ALPHA NATEBlake stared at me with a mixture of expressions on his face, he is disappointed and I don't think he approves of my nervous breakdown but I don't give a fuck. I just need him to confirm to me that he has a fucking vagina. "You are so ridiculous." He said angrily and snatched his hands from me. "I am a man and I am proud to be a man, if you don't like me like this, then that's your problem." He said angrily which I find cute.Fuck, what's wrong with me? He is a guy and I can't be finding him cute, he is definitely using a spell on me.I looked around and I noticed a few people coming out of the ceremony of shame, I can't afford to be seen with him for too long. "Come with me." I said as I immediately turned around without waiting for his response.How is this even possible? I love women and the moon goddess knows it, how can she give me a male mate? "This has to be a mistake." I said as soon as we entered my office."Are you saying that the moon goddess doesn't know what sh
BLAKE I can't let him reject me just like that, the moon goddess paired us together for a reason and even though he is behaving like an ass, I won't give up on him."It's not in your place to refuse my rejection Blake... You are not my mate, I am not gay." It hurts so much to hear him say that repeatedly and I know the only reason he wants to reject me is because he is worried about what people will say but I can't let him reject me, the moon goddess picked him for me for a reason and if I let him go, then I will never know why we were paired together."Three months." I blurted out without thinking. "Give me three months to make you fall in love with me." I pleaded.Hehehe. "Are you kidding me? I am not gay Blake and there is nothing you can do to make me fall in love with you." I should be mad at him for everything he has said since we met but I can't, I still really want to give us a chance."If you are so sure that you are not attracted to me, then you shouldn't hesitate to give m
ALPHA NATE "Gay? Fuck no. There is no way in hell that I am gay." I paced around my office restlessly after he left.Less than an hour of meeting him and I am already a fucking mess. "I have never been attracted to a guy in my whole life and all of a sudden, my fucking mate is a guy?" I shook my head in disbelief.This has to be some twisted joke or something, how can I be gay without knowing it, is that even possible? And to think he boldly said he needs three months to make me fall in love with him. "What a joke." I scoffed."Even if I give him a complete year, there is no magic he can perform to make me fall in love with him." Oh goddess, save me... Blake is driving me crazy, I am already talking to myself all because of this mess."Well maybe if he grows a nice ass and boobs, then he can grab my attention." Which is obviously impossible.I know I am not gay and this is definitely a mistake or some sort of punishment but a wave of dread washes over me when I remembered the overwhe
ALPHA NATE It's obvious that it hurts Blake to see Cha,Chav, Charvie or whatever her name is and I together and I feel a little bad but I just have to prove to him that I am attracted and will always be attracted to ladies. The earlier he gets this sick idea of making me fall in love with him out of his head, the better because I will fucking die first before I fall for him. Being with him is a nightmare I don't want to experience."Come this way." I said after a prolonged stare with Blake, I passed right in front of him to my slaughter room.I have a place I take ladies to outside the pack especially when they are not pack members but sometimes, when I am dealing with pack members, I take them to my slaughter room because the only person I will take to my house is my mate when I finally find her.I can still feel Blake staring at me but I don't give a fuck. "Wow this is beautiful." She said immediately we stepped inside.I don't know why she thinks it beautiful though, it's just a m
BLAKE All hope drained out of me after seeing Nate walk by me with Charlie, I was so disappointed and sad, it was obvious that she got her wish and they were going to have sex and it hurts so much because there is nothing I could do to stop them... The longer they were gone, the more I realized that I might never be able to win Nate over like I thought, especially in three months.But when Charlie stepped out hours later looking so pissed, it gave me a renewed hope that maybe I still have a chance. I tried talking to her but she walked out on me and I really don't care, so I retract her footsteps and I found Nate sitting alone in a dimly lit room... It's crazy that I entered confidently even without knocking.But when I heard him say "Why are you so stubborn Charvi?" It brought immense joy to my heart, because I realized that he doesn't even know her name and he probably asked her to leave and when he continued by saying "I already told you, I am not in the mood. Maybe some other tim
ALPHA NATE Two weeks later...The last two weeks has been hell on earth, I thought that concentrating on work and Evading Blake was going to be easy but I was fucking wrong, he is everywhere I look and it's driving me crazy.I entered my office as usual but like other days, I found a note. For the last two weeks, I have been getting notes in my office. It's usually encouragement words and sometimes it's a nice wish to start the day. It's cute and I hate it at the same time because I think it's probably from Blake, it's probably one of his plans to get my attention, although I have no idea how he usually sneaks the note in here.But as I stared at today's note, I am beginning to think that I was wrong. "I don't think it's from Blake." I said to myself as I picked up the note and a single rose flower.This is the first time I am getting a flower and even though the note carries the same hand writing with the previous notes, I think it probably from a lady. I don't think that Blake is t
ALPHA NATE "Wait." Blake called as soon as I made a move to leave."What is it Blake?" Today has been nothing like I expected and it's very upsetting."You are already here and I have put in the effort to make tonight special, why don't you just wait and enjoy the evening with me, I promise you that I won't talk about anything mate related." Well he is right, I am dressed and I am here and hungry, so why not?"Alright but if you mention anything about mate or you try to convince me, I will leave without hesitation." I assured him.Like I said I am not attracted to guys and a few nice gestures here and there won't change anything besides the risk involved with him is just too much."Okay, have a sit." He signaled to the waiter and he showed up to take our orders.When the waiter showed up, I ordered for Chicken arrabbiata stew and parmesan dumplings, while Blake ordered for Chicken and chorizo ragu and a side of rice. Then we ordered a bottle of wine to go with it.I really love this
ALPHA NATE I woke up the next morning with a massive headache, I didn't sleep most of the night... I am ashamed to admit to myself that I was up all night thinking about Blake and the date we had. I pictured his smile, body language and the consoling hug he gave me all night, he has taken over my fucking thoughts and it's so worrisome."My fucking shirt still smells like him." I said as I removed the shirt and tossed it in the laundry basket.I made my way to the bathroom and showered, hopefully the cool water on my head will help with the headache... I stayed longer than necessary in the bathroom and by the time I was done, I was actually feeling better.I decided to make breakfast for myself before going to the office, so I made so scrambled eggs and bacon with a cup of coffee. " Fuck." I cursed as the thoughts of Blake creeped into my mind while eating."I need a fucking distraction." I said as I finished my food quickly and I started getting ready for work... I know for a fact th
ALPHA NATE A YEAR LATER...It's been a year after the fight Blake has with Charles and immediately after that, I made him take over the duties of a Luna around the pack, I mean he doesn't go by the title of Luna but he has his own office and he made Lawrence his assistant but it's mainly so that he can have someone to chat with.The pack has been peaceful and everything is perfect, I can't complain. It's almost like the issue with Cassandra and her brother made Blake and I grow closer to each other, which is why I have been playing with an idea for a while now, I think it's time I take the next step with Blake."Thank goodness you are here?" Raphael said as soon as he entered my office and saw me. He looks excited, so I am guessing that he has good news to share with me but what's with the urgency."What's going on?" I asked curiously as I pushed the laptop to the side, it's not like I was doing anything before he came in. In fact, ever since Blake took over some duties, my work has
BLAKE A WEEK LATER...Nate is worried about my fight with Cassandra's brother and I don't blame him, the last time he saw me fight was against Benjamin and he had to come in and save me, so I understand his concerns.I mean, I am a little worried too but I really need to do this, I need to prove to myself, to Nate and to the entire pack members that I am good enough to be Nate's mate because as his partner, more challenges like this will come and there might be a need to fight for him or defend him in the future and I really need to know that I can do this and I want him to be confident about me plus I have been training even before this came up.I have trained with my dad a couple of times and Nate has been training me as well, so I think I can do this. I have to win this, I really need to win. I want to be proud of myself and I want Nate to be very proud of me as well."You know you can still change your mind, right? In fact, I want you to change your mind, I don't want you to figh
ALPHA NATE Two days later...For the last two days, having a baby is the only thing that Blake was interested in talking about and I finally understood that he has been wanting this and he probably didn't know how to tell me and now that we finally had the talk, he doesn't want to wait anymore.So I had to call doctor frank as soon as I got to the office this morning and he said we can come over any day we want and I know it will make Blake really happy."I think you should let Cassandra go, you know she's a mother and her mate is probably looking for her, we are going to have issues if people find out we locked her up here." Raphael reasoned and he has a point but she's stressing me and I really want to make sure that she understands that what she did was not okay."You have a point but that lady has not learnt anything yet, you heard what she said yesterday when we went to the cell to see her, I don't think she will ever stop coming at me. So I think we should just lock her up till
ALPHA NATE I woke up early as usual and I made my way to the bathroom to shower and if I am being honest, I can't remember the last time I had such a good night sleep. The fact that the mystery behind Cassandra's baby is over and I don't have to keep any secrets away from Blake is giving me maximum peace.I stepped out of the bathroom after my shower and I looked for something to wear, I later settled for a simple washed up blue jean and black polo shirt before I stepped out and joined Blake in the kitchen."That was quick." Blake pointed out as soon as I stepped out. "You look so good and cheerful." He added as he walked over and gave me a kiss."Yes I am, I am not hiding anything and it makes me really happy and cheerful, it's been such a burden keeping a secret from you." I said truthfully, I don't even know why I thought that was a good idea."I see, well I am glad there are no more secrets." He seems excited too. "Food is ready, have a sit." He took the food to the dining table
ALPHA NATE I am so nervous to even read the mail because I know this might bring another issue with Blake, I mean he barely just stopped crying and if it turns out that Thomas is my son, then it might hurt his feelings again and I really don't want that."What does it say?" He asked anxiously and I opened the mail and skimmed through it till I saw the important details."It's says that I am not the father?" Shit.I know I had my doubts but I didn't think it was true, I didn't really want it to be true. I mean, somewhere at the back of my mind, I wanted Thomas to be mine and I am kind of relieved that he is not mine because I won't have to deal with the drama but I can't help but feel a little sad, it would have been cool to have a mini me."I'm sorry that he is not yours." Blake said as he got out of bed and gave me a hug."It's fine, I actually think it's better this way. You don't have to worry about anything, no one will threaten your place in my life, okay?" If I am being honest,
ALPHA NATE The meeting was very brief but I am not exactly surprised knowing what the subject matter is, I mean I knew most of the pack will not be in support of the rogues starting a new pack but the vote was unanimous and it's mind-blowing."I am still curious about what or who gave Benjamin the audacity to think he can start a new pack and people will be in support after everything he has done and to think my pack alone is not the only pack he has stayed at ever since he became a rogue." I was in disbelief when I saw him today at the pack meeting and I realized that he is the person that is trying to set up a new pack with other rogues, what a joke."I am just thankful that you figured out his scheme on time and you sent him out before he created more havoc like he did with other packs, did you hear the testimony of other Alpha's? Honestly, I think that guy is sick and he needs help." He is really sick, he has bad reputation with all the Alpha's that were present at the meeting to
BLAKE I know that I am not supposed to be upset with Nate because it's not his fault that he couldn't show up again as promised but it's not just about today, lately something has been off with him and our relationship. I can feel it and every time I bring it up, he somehow tries to avoid the topic, I feel like he is hiding something from me and it scares me that we are drifting apart a little bit.I really love him and I don't want to lose him but I can feel that something is different and I just wish I knew what the issue is, so that I can fix it. "What's wrong, you look worried?" Lawrence asked curiously.He came here after Nate left for work this afternoon and I am glad that he is here because I don't want to be alone. "It's Nate, he has been acting weird lately. I feel like he is hiding something from me and I am worried." I pointed out."Well you might be right." There is something about the way he said it that gave me hope, I feel like he knows something and it's not our of pl
ALPHA NATE I knew that the reason she suddenly showed up out of the blue is because she heard about my mate, someone in this pack must have informed her that I announced my mate and she thought that she has a chance but she's fucking wrong, I love Blake and I can't leave him for anyone in the world, especially her."Honestly Cassandra, what you are doing is actually shameful. Don't you think that I already know everything you are pointing out? I know Blake is a guy but he is my mate and I love him, he can't have kids but I still love him like that and I can give up not having kids just to be with him, that's how much I love him. It will be best you tell me something reasonable that I can give you because I can never leave my mate for you, it will never happen... You might be right that I am not gay, I don't even know what I am, I just know that I am in love and the person I love happens to be a guy and it's perfect." I said truthfully."I don't care if you are trying to convince me o
ALPHA NATE I woke up pretty late this morning, after Raphael and I got back to my cabin last night, we joined Raphael and Blake at the living room and we had a lot to eat and drink. It was really fun hanging out together like that and even after Raphael and Lawrence left, we still stayed up for a while gisting but I avoided the most important topic which is Cassandra.The general alpha's meeting is later this evening and since I woke up late, I have decided not to go to work. I will just wait till it's time to go for the meeting and then I will leave."Good morning baby." I kissed Blake as he stirred in my arms."Good morning." He said shyly and it made me laugh, I mean we have been together for a long time now, we have kissed and had countless sex and we still had sex last night, we have seen each other naked but somehow, Blake is still always shy around me and it's pretty fun."What's funny?" He asked curiously and I couldn't help but laugh again."You, you are just so funny and cu