CHAPTER NINE | NOT IN THE MOOD

ALPHA NATE

It's obvious that it hurts Blake to see Cha,Chav, Charvie or whatever her name is and I together and I feel a little bad but I just have to prove to him that I am attracted and will always be attracted to ladies. The earlier he gets this sick idea of making me fall in love with him out of his head, the better because I will fucking die first before I fall for him. Being with him is a nightmare I don't want to experience.

"Come this way." I said after a prolonged stare with Blake, I passed right in front of him to my slaughter room.

I have a place I take ladies to outside the pack especially when they are not pack members but sometimes, when I am dealing with pack members, I take them to my slaughter room because the only person I will take to my house is my mate when I finally find her.

I can still feel Blake staring at me but I don't give a fuck. "Wow this is beautiful." She said immediately we stepped inside.

I don't know why she thinks it beautiful though, it's just a massive bed, a fridge and a television to mask the ladies noise most of the time.

"Have a sit." I instructed as I opened the fridge to get us some drinks.

I sat down on the single couch in the room while she sat on the bed. "So tell me, why is he here?" I asked immediately she took a sip from her wine.

"Well he lost his mom to cancer." So she's human, I noted. "And his dad suffered some injuries months ago when werewolf hunters attacked dark moon pack last year and since then, he has been working hard trying to survive and help his dad." She paused briefly to sip her wine. "Suddenly, his pack members hated and bullied him a lot, in fact he was in danger so we asked him to move in with us." She explained.

That's crazy, why would he be bullied by the same pack members he grew up with, maybe they found out about his sexuality. "How is he related to you?"

"Well his dad is my dad's younger brother, so he is my cousin."

"So he grew up in dark moon pack and they suddenly started bullying him, that doesn't make sense, there has to be a reason for their actions. What happened, did he do something or are they just crazy?" I don't know why the thought of him being bullied irritates me, I mean why the sudden change of heart?

"That's the same question we have been asking him since we saw his bruised face when we went visiting but he has refused to tell us what happened, I think he will tell us when he is ready." If he was being bullied to the point were he had to leave his pack, I don't think he is a strong or confident guy. Why then is he so bold to issue out a challenge, where will he go when he eventually loses?

"Why are we even wasting time talking about Blake when there are other fun things I can do with my mouth." Said said as she put her wine glass on the coffee table and she walked up to me seductively.

This is the type of things I jump at, it's usually very fun to have sex but today just feels like a task. Instead of just having fun, I am here trying to prove that I am not gay when I already know that... She came behind me and gave a little massage and I can feel her soft boobs on my neck as she tries to seduce me but it's not working and I doubt there is anything she can do that will make a difference.

"Let's do this some other time."

"Why, am I doing it wrong?" She asked as she left my back and stood in my front." She hot and sexy, I will give her that but I am just not turned on.

"No, I am just not in the mood." I never imagined that there will be a day that those fucking words will roll out of my mouth. I am always down for sex, any day and any time but here I am turning down free sex and I have no idea why?

"Am I not attractive enough because I have never heard that you turned down sex before." It's a little weird confirming that they talk about my sex life but I guess that's what I get for being a philanderer.

"There is always a first time. You are okay but maybe some other time." I said as I took another shot of whiskey.

"Okay, so what now?"

"Sit down and continue talking about Blake or anything else or you can leave." I said casually like I am not really interested in hearing about Blake but that's actually who I want to hear about.

I really need to know who I am dealing with here and possibly figure out why the moon goddess picked him as my fucking mate.

"Okay, we only started living together recently, so I don't really know much about him." That's fucking disappointing.

I really don't want to ask the questions myself to avoid being obvious but I guess I have to take the risk. "Did he date anyone at his former pack or here since he arrived." I need to know if they all know that he is gay.

"Oh no, he has refused to have a girlfriend. He is eighteen years and he has not dated anyone yet, I even tried hooking him up with one of my friends but he refused. He said that he is waiting till he finds his mate, in fact I think he is still a virgin." She laughed and I actually don't see what's funny.

He is eighteen years old just like I imagined, he does look young and he is a virgin, none of them knows that he is gay and that's actually perfect, I can be rest assured that he will keep his mouth shut till our little time frame is off.

"Hmmm, what else?"

"He doesn't have any friends and I don't think he will." She pointed out.

"Why?"

"I don't know, he doesn't mingle much and he didn't have friends at his former pack, so I doubt he will have friends here." Well I don't care if he has friends or not.

"Anything else?"

"Not exactly, he is a pretty funny guy but I can tell you fun things, like the birthmark I have on my inner thigh or the little fig leaves patch of hair on my vagina." That's actually the last thing I want to listen to but I can't be too obvious that I am only interested in listening to topics relating to Blake.

"Go on." I chugged down another glass of whiskey.

She went on and on vividly describing her body type, her little scars and birthmark, she even talked about her favorite sex positions and it hurts to listen to her. "My boobs is really soft, I heard that you love boobs." She pointed out.

"Hmmm." I don't know why I am a topic of discussion but I think I need to tone it down. "Well I love other things as well."

"Cool, here you can touch it." She opened up her big boobs but like I said, I am not exactly attracted to her or maybe I am just not in the mood.

"No, no need for that. Like I said, maybe next time. In fact, I think you should leave now, it's already pretty late." She's not going to be of any use to me tonight, so there is no need for her to stick around.

"Okay, are you sure?" She asked with a disappointed look on her face but I will rather disappoint her like this than to attempt anything with her and realize that I can't get it up, she can't turn me on and I know it.

"Of course." She stepped out and I decided to stay a little longer and have more drinks.

I sat in the same position, backing the door and sipping my whiskey while recounting all the events of today... "Fuck." I cursed when I remembered how I lost my best friend and now my confidence as a straight guy.

I am always down for sex under any circumstances and now I can't get it up even with a sexy lady in the room. This whole Blake issue is messing with me and I hate it, I am a stallion in bed and now I am turning down a lady and I have a feeling that it has something to do with Blake.

The door opened quietly and I didn't bother to turn around because I know that it's Charvie again. "Why are you so stubborn Charvie? I already told you, I am not in the mood. Maybe some other time."