Medyo busy ako dahil sa mga activities sa school at sa article na pinapagawa ng prof namin. Buti nalang at tinutulungan ako ni Ronan. He's the assistant editor-in-chief kaya lagi kaming magkasama lately. Nasa field kami ngayon para ituloy yung mga articles na dapat tapusin.
"Aigoo~ masakit na yung utak ko~" reklamo ko habang minamasahe yung ulo ko.
Kinuha naman niya yung laptop ko tsaka tiningnan yung ginagawa ko. Almost two hours na din pala kaming nakaupo dito. Di ko rin napansin yung tawag ni Nix kaya di ko nasagot. May PE sila ngayon at for sure break nila. Tinabi ko ulit yung phone ko tsaka tinuloy yung ginagawa namin.
"Kumusta kayo?" biglang tanong ni Ronan habang seryosong nakatingin sa laptop ko.
"We're fine. Masaya kami." Sagot ko.
Ngumiti naman siya tsaka tumingin sa akin.
"I can see it in your eyes. I want to apologize for what I did and how I acted. I'm happy for you. Basta tandaan mo lang na kung kailangan mo ng kausap, andito lang ako. And by the way, pag ginago ka niya, ako mismo yung sasapak sa kaniya." Seryosong sabi niya.
"He won't do that," I assured him.
Aside from Alvie, Ronan was a very special friend of mine. We had issues but I can say that we're fine now. We decided to take a break for a while kaya nagpunta kami sa cafeteria. Nagkukwentuhan kami habang naglalakad kaya ‘di ko napansin yung kasalubong ko. At dahil may pagka-lampa ako, bumagsak ako sa pathway at nagsipaglaran yung mga dala kong papel at notes.
Nagsorry naman yung babae tsaka nagmamadaling tumakbo. Inis namang pinulot ni Ronan yung mga gamit ko tsaka ako tinulungang tumayo.
"You okay?" tanong nya.
Hawak niya yung kamay ko nung may humila sa wrist ko kaya pareho kaming napatingin sa lalakeng nakatayo sa likod ko. He's wearing his jersey habang pawis na pawis pero ang bango-bango pa din.
Yay, Sol. Anong sinasabi mo diyan?
Hinila ako ni Nix kaya nauntog pa ako sa dibdib niya. Ano na namang drama nito? Humarap ako sa kaniya para makita ko yumg seryosong mukha niya. Nasa likod din niya sina Jedd, Chalk, at Kollin.
"Where are you going? You're not answering my calls." He asked in a dead tone.
"Umm, ano kasi..." bakit ba hindi ako makasagot?
"May tinatapos kaming activities. Papunta kami sa cafeteria para magbreak sandali. You witnessed what happened, right? So, don't overthink and misunderstand things. Mauuna na ako. Next time nalang, Sol." Nginitian ako ni Ronan bago siya umalis.
Lumingon naman ako kay Nix na nakatingin sa kaliwa niya habang naka-cross arms pa na parang nagtatampong bata. Sinisilip ko yung mukha niya pero nag-iiwas siya ng tingin. Bigla tuloy akong natawa kaya hinawakan ko siya sa mukha tsaka pilit na pinaharap sa akin. Nakasimangot naman siya kaya lalo akong natawa. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay kaya nag iwas ulit siya ng tingin.
"Gosh, don't tell me—" inalis niya yung kamay ko sa mukha niya tsaka ako tiningnan ng masama.
"No, I'm not! Why would I? Bakit naman ako magseselos? Sinong nagsabi? Dun sa lalakeng nagpaasa sayo? Psh. Wala pa siya sa kalingkingan ko kaya bakit—" napatigil siya sa pagsasalita nung narealized niya yung sinabi niya kaya natawa kaming apat.
"Tara guys, kain nalang tayo. Di daw siya nagseselos eh." Natatawang sabi ko.
Nauuna akong naglalakad kaya hinila niya ako para sabay kaming maglakad. Hawak niya yung kamay ko habang papunta kami sa cafeteria kaya pinsgtitinginan kami ng mga estudyante.
"XX Entertainment is currently casting new trainees, right?" Kollin suddenly said out of the blue.
Tumango naman si Jedd at Chalk bilang sagot.
"Ano guys, Sali tayo?" tanong ni Chalk.
Tahimik naman si Nix hanggang sa makarating kami sa cafeteria. Nauna na akong humanap ng mauupuan habang yung apat naman yung bumili ng pagkain namin. Maya-maya pa, dumating na din si Alvie na kanina pa missing in action. Hingal na hingal siya kaya inabutan ko siya ng tubig.
"Guess what." Excited na sabi niya with matching wide eyes pa kaya tinaasan ko siya ng kilay.
"Di ako manghuhula. Ano ba yun? Bakit para kang hinabol ng mga zombie sa Busan?" Irita kong sagot sa kanya.
"Alam mo na ba yung balita? May bagong trainee daw ang XXEnt na galing dito sa school." Sabi niya with matching gestures pa na akala mo eh nasa show ni kuya Kim na Matanglawin.
Talaga? Sino naman?
"Malakas yung kutob ko na si Eunice yun eh. What do you think?" tanong ni Alvie pero bago pa ako makasagot, dumating na sina Nix dala yung foods.
"Anong pinag uusapan niyo?" usisa ni Jedd.
Umupo sa tabi ko si Nix tsaka hinalo yung dala niyang float na may dalawang straw. Inasar pa tuloy kami nina Chalk. Nakaakbay siya sa akin habang tahimik kaming nakikinig kay Alvie na wagas magkwento.
Next week na yung foundation week kaya nagprapraktis na sila para sa presentation.
Sayang lang at ‘di ako makakasali dahil kailangan naming gumawa ng article tungkol sa event. Isa naman sa mga emcee si Alvie kaya hindi rin siya makakasayaw.
So, yung apat na lalake lang talaga yung makakapagperform.
Hinatid ako ni Nix sa office after naming kumain. May laro pa daw kasi sila. Sinabihan ko naman siya na susunod ako sa court after ng ginagawa ko kaya he kissed my forehead before leaving me.
I opened my spazz account while waiting for Ronan to come back pero napataas yung kilay ko sa nakita ko.
"Why would he deactivate his account?" I asked myself.
Nix just deactivated his spazz account and his real account is on private. Ano na namang trip netong lalaking 'to?
I got a message from kuya Vann. He's a Korean Fansite Masternim from Korea and a friend of kuya Zeck. We haven't met in person but we often have a video call whenever he's in the shop of kuya. By the way, kuya Zeck's wife is kuya Vann's sister.
Jnmynd: A lucky spazzer was cast. Guess what? He's from the Philippines. Got no other info about that yet. Chat with you when I got more. Miss you, sis!
Napangiti ako. Ang bait talaga netong lalaking to.
I don't know what exactly is happening. Paggising ko kaninang umaga, umiiyak si mommy pero nung makita niya ako, bigla siyang pumasok sa kwarto. I asked the twin what happened but they only said that she's just overwhelmed by the kdrama she had watched last night. (Kelan pa nahilig manood si mommy nun?)Naglalakad ako papunta sa gym nung bigla akong hilain ni Jedd sa gilid ng registration office. Hingal na hingal siya na parang hinabol ng zombie."What?" Ano na naman ba?"Hehe, wala lang. Dito muna tayo." Kinakabahan niyang sagot kaya I goggled at him.Di ko alam kung bakit ako kinakabahan kaya lumingon ako. What I saw broke my heart. My boyfriend laughing with Eunice Park while walking to the library.Humarap ako kay Jedd tsaka ngumiti."Did you, perhaps, thought that I might get jealous when I saw them together?" I asked politely.Bahagya siyang tuma
Pinilit kong pumasok kahit sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko. Dapat masaya ako kasi tumawag si kuya Zeck at sinabing isasama na niya kami sa Korea. Pero bakit wala akong maramdaman?‘Di ko siya nakita sa school nang dumating ako kaya dumiretso nalang ako sa classroom.Jedd, Kollin, Chalk, and Alvie came rushing to me. They all look worried. I inhaled all the possible strength I'm needing before smiling at them."Bakit ganyan mga mukha niyo? Luh, parang ewan.""Okay ka lang ba, Sol?" Jedd asked.Nginitian ko sila tsaka tumango. "Oo naman. Bakit naman ‘di ako magiging okay?""Anong nangyari sa inyo ng pinsan ko?" Inis na tanong ni Alvie."Di ko din alam. Sabi ko naman sa inyo. Mas gwapo si Suho ko. Bahala siya sa buhay niya. Teka nga, bakit ba parang kayo yung nakipag-break? Haha. Tsaka wag niyo namang awayin yung tao. B
Sol.We circled the bonfire. I'm holding my notebook and drawing something in it when Phoenix Glenn sat beside me.The cold wind blows, making me shake. I'm still wearing my dress which happens to be so thin."Don't you know how to play the guitar, Sol?" Kollin asked.He handed me his guitar and everyone looked at me. I heave a sigh as I try to recall the chords. It's been ten years since I played the guitar.I played the song I played when we had our first practice for the school festival in college.Stupid memories assaulted me and I closed my eyes real tight to push th
PhoenixI let myself fall on the floor as my sweat bathe my whole body. Sol is surely bloody mad at me right now. We almost fixed it but here it is again.If I could only punch my manager for being extra annoying, I already did as soon as I step afoot at the airport this morning.We talked about one week vacation but they suddenly sent me back. This comeback is pretty maddening. We already talked that we're coming back two months from now and they're suddenly telling me that we will move it in advance."Aren't you going back to the dorm?" Sujin asked me. He's the group's rapper.We're the only ones who were left in the practice room while the others went back to the dorm already. He can speak in English because he studied in California when he was in high school but he's a full-blooded Korean."Later. I'll just take a rest for a while."&nbs
SolIt's been exactly three months since the day the bastard left. I should have not trusted him.I should not hope that he's really sincere when he says he wanted to find me.Who am I kidding?He loves his career pretty much sure than he loves anything and everyone else.I am indeed a fool for thinking he'll make his promises but who am I kidding? Pheonix Glenn will always be Pheonix Glenn. I don't even know why I trusted him. I don't even know why I believe him when he said he'll make it up to me.His group is on the news so I turned off the TV. It's almost midnight and I'm stuck in my new house doing nothing, waiting for my ideas to come pouring down.Mom cried really hard when she learned that I'm moving out. I feel bad for not telling her immediately but Zeck comforts me by telling me she'll understand and I'm too old and I can decide on my own.&
PhoenixThe light coming from the window woke me up. I tried to open my eyes but shut it again when the light almost blinded me.I smell something that made my stomach grumble but I lay still on the bed.I have never been comfortable like this for a long time. I glance at the wall clock and the small hand hits 10. A curve lifts up on both sides of my mouth. At least she didn't kick me out during the dawn.I put on my clothes before getting out of the room. I found her sitting in the kitchen with a book in her hand. I captured a photo of her before approaching her."Good morning." I beamed at her but she didn't even bother removing her eyes on her book."Good morning." she finally said as soon as she finished the last page of the book she's reading.She prepared the meal while I took the book she's reading a while ago.She just kept quiet while we ate. She hardly even look
Sol"Sol?"I lost count of how many times have I heave a sigh. I know I should not expect but the pain is still there."SOL!""Oh, lisp!"Chan glared at me. I ignored him. I continued to draw even though I knew he looked bad on me.It's been a month since Phoenix had his unplanned visit. Since then, I have heard nothing from him. They are busy again on the world tour.I've seen in their schedule that they're in China today (don't think that I'm stalking him, it just happened that I'm up the net when I saw their schedule)."Are you okay, Sol? You've been spacing out the whole time.""I'm just tired.""You're doing nothing and yet you're tired?"I did not answer. It's tiring to wait for nothing. Wait. Who's waiting for who?I stood up and dragged Chan out. If I stay inside my house longer - I will go reall
PhoenixShe's back to her work when I finished taking a shower. She's not wearing any make-up yet she looks really gorgeous with her eyeglasses."Let's go."This caught her attention. Her brow creased, she looks at me like I've grown two heads."Where?""Uh, outside?"She stared at me then continued what she was doing. I sat next to her but she closed his laptop."You're not allowed to take a glance at it. You didn't even pay for the book you took."I laughed at her reaction. Speaking of that book ... it perhaps reminds me of what happened between us.The girl's sufferings after the guy left her and chose his dreams over her. How her life shattered after he walked out of her life without a word. How he stole her heart and break it into a million pieces. How her world collided and how she tries to put back every piece.As time goes by,
Phoenix"Come on, man! Put yourself together, will you?" Sujin tapped my shoulder.They've been cheering me up since the night I came back to the dorm. I ignored him so he just sit next to me. We're currently preparing for a concert."What's going on?" I asked, as soon as I arrived in the practice room."The CEO wants to talk to you." Less said.They all look bothered. I took a deep breath and went straight to our manager's office.He's sitting snugly on his swivel chair, waiting for me. Eunice is also here. I heave a sigh in annoyance as soon as I approach them."Take a seat," he ordered."I prefer standing," I answered."I told you to take a seat," he ordered sternly.I do as he says. I always do what he says.Eunice is fidgeting in her seat. She's staring
Sol"I thought you and Phoenix were okay now?"I look at mommy who's currently lying on the couch while watching TV. I visited their house because I'm bored.The kids are not there because they are still in school. Zeck and his wife are in the shop. Mama was left alone.I was washing the dishes in the kitchen but he called me. She pointed to the TV."Switch's leader, Phoenix Yu rumored dating with Singer Eunice Park"I laughed a little. She knows that we're okay again but I guess I did the wrong decision. She's expecting Glenn and me to get along. It was also been a few weeks ago when we last met ... when I was left alone in his house."We're okay, Ma. I didn't say that we're back together."I went back to the kitchen and continued what I was doing. I felt Mom's presence but I remained silent."You still love him, don't
PhoenixShe's back to her work when I finished taking a shower. She's not wearing any make-up yet she looks really gorgeous with her eyeglasses."Let's go."This caught her attention. Her brow creased, she looks at me like I've grown two heads."Where?""Uh, outside?"She stared at me then continued what she was doing. I sat next to her but she closed his laptop."You're not allowed to take a glance at it. You didn't even pay for the book you took."I laughed at her reaction. Speaking of that book ... it perhaps reminds me of what happened between us.The girl's sufferings after the guy left her and chose his dreams over her. How her life shattered after he walked out of her life without a word. How he stole her heart and break it into a million pieces. How her world collided and how she tries to put back every piece.As time goes by,
Sol"Sol?"I lost count of how many times have I heave a sigh. I know I should not expect but the pain is still there."SOL!""Oh, lisp!"Chan glared at me. I ignored him. I continued to draw even though I knew he looked bad on me.It's been a month since Phoenix had his unplanned visit. Since then, I have heard nothing from him. They are busy again on the world tour.I've seen in their schedule that they're in China today (don't think that I'm stalking him, it just happened that I'm up the net when I saw their schedule)."Are you okay, Sol? You've been spacing out the whole time.""I'm just tired.""You're doing nothing and yet you're tired?"I did not answer. It's tiring to wait for nothing. Wait. Who's waiting for who?I stood up and dragged Chan out. If I stay inside my house longer - I will go reall
PhoenixThe light coming from the window woke me up. I tried to open my eyes but shut it again when the light almost blinded me.I smell something that made my stomach grumble but I lay still on the bed.I have never been comfortable like this for a long time. I glance at the wall clock and the small hand hits 10. A curve lifts up on both sides of my mouth. At least she didn't kick me out during the dawn.I put on my clothes before getting out of the room. I found her sitting in the kitchen with a book in her hand. I captured a photo of her before approaching her."Good morning." I beamed at her but she didn't even bother removing her eyes on her book."Good morning." she finally said as soon as she finished the last page of the book she's reading.She prepared the meal while I took the book she's reading a while ago.She just kept quiet while we ate. She hardly even look
SolIt's been exactly three months since the day the bastard left. I should have not trusted him.I should not hope that he's really sincere when he says he wanted to find me.Who am I kidding?He loves his career pretty much sure than he loves anything and everyone else.I am indeed a fool for thinking he'll make his promises but who am I kidding? Pheonix Glenn will always be Pheonix Glenn. I don't even know why I trusted him. I don't even know why I believe him when he said he'll make it up to me.His group is on the news so I turned off the TV. It's almost midnight and I'm stuck in my new house doing nothing, waiting for my ideas to come pouring down.Mom cried really hard when she learned that I'm moving out. I feel bad for not telling her immediately but Zeck comforts me by telling me she'll understand and I'm too old and I can decide on my own.&
PhoenixI let myself fall on the floor as my sweat bathe my whole body. Sol is surely bloody mad at me right now. We almost fixed it but here it is again.If I could only punch my manager for being extra annoying, I already did as soon as I step afoot at the airport this morning.We talked about one week vacation but they suddenly sent me back. This comeback is pretty maddening. We already talked that we're coming back two months from now and they're suddenly telling me that we will move it in advance."Aren't you going back to the dorm?" Sujin asked me. He's the group's rapper.We're the only ones who were left in the practice room while the others went back to the dorm already. He can speak in English because he studied in California when he was in high school but he's a full-blooded Korean."Later. I'll just take a rest for a while."&nbs
Sol.We circled the bonfire. I'm holding my notebook and drawing something in it when Phoenix Glenn sat beside me.The cold wind blows, making me shake. I'm still wearing my dress which happens to be so thin."Don't you know how to play the guitar, Sol?" Kollin asked.He handed me his guitar and everyone looked at me. I heave a sigh as I try to recall the chords. It's been ten years since I played the guitar.I played the song I played when we had our first practice for the school festival in college.Stupid memories assaulted me and I closed my eyes real tight to push th
Pinilit kong pumasok kahit sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko. Dapat masaya ako kasi tumawag si kuya Zeck at sinabing isasama na niya kami sa Korea. Pero bakit wala akong maramdaman?‘Di ko siya nakita sa school nang dumating ako kaya dumiretso nalang ako sa classroom.Jedd, Kollin, Chalk, and Alvie came rushing to me. They all look worried. I inhaled all the possible strength I'm needing before smiling at them."Bakit ganyan mga mukha niyo? Luh, parang ewan.""Okay ka lang ba, Sol?" Jedd asked.Nginitian ko sila tsaka tumango. "Oo naman. Bakit naman ‘di ako magiging okay?""Anong nangyari sa inyo ng pinsan ko?" Inis na tanong ni Alvie."Di ko din alam. Sabi ko naman sa inyo. Mas gwapo si Suho ko. Bahala siya sa buhay niya. Teka nga, bakit ba parang kayo yung nakipag-break? Haha. Tsaka wag niyo namang awayin yung tao. B