III. Origami

Sol

 Today is the day.  Everything is settled and everyone is excited.  I can see how my best friend's eyes twinkle as she walks down the aisle.  It seems like she's the happiest woman in the whole universe.

 The ceremony had started when someone came, getting the attention of all the people in the venue. 

He apologized and motioned the priest to continue what he's doing in a stupid way that made everyone laugh, except me. 

His hair is dyed white like Jack Frost.  His smiles were the same but he looks tired because of the circles under his eyes. 

Our eyes met, and for the first time in after ten years, my heart skips a beat and seems like millions of needles fissure my heart. 

I look away and tried to avoid his gaze the whole ceremony but I can feel that he's staring at me.  Our hands touch many times as we do our parts but I try hard to stay away from him.  I don't want to ruin my friend's wedding day so I got no other option but to stay still.

 To make the setup more complicated, we shared the same table.  Our table is placed near the pool because it's the nearest place to the newlywed couple.

  I'm a writer and I know that the readers anticipate a kind of scene that the leading lady will do something stupid and the leading man will run to save her, and that's what exactly happened to me. 

As I stand to get out of the scene, a stupid food server accidentally pushed me, causing me to fall into the water.

 I wished I'd just drown and disappear but someone dumber than me pulled me out of the water.  I don't know how to swim and I thought my stupid life will end up like this.

 "Are you okay?”  He asked with his deep voice I haven’t heard for ages.

 I nod in frustration.  All eyes looking at me.  I'm starting to quiver because of the cold water.  He covered me with his coat and help me stand.

 "I can walk," I said even though I'm stuttering.

 "I don't think so. Let me help you until you get to your room."  He said in low voice.

 I didn't argue since I'm shaking with the cold and I don't want to open any conversation with him.  I banged the door in his face as soon as I get inside.  I can't let him see me this way.  He can't see me cry.  He doesn't deserve to see me suffer.

          Darn it!  Why do I still cry for something that happened 10 years ago?

          "Damn, Sol! What do you think you're doing?! Did I think you now run out of tears? Why are you crying now?"

 I harshly wipe my face but tears keep rolling down my face.

          "Stupid! Stop crying! You're not a child anymore! Why cry over a thing that's already done long ago?"

          Jedd phoned me that night asking if I'm okay.  I lied, telling him I'm fine, that I just need a rest because I think I catch a cold because of what happened.

 Who would be fine if you meet your ex-lover again who left you hanging ten years ago?

 A letter is placed under my door early in the morning when I woke up.  No, scratch that.  It's already past lunch when I noticed the piece of paper folded into a Swan.

          The only one who loves making origami is him.

 "Can we talk? I'll wait in the penthouse. Please come."

          His handwriting sucks.  Seriously?  Does dancing and singing the only things he's good at? 

Ah, yeah… he’s also good at breaking hearts.

 I put the origami in my notebook and took a bath.

 I went for a walk to find a place where I could stay and write my book.  I don't have a plan on meeting him. 

What is he, lucky?  After he left me without saying goodbye, he will just order me as if it is my responsibility to do whatever he wants?

 I went to the restaurant where we ate yesterday.  I still feel bad because of my stupid stunt yesterday. 

I am not a teenager to mourn for a long time so life must go on.  It's unacceptable that he's the only one who's happy. 

 The weather is not good.  I stayed near the glass wall so that I can see people passing by.  I just published my book “The Robber” which became bestselling in Korea and here in the Philippines so I paid more attention to writing.  I used to want to do this.  It took me 10 years to finish that book. But right now? I don't know how will I finish what I started before.

Ten years ago, everything was okay.  I get everything I wanted, I can go to concerts, I can buy all the boy group posters I want.  I have friends with whom I do the things I love, and most of all, I have a boyfriend who is always by my side to support me.

But I just woke up one day and everything disappeared. The perfect family I thought I have, turned into a broken one.  When I was in pain, the only person whom I thought I could cry on suddenly broke up with me for God-knows-why reason.  I just woke up and realized that my life was ruined.

          "I knew you won't see me."

          I almost jump on my feet in surprise when someone wearing a mask, beanie, and eyeglasses speaks in front of me.  He's sipping a bubble tea (Sehun style) and put another tea in front of me.  I don't know if he's doing this to annoy me or what.

          "I don't remember agreeing to what you have asked. An origami, seriously? I'm a busy person and I hate wasting it on some ill-timed things."

 I can't see his face fully because he's sipping his tea while there's a mask covering his lips.  I don't know how can he do it and it doesn't concern me.

 "You’ve changed a lot."  He commented.

          "Change is inevitable, Phoenix Glenn."

 "I just want to see you. I haven't talked to you for a long time even though we're standing on the same ground. Why does it feel like the introduction of EXO's Mama? ... The legends shall now see the same sky but shall stand on different grounds, shall stand on the same ground but shall see different skies. The day the grounds beget a single fault before one sky in two worlds that seem alike, the legends will greet each other. The day the red forces purify and twelve forces reunite into one perfect root - A New World Shall Open Up." He recited.

If this is a different scenario, being a fan of EXO would find what he did comically. But since everything is different now and it was him who said that, it only annoyed me further.

          He removed his mask since there are only a few people in the place.  Winner's Empty suddenly played in the background.

 "In the first place, we're not twelve." I said as I try to turn down his pun, "Why would you want to meet me, anyway? I thought you're busy with your career. Everyone loves you. You meet great people. You're working with the people we once dreamed to meet. I'm just an old schoolmate. Does that even matter? "

          "You're still mad?"

          "Oh! Come on, Glenn. We're teenagers no more. And one more thing, it's been a decade. All those things that happened between us were just part of growing up. I'm sorry if I can't treat you the way I treated you a decade ago because I think, ex-lovers can't be friends. It was you who ended it; besides, we have different lives now. I don't want to be in the articles and get bashed by your immature fans. I want to live a quiet life. "