Kabanata 10

All my life I never really knew what was meant by true happiness. Matagal ko nang hindi naramdaman ang pakiramdam ng maging masaya. Mula noong itaboy kami ni Daddy at pinili ni Mommy na mamuhay ng malayo sa mga kamag-anak namin, hindi ko na rin alam ang pakiramdam. Pakiramdam na malayang nakakangiti at totoong kaligayahan sa puso.

I admitted I caged my heart from seven years ago. Ikinulong ko ang sarili ko dahil pakiramdam ko kailangan. I made myself strong for the past years despite of the fact that I am really vulnerable. Kasama na roon ang ngumiti ng totoo. But now that Marcus was with me, I just couldn't explain the emotions that he brought to me. It was new yet it was also overwhelming. Sinungaling ako kung sasabihin kong hindi ako masaya. Sinungaling ako kapag sasabihin kong hindi ko gusto ang ginagawa nito sa akin.

"Ayos ka lang ba, Mansanas?"

My thought got interrupted from Marcus' baritone voice. I instantly shift