"Kuya! Bibili lang ako sa labas!"
Hindi ko na hinintay yung sasabihin ni Kuya. 6 PM na din pala. Hindi ako nakakakain ng dinner. Wala kasing mga katulong sa bahay.
Nakakasulasok naman yung luto ni kuya. Bibili nalang ako ng cup noodles kaysa naman ma-food poison pa ako dahil sa kanya HAHAHA.
The windblow is a little colder now. Nakalimutan ko palang magdala ng jacket. Hayst, ako na tanga. Nahahawa na yata ako sa pagiging makakalimutin ni Lay.
Habang naglalakad ako, may nagpatong naman ng jacket sa balikat ko. Huminto ako para makita sya. Familiar yung pabango, eh.
"Ikaw?"
My brows involuntary meet in shock of seeing him, yes, HIM, that conceited boy in the rooftop.
"Kita mo ng malamig yung panahon hindi ka nagjajacket. Kapag nagkasakit ka, paano na ako??"
Ano daw?
I don’t know exactly how to react. I heard him just right and hearing strangers say it to me makes me cringe. I’m really starting to think that he’s a psycho.
"Wala na akong aasarin. Kaya bawal kang magkasakit. Saan ka ba pupunta?" he asked as if he didn’t say that his phone is more expensive than me.
I didn’t even know where he came from. He suddenly appears, offer me his jacket like he’s some kind of a gentle dog. The first thing that came to my mouth is,
"Pakealam mo ba? Sinusundan mo ba ako?"
Pinitik naman nya ako sa noo. The gentle dog’s face that he has a while ago suddenly disappeared and now he has his serious face to me. I don’t even know why I’m talking to him.
"Asa ka naman. Kakain ng noodles? Wala sa bahay eh. Bakit nga kasi nasa labas ka pa? Mamaya may mambastos pa sayo dito—kunsabagay wala namang magkakainteres sayo."
Tumawa pa sya kaya hinampas ko siya sa balikat. Kamuntik naman syang matumba. His laugh is annoying. For a boy like him, he’s too loud. His laugh doesn’t match his face.
"Hindi kasi edible yung luto ng kuya ko."
He laughed at what I’ve said and called me a bad sibling like he knows my brother. If only he knows how my brother treats me, he will take pity on me. But of course, Kuya Zeck is not a bad guy. You’ll understand what I mean if you have a sibling. The love and hate relationship is undying.
"Hindi ako masama. Hindi lang talaga nakakain yung luto ng kapatid ko.”
Since we already met, we decided to just go together. I don’t even understand why I joined him and why I’m still talking to him. Maybe he made me go with him because he said that he knows a place. Masarap daw do’n sabi nya. Lagi nga daw sya dun kaya may discount na sya pag bumibili sya.
Nagpunta kami sa noodles resto na never kong napuntahan kahit lagi akong lumalabas kapag gabi. Hindi pa namin napuntahan ni Alvie ‘to dahil hindi namin alam na may nag-e-exist pala na ganitong establishment dito.
Tahimik lang kami habang kumakain. Nakakatatlong bowl na siya samantalang nakakalahati ko palang yung akin.
"Ayoko na. Nawalan na ako ng gana." Bigla naman akong natawa.
"Nawalan ka pa ng gana sa lagay na yan huh?"
Tumawa nalang din siya. Pinapanood nya akong kumain habang nakangiti. Nye, nababaliw na ba sya? Psh. Nagring naman yung phone nya.
"Hello?"
[PHOENIX! ASAN KA NA? GALIT NA GALIT NA SI TANDA! PUPUTOK NA ULO NYA SA SOBRANG INIT! HAHAHAHAHA.]
Kahit hindi nakaloud speak rinig na rinig ko yung malakas na boses nung kausap nya. Natawa naman ako. He said he’s on the way while he’s still sitting in front of the big empty bowls. What a liar.
"May practice nga pala. Tsk. Nawala sa isip ko. Tara hatid na muna kita sa inyo."
"Huwag na. Kaya ko naman mag-isa." Sagot ko.
Nagkamot naman sya ng ulo. Nagkamot siya ng ulo tsaka tumango.
He said it’s on him because he wanted to apologize for being rude. When we stepped outside, I wanted to give his jacket back but he refused, telling me that I can just give it back to him next time since he’s already wearing a long-sleeved shirt.
"Ingat sila sayo. Tawagan mo ako kapag nakauwi kana."
Ginulo nya yung buhok ko bago umalis. So, Phoenix pala yung pangalan nya? We didn’t exchange names. I will say he’s good-looking but he’s too boastful for me even though he already apologize and treat me.
Tsaka ano daw? Tawagan ko daw sya? Bakit ko naman sya tatawagan?
Pag uwi ko sa bahay, tulog na si Kuya. Maaga kasi yung flight nya pabalik sa Korea bukas kaya mag isa na naman ako sa bahay namin.
Inopen ko yung F* account ko. Biglang may nag pop out na notification.
'Phoenix Glenn Yu accepted your friend request.'
Huh? Sino naman 'to? Bakit wala yata akong natatandaan na nagsend ako ng friend request? Wala nga akong inaaccept eh. Tss. Biglang nag-init yung ulo ko nang maalala ko kung sino si Phoenix. I didn’t touch his phone out of respect and he has the audacity to use mine without consent. He even use my account to send friend request.
And to my curiosity, I decided to visit his timeline. We go in the same university but I didn’t know that he’s famous. Maybe that explains why he’s so full of himself. He even got a lot of fans.
So sumasayaw pala sila. Pinanood ko yung video nila. They covered BTS' Fire and yeah, I must admit that they really have a talent.
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"Hi~"
(BES~ ASAN KA NA?! BAKIT NAPAKATAGAL MO NAMAN?! ABA! ISANG KANTO LANG LAYO MO SA BAHAY NAMIN. MAHIYA KA NAMAN SA DYOSA MONG BESPREN NA NAGHIHINTAY DITO SA LABAS NG GEYT NAMIN PARA SAYO!)
Pinagsisisihan kong sinagot ko pa yung tawag ni Alvie. Kawawa naman yung eardrums ko sa kanya.
"Tss. Yah! You're so loud! Tone down your voice, will you? Papunta na ako. Bye!”
Pinatay ko na yung phone ko bago pa sya makapag ingay. Naglalakad ako papunta sa kanila. I'm wearing a long sleeves and shorts with matching red converse. Oh ha! Kala mo pupunta lang ng grocery. Minsan lang ako magpunta sa bahay nila. Mas madalas kasi na sa bahay naming siya tumatambay dahil kadalasan, mag-isa ako sa bahay.
Wala naman kasi akong balak na pumunta kung ‘di lang ako kinulit ni Alvie. Alam naman niyang ayoko sa madaming tao. Hindi ko nga alam kung paano kami naging magkaibigan.
Wala pa sina Mama at Papa kaya pwede akong maki-sleep over kina Alvie.
After 3 minutes, nakarating din ako sa kanila. I saw her hugging their gate like a retarded monkey while taking selfies.
"Hoy Alvie!"
"AY PALAKA! ANO BA NAMAN SOL! TSS. BAKIT ANG BILIS MO NAMAN?!"
Hindi naman sya mahilig manigaw no? Tss. Masyadong matinis yung boses niya.
Inirapan ko sya tsaka dire-diretsong pumasok sa gate nila. Medyo marami ding bisita. Karamihan eh boys from our University, yung iba naman, di ko kilala. Birthday daw kasi ng pinsan niya na kakalipat lang sa bahay nila. Hindi ko pa nakikita yung pinsan niya dahil hindi rin naman namin pinag uusapan.
"Oy bes, lamon ka lang dyan. Hahanapin ko lang yung pinsan kong magaling."
Iniwan ako ni Alvie sa may kusina kung nasaan yung mga pagkain. Kausap namin kanina yung mama nya at ang sabi ay kumain lang daw ako ng kumain kaya kakain talaga ako ng marami.
"Uy, andito ka pala?"
Halos mabitawan naman niya yung hawak nyang baso. Kumukuha kasi sya ng tubig sa water dispenser at di yata ako napansin.
Gulat na gulat yung hitsura nya. He looks like the same last night, though this time he’s wearing a green sweater like it’s Christmas eve already.
I mentally slap myself. What is his name again? Forgive the broken potato for being forgetful. I can memorize different groups but I find it too hard to remember other’s names.
"HOY PHOENIX! BASTOS KA! KANINA PA KITA HINAHANAP, IPAPAKILALA PA KITA SA BESPREN KO—AY, ANDYAN KA PALA BES? HAHAHAHA. SIYA NGA PALA YUNG PINSAN KONG MAY BIRTHDAY NGAY-- ARGH! KADIRI KA SOL! SINADYA MO YUN EH!"
Natawa ako sa reaksyon ni Alvie. Nung sinabi kasi nyang pinsan nya si Pheonix, uminom ako ng tubig tsaka ko binuga sa kanya. Hindi naman sya gaanong nabasa kasi medyo malayo sya sa akin.
Tinanggal naman ni Phoenix yung earphones sa tenga ni Alvie kaya sinamaan sya nito ng tingin.
"Ang ingay mo. Nakakahiya ka." Phoenix told her.
My eyebrow arched because of how he talked to his cousin. He seems distant, a little cold like when we first met. It made me think whether I was really with him last night or I was just dreaming.
"Ay hehe, sorna. So Pheonix, siya nga pala yung bespren ko, si Sol. Tapos Sol, pinsan ko. V biased."
"Magkakilala na kami." Phoenix said.
Ah! I remember him! Siya yung kausap ni Alvie sa room namin nung isang araw. Bakit ngayon ko lang siya Nakita kung magpinsan sila?
"Weh? Paano?" Alvie asked in disbelief.
"Mahabang kwento. Pero hindi kasing haba ng pasensya ko.”
After that, Phoenix left us to tend to his visitors so Alvie and I decided to just go to her room. Her room is just like mine and if Kuya Zeck, he’ll roll his eyes and mock us by telling us we’re a hopeless case.
We’re watching videos when she suddenly pulled my hair.
"Aray naman! Bakit na naman ba? Kanina ka pa, huh? Kukurutin ko na talaga singit mo. Aba, mahiya ka naman sa Dyosang tulad ko. Palibhasa kasi patatas ka. Tss."
Napatid tuloy yung ponytail ko kaya nagulo yung buhok ko.
"Woah~ Sadako is real!” sabay tawa pa niya, “Paano kayo nagkakilala nung pinsan ko? Alam mo ba?"
Nakadapa ako sa kama nya habang naka-indian sit naman sya sa tabi ko.
"Hindi pa."
Sinamaan nya ako ng tingin.
"Yung Phoenix na y-"
"Alvie!"
Sa sobrang gulat niya, naitulak nya ako kaya bumagsak ako sa sahig.
"Ouch!" reklamo ko habang hawak yung puwet kong nasaktan. Lesheng babae to.
"Tawag ka ni Mama sa baba."
Hindi ko na narinig yung sinabi nya, yung malakas na pagkakasara nalang ng pinto yung narinig ko.
"Oy bes, anong ginagawa mo dyan? Dito yung kama. Mas trip mo ba dyan sa sahig?" Inosenteng tanong nya kaya sinamaan ko sya ng tingin.
"Abnormal ka ba? Tinulak mo ko tapos magtatanong ka? Tss."
7 pm na din at may mga bisita pa rin sa baba. Balak pa ba nilang makipag dinner dito? Nakaupo ako sa terrace ng kwarto ni Alvie. Nasabi ko na ba? Mayaman sila. Nasa America kasi yung papa nya. Napatingin ako sa garden nila. Nandun si Phoenix, kasama nung mga barkada nya. Nag iinuman yata. "Sol." Napalingon ako sa nagsalita. Si Alvie lang pala. Mukha siyang tanga kasi ngingiti-ngiti siya na parang nakasinghot ng sampung katol. "Baliw ka?" I asked her. "Oo bes! Baliw na baliw!” sabay tawa pa niya, “Ang gwapo talaga nya~" Napakunot yung noo ko. Sino na naman ba bukod sa BTS, EXO, Bigbang, Seventeen, Astro at iba pang boy group? "Si Chalk! May gas!" "Nasaan yung gas? Inlab ka sa chalk bes?" Sinamaan ako ng tingin ni Alvie. "Ang jeje mo be
I didn’t get enough sleep. These days Mom and Dad are always in an argument. Sometimes they get too loud but whenever they see me, they both tone down your voice or Mom will ask me to go out first, ask me to run some errands but I’m not stupid enough to know that they are fighting. I guess that’s just part of marriage life."May problema ba?"I glanced at Ronan who is watching me carefully. We’re in the office. Did I mention that I’m part of the school newspaper’s staff? I just smiled at him. It’s been a week since I last talk."Tara sa food court dali."Bago pa ako makapagreact, kinaladkad na nya ako palabas. All eyes looking at us. Bakit? Sinong hindi magtataka? Alam yata ng buong College of Teacher Education yung drama ng buhay namin ni Ronan."Kumusta ka?"He asked me as long as we got our seats in the corner.
I noticed how my parents more often my parents have quarrel now. I don’t want to actually meddle because it’s not my place to do so."You can't do this to us!"Napahinto ako sa tapat ng kwarto nina Mommy. I guess it’s one of those days again. Sometimes it’s getting tiring. They won’t fight when Zeck is here and kinda wish he’s here right now. Mom’s voice is too loud I’m afraid the neighbors will hear."I'm sorry, but I don't have any option. I didn't mean it..." Dad's voice broke. Curious of what they are fighting about this time, I stand closer to the door and try to eavesdrop."Di mo man lang inisip yung anak mo! Bakit ngayon mo lang sinasabi?! Matagal na pala yan!"Biglang bumukas yung pinto kaya gulat silang tumingin s
Disclaimer:This is just a product of my imagination. I'm a KPOP Fan and I don't mean to cause any harm to any groups or fandom. This story doesn't have anything to do with the aforementioned Groups or Idols. I support them all. I hope you support this story, too!Plus, if there are some scenes or names in the story that somehow relates to real people or situation, it's not intended for everything that's in this story is purely came from my imagination.If ever you're a KPOP fan and accidentally came across this story, Hi. A comment or suggestion would be much appreciated. Thank you!XOXO
It's Tuesday and today is the school festival, so it's okay not to go to the University too early in the morning.Mom and Dad were fighting again yesterday and it’s a good thing that we had our final practice for today’s performance. When I asked Alvie why she was absent, she said that something came up at home so I didn’t dig in further.The students are scattered everywhere just like a typical school festival. I glanced at my watch and heave a sigh when I realized it’s already 9:07 AM. I was about call Alvie’s phone but someone grabbed me by the hand which caused my phone to bounce on the concrete.I cursed inwardly. “Solleigh!”&n
Nagsisimula na yung game. Kasali yung apat sa basketball. Kalaban nila yung Fidelity University. Yung isa pala ay yung nawawala kahapon na naghahanap sa faculty room.Umupo kami ni Alvie malapit sa mga ka-teammates nina Glenn. Seryoso silang lahat.Biglang napatingin sa pwesto namin yung lalake kahapon tsaka kumaway."HI SOL! PARA SAYO 'TO!" sabay ngiti niya.Ano na nga ba kasing pangalan niya? Napatingin din sa akin yung apat, particularly, Glenn. Biglang nalukot yung mukha niya tsaka inagaw dun sa lalakeng sumigaw yung bola.Both teams are really good. They are taking the game seriously. Glenn is guarding that I-forgot -his-name guy."Kilala mo yun?" Alvie asked."Err, hindi? oo? Yata? Diko alam. Siya yata yung lalaking nagpatulong sa akin kahapon.""Saan naman?""Sa faculty. I helped him because he looks like a lost puppy
"They call me baepsae yokbwatji i sedae palli chase 'em hwangsae deoge nae garangin taengtaeng~" Natawa ako kay Jedd na sumasayaw at kumakanta sa harap ni Kollin na busy sa pagrereview. Malapit na kasi yung finals at busy lahat ng estudyante. Sinipa siya ni Kollin na iritang-irita na sa kakulitan niya. Nagrereview din si Chalk na tahimik at seryosong-seryoso sa hawak niyang libro. Nagrereview din kami ni Alvie samantalang si Glenn naman ay prenteng nakaupo habang busy sa paglalaro sa phone niya. "Putahamnida 'tong mukhang nag-aagaw buhay na ipis na 'to ah. Kala mo gwapo. Peste." Napatingin kaming lahat kay Glen. Bigla-bigla nalang kasing nagmumura. "Bakit? Sumali ka na naman sa warzone 'no?" Alvie concluded.
Kalma Sol, kalma. Bawal mahimatay, ‘di mo makikita mga asawa mo. Maingay kami sa van papunta sa MOA. This is it. Mamayang gabi na yung concert ng EXO. Akala ko talaga hindi na ako makakapunta dahil sobrang busy at napakadami kong problema lately. Hindi nga ako active sa social media at naubusan pa ako ng concert ticket. "Tae naman ni Suga, Lawin. Sana naging babae nalang ako. Napakagalante mo manlibre. VIP Ticket for real? Not one, not two but five! Five VIP tickets! Pwede bang magpa-ampon nalang sa inyo?" biro ni Jedd. Ninitian lang siya ni Glenn. Halos maglupasay na ako kahapon dahil akala ko talaga hindi ako makakapunta sa concert pero nagulat nalang ako sa ginawa ni Phoenix. Nasa kwarto ako habang yakap-yakap yung poster ng EXO at hawak-hawak yung light stick nung dumating silang lima. Wala sana akong balak na p
Phoenix"Come on, man! Put yourself together, will you?" Sujin tapped my shoulder.They've been cheering me up since the night I came back to the dorm. I ignored him so he just sit next to me. We're currently preparing for a concert."What's going on?" I asked, as soon as I arrived in the practice room."The CEO wants to talk to you." Less said.They all look bothered. I took a deep breath and went straight to our manager's office.He's sitting snugly on his swivel chair, waiting for me. Eunice is also here. I heave a sigh in annoyance as soon as I approach them."Take a seat," he ordered."I prefer standing," I answered."I told you to take a seat," he ordered sternly.I do as he says. I always do what he says.Eunice is fidgeting in her seat. She's staring
Sol"I thought you and Phoenix were okay now?"I look at mommy who's currently lying on the couch while watching TV. I visited their house because I'm bored.The kids are not there because they are still in school. Zeck and his wife are in the shop. Mama was left alone.I was washing the dishes in the kitchen but he called me. She pointed to the TV."Switch's leader, Phoenix Yu rumored dating with Singer Eunice Park"I laughed a little. She knows that we're okay again but I guess I did the wrong decision. She's expecting Glenn and me to get along. It was also been a few weeks ago when we last met ... when I was left alone in his house."We're okay, Ma. I didn't say that we're back together."I went back to the kitchen and continued what I was doing. I felt Mom's presence but I remained silent."You still love him, don't
PhoenixShe's back to her work when I finished taking a shower. She's not wearing any make-up yet she looks really gorgeous with her eyeglasses."Let's go."This caught her attention. Her brow creased, she looks at me like I've grown two heads."Where?""Uh, outside?"She stared at me then continued what she was doing. I sat next to her but she closed his laptop."You're not allowed to take a glance at it. You didn't even pay for the book you took."I laughed at her reaction. Speaking of that book ... it perhaps reminds me of what happened between us.The girl's sufferings after the guy left her and chose his dreams over her. How her life shattered after he walked out of her life without a word. How he stole her heart and break it into a million pieces. How her world collided and how she tries to put back every piece.As time goes by,
Sol"Sol?"I lost count of how many times have I heave a sigh. I know I should not expect but the pain is still there."SOL!""Oh, lisp!"Chan glared at me. I ignored him. I continued to draw even though I knew he looked bad on me.It's been a month since Phoenix had his unplanned visit. Since then, I have heard nothing from him. They are busy again on the world tour.I've seen in their schedule that they're in China today (don't think that I'm stalking him, it just happened that I'm up the net when I saw their schedule)."Are you okay, Sol? You've been spacing out the whole time.""I'm just tired.""You're doing nothing and yet you're tired?"I did not answer. It's tiring to wait for nothing. Wait. Who's waiting for who?I stood up and dragged Chan out. If I stay inside my house longer - I will go reall
PhoenixThe light coming from the window woke me up. I tried to open my eyes but shut it again when the light almost blinded me.I smell something that made my stomach grumble but I lay still on the bed.I have never been comfortable like this for a long time. I glance at the wall clock and the small hand hits 10. A curve lifts up on both sides of my mouth. At least she didn't kick me out during the dawn.I put on my clothes before getting out of the room. I found her sitting in the kitchen with a book in her hand. I captured a photo of her before approaching her."Good morning." I beamed at her but she didn't even bother removing her eyes on her book."Good morning." she finally said as soon as she finished the last page of the book she's reading.She prepared the meal while I took the book she's reading a while ago.She just kept quiet while we ate. She hardly even look
SolIt's been exactly three months since the day the bastard left. I should have not trusted him.I should not hope that he's really sincere when he says he wanted to find me.Who am I kidding?He loves his career pretty much sure than he loves anything and everyone else.I am indeed a fool for thinking he'll make his promises but who am I kidding? Pheonix Glenn will always be Pheonix Glenn. I don't even know why I trusted him. I don't even know why I believe him when he said he'll make it up to me.His group is on the news so I turned off the TV. It's almost midnight and I'm stuck in my new house doing nothing, waiting for my ideas to come pouring down.Mom cried really hard when she learned that I'm moving out. I feel bad for not telling her immediately but Zeck comforts me by telling me she'll understand and I'm too old and I can decide on my own.&
PhoenixI let myself fall on the floor as my sweat bathe my whole body. Sol is surely bloody mad at me right now. We almost fixed it but here it is again.If I could only punch my manager for being extra annoying, I already did as soon as I step afoot at the airport this morning.We talked about one week vacation but they suddenly sent me back. This comeback is pretty maddening. We already talked that we're coming back two months from now and they're suddenly telling me that we will move it in advance."Aren't you going back to the dorm?" Sujin asked me. He's the group's rapper.We're the only ones who were left in the practice room while the others went back to the dorm already. He can speak in English because he studied in California when he was in high school but he's a full-blooded Korean."Later. I'll just take a rest for a while."&nbs
Sol.We circled the bonfire. I'm holding my notebook and drawing something in it when Phoenix Glenn sat beside me.The cold wind blows, making me shake. I'm still wearing my dress which happens to be so thin."Don't you know how to play the guitar, Sol?" Kollin asked.He handed me his guitar and everyone looked at me. I heave a sigh as I try to recall the chords. It's been ten years since I played the guitar.I played the song I played when we had our first practice for the school festival in college.Stupid memories assaulted me and I closed my eyes real tight to push th
Pinilit kong pumasok kahit sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko. Dapat masaya ako kasi tumawag si kuya Zeck at sinabing isasama na niya kami sa Korea. Pero bakit wala akong maramdaman?‘Di ko siya nakita sa school nang dumating ako kaya dumiretso nalang ako sa classroom.Jedd, Kollin, Chalk, and Alvie came rushing to me. They all look worried. I inhaled all the possible strength I'm needing before smiling at them."Bakit ganyan mga mukha niyo? Luh, parang ewan.""Okay ka lang ba, Sol?" Jedd asked.Nginitian ko sila tsaka tumango. "Oo naman. Bakit naman ‘di ako magiging okay?""Anong nangyari sa inyo ng pinsan ko?" Inis na tanong ni Alvie."Di ko din alam. Sabi ko naman sa inyo. Mas gwapo si Suho ko. Bahala siya sa buhay niya. Teka nga, bakit ba parang kayo yung nakipag-break? Haha. Tsaka wag niyo namang awayin yung tao. B