marami ba? 'Di ko dama e. Balak ko sanang mangolekta pa." I grinn
I would never forget her words she threw on me too. That was my cue to stop."Minsan, ang sakit mo ring magsalita no," bumagsak ang balikat ko at yumuko. I don't want to let her see me breaking but God, I couldn't help it. Tangina, tumagos sa buto iyon. Nanginginig ang kalamnan ko."Tama ka, I'm an asshole. A jerk. No one would love me like you do. Sige, iwan mo na ako katulad ng iba. Gago ako diba?"Pumunta pa rin ako sa bahay nila, gusto ko sanang mag-paalam, na huli na 'to dahil tanggap ko na. Pero, nalaman na ni Yael. Tinanggap ko lahat ng suntok niya, tadyak niya, sipa niya, lahat lahat sinalo ko kase kasalanan ko. Pinatos ko kapatid niya sa likod niya. Sinira ko ang tiwala ng bestfriend ko. Ginago ko siya. Kasi, kung matino ako ipagpapaalam ko siya ng maayos pero wala e, gago talaga.There are kinds of love. Love that nourishes you to grow, to bloom and become better. And there is also a love that restricts you and that forbids you. It leads you to misunderstandings until you ten
Love made us do crazy things. To what extent? To something one couldn't imagine he could do.You know what? I did crazy things for him. Things that were against prejudice.I saw Brent on the bench along with his team mates. Alam kong sobrang pagod ito sa game nila kanina. But I needed to do this. It's now or never.Tumikhim muna ako bago hinawakan ang mic. My hands were shaking and sweaty too. I think I might faint soon. I took a deep breath.Ito ang maganda kapag staff ka ng radio room, you could confess your feeling or shout out what you wanted to. And yes, you heard me right, I was planning to."Paging, jersey number 14 Brent Trence Jimenez. Yes you." Napatingin siya sa mga speakers. Kitang kita ko ang gulat sa mata niya. We have CCTV's here that's why I could see his reaction. Pang ilan lang naman ako na nagconfess sa kanya rito at alam kong hindi na ito bago sa k
I grew up believing that you can achieve something out of your will. When you let your passion and love as a driving force to get whatever you want, you could have it.That's why I always did my best. I wanted to excel and show to everyone that I have something to be proud of.But as time passes by, these beliefs have turned into disbelief.Things would not be always on your side no matter how you eagerly and desperately want them. Things woulf not be always meant for you no matter how desperate you would be.Maganda ka. Hindi ka dapat tinatapon ng kahit sino ng basta-basta.I stared at my own reflection. Tangina! Ang ganda ko! Tapos, walang hiya iyong Brent na 'yon para paasahin ako at pagmukhain akong tanga.My God! I was dumped!Years have passed yet the same feeling I f
My heart was still beating so fast like it's going to lose its grip inside my chest. Hindi ko alam na kaya ko ng sabihin sa kanya ang mga salitang iyon.What did he think of himself? Porque gwapo siya. Gago pa rin siya! I would never forget that day where he dumped me. It would be forever be vivid in my mind.I took a quick bath. Isinalampak ko ang sarili ko sa kama pagkatapos no'n. I tried to sleep, kahit na alam kong hindi na naman ako makakatulog dahil sa kanya.I dozed off to sleep right after I closed my eyes.I woke up as the rays of sunlight touched my skin. I prepared myself and did my usual routine. Thank God, I only have two classes today. First year was not that yet too stressful. Konting mga activities pa lang, that's why I could manage.I only have kuya with me now. Lalo na si Mama nag-abroad. I understood that my mother had to go there
Nakita kong pinunasan nito ang kanyang ilong. Tumalikod ako at dumiretso muli sa ring. "Wait, Yna!" I heard him calling me but I ignored him instead."Please, let me talk to you." Pinakita ko sa kanya 'yong kamao kong nakakuyom."Gusto mo pang makaisa?" Umiling siya. "Iyon naman pala eh, stop bothering me!"Napansin kong nakasunod pa rin siya. "Seriously, Brent? You won't stop pestering me?!""I'll do whatever you want. Just talk to me please." His voice sounded almost a pleading. Naningkit ang mata ko nang humarap muli sa kanya."You'll do whatever I want?" He nodded in response."Fine, beat me."
Just thinking about what he said made me blush more. Hindi pa rin nawawala ang pag iinit ng pisngi ko. Damn you, Brent!I'm mortified! Gosh! I glared at him when I heard him chuckling. "Hoy! Tumigil ka na nga!" Saway ko sa kanya."Will you stop making fun of me? Nakakainis ka!""Shit, you're cute, Yna.""Huh?" I didn't expect him saying that. I took that cue to get my food and left him there.Bwisit siya! Hindi ko siya pinansin kahit na naririnig ko siyang tinatawag ang pangalan ko.I locked the door and caressed my chest. How could he make my heart beat every time?
I would never forget her words she threw on me too. That was my cue to stop."Minsan, ang sakit mo ring magsalita no," bumagsak ang balikat ko at yumuko. I don't want to let her see me breaking but God, I couldn't help it. Tangina, tumagos sa buto iyon. Nanginginig ang kalamnan ko."Tama ka, I'm an asshole. A jerk. No one would love me like you do. Sige, iwan mo na ako katulad ng iba. Gago ako diba?"Pumunta pa rin ako sa bahay nila, gusto ko sanang mag-paalam, na huli na 'to dahil tanggap ko na. Pero, nalaman na ni Yael. Tinanggap ko lahat ng suntok niya, tadyak niya, sipa niya, lahat lahat sinalo ko kase kasalanan ko. Pinatos ko kapatid niya sa likod niya. Sinira ko ang tiwala ng bestfriend ko. Ginago ko siya. Kasi, kung matino ako ipagpapaalam ko siya ng maayos pero wala e, gago talaga.There are kinds of love. Love that nourishes you to grow, to bloom and become better. And there is also a love that restricts you and that forbids you. It leads you to misunderstandings until you ten
"Kapatid mo?" Yael was browsing his gallery and I saw his picture with a girl. Seems like his sister. Bakit tinanong ko pa?Si Yael, bestfriend ko 'yun. Kahit na siraulo, maasahan mo naman 'yun.We were at our bench, resting after an intense game. Fuck, my elbow still hurts."Yeah, ganda nya no." aniya."Oo nga, sexy pa." I licked my lips I stared at the photos together with his sister.Ngumiwi ako nang hinampas niya ako sa twalya. "Gago ka, 'wag kapatid ko! Mga galawan mo!" singhal niya. Sinapak ko naman siya sa braso."Tanga, hindi ako manunulot ng kapatid, oy! May girlfriend ako, siraulo ka ba?"Gago ba siya! Hindi rin ako pumapatol ng bata!"Ako ba niloloko mo Brent? Kahit may girlfriend ka na, kilala kita.""Baliw, hindi ah." kontra ko pa.Binatukan naman niya ako. "Kanina ka pa ha!" hinimas himas ko ulo ko."Utot mo Brent, wala pang isang araw ang pagpapalit mo ng chixx, gusto mo isa-isahin ko?" panghahamon niya."Marami ba? 'Di ko dama e. Balak ko sanang mangolekta pa." I grinn
When we thought that everything's going in accord, our happiness were stolen away in just a snap. Zalayne was diagnosed with Leukemia. It was devastating as a mom seeing my daughter wincing in pain every time we go to hospital. It was hereditary because my father had that disease before which led to his death. "Go, Daddy!" My daughter cheered ecstatically. Ganyan siya simula nang sinama namin siya. This was the first she'd be out that's why she can't contain her excitement. Napapangiti lang ako sa ca-cutan niya. She was giggling while watching her daddy on the court playing baskteball together with my other kuyas.Ngumiti ako habang pinagmamasdan ang anak kong masayang masaya. I hope this little joy won't be taken away within our grasp.My heart clenched painfully. Itinago ko pa ang mukha ko para hindi ako makita ng anak ko. I don't want her to see me in this state. She'd be sad for sure but I couldn't help it. Mabilis kong pinunasan ang luha ko."Ang galing ni Daddy, naka-shoot o
After the proposal, we started attending to marriage seminars. We wanted to be guided well. Because, marriage is not a joke. It isn't something you do just because you wanted. We want let God lead this marriage. We know that if we let God be the author of our lives everything will be alright.Yes, we just got married today. Kahit ako hindi makapaniwala. Isa na akong Jimenez.The preparation lasted for a month before we held the wedding. Just a few people came, our family, friends and some of our work mates were present there to support us.The memory of the wedding lingered on my mind again. We went through series of havoc, but still we managed it all.Papa Oscar was the one who walked with me though the aisle but it would be more special if Papa was around.My baby Zalayne was there with us celebrating with our happiest day. I remembered laughing out loud after Rashiel and his first love Attorney Padua danced on my wedding. They needed that time. Sinadya talaga namin ni Brent 'yun
Nagising akong ramdam pa rin ang mainit na yakap ni Brent. Mas lalo akong sumiksik sa leeg niya."Hi.." he said when I checked him if he's awake and he was just looking at me. Kanina pa ba niya ako tinititigan? Paano kung nakanganga pala ako kanina?"I love you..." he whispered. Ang aga aga naman nito!He was about to give me a peck on my lips when I immediately covered it with my hand.He frowned at me. "Bad breath pa ako.""And so?" Umusog naman ako ng kaunti."Ah, basta. Ayoko. Anong oras na ba?" I glanced at the wall clock."10 na?!" I shrieked."Really?""Hindi ka mukhang nagulat, Brent. Kanina ka pa pala gising. Hindi mo man lang ako ginising.""I'm sorry I was just watching you sleep. It's your fault you look pretty in the morning,""Heh! 'Wag mo 'kong ganyanin! May pasok pa ako sa shop."Siya nga d'yan ang sobrang gwapo. My cheeks flushed. "Let me drive you,""Hindi na. Umuwi ka kaya muna sa inyo,""It's okay, Yna. I texted my Mom a while ago." he insisted. "Kahit na, nakaka
"H-Hi..." she said with a smile plastered on her face. It was a smile I've never seen from her. For some odd reasons, it felt genuine."H-Hello. Why are you here?" I managed to ask. I had to show her that it was fine. I didn't want her to know how terrified I was."Can we talk for a while?" she asked with her calm voice."Sure."We ended up in a coffee shop nearby. "I've been wanting to see you, Yna but I never got the courage to do it," panimula niya. She lowered her gaze and I saw her in pain while she was telling it go md. "You know, I'm sorry for what I did back then. I was just really pissed off at that time. I know this apology is a long over due but I wanted to say how sorry I was.""Okay lang, Danica. Nagmahal ka lang naman. Mali rin ako noon dahil alam kong nandoon ka pero pinili ko pa rin siya.""Yes, Brent was the only one I love. He was there for me whenever I need him. It was difficult for me to let him go especially when you came into the picture. I thought it was your
Pagod akong humiga sa kama ko at niyakap ng mahigpit ang unan ko nang makarating ako sa apartment ko. I couldn't just get rid of Brent's face in my mind.How would I be able to say this to him? The last encounter we had was when I was drunk. He told me he didn't want to see me anymore.Paulit-ulit kasing rumerehistro sa utak ko ang usapan namin nila Hera. And it's killing me too much.Love is really destructive. It's either you destroy or you'd get destroyed.I needed to tell him this.The next morning came and I went to his place. I gathered my strength together as I was standing in front of his apartment. I heaved a great sigh before I pressed the button. Nangangatal pa rin ang aking kamay dahil sa kaba. Kagat ko pa rin ang labi ko. Nanghihina ang aking mga buto. Nanginginig ang tuhod ko.Pinindot ko muli at naghintay. Pero, wala siya. I wonder where he is now. I called his phone number but there was no response.I called Kuya Dexter's number, baka sakaling alam niya. Ilang beses ak
"Yna, look I'm sorry for what I said. It's my fault. But, don't get there Yna. Breaking up? Really? No, I won't allow that," matigas niyang saad. He looked frustrated and vulnerable."Magpahinga muna tayo, Brent. Minadali kasi natin lahat —""No, Yna okay naman tayo ah. Why are you insisting that? Okay, sige. Cool-off muna tayo kung gusto mo. I'll give you the time and space you need but please do not break up with me. Nandito na tayo.""I won't break up with you if you promise to tell me what you're up to these past few days. Hindi ako manghuhula, Brent." Tumahimik siya sandali."See? You can't tell it to me! Para saan pa at naging tayo?""Hindi sa lahat ng oras Yna sasabihin ko sa'yo ang pinagkakaabalahan ko. May buhay ko at hindi sa lahat ng oras alam mo ang bawat detalye ng buhay ko.""Fine, naiintindihan ko. Girlfriend lang naman ako, okay. I understand."Which means he doesn't trust me as much as I am to him."Yna naman..." he pleaded. I walked to my bedroom. Mabilis kong sinarad
It's been a week since the last encounter with kuya. Brent has been very sweet to me since then. Kalat na rin sa buong department na kami na.Hindi ko nga maisip na mangyayari pala talaga 'to na parte lang ng pangarap ko.We were holding hands as we were heading to our house. May binili raw siyang regalo kay kuya. Kanina ko pa nga siya tinatanong kung ano pero ayaw niya talaga.I could see Brent's effort to really please kuya. May pinagsamahan naman sila, sana iyon ang makita ni kuya, hindi lang 'yung galit niya.He stopped the engine. Naningkit naman ang mata nito nang tumingin sa akin. "I know what you're thinking, Yna but I won't tell it. Just wait and see." He even winked. What the hell? Ilang beses pa akong kumurap. Nang bumaba siya, sumunod na rin ako.Hindi na kinagulat ni ate Bea nang makita kami. Nasanay na rin siya na lagi kaming magkasama na pumupunta rito. Sa totoo lang, hindi lang naman kay Brent galit si kuya. Sa akin din. Hanggang maaari, ayokong saktan si kuya. He's th