A Blissful Grief

“Do you like it?” tanong niya habang nakangisi.   Hindi ako makapaniwalang humarap sa kaniya. He's still smirking while watching my reaction. Hindi ko mapigilang hindi magduda dahil sa ngising nakapaskil sa labi niya.   “P-Para sa'kin 't-to?” Pinagmasdan ko siyang mabuti at nanliit ang mga mata ko. “No. Maybe you were just pranking me.”   His face turned serious. “This is for you, brat. Ayaw mo?”   Unti-unting gumuhit ang ngiti sa labi ko. Muli  kong iginala ang paningin sa loob. I want to scream with happiness because he surprised me with my dream music room. I love singing ever since kaya gustong gusto ko magkaroon ng ganito but my mother doesn't want me to have one.   Music instruments were already complete and everything was fitted inside. Using white, black, and gray colors on the walls is a good thing paired with wooden flooring. Instead of a plain ceiling, different l

3 weeks after that day, hindi na kami muling nagkita ni Console. Sa tuwing umaalis si Hope hindi muna ako sumasama dahil alam kong nakabantay siya. I just want to distance myself from him during that weeks.   For the past weeks, I realized that life is short so we need to take every chance to make everything possible. Napagdesisyonan kong umamin kay Console ngayong araw. Kung mare-reject man ako, it's okay at least I took the chance to confess my feelings.   Hindi ko na isinama si Hope dahil ang sarap nang tulog niya at ayoko siyang abalahin. It's already 10:00 am but she's still asleep.   I'm wearing simple high waisted jeans with a matching fitted long sleeves crop top. Nagsuot lang ako ng rubber shoes. I want to look simple.    Nasa labas na ako nang condominium at naghihintay ng taxi. Hindi ako gumamit ng kotse dahil hindi ako marunong magmaneho. While waiting, I look around and I saw a smal

Nabura ang ngiti ko sa narinig. He still calls me 'Miss' so it's all about his work only? I felt my heart ached. Oo nga pala, isa siyang bodyguard ng mga Dela Serna. He is professional when it comes to his work. Trabaho niya lang ako.   Para akong natauhan. Hindi ko dapat lagyan ng meaning ang mga kilos niya. Kung tutuusin si Hope lang dapat ang binabantayan niya. He shouldn't have saved me. Hindi niya dapat ginagawa 'to. I'm just a burden to him.    “U-Uhm, kahit wag na. I can handle myself. Sige, papasok na ako,” I said before turning my back at him with a heavy feeling. Hindi na ako lumingon sa likod kung nasaan siya.   From now on, I should learn how to be independent. Mahirap man pero makakaya ko rin. Balang araw maiiwan akong mag-isa at tatayo sa sariling mga paa.   Siguro magta-taxi nalang ako mamaya. I don't want to be a burden to anyone... to him.    Pumasok ak

Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. I became conscious about my voice even though I am good at singing. Nakakahiya pa rin kung siya ang kaharap ko. He's special!   I shyly look at him. “A-Ah, puwede bang wag nalang? Hindi a-ako marunong,” palusot ko. “Ikaw nalang kaya. I wanna hear you sing.”   Napakamot siya sa batok niya. I find him cute while doing it. Hindi ako sanay na gano'n siya umasta.    I smiled unknowingly with his gestures.    Tumigil siya sa pagkamot bago umayos ng upo. He started strumming the guitar again.    “Woah, ohh. She's staring at me, I'm sitting wondering what she's thinking...”   Nagsimula siyang kumanta habang nakatitig sa akin. My mouth parted upon hearing him sing. I can't believe he's good at this too! Napakalamig ng boses niya. It makes me want to sleep. Para akong hinihele.    Bagay talaga kami!

Crying is a healthy way to reduce stress and negative effects in our body but seems like it didn't make me feel nor look good. My chest feels heavy from crying last night. I also looked like a corpse that gets up from its coffin because of the dark circles around my eyes, as well as my pale skin.    Mas lalo yata akong na-stress sa itsura ko habang nakaharap sa salamin. I pouted while fixing my hair. Mas lalo siguro akong hindi magugustuhan ni Rius nito. I'm so ugly and stressed from everything.   I will go to our house since my parents arrived last night. Ano na naman kaya ang masasakit na salita ang maririnig ko mula sa kanila? Napabuntong hininga nalang ako habang naghahanda para sa pag-alis.    Hindi ko na hinintay na magising si Hope. Kuya Lucky was still here pero hindi na ako nag-abalang magpaalam. I don't want them to get worried about me.     Nakarating ako sa bahay namin ng m