Phoenix
"Come on, man! Put yourself together, will you?" Sujin tapped my shoulder.They've been cheering me up since the night I came back to the dorm. I ignored him so he just sit next to me. We're currently preparing for a concert."What's going on?" I asked, as soon as I arrived in the practice room."The CEO wants to talk to you." Less said.They all look bothered. I took a deep breath and went straight to our manager's office.He's sitting snugly on his swivel chair, waiting for me. Eunice is also here. I heave a sigh in annoyance as soon as I approach them."Take a seat," he ordered."I prefer standing," I answered."I told you to take a seat," he ordered sternly.I do as he says. I always do what he says.Eunice is fidgeting in her seat. She's staringSOL "He's cute—no, he's hot! Gosh, I can give my soul to him if he'll just let me!" "Are you stupid? He doesn't fall in love. Maybe he's gay? In his 3 years of career, he's the only one in the group who has always been in the headline. Phoenix is the best leader of the band and falling in love is not his style." "How did you know that?" "Because I know him very much. I know every detail of his life... even the moles in his body, I know exactly where they are." All I have to do is to raise my brow as I listen to my students who seemed not to notice that I'm already standing behind them. "Really? So, where can we locate his moles?" I asked. "He has a mole on the left part of his chest—Oh my God! Sorry, Miss Sol!" she almost fell on her seat in surprise. Well, I can't blame them. I smiled inwardly but made sure to keep my blank face. I can see myself to them when I was still studying. Years ago, I was exac
SolAs usual, I wasn't able to fall asleep. I keep thinking of how am I going to react when we meet. For 10 years, I did all my might to avoid him at all costs. I did a pretty good job, I guess, not until my dearest best friend decided to get married. Of course, he will be the best man and I'm the maid of honor. It's a given since the bride is her cousin. I tried thinking about excuses I can tell Alvie so I would not need to go back in this place but she threatened me so I had no other option but to agree. I'm wearing a loose shirt and long skirt when I went to the rehearsal. I let my hair down and adjusted my eyeglasses. I didn't intend to make a scene but Jed and Kollin ran to me.I should be running away but my feet got stuck and the last thing I got to say is,"Sho
SolToday is the day. Everything is settled and everyone is excited. I can see how my best friend's eyes twinkle as she walks down the aisle. It seems like she's the happiest woman in the whole universe.The ceremony had started when someone came, getting the attention of all the people in the venue.He apologized and motioned the priest to continue what he's doing in a stupid way that made everyone laugh, except me.His hair is dyed white like Jack Frost. His smiles were the same but he looks tired because of the circles under his eyes.Our eyes met, and for the first time in after ten years, my heart skips a beat and seems like millions of needles fissure my heart.I look away and tried to avoid his gaze the whole ceremony but I can feel that he's staring at me. Our hands touch many times as we do our p
Sol11 YEARS AGOEirie Solleigh Santos2nd Year Education Student"Irheobeorin chae Oemyeonhaneun geot gata Chameul subakke eobseo Nuneul gamjiman~""SOL! MAGPATULOG KA NAMAN! BUKAS KA NA BUMIRIT! ANSAKIT MO SA TENGA EH!" binato pa nya ako ng unan."Bakit ba? ginusto mong matulog dito, edi magtiis ka." I sticked out my tongue in front of my kuya.Siya na nakikitulog sya pa may ganang magreklamo. Hindi ko naman siya pinilit na matulog sa kwarto ko. Siya na nga lang ang nakikisuyo, siya pa may ganang magreklamo."Ewan ko sayo. As if naman mapapansin ka ng mga koreanong yan. Pinapaasa mo lang sarili mo."Sinamaan ko lang sya ng tingin. Napakasama talaga ng ugali netong lalaking 'to. Bakit ba ako nagkaroon ng kuyang unggoy?"Tsaka bakit andaming kalat sa pader ng kwarto mo? Ano na namang kabaliwan 'yan?
I was still in a bad mood until I got home.Buti nalang talaga at half day lang yung pasok ko ngayon. Di na nga ako nakapagpaalam kina Alvie eh.If you're wondering who is Ronan, he was my almost-boyfriend. For a fan girl like me, it’s impossible to like a guy other than my idol. You may think I’m overacting but you can ask any fan girl and they’ll say the same thing—unless that normal guy is exceptionally good or we saw something that made him stand out.Ronan and I’s relationship didn't turn out well because he fell in love with another girl. Nasaktan ako? Malamang.Sino bang hindi? Umasa ako eh. Kaso pinagmukha niya akong tanga. Not to sound too bitter but that’s what actually happened.Too ease my already bad mood, kinuha ko nalang yung phone ko. Mag sspazz nalang ako. Medyo busy kami ni Avie sa mga reportings pero that doesn’t mean we’ll stop doing what we’re used to.
"Kuya! Bibili lang ako sa labas!" Hindi ko na hinintay yung sasabihin ni Kuya. 6 PM na din pala. Hindi ako nakakakain ng dinner. Wala kasing mga katulong sa bahay. Nakakasulasok naman yung luto ni kuya. Bibili nalang ako ng cup noodles kaysa naman ma-food poison pa ako dahil sa kanya HAHAHA. The windblow is a little colder now. Nakalimutan ko palang magdala ng jacket. Hayst, ako na tanga. Nahahawa na yata ako sa pagiging makakalimutin ni Lay. Habang naglalakad ako, may nagpatong naman ng jacket sa balikat ko. Huminto ako para mak
7 pm na din at may mga bisita pa rin sa baba. Balak pa ba nilang makipag dinner dito? Nakaupo ako sa terrace ng kwarto ni Alvie. Nasabi ko na ba? Mayaman sila. Nasa America kasi yung papa nya. Napatingin ako sa garden nila. Nandun si Phoenix, kasama nung mga barkada nya. Nag iinuman yata. "Sol." Napalingon ako sa nagsalita. Si Alvie lang pala. Mukha siyang tanga kasi ngingiti-ngiti siya na parang nakasinghot ng sampung katol. "Baliw ka?" I asked her. "Oo bes! Baliw na baliw!” sabay tawa pa niya, “Ang gwapo talaga nya~" Napakunot yung noo ko. Sino na naman ba bukod sa BTS, EXO, Bigbang, Seventeen, Astro at iba pang boy group? "Si Chalk! May gas!" "Nasaan yung gas? Inlab ka sa chalk bes?" Sinamaan ako ng tingin ni Alvie. "Ang jeje mo be
I didn’t get enough sleep. These days Mom and Dad are always in an argument. Sometimes they get too loud but whenever they see me, they both tone down your voice or Mom will ask me to go out first, ask me to run some errands but I’m not stupid enough to know that they are fighting. I guess that’s just part of marriage life."May problema ba?"I glanced at Ronan who is watching me carefully. We’re in the office. Did I mention that I’m part of the school newspaper’s staff? I just smiled at him. It’s been a week since I last talk."Tara sa food court dali."Bago pa ako makapagreact, kinaladkad na nya ako palabas. All eyes looking at us. Bakit? Sinong hindi magtataka? Alam yata ng buong College of Teacher Education yung drama ng buhay namin ni Ronan."Kumusta ka?"He asked me as long as we got our seats in the corner.
Phoenix"Come on, man! Put yourself together, will you?" Sujin tapped my shoulder.They've been cheering me up since the night I came back to the dorm. I ignored him so he just sit next to me. We're currently preparing for a concert."What's going on?" I asked, as soon as I arrived in the practice room."The CEO wants to talk to you." Less said.They all look bothered. I took a deep breath and went straight to our manager's office.He's sitting snugly on his swivel chair, waiting for me. Eunice is also here. I heave a sigh in annoyance as soon as I approach them."Take a seat," he ordered."I prefer standing," I answered."I told you to take a seat," he ordered sternly.I do as he says. I always do what he says.Eunice is fidgeting in her seat. She's staring
Sol"I thought you and Phoenix were okay now?"I look at mommy who's currently lying on the couch while watching TV. I visited their house because I'm bored.The kids are not there because they are still in school. Zeck and his wife are in the shop. Mama was left alone.I was washing the dishes in the kitchen but he called me. She pointed to the TV."Switch's leader, Phoenix Yu rumored dating with Singer Eunice Park"I laughed a little. She knows that we're okay again but I guess I did the wrong decision. She's expecting Glenn and me to get along. It was also been a few weeks ago when we last met ... when I was left alone in his house."We're okay, Ma. I didn't say that we're back together."I went back to the kitchen and continued what I was doing. I felt Mom's presence but I remained silent."You still love him, don't
PhoenixShe's back to her work when I finished taking a shower. She's not wearing any make-up yet she looks really gorgeous with her eyeglasses."Let's go."This caught her attention. Her brow creased, she looks at me like I've grown two heads."Where?""Uh, outside?"She stared at me then continued what she was doing. I sat next to her but she closed his laptop."You're not allowed to take a glance at it. You didn't even pay for the book you took."I laughed at her reaction. Speaking of that book ... it perhaps reminds me of what happened between us.The girl's sufferings after the guy left her and chose his dreams over her. How her life shattered after he walked out of her life without a word. How he stole her heart and break it into a million pieces. How her world collided and how she tries to put back every piece.As time goes by,
Sol"Sol?"I lost count of how many times have I heave a sigh. I know I should not expect but the pain is still there."SOL!""Oh, lisp!"Chan glared at me. I ignored him. I continued to draw even though I knew he looked bad on me.It's been a month since Phoenix had his unplanned visit. Since then, I have heard nothing from him. They are busy again on the world tour.I've seen in their schedule that they're in China today (don't think that I'm stalking him, it just happened that I'm up the net when I saw their schedule)."Are you okay, Sol? You've been spacing out the whole time.""I'm just tired.""You're doing nothing and yet you're tired?"I did not answer. It's tiring to wait for nothing. Wait. Who's waiting for who?I stood up and dragged Chan out. If I stay inside my house longer - I will go reall
PhoenixThe light coming from the window woke me up. I tried to open my eyes but shut it again when the light almost blinded me.I smell something that made my stomach grumble but I lay still on the bed.I have never been comfortable like this for a long time. I glance at the wall clock and the small hand hits 10. A curve lifts up on both sides of my mouth. At least she didn't kick me out during the dawn.I put on my clothes before getting out of the room. I found her sitting in the kitchen with a book in her hand. I captured a photo of her before approaching her."Good morning." I beamed at her but she didn't even bother removing her eyes on her book."Good morning." she finally said as soon as she finished the last page of the book she's reading.She prepared the meal while I took the book she's reading a while ago.She just kept quiet while we ate. She hardly even look
SolIt's been exactly three months since the day the bastard left. I should have not trusted him.I should not hope that he's really sincere when he says he wanted to find me.Who am I kidding?He loves his career pretty much sure than he loves anything and everyone else.I am indeed a fool for thinking he'll make his promises but who am I kidding? Pheonix Glenn will always be Pheonix Glenn. I don't even know why I trusted him. I don't even know why I believe him when he said he'll make it up to me.His group is on the news so I turned off the TV. It's almost midnight and I'm stuck in my new house doing nothing, waiting for my ideas to come pouring down.Mom cried really hard when she learned that I'm moving out. I feel bad for not telling her immediately but Zeck comforts me by telling me she'll understand and I'm too old and I can decide on my own.&
PhoenixI let myself fall on the floor as my sweat bathe my whole body. Sol is surely bloody mad at me right now. We almost fixed it but here it is again.If I could only punch my manager for being extra annoying, I already did as soon as I step afoot at the airport this morning.We talked about one week vacation but they suddenly sent me back. This comeback is pretty maddening. We already talked that we're coming back two months from now and they're suddenly telling me that we will move it in advance."Aren't you going back to the dorm?" Sujin asked me. He's the group's rapper.We're the only ones who were left in the practice room while the others went back to the dorm already. He can speak in English because he studied in California when he was in high school but he's a full-blooded Korean."Later. I'll just take a rest for a while."&nbs
Sol.We circled the bonfire. I'm holding my notebook and drawing something in it when Phoenix Glenn sat beside me.The cold wind blows, making me shake. I'm still wearing my dress which happens to be so thin."Don't you know how to play the guitar, Sol?" Kollin asked.He handed me his guitar and everyone looked at me. I heave a sigh as I try to recall the chords. It's been ten years since I played the guitar.I played the song I played when we had our first practice for the school festival in college.Stupid memories assaulted me and I closed my eyes real tight to push th
Pinilit kong pumasok kahit sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko. Dapat masaya ako kasi tumawag si kuya Zeck at sinabing isasama na niya kami sa Korea. Pero bakit wala akong maramdaman?‘Di ko siya nakita sa school nang dumating ako kaya dumiretso nalang ako sa classroom.Jedd, Kollin, Chalk, and Alvie came rushing to me. They all look worried. I inhaled all the possible strength I'm needing before smiling at them."Bakit ganyan mga mukha niyo? Luh, parang ewan.""Okay ka lang ba, Sol?" Jedd asked.Nginitian ko sila tsaka tumango. "Oo naman. Bakit naman ‘di ako magiging okay?""Anong nangyari sa inyo ng pinsan ko?" Inis na tanong ni Alvie."Di ko din alam. Sabi ko naman sa inyo. Mas gwapo si Suho ko. Bahala siya sa buhay niya. Teka nga, bakit ba parang kayo yung nakipag-break? Haha. Tsaka wag niyo namang awayin yung tao. B