Kalma Sol, kalma. Bawal mahimatay, ‘di mo makikita mga asawa mo.
Maingay kami sa van papunta sa MOA. This is it. Mamayang gabi na yung concert ng EXO. Akala ko talaga hindi na ako makakapunta dahil sobrang busy at napakadami kong problema lately. Hindi nga ako active sa social media at naubusan pa ako ng concert ticket.
"Tae naman ni Suga, Lawin. Sana naging babae nalang ako. Napakagalante mo manlibre. VIP Ticket for real? Not one, not two but five! Five VIP tickets! Pwede bang magpa-ampon nalang sa inyo?" biro ni Jedd.
Ninitian lang siya ni Glenn. Halos maglupasay na ako kahapon dahil akala ko talaga hindi ako makakapunta sa concert pero nagulat nalang ako sa ginawa ni Phoenix.
Nasa kwarto ako habang yakap-yakap yung poster ng EXO at hawak-hawak yung light stick nung dumating silang lima. Wala sana akong balak na pagbuksan sila ng pinto pero binigay ni mama sa kanila yung duplicate key.
Tawa ng tawa sina Kollin nang nakita nila ako kaya lalong lumakas yung iyak ko. Umupo silang apat sa kama ko.
"WAAAAH~ YUNG MGA ASAWA KO~" sigaw ko habang umiiyak kaya niyakap ako ni Alvie habang nagpipigil naman sa tawa yung apat na lalake. Gusto ko silang sapakin ngayon, lalo pa naman ngayong broken hearted ako.
Binuksan ni Chalk yung TV sa kwarto ko. Sakto namang Growl MV yung nasa myx kaya lalo akong umiyak. Bigla tuloy niyang pinatay tsaka nagkamot ng ulo.
"Tahan na bes, mukha ka ng kalabaw. Ngawa ka ng ngawa." Sabi ni Alvie habang itinatabi yung mga kalat sa kwarto ko. Inabutan naman ako ni Glenn ng tissue.
"What should I do? Anong gagawin ko? Paano na ako mabubuhay?" tanong ko sa kanilang lima.
Inabutan naman ako ng shoe box ni Glenn. Tiningnan ko siya ng masama. Ginagago ba nya ako? Di ko kelangan ng sapatos. Concert ticket yung kelangan ko.
"Yah~ Stop it already. Paano ka haharap sa kanila kung ganyan yung mukha mo?" Glenn said as he wipes my tears using the back of his hand. Kikiligin na sana ako kaso hindi ako makakapunta sa concert kaya nainis lang ako.
Nagpapadyak ako na parang bata kaya nahulog yung shoe box na binigay niya. Halos lumuwa naman yung mata ko nung makita ko yung laman nung box.
Natahimik ako.
Huminto yung pintig ng puso ko.
Nag-freeze lahat ng nasa paligid ko.
Dahan-dahan kong pinulot yung maliit na papel tsaka tinitigang mabuti.
Napatingin ako sa kanilang lima na abot-tenga yung ngiti.
Lalong lumakas yung iyak ko kaya lumapit silang lahat sa akin.
"Anak ka naman ni Chanyeol, Sol! Biniyan ka na nga ng ticket umiiyak ka pa din. Yung totoo? May saltik ka sa utak , ano?" sabi ni Jedd kaya sinapak ko nga.
"Gago ka ba kayo? Tarantado kayo mga trenta! Bakit di nyo sinabi sa akin agad! Nagsayang lang ako ng luha!"
Mukha lang akong tanga kahapon. May nalalaman pa kasi silang surprise-surprise. Nasapak ko tuloy si Jedd. Sabi ni Alvie matagal na daw nabili ni Glenn yung ticket. Perks of being a rich kid nga naman. Balak ko na rin tuloy magpa-ampon sa kanila HAHA.
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Halos mabingi ako sa ingay ng mga EXO-L lalo na nung lumabas yung OT9. Sayang lang at wala na yung OT12 pero okay lang din kasi successful naman silang lahat. Maganda yung pwesto namin dahil sa mismong tapat namin pu-pwesto si Suho mamayang magpe-perform sila. Magkakatabi kaming anim. Nasa kaliwa ko si Glenn at sa kanan ko naman Alvie.
Nagstart na silang kumanta. Unang nagplay yung Wolf. Halos mahimatay ako sa kilig. This is not the first time na nakapunta ako sa concert pero ito yung first time na VIP kami. Sobrang lapit nila sa amin at lagi pang tumitingin sa camera namin yung mga makalaglag-pangang alien.
After ng ilang song, nagpalit muna sila ng outfit. Pagbalik nila, nasa center stage silang lahat. Nagsasalita si Chanyeol at D.O. Malapit sa pwesto namin si Baekhyun at Kai. Nasa gitna naman si Suho.
"Hyeongnim!" (Bro!) sigaw ni Glenn kaya napatingin sa pwesto namin sina Baek. May hinagis sya sa stage na pinulot naman ni Kai.
Tiningnan ko si Glenn. Seriously? Bakit inaagawan nya ako?
Ang swerte naman niya, napansin siya. Sapakin ko to mamaya eh!
Hawak ni Baek yung white envelope at maliit na box na hinagis ni Glenn kanina. Binabasa nila ni Kai yung nasa papel pero mukhang hindi nila maintidihan kaya pinasa nila kay Suho. Biglang ngumiti yung asawa ko (Yes, I’m delusional) tsaka pinakita sa mga buong EXO yung nasa papel. Nagbubulungan sila habang wagas makangiti.
Biglang tumayo si Suho tsaka nagsalita. Focus na focus sa kanya lahat ng tao sa arena. Halos manghina ako nung bigla syang nagsalita in English.
"Okay, hear me out for a second. I just want to read it aloud. Kindly listen." Umpisa nya kaya tumahik bigla.
Tumingin siya sa pwesto namin. Bigla tuloy akong kinabahan. Alam nyo yung feeling na nakipag-eye to eye siya sayo? Di ko na mabilang kung ilang beses na akon namatay at nag-reincarnate.
"So, this letter came from Phoenix Glenn Yu. Hello there, bro." kinawayan pa sya ni Suho kaya lalo akong napasimangot.
Inaagawan mo ako ng moment eh!
Napangiti naman si Nix pero mukha syang natatae. Problema neto?
Biglang lumapit sa pwesto namin si Baek, Kai at Xiumin tsaka pinaakyat sa stage si Lawin. Like what the f? anong kalokohan to? Biglang nagsigawan yung mga EXO-L. Halos mabingi na ako sa sigaw nila. May narinig pa akong 'PHOENIX, AKIN KA NALANG!' kaya napairap nalang ako.
Nagbubulungan sila ni Suho. Inakbayan siya ni Xiumin at ni Kai. Instant celebrity tuloy siya. Suho cleared his throat tsaka nagsimulang kumanta yung EXO ng 'LUCKY'.
Wala kaming idea kung anong nangyayare. Pero habang kumakanta sina Sehun, nagpatuloy sa pagbabasa si Suho.
"This letter is not for me, but for the luckiest girl that is here right now. Okay, I'm going to read it, get ready to listen, Eris." Sabi ni Suho kaya tahimik kaming lahat na nakikinig.
"We met by accident. I was heading the rooftop when someone bumped into me. She was running down the stairs from the rooftop so our phones fell on the floor. We have the same phone brand and unit and we just realized that we switched phones when we're already home. I've seen her many times because she's my cousin's best friend. I always saw her in our house but I never had the chance to show up to her because I'm kind of ashamed.
“It seems like fate is playing its game so I grab the opportunity to talk to her. I know it's not right but I stalked her on her phone. Funny, isn't it? She's loud and kind of sadist but everything she does just makes me fall for her deeper. I don't know how to approach her so I always end up being rude to her.
“She may not know it but I've been admiring her since the day I saw her. I always have sleepless nights, thinking of how to confess my feelings. Dancing with her in front of the crowd is the best thing that happened in my whole life. Having her in our group is priceless and being with her is the most precious thing I will always treasure.
“She's a die-hard fan of you, (SUHO) and she'll risk it all just to see you. There's nothing special about her but I just can't help falling for her. I've been waiting for this day to happen and I'll risk everything just to be with her. So, please… can you ask EIRRIE SOLEIGH to be my girl?"
“Halos mabaliw ako sa mga pinagsasasabi ni Suho. Biglang lumapit sa akin si Sehun at Lay tsaka ako pinaakyat sa stage. Kinuha ni Baekhyun yung panyo ni Suho tsaka ginawang bulaklak at inabot kay Nix. Malakas yung sigaw ng EXO-L Fam pero mas nabibingi ako sa lakas ng tibok ng puso ko.
Kinakabahang tiningnan ako ni Phoenix tsaka ngumiti. Parang ewan naman sina Chen sa gilid namin na mas mukha pang kinikilig kesa sa akin. Inakbayan ako ni Suho kaya lalong sumikip yung dibdib ko. Wag nyo naman akong patayin sa kilig!
"Eirrie, will you be his girl?" tanong ulit ni Suho.
"Mahar mo daw ba siya?" tanong ni Xiumin na halatang pilit yung tagalog accent at nagpaturo lang sa interpreter.
Kinuha ko yung inaabot ni Nix na flower tsaka tumango. Nagtatatalon naman sina Suho na akala mo eh sila yung sinagot. Tinanggal ni Suho yung cap niya tsaka sinuot sa akin. He even hugged me before leading us down the stage.
Yung makita si Suho lang naman yung hiningi kong sign pero sobra-sobra pa yung ginawa nya.
Tapos na yung exam at Christmas break na. Everyone is busy while I'm stuck here in the house cleaning alone. Mom and Dad are nowhere to be found. Darating ngayon yung mga pinsan ko from Cebu at dito sila magse-celebrate ng pasko. Busy din yung lima dahil may mga bisita din sila kaya di ko alam kung makikita ko sila.It's been a week since the concert pero halos mabaliw pa rin ako kapag naaalala ko. Tuwang-tuwa nga sina Mama nung naikwento sa kanila ng madaldal na si Alvie yung nangyare sa concert. Alam na pala nila yng plano ni Glenn at ako lang talaga yung walang malay sa nangyayari.Sobrang sweet at thoughtful ni Glenn to the point na pati si mama eh kinikilig sa kanya. Halos dito na nga siya tumira last week eh. He called me last night that he won't be able to see me because he will be visiting his parents in States and will be spending Christmas with them. Babalik nalang daw siya before n
"Okay ba yung suot ko?" tanong ni Kaleb. "Hindi. Mukha kang tanga. Ang panget mo talaga. Saang planeta ka ba galing? Sana ‘di ka nalang nabuhay." Sagot sa kanya ni Matt. "Edi panget ka din pala bobo. Kambal tayo baka nakakalimutan mo." Sigaw sa kanya ni Kaleb. Napasapo nalang ako sa noo ko. Nauna na akong lumabas sa kanila. Iniwan ko silang nagtatalo. Start na pala ng pasukan at ‘di ko namalayan na nakapag-enroll na pala yung dalawang baliw sa school na pinapasukan ko. "Sol! Wait!" rinig kong tawag nila kaya inis akong huminto. They are wearing polo na akala mo a-attend ng prom. May pa-shades-shades pang nalalaman kaya nagmukha tuloy silang bulag na musikero. Buti nalang talaga at ‘di ko sila ka-department. Kaleb is taking up AB English while Matt is taking up Information technology.
Medyo busy ako dahil sa mga activities sa school at sa article na pinapagawa ng prof namin. Buti nalang at tinutulungan ako ni Ronan. He's the assistant editor-in-chief kaya lagi kaming magkasama lately. Nasa field kami ngayon para ituloy yung mga articles na dapat tapusin."Aigoo~ masakit na yung utak ko~" reklamo ko habang minamasahe yung ulo ko.Kinuha naman niya yung laptop ko tsaka tiningnan yung ginagawa ko. Almost two hours na din pala kaming nakaupo dito. Di ko rin napansin yung tawag ni Nix kaya di ko nasagot. May PE sila ngayon at for sure break nila. Tinabi ko ulit yung phone ko tsaka tinuloy yung ginagawa namin."Kumusta kayo?" biglang tanong ni Ronan habang seryosong nakatingin sa laptop ko."We're fine. Masaya kami." Sagot ko.Ngumiti naman siya tsaka tumingin sa akin."I can see it in your eyes. I want to apologize f
I don't know what exactly is happening. Paggising ko kaninang umaga, umiiyak si mommy pero nung makita niya ako, bigla siyang pumasok sa kwarto. I asked the twin what happened but they only said that she's just overwhelmed by the kdrama she had watched last night. (Kelan pa nahilig manood si mommy nun?)Naglalakad ako papunta sa gym nung bigla akong hilain ni Jedd sa gilid ng registration office. Hingal na hingal siya na parang hinabol ng zombie."What?" Ano na naman ba?"Hehe, wala lang. Dito muna tayo." Kinakabahan niyang sagot kaya I goggled at him.Di ko alam kung bakit ako kinakabahan kaya lumingon ako. What I saw broke my heart. My boyfriend laughing with Eunice Park while walking to the library.Humarap ako kay Jedd tsaka ngumiti."Did you, perhaps, thought that I might get jealous when I saw them together?" I asked politely.Bahagya siyang tuma
Pinilit kong pumasok kahit sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko. Dapat masaya ako kasi tumawag si kuya Zeck at sinabing isasama na niya kami sa Korea. Pero bakit wala akong maramdaman?‘Di ko siya nakita sa school nang dumating ako kaya dumiretso nalang ako sa classroom.Jedd, Kollin, Chalk, and Alvie came rushing to me. They all look worried. I inhaled all the possible strength I'm needing before smiling at them."Bakit ganyan mga mukha niyo? Luh, parang ewan.""Okay ka lang ba, Sol?" Jedd asked.Nginitian ko sila tsaka tumango. "Oo naman. Bakit naman ‘di ako magiging okay?""Anong nangyari sa inyo ng pinsan ko?" Inis na tanong ni Alvie."Di ko din alam. Sabi ko naman sa inyo. Mas gwapo si Suho ko. Bahala siya sa buhay niya. Teka nga, bakit ba parang kayo yung nakipag-break? Haha. Tsaka wag niyo namang awayin yung tao. B
Sol.We circled the bonfire. I'm holding my notebook and drawing something in it when Phoenix Glenn sat beside me.The cold wind blows, making me shake. I'm still wearing my dress which happens to be so thin."Don't you know how to play the guitar, Sol?" Kollin asked.He handed me his guitar and everyone looked at me. I heave a sigh as I try to recall the chords. It's been ten years since I played the guitar.I played the song I played when we had our first practice for the school festival in college.Stupid memories assaulted me and I closed my eyes real tight to push th
PhoenixI let myself fall on the floor as my sweat bathe my whole body. Sol is surely bloody mad at me right now. We almost fixed it but here it is again.If I could only punch my manager for being extra annoying, I already did as soon as I step afoot at the airport this morning.We talked about one week vacation but they suddenly sent me back. This comeback is pretty maddening. We already talked that we're coming back two months from now and they're suddenly telling me that we will move it in advance."Aren't you going back to the dorm?" Sujin asked me. He's the group's rapper.We're the only ones who were left in the practice room while the others went back to the dorm already. He can speak in English because he studied in California when he was in high school but he's a full-blooded Korean."Later. I'll just take a rest for a while."&nbs
SolIt's been exactly three months since the day the bastard left. I should have not trusted him.I should not hope that he's really sincere when he says he wanted to find me.Who am I kidding?He loves his career pretty much sure than he loves anything and everyone else.I am indeed a fool for thinking he'll make his promises but who am I kidding? Pheonix Glenn will always be Pheonix Glenn. I don't even know why I trusted him. I don't even know why I believe him when he said he'll make it up to me.His group is on the news so I turned off the TV. It's almost midnight and I'm stuck in my new house doing nothing, waiting for my ideas to come pouring down.Mom cried really hard when she learned that I'm moving out. I feel bad for not telling her immediately but Zeck comforts me by telling me she'll understand and I'm too old and I can decide on my own.&
Phoenix"Come on, man! Put yourself together, will you?" Sujin tapped my shoulder.They've been cheering me up since the night I came back to the dorm. I ignored him so he just sit next to me. We're currently preparing for a concert."What's going on?" I asked, as soon as I arrived in the practice room."The CEO wants to talk to you." Less said.They all look bothered. I took a deep breath and went straight to our manager's office.He's sitting snugly on his swivel chair, waiting for me. Eunice is also here. I heave a sigh in annoyance as soon as I approach them."Take a seat," he ordered."I prefer standing," I answered."I told you to take a seat," he ordered sternly.I do as he says. I always do what he says.Eunice is fidgeting in her seat. She's staring
Sol"I thought you and Phoenix were okay now?"I look at mommy who's currently lying on the couch while watching TV. I visited their house because I'm bored.The kids are not there because they are still in school. Zeck and his wife are in the shop. Mama was left alone.I was washing the dishes in the kitchen but he called me. She pointed to the TV."Switch's leader, Phoenix Yu rumored dating with Singer Eunice Park"I laughed a little. She knows that we're okay again but I guess I did the wrong decision. She's expecting Glenn and me to get along. It was also been a few weeks ago when we last met ... when I was left alone in his house."We're okay, Ma. I didn't say that we're back together."I went back to the kitchen and continued what I was doing. I felt Mom's presence but I remained silent."You still love him, don't
PhoenixShe's back to her work when I finished taking a shower. She's not wearing any make-up yet she looks really gorgeous with her eyeglasses."Let's go."This caught her attention. Her brow creased, she looks at me like I've grown two heads."Where?""Uh, outside?"She stared at me then continued what she was doing. I sat next to her but she closed his laptop."You're not allowed to take a glance at it. You didn't even pay for the book you took."I laughed at her reaction. Speaking of that book ... it perhaps reminds me of what happened between us.The girl's sufferings after the guy left her and chose his dreams over her. How her life shattered after he walked out of her life without a word. How he stole her heart and break it into a million pieces. How her world collided and how she tries to put back every piece.As time goes by,
Sol"Sol?"I lost count of how many times have I heave a sigh. I know I should not expect but the pain is still there."SOL!""Oh, lisp!"Chan glared at me. I ignored him. I continued to draw even though I knew he looked bad on me.It's been a month since Phoenix had his unplanned visit. Since then, I have heard nothing from him. They are busy again on the world tour.I've seen in their schedule that they're in China today (don't think that I'm stalking him, it just happened that I'm up the net when I saw their schedule)."Are you okay, Sol? You've been spacing out the whole time.""I'm just tired.""You're doing nothing and yet you're tired?"I did not answer. It's tiring to wait for nothing. Wait. Who's waiting for who?I stood up and dragged Chan out. If I stay inside my house longer - I will go reall
PhoenixThe light coming from the window woke me up. I tried to open my eyes but shut it again when the light almost blinded me.I smell something that made my stomach grumble but I lay still on the bed.I have never been comfortable like this for a long time. I glance at the wall clock and the small hand hits 10. A curve lifts up on both sides of my mouth. At least she didn't kick me out during the dawn.I put on my clothes before getting out of the room. I found her sitting in the kitchen with a book in her hand. I captured a photo of her before approaching her."Good morning." I beamed at her but she didn't even bother removing her eyes on her book."Good morning." she finally said as soon as she finished the last page of the book she's reading.She prepared the meal while I took the book she's reading a while ago.She just kept quiet while we ate. She hardly even look
SolIt's been exactly three months since the day the bastard left. I should have not trusted him.I should not hope that he's really sincere when he says he wanted to find me.Who am I kidding?He loves his career pretty much sure than he loves anything and everyone else.I am indeed a fool for thinking he'll make his promises but who am I kidding? Pheonix Glenn will always be Pheonix Glenn. I don't even know why I trusted him. I don't even know why I believe him when he said he'll make it up to me.His group is on the news so I turned off the TV. It's almost midnight and I'm stuck in my new house doing nothing, waiting for my ideas to come pouring down.Mom cried really hard when she learned that I'm moving out. I feel bad for not telling her immediately but Zeck comforts me by telling me she'll understand and I'm too old and I can decide on my own.&
PhoenixI let myself fall on the floor as my sweat bathe my whole body. Sol is surely bloody mad at me right now. We almost fixed it but here it is again.If I could only punch my manager for being extra annoying, I already did as soon as I step afoot at the airport this morning.We talked about one week vacation but they suddenly sent me back. This comeback is pretty maddening. We already talked that we're coming back two months from now and they're suddenly telling me that we will move it in advance."Aren't you going back to the dorm?" Sujin asked me. He's the group's rapper.We're the only ones who were left in the practice room while the others went back to the dorm already. He can speak in English because he studied in California when he was in high school but he's a full-blooded Korean."Later. I'll just take a rest for a while."&nbs
Sol.We circled the bonfire. I'm holding my notebook and drawing something in it when Phoenix Glenn sat beside me.The cold wind blows, making me shake. I'm still wearing my dress which happens to be so thin."Don't you know how to play the guitar, Sol?" Kollin asked.He handed me his guitar and everyone looked at me. I heave a sigh as I try to recall the chords. It's been ten years since I played the guitar.I played the song I played when we had our first practice for the school festival in college.Stupid memories assaulted me and I closed my eyes real tight to push th
Pinilit kong pumasok kahit sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko. Dapat masaya ako kasi tumawag si kuya Zeck at sinabing isasama na niya kami sa Korea. Pero bakit wala akong maramdaman?‘Di ko siya nakita sa school nang dumating ako kaya dumiretso nalang ako sa classroom.Jedd, Kollin, Chalk, and Alvie came rushing to me. They all look worried. I inhaled all the possible strength I'm needing before smiling at them."Bakit ganyan mga mukha niyo? Luh, parang ewan.""Okay ka lang ba, Sol?" Jedd asked.Nginitian ko sila tsaka tumango. "Oo naman. Bakit naman ‘di ako magiging okay?""Anong nangyari sa inyo ng pinsan ko?" Inis na tanong ni Alvie."Di ko din alam. Sabi ko naman sa inyo. Mas gwapo si Suho ko. Bahala siya sa buhay niya. Teka nga, bakit ba parang kayo yung nakipag-break? Haha. Tsaka wag niyo namang awayin yung tao. B