Lost & FoundLumingon ako ulit sa kan’ya at takang tumingin. Wondering what he said was for.“Huh?”Binalingan ko ang hawak niyang phone. Not really sure if he was talking to me or someone else. Pero nakababa naman na iyon at tapos na ang tawag.He sighed and then walked towards me. Pareho na kami ngayong nasa hamba ng gazebo.“I know you’re avoiding me. There’s really no point in denying it. I know. I just want to know why.”My throat ran dry. Akala ko ay tapos na kami sa usapang ‘to. I’ve been trying to have a decent conversation with him pero siya naman itong nanahimik bigla kanina. This was what he’d been thinking?I bit my lower lip and exhaled slowly. Pinag-iisipan kung sasabihin ko na ba sa kan’ya para matapos na pero hindi ko talaga alam kung papaano ko sisimulan.If I honestly admit that I followed him last time, iyong sa ospital, hindi ba pangit iyong tingnan? What I did was really weird and off-limits. Talagang napangunahan lang ako nang hinala kaya ko nagawa. Pero hindi ko
ForgetNagising ako sa marahan na haplos sa aking pisngi. Unang tumambad sa akin pagkadilat ko ng aking mga mata ang mukha niyang nakadungaw. His eyes were gently staring at me.“Did I wake you?” he whispered huskily.Marahan akong napakurap. My head is resting on his arms. Habang gamit ang isang kamay, his thumb lightly caressed my face. Ang buong atensyon niya ay nasa akin.Then I remembered that we slept cuddling with each other last night pagkatapos ng usapan na ‘yon. He didn’t say anything, but he was very touchy after that conversation. His embrace was so tight.At first, I thought that it was awkward. Dahil kahit papaano ay nahihiya pa rin ako at hindi gaanong sanay na ganito na kami kalapit muli. I never really imagined that this day would come. Ang lagi ko lang naiisip noon ay kung papaano kami makikitungo sa isa’t isa pagkatapos ng kasal.But now… here we are.It all felt new and familiar at the same time. Iyong tipong parang bago na hindi. As if it was a hobby that you lear
Stranger I was in elementary school when I first noticed it. Graduation ko that time and I was so excited to walk up on stage and receive the medal and diploma. At the same time, I was nervous and thrilled because of the valedictory speech that I'm going to deliver later. But when I looked around, I could not find them. My parents are nowhere to be found. Sabi nila ay mali-late lang. Kahit na class valedictorian ay hindi naka-attend si mommy at daddy ng ceremony dahil may sakit daw ang kapatid ko. Buong akala ko ay sa mga recognition lang sila hindi makakadalo at hindi nila papalampasin ang graduation, but I guess I was wrong. I remember pinching my fingers so hard para lang mapigilan ang mga luha na nagbabadya. The physical pain made me forget the emotional pain momentarily. Kaso hindi nakatulong ang mga naaawang tingin na natanggap ko mula sa mga guro at kapwa kamag-aral nang malaman nila na wala akong kasamang magulang ni isa. I was on the verge of crying nang inalok ako ng
Back I am completely lost in the moment. Hindi ko maalala kung pa'no ako nakarating sa table at naupo. Hindi ko na rin masundan ang usapan at tawanan nina daddy sa mesa. All I can hear is my heart beating loudly in my chest, as if it might burst at any second. Gustuhin ko mang abutin at inumin ang tubig na naka-serve sa harapan, but my hands quivered uncontrollably. Kahit anong pagpapakalma sa sarili ay walang nangyayari. Wala ako sa sarili at tulala sa kinauupuan. Ni hindi ko na rin masagot ang iilan at paminsan minsang bulong ni Elyse sa gilid ko na mukhang nag aalala dahil sa naging reaction ko. She must have thought that I'm having second thoughts about being here, about this stupid arrangement. Ang hindi niya alam... fuck! What on earth was he doing here, anyway? Don't tell me siya ang... pinasadahan ko ng tingin ang mesa. He's the only one here with my family, so technically, siya nga? Napasinghap ako sa naisip. Hindi ko mahanap ang lakas ng loob para balingan ito sa
Bracelet Nang makarating sa loob ay walang pag aalinlangan akong nagpaalam na aalis na. I had a strong inkling that daddy would voice his objections pero nang makita ko ang tipid na ngiti ni mommy ay medyo gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. I took that as my cue to leave. Hindi ko na hinintay na makabalik si Aril bago ako umalis. I felt like a coward retreating somewhere safe. I could have stayed and tried to shrug off the uneasiness that slowly crept in me, but I couldn't. Not when he's near and absolutely not when his words are full of spite as if he's the one that was left with a broken heart. I guess I'll just have to resort to an excuse like a work emergency, or I could simply say that I'm feeling overwhelmed—which is partly true. But for tonight, all I wanted is to go home. To hell with him for thinking I'm running away. I couldn't care less about his opinion anyway. May iilang text si Elyse sa akin at nag aalala. I reassured her that I'm fine. Gustuhin ko mang kausapin pa siya na
Talk Maaga akong nagising kinaumagahan kahit anong oras na nakatulog. Buti na lang din at Sunday ngayon kaya walang trabaho. May mga sinagot lang ako na mga importanteng email at message bago mag-ayos. Nang matapos ay nagtungo na agad ako sa mansyon. Almost thirty minute drive ang mula sa condo papunta sa bahay namin. Pero kung tutuusin ay hindi naman gaano kalayo ito, talagang dahil lang sa traffic kaya medyo tumatagal ang biyahe. While driving, sinubukan kong isa isahin ang mga kailangan kong gawin para sa araw na 'to. First, I'll try to convince dad to stop the arrangement. Kung dahil lang naman sa lagay ng kompanya kung bakit ito nabuo, maybe we could find another way to save the company na hindi ko kailangang magpakasal sa kung kanino. Then, I have to set up a meeting with Dean dahil siya ang mas nakakaalam ng mga pup'wedeng gawin. I'm an Architect. And even though I'm one of the founders of our firm, hindi ko masasabing sapat ang alam ko sa negosyo. I still need to cons
Fiancé "Are you sick?" sambit ni Adrian at sinapo ang noo at leeg ko. Taka ko siyang tiningnan. "What—no! Really? After everything that I've said, 'yan talaga reaction mo?" inis ko siyang tinapunan ng tingin at sinalampak ang balikat sa sandalan ng upuan. We are currently at a restaurant near his place and having lunch. Ikwinento ko na sa kanya lahat ng nangyari mula sa umpisa and this is his reaction. What a friend! Nagkibit ito ng balikat bago muling magsalita. "I don't know. Malay ko ba kasi kung sa sobrang katalinuhan mo, nabaliw ka na lang bigla," he leaned forward and examined my face. "Are you sure hindi delusions 'yan? It's been seven years and you have been doing so well. Akala ko ay talagang nakalimutan mo na." Inirapan ko siya at binato ng tissue dahilan kung bakit siya humagalpak ng tawa. If looks can kill, I swear, siguro ay nakahandusay na ang isang 'to kanina pa. "I'm serious, Ads! Come on, be a good friend and comfort me!" Natigil ito sa pagtawa and sinubukang
Ring"Well, for starters, the bastard that you were referring to is still your cousin."Caleb raised an eyebrow at what I said.Napailing na lang ako sa reaction niya then I proceeded on telling him about what happened at kung bakit nga ba umabot sa ganito.Though I feel like he's not satisfied with my reason, pero tinanggap niya pa rin iyon."Just be careful, okay?" He runs a hand through his hair as he processed the information. "You've been through a lot. I just don't want to see you like that again."Tumango ako dito and I know what he means. I really appreciate his concern. Naiintindihan ko rin kung saan siya nanggagaling.Aril, Caleb, and Dean were inseparable before. Kaya hindi nakakapagtaka kung may tampo man ang dalawa nang umalis na lang si Aril bigla.Ani nila, even their Tito, Aril's Dad, didn't tell them anything about his departure but they suspect that their parents know the reason behind it. Hindi nga lang sinasabi sa kanila.When Aril left, alam kong hindi lang ako ang