CHAPTER TEN | YOU ENJOYED MY TOUCH

BLAKE

All hope drained out of me after seeing Nate walk by me with Charlie, I was so disappointed and sad, it was obvious that she got her wish and they were going to have sex and it hurts so much because there is nothing I could do to stop them... The longer they were gone, the more I realized that I might never be able to win Nate over like I thought, especially in three months.

But when Charlie stepped out hours later looking so pissed, it gave me a renewed hope that maybe I still have a chance. I tried talking to her but she walked out on me and I really don't care, so I retract her footsteps and I found Nate sitting alone in a dimly lit room... It's crazy that I entered confidently even without knocking.

But when I heard him say "Why are you so stubborn Charvi?" It brought immense joy to my heart, because I realized that he doesn't even know her name and he probably asked her to leave and when he continued by saying "I already told you, I am not in the mood. Maybe some other time." I almost leaped in joy, they didn't have sex and that's just the best news in the world and it gave me some balls.

"Ohhhhh." He moaned when I placed my hands on his shoulder and started massaging him. "That feels good." He said as I moved up his neck and then the back of his head... I am not surprised that he likes my massage because that's what I did for money in my former pack to help my father.

"This... Ohhhhh, wow. This is really good. If your hands felt like this a while ago, I wouldn't have asked you to leave. Ohhhhh, yeah... Just like that." Everything he is saying and every sound he is making is like music to my ears.

"I'm glad you asked her to leave." I said and I instantly regretted it because he jerked up immediately he heard my voice.

"What the fuck Blake? What the hell are you doing here?" He took a few steps back as if the distance between us isn't enough.

"Just calm down, no one saw me coming in here." I pointed out because I know that's what he is probably worried about.

"First of all, you can't be so sure. I bring only ladies in here and you shouldn't be here and secondly, what the fuck are you doing here?" Honestly, I don't understand why he is so worried about people finding out.

He is the Alpha and he can always scrap the law, it's a shitty law and everyone will be pleased if he gets rid of it but he will rather deny me as his mate instead of doing the right thing.

"I don't know, I guess I just wanted to see you." I said as I sat down on the armchair he just got out of. "I know you were trying to hurt me a while ago when you came in here with Charlie but she's my sister and you can't sleep with her." I said with a serious face.

Hehehe, he started laughing and I wonder what's so funny. "What makes you think you can decide who I sleep with" he asked before sitting on the bed.

"I am your mate and it hurts seeing you with her." My voice cracked and a tear rolled down my cheeks.

"How many times? How many times do I have to tell you that I am not gay and you are certainly not my mate. I don't want to hurt you but if you want to hurt yourself, be my guest." He said harshly but if he still believes that I am not his mate, then why didn't he sleep with Charlie when he got the chance.

"You say one thing but your body says something totally different, have you forgotten how you enjoyed my touch a while ago and if you are so sure that you are not attracted to me, why didn't you have sex with Charlie when you had the chance?" I asked curiously because none of this makes sense to me.

"I didn't enjoy your touch, I enjoyed the massage which is totally different and who says I didn't have sex with Charlie?"

"I am not a baby Nate, you didn't have sex and you even confirmed it when I walked in here. I know you know that I am your mate, maybe you have never imagined a male mate and it's fine but the earlier you accept it, the better for the both of us because I won't give up on you." I said sternly.

I have already lost a lot of things in my life and I am not about to lose my mate because he is too scared to accept it.

"I don't care what you say Blake, all I know is that I love boobs and ass and I am not going to give all that up simply because the moon goddess says so. You can keep wasting your time, trying to convince me that I am your mate but eventually, the three months will be over and you will realize that I was right all along, I am not gay and this was just a mistake." He said as he got up and left me in the room before I could think of something to say.

I stayed back in the room thinking about everything he just said and I am almost convinced that maybe he is right, maybe he is not gay. "But the moon goddess doesn't make mistakes and if I didn't mean anything to him, why didn't he have sex with Charlie and what were they doing in here together for more than one hour?" I need to ask Charlie.

I checked the window to make sure that no one is outside before sneaking out of the room and I hurried over to the house and luckily for me, I met Charlie in the living room.

"What's wrong Charlie, you look upset?" I sat down in front of her to get a proper view of her.

"Nothing, he just wasted my evening." She pointed out.

"How?"

"I have been dying to have the opportunity I had with him for a long time, I have heard stories about him. He is never tired and he is very good in bed but I got the opposite. Can you believe that we didn't do anything?" I really don't understand why she's so upset just because she didn't get to have sex with Nate.

"Why? You stayed long with him, if you didn't have sex, what were you guys doing?" I asked curiously, there is no way they were just staring at each other right?

"Well he said that he is not in the mood, that maybe next time and we spent the whole time talking about irrelevant things." She said and then she started smiling again. "Wait, maybe I am special, maybe we didn't have sex because he likes me better than others." She said excitedly but I have no idea what to say.

"Well maybe but what did you guys discuss?"

"Me and my family, he asked when I came into this pack and then he asked about you and..."

"About me? What about me?" I interrupted her.

"Nothing important, you were not exactly the focus but he asked about your family, when you moved in here, your relationship and some other irrelevant stuff but honestly I think he has better plans for me." She smiled but all I can think about is that they were together because he wanted to ask her things about me.

The first time we saw each other, I was with Charlie and he probably didn't know who to ask apart from her and it explains why they didn't have sex... Contrarily to what he said, I am important to him and there is hope for us.

"Yeah I think so, he has better plans for you. In fact I think you should stop throwing yourself at him because if you keep doing that, he might just have sex with you and you won't be important to him anymore." Well I have to protect what's mine besides she started fooling herself first.

"You are right Blake, I have to be different from other ladies because there is a chance that he wants to make me his Luna and I can't afford to ruin it." Honestly, it was difficult holding back my laughter, did she just say Luna? Wow, that's crazy, Luna indeed but if that's what will keep her away from Nate, then it's fine by me.

"Absolutely, Luna of Black shadow pack suits you perfectly... He is probably observing you, so you have to respect yourself." I suggested with a huge grin on my face.

"You are absolutely right, that's what he is doing... Luna of Black shadow pack, I can't wait." She got up and started sashaying around the living room.

"Luna indeed, what a joke." I whispered under my breath with a renewed hope, I can still have Nate.