ALPHA NATE It's obvious that it hurts Blake to see Cha,Chav, Charvie or whatever her name is and I together and I feel a little bad but I just have to prove to him that I am attracted and will always be attracted to ladies. The earlier he gets this sick idea of making me fall in love with him out of his head, the better because I will fucking die first before I fall for him. Being with him is a nightmare I don't want to experience."Come this way." I said after a prolonged stare with Blake, I passed right in front of him to my slaughter room.I have a place I take ladies to outside the pack especially when they are not pack members but sometimes, when I am dealing with pack members, I take them to my slaughter room because the only person I will take to my house is my mate when I finally find her.I can still feel Blake staring at me but I don't give a fuck. "Wow this is beautiful." She said immediately we stepped inside.I don't know why she thinks it beautiful though, it's just a m
BLAKE All hope drained out of me after seeing Nate walk by me with Charlie, I was so disappointed and sad, it was obvious that she got her wish and they were going to have sex and it hurts so much because there is nothing I could do to stop them... The longer they were gone, the more I realized that I might never be able to win Nate over like I thought, especially in three months.But when Charlie stepped out hours later looking so pissed, it gave me a renewed hope that maybe I still have a chance. I tried talking to her but she walked out on me and I really don't care, so I retract her footsteps and I found Nate sitting alone in a dimly lit room... It's crazy that I entered confidently even without knocking.But when I heard him say "Why are you so stubborn Charvi?" It brought immense joy to my heart, because I realized that he doesn't even know her name and he probably asked her to leave and when he continued by saying "I already told you, I am not in the mood. Maybe some other tim
ALPHA NATE Two weeks later...The last two weeks has been hell on earth, I thought that concentrating on work and Evading Blake was going to be easy but I was fucking wrong, he is everywhere I look and it's driving me crazy.I entered my office as usual but like other days, I found a note. For the last two weeks, I have been getting notes in my office. It's usually encouragement words and sometimes it's a nice wish to start the day. It's cute and I hate it at the same time because I think it's probably from Blake, it's probably one of his plans to get my attention, although I have no idea how he usually sneaks the note in here.But as I stared at today's note, I am beginning to think that I was wrong. "I don't think it's from Blake." I said to myself as I picked up the note and a single rose flower.This is the first time I am getting a flower and even though the note carries the same hand writing with the previous notes, I think it probably from a lady. I don't think that Blake is t
ALPHA NATE "Wait." Blake called as soon as I made a move to leave."What is it Blake?" Today has been nothing like I expected and it's very upsetting."You are already here and I have put in the effort to make tonight special, why don't you just wait and enjoy the evening with me, I promise you that I won't talk about anything mate related." Well he is right, I am dressed and I am here and hungry, so why not?"Alright but if you mention anything about mate or you try to convince me, I will leave without hesitation." I assured him.Like I said I am not attracted to guys and a few nice gestures here and there won't change anything besides the risk involved with him is just too much."Okay, have a sit." He signaled to the waiter and he showed up to take our orders.When the waiter showed up, I ordered for Chicken arrabbiata stew and parmesan dumplings, while Blake ordered for Chicken and chorizo ragu and a side of rice. Then we ordered a bottle of wine to go with it.I really love this
ALPHA NATE I woke up the next morning with a massive headache, I didn't sleep most of the night... I am ashamed to admit to myself that I was up all night thinking about Blake and the date we had. I pictured his smile, body language and the consoling hug he gave me all night, he has taken over my fucking thoughts and it's so worrisome."My fucking shirt still smells like him." I said as I removed the shirt and tossed it in the laundry basket.I made my way to the bathroom and showered, hopefully the cool water on my head will help with the headache... I stayed longer than necessary in the bathroom and by the time I was done, I was actually feeling better.I decided to make breakfast for myself before going to the office, so I made so scrambled eggs and bacon with a cup of coffee. " Fuck." I cursed as the thoughts of Blake creeped into my mind while eating."I need a fucking distraction." I said as I finished my food quickly and I started getting ready for work... I know for a fact th
ALPHA NATE The nonsense Blake said about Jake being strong and all lingered in my mind all day and even at night, I couldn't really sleep and I don't know why... Why the fuck am I bothered because he wanted Jake to train him and why am I bothered that he sounded like he was admiring Jake's body.Shouldn't I be happy that Blake is probably interested in another guy because that will mean that I am free from him. "I can finally reject Blake and act like none of this ever happened." I got out of bed after all, it's morning already and I didn't get to sleep."Two nights, two consecutive nights that I didn't get to sleep because of Blake." I am so pissed but mostly because I am constantly thinking about him. "He has invaded my thoughts and it's fucking messed up."I can't believe I am so bothered about Blake training with Jake. "Why the fuck do I care?" I asked myself as I repeatedly checked the time, so I can know what the time is.They usually start training around six and I need to mak
ALPHA NATE "Arghhh, who the fuck is there?" I asked when my sleep was interrupted by a stupid knock.For some nights now, I haven't been able to sleep properly and now that I can sleep, someone is knocking this early in the morning. It's fucking fifteen minutes to six, who the fuck is at my door this early?I reluctantly got out of bed even though I didn't get any response. "Who's there?" I asked again but I got nothing. The person is either deaf or dumb."Good morning." Blake said with a big smile on his face as soon as I opened the door."What the fuck are you doing here this morning?" I didn't expect to see him here."Well you said you would train me and I should come early and I shouldn't be late." He explained as he pushed past me and entered my house without permission. "Wow, this is beautiful." He walked around my living room while admiring the set up."I said don't be late, I didn't say you should sleep by my door or interrupt my sleep." I'm fucking sleepy."You can go back a
BLAKE TWO WEEKS LATER...It's been two weeks of training and I think things are improving and I am not just talking about the training, I am talking about my plans of making Nate fall in love with me... He doesn't know it yet but I think he is getting soft.He leaves his door open for me so that I can freely enter his house in the morning when I come for training without having to knock. I make him breakfast after our training and he doesn't complain anymore but today, I plan on taking things to another level.I entered his house as usual and I made my way to his room, I have never entered his room before but it's exactly like I imagined it. The room is very neat and well arranged and every single item is in place. "He is so cute." I whispered to myself as I watch him still sleeping in bed.I am very early today, so I crawled into the bed with him. I expected him to wake up and push me away but to my surprise, he pulled me closer with his eyes close and cuddled with me... I almost wa
ALPHA NATE I know I started by complaining about the fact that Blake always sneaks in my bed at night or early hours of the morning when he comes for his training but now, I always look forward to sharing my bed with him.It's crazy that I even find it difficult to sleep in my bed alone, I have the best sleep when he is in my bed but it's annoying that he wakes up super early and tries to wiggle himself out of my hold just like right now.After the mess he created in my living room yesterday, I just asked him to stay over and he agreed and now he is trying to get out of my hold ."What are you doing?" I asked with my eyes still closed. I don't know why I enjoy keeping my eyes closed when I am still in bed, I just prefer to let all my senses fully wake up before opening my eyes."Nothing." He lied."But I can feel you trying to wiggle out of my hold." I pointed out."I am just trying to give you space." That was the last thing i expected him to say."When did I ever ask you for space,
ALPHA NATE "You heard what they said at the meeting right? So we have to be really careful and more security minded... So you will call Richard, the head of security and the new herbal wolf to meet me at the office tomorrow, I need to give them a few suggestions." I informed.We just got back from a three hours long meeting with all the alpha's and their beta's. There was a lot of concerning topics that was raised but the most important and most pressing is the issue of the werewolf hunters. It has been a reoccurring issue and we need to take it more seriously before things gets out of hand."Of course Alpha, I will inform them and they will be at the office first thing tomorrow morning." Jake said just before we stepped out of the car, the meeting was in town at the chairmans office."Alright, see you tomorrow." It's been a long day and I am not going back to the office today, I need to get a proper rest and maybe sleep... I woke up early today because I had to train Blake before g
ALPHA NATE Days later..."Blake you have done enough for today." I said but he didn't listen to me and he just kept training. He has been training since he got here this morning and it's been three hours already, he has never trained for that long.He went back to his house after we realized that he is not exactly sick, he is just feeling sick and having symptoms because he is about to transform and ever since he left, he has been showing up every morning and training like a maniac... It's obvious that his strength has been hightened and he has started growing hair more on his legs and even hand, he is definitely transforming during the full moon.I know he is trying to stretch his body to the limit, he is probably thinking the stronger he gets, the lesser the transformation pain but it's not true... Transformation is brutal and there is nothing he can do to escape it but if he keeps training like this, his entire body will be so tired and it will even hurt more. "I'm talking to you
ALPHA NATE After I finished making pasta Alfredo following Blake's directions, I served the food and we sat at the dining table and we started eating or should I say I started eating because all Blake did was to play around with the food... He was excited about the food while I was cooking but now he doesn't seem interested.I mean I know that I am not a good cook but I followed his directions and the food turned out great, it's actually very tasty but he has refused to taste it."You don't like the food?" I asked after observing him for a while."I do but I am not hungry, sorry." He said but I don't think that's the problem, to the best of my knowledge the only thing he had since morning is pasta, so there is no way he is not hungry."Did you eat anything other than breakfast when I was at work?" "No but I don't want to eat." He said and pushed the plate away from him.Something is definitely wrong, I find it difficult to believe that he just doesn't want to eat and nothing is wron
ALPHA NATE "So what did it say?" He asked while waving the note at me."I have not read it yet." And I honestly don't think I will read it, what's the point of hurting myself on purpose."Why not? Haven't you missed him?" Of course I have missed him and I regret what I did to him, my actions still hurts him till now but we all know that's not a friendly note."Of course I have missed him but what has that got to do with me reading the letter, we both know that the content of that letter is not friendly... I feel like I already know the content, maybe not word for word but I know what's in it." I pointed out as I got up to grab a drink.This whole Raphael thing is stressing me out, it's like I am being punished all over again, as if Blake is not enough punishment. He has become someone I can't get rid of even if I try and in some ways, I am not sure I really want to get rid of him."Okay since you know the content of this letter so well, why don't you tell me what's in it?" I returned
ALPHA NATE "Why so many people, what's going on?" I asked as we entered my office."I don't know, I just saw them here this morning and they said they wanted to see you." This is just so weird, I don't think I have come across this amount of rogues all at once before."That's strange, okay let them in." I instructed but I don't really know if letting them stay here is the best thing to do considering that they are like eight or so."Okay Alpha." He left my office and I turned on my laptop to begin the days work.I hate it when I come to the office in the morning and I have to attend to people, I prefer to be alone for a while before I have to deal with people and their different issues... It's just too early for all the drama."Good morning Alpha." They greeted all at once and it was almost noisy."Morning, pick a representative to talk on your behalf." I waited for them to decide and the person they picked stepped forward. "Why are you guys here?" I asked as I gestured to Jake to si
ALPHA NATE I woke up to a slight movement on my bed and I know for sure that it's Blake, I remember asking him to sleep over last night when he wanted to leave... The fact that he is not feeling fine, couple with the fact that Charvi is an ass doesn't sit right with me and I will rather take care of him myself than to let him go while I worry about his health.I mean him staying here isn't exactly good especially because I am trying to get him out of my head but not having him around sucks. "What are you doing?" I asked with my eyes still closed while he was trying to get out of bed and out of my hold "It's morning." He pointed out as if it explains everything."So?""So I want to get up and make you breakfast, you are going to work right?" Is he crazy?He is the sick one here, why will he think that I will allow him make breakfast for me in his condition?"Yes I am going to work but I don't need breakfast and if I do, I will take care of myself." I said as I pulled him closer to me
BLAKE The last few days has been hell and not just because I am under the weather but because I have not been able to see Nate and I am upset that he didn't even bother to look for me. I know that he has been wanting me to leave him alone but I didn't think that he was serious, I thought he was just saying it to get on my nerves... He didn't hear from me in three days and he doesn't care, so I know now that he is serious and maybe I am just wasting my time and fooling myself into thinking that I can somehow make him fall in love with me.I reluctantly left my room and I made my way to the kitchen to get myself a glass of water. "Arghhh, everywhere hurts." I murmured to myself."That's none of your business Charvi." I heard faintly from the kitchen and I know that has to be Nate. "Just call him for me." A huge grin spread across my face as I heard his voice.I know his voice and he is definitely the one and even if I wasn't sure of his voice, he is the only one I know that calls Char
ALPHA NATE THREE DAYS LATER...Hehehe... I laughed alone in my office when I remembered how the squirrel that Larry killed wasn't enough for the pack members to share, it was really cute and I am impressed. I have to instruct Larry to share the squirrel with just his pairs and I made sure he got a bone from the squirrel to use as his necklace, as part of the tradition of the killing ceremony."Where the fuck is Blake?" I asked myself as I remembered that it's been three days since Larry's killing ceremony and I am yet to see Blake.At first I was okay with the fact that he didn't show up for training or bother me in my office, I thought that this is his way of telling me that he is upset or that he is finally listening to me but now, it feels wrong.I should be happy that he has decided to stay away but I am not, it's feels strange and it's weird to say this but I think "I miss him." Which is really weird.I have been the one wanting space from him and now that I have the space, I wa