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2023-12-22 23:31:36
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Her Buried Desires Kabanata 20
ForgetNagising ako sa marahan na haplos sa aking pisngi. Unang tumambad sa akin pagkadilat ko ng aking mga mata ang mukha niyang nakadungaw. His eyes were gently staring at me.“Did I wake you?” he whispered huskily.Marahan akong napakurap. My head is resting on his arms. Habang gamit ang isang kamay, his thumb lightly caressed my face. Ang buong atensyon niya ay nasa akin.Then I remembered that we slept cuddling with each other last night pagkatapos ng usapan na ‘yon. He didn’t say anything, but he was very touchy after that conversation. His embrace was so tight.At first, I thought that it was awkward. Dahil kahit papaano ay nahihiya pa rin ako at hindi gaanong sanay na ganito na kami kalapit muli. I never really imagined that this day would come. Ang lagi ko lang naiisip noon ay kung papaano kami makikitungo sa isa’t isa pagkatapos ng kasal.But now… here we are.It all felt new and familiar at the same time. Iyong tipong parang bago na hindi. As if it was a hobby that you lear
Huling Na-update : 2023-12-28Her Buried Desires Simula
Stranger I was in elementary school when I first noticed it. Graduation ko that time and I was so excited to walk up on stage and receive the medal and diploma. At the same time, I was nervous and thrilled because of the valedictory speech that I'm going to deliver later. But when I looked around, I could not find them. My parents are nowhere to be found. Sabi nila ay mali-late lang. Kahit na class valedictorian ay hindi naka-attend si mommy at daddy ng ceremony dahil may sakit daw ang kapatid ko. Buong akala ko ay sa mga recognition lang sila hindi makakadalo at hindi nila papalampasin ang graduation, but I guess I was wrong. I remember pinching my fingers so hard para lang mapigilan ang mga luha na nagbabadya. The physical pain made me forget the emotional pain momentarily. Kaso hindi nakatulong ang mga naaawang tingin na natanggap ko mula sa mga guro at kapwa kamag-aral nang malaman nila na wala akong kasamang magulang ni isa. I was on the verge of crying nang inalok ako ng
Huling Na-update : 2023-09-14Her Buried Desires Kabanata 1
Back I am completely lost in the moment. Hindi ko maalala kung pa'no ako nakarating sa table at naupo. Hindi ko na rin masundan ang usapan at tawanan nina daddy sa mesa. All I can hear is my heart beating loudly in my chest, as if it might burst at any second. Gustuhin ko mang abutin at inumin ang tubig na naka-serve sa harapan, but my hands quivered uncontrollably. Kahit anong pagpapakalma sa sarili ay walang nangyayari. Wala ako sa sarili at tulala sa kinauupuan. Ni hindi ko na rin masagot ang iilan at paminsan minsang bulong ni Elyse sa gilid ko na mukhang nag aalala dahil sa naging reaction ko. She must have thought that I'm having second thoughts about being here, about this stupid arrangement. Ang hindi niya alam... fuck! What on earth was he doing here, anyway? Don't tell me siya ang... pinasadahan ko ng tingin ang mesa. He's the only one here with my family, so technically, siya nga? Napasinghap ako sa naisip. Hindi ko mahanap ang lakas ng loob para balingan ito sa
Huling Na-update : 2023-09-20Her Buried Desires Kabanata 2
Bracelet Nang makarating sa loob ay walang pag aalinlangan akong nagpaalam na aalis na. I had a strong inkling that daddy would voice his objections pero nang makita ko ang tipid na ngiti ni mommy ay medyo gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. I took that as my cue to leave. Hindi ko na hinintay na makabalik si Aril bago ako umalis. I felt like a coward retreating somewhere safe. I could have stayed and tried to shrug off the uneasiness that slowly crept in me, but I couldn't. Not when he's near and absolutely not when his words are full of spite as if he's the one that was left with a broken heart. I guess I'll just have to resort to an excuse like a work emergency, or I could simply say that I'm feeling overwhelmed—which is partly true. But for tonight, all I wanted is to go home. To hell with him for thinking I'm running away. I couldn't care less about his opinion anyway. May iilang text si Elyse sa akin at nag aalala. I reassured her that I'm fine. Gustuhin ko mang kausapin pa siya na
Huling Na-update : 2023-09-21Her Buried Desires Kabanata 3
Talk Maaga akong nagising kinaumagahan kahit anong oras na nakatulog. Buti na lang din at Sunday ngayon kaya walang trabaho. May mga sinagot lang ako na mga importanteng email at message bago mag-ayos. Nang matapos ay nagtungo na agad ako sa mansyon. Almost thirty minute drive ang mula sa condo papunta sa bahay namin. Pero kung tutuusin ay hindi naman gaano kalayo ito, talagang dahil lang sa traffic kaya medyo tumatagal ang biyahe. While driving, sinubukan kong isa isahin ang mga kailangan kong gawin para sa araw na 'to. First, I'll try to convince dad to stop the arrangement. Kung dahil lang naman sa lagay ng kompanya kung bakit ito nabuo, maybe we could find another way to save the company na hindi ko kailangang magpakasal sa kung kanino. Then, I have to set up a meeting with Dean dahil siya ang mas nakakaalam ng mga pup'wedeng gawin. I'm an Architect. And even though I'm one of the founders of our firm, hindi ko masasabing sapat ang alam ko sa negosyo. I still need to cons
Huling Na-update : 2023-09-25Her Buried Desires Kabanata 4
Fiancé "Are you sick?" sambit ni Adrian at sinapo ang noo at leeg ko. Taka ko siyang tiningnan. "What—no! Really? After everything that I've said, 'yan talaga reaction mo?" inis ko siyang tinapunan ng tingin at sinalampak ang balikat sa sandalan ng upuan. We are currently at a restaurant near his place and having lunch. Ikwinento ko na sa kanya lahat ng nangyari mula sa umpisa and this is his reaction. What a friend! Nagkibit ito ng balikat bago muling magsalita. "I don't know. Malay ko ba kasi kung sa sobrang katalinuhan mo, nabaliw ka na lang bigla," he leaned forward and examined my face. "Are you sure hindi delusions 'yan? It's been seven years and you have been doing so well. Akala ko ay talagang nakalimutan mo na." Inirapan ko siya at binato ng tissue dahilan kung bakit siya humagalpak ng tawa. If looks can kill, I swear, siguro ay nakahandusay na ang isang 'to kanina pa. "I'm serious, Ads! Come on, be a good friend and comfort me!" Natigil ito sa pagtawa and sinubukang
Huling Na-update : 2023-09-27Her Buried Desires Kabanata 5
Ring"Well, for starters, the bastard that you were referring to is still your cousin."Caleb raised an eyebrow at what I said.Napailing na lang ako sa reaction niya then I proceeded on telling him about what happened at kung bakit nga ba umabot sa ganito.Though I feel like he's not satisfied with my reason, pero tinanggap niya pa rin iyon."Just be careful, okay?" He runs a hand through his hair as he processed the information. "You've been through a lot. I just don't want to see you like that again."Tumango ako dito and I know what he means. I really appreciate his concern. Naiintindihan ko rin kung saan siya nanggagaling.Aril, Caleb, and Dean were inseparable before. Kaya hindi nakakapagtaka kung may tampo man ang dalawa nang umalis na lang si Aril bigla.Ani nila, even their Tito, Aril's Dad, didn't tell them anything about his departure but they suspect that their parents know the reason behind it. Hindi nga lang sinasabi sa kanila.When Aril left, alam kong hindi lang ako ang
Huling Na-update : 2023-09-28Her Buried Desires Kabanata 6
Drive My knees suddenly felt weak as I stood there. Kung hindi lang siya nakahawak sa baywang ko at nakasandal ang katawan ko sa kanya, I'll probably lose my balance. Hindi magkamayaw sa pagtibok ang puso ko. The sultry music continued to play and the dance floor is still crowded, pero pakiramdam ko ay kami lang dalawa ang nandoon. It was as though time had slowed down. The warmth of his touch on my waist seeped through my skin. He continued to slowly sway me to the music while his face is still buried in my neck. I could feel his hot breaths there na mas lalong nagpahina sa mga tuhod ko. I inhaled sharply when I realized that our position is very intimate. Bigla akong nahilo sa katotohanang 'yon. I tried to compose myself but his proximity was intoxicating. Agad akong napalayo at bumaling sa kanya. His hands didn't move though. They were still securely wrapped around my waist. Nang mag angat siya ng tingin ay parang gusto ko na lang tumakbo. There are different kinds of emo
Huling Na-update : 2023-09-28
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ForgetNagising ako sa marahan na haplos sa aking pisngi. Unang tumambad sa akin pagkadilat ko ng aking mga mata ang mukha niyang nakadungaw. His eyes were gently staring at me.“Did I wake you?” he whispered huskily.Marahan akong napakurap. My head is resting on his arms. Habang gamit ang isang kamay, his thumb lightly caressed my face. Ang buong atensyon niya ay nasa akin.Then I remembered that we slept cuddling with each other last night pagkatapos ng usapan na ‘yon. He didn’t say anything, but he was very touchy after that conversation. His embrace was so tight.At first, I thought that it was awkward. Dahil kahit papaano ay nahihiya pa rin ako at hindi gaanong sanay na ganito na kami kalapit muli. I never really imagined that this day would come. Ang lagi ko lang naiisip noon ay kung papaano kami makikitungo sa isa’t isa pagkatapos ng kasal.But now… here we are.It all felt new and familiar at the same time. Iyong tipong parang bago na hindi. As if it was a hobby that you lear
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Lost & FoundLumingon ako ulit sa kan’ya at takang tumingin. Wondering what he said was for.“Huh?”Binalingan ko ang hawak niyang phone. Not really sure if he was talking to me or someone else. Pero nakababa naman na iyon at tapos na ang tawag.He sighed and then walked towards me. Pareho na kami ngayong nasa hamba ng gazebo.“I know you’re avoiding me. There’s really no point in denying it. I know. I just want to know why.”My throat ran dry. Akala ko ay tapos na kami sa usapang ‘to. I’ve been trying to have a decent conversation with him pero siya naman itong nanahimik bigla kanina. This was what he’d been thinking?I bit my lower lip and exhaled slowly. Pinag-iisipan kung sasabihin ko na ba sa kan’ya para matapos na pero hindi ko talaga alam kung papaano ko sisimulan.If I honestly admit that I followed him last time, iyong sa ospital, hindi ba pangit iyong tingnan? What I did was really weird and off-limits. Talagang napangunahan lang ako nang hinala kaya ko nagawa. Pero hindi ko
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LiarNapalunok ako at pinagtuunan na lang din ng tingin ang fountain sa ibaba. Of course I’m guilty. Iyon naman kasi talaga ang totoo. Umiiwas ako.“Is it really that hard to be honest with me? I just want to know what’s on your mind.”Ako naman ang bumuntong hininga ngayon. Ewan ko ba. Naguguluhan na rin ako.I looked at him. He looked at me too.This time, his eyes seemed to be begging me for something. Batid ko ang magkahalong pagod at pagsusumamo roon.May parte sa akin na gustong sabihin na lang agad sa kan’ya ang tungkol sa nalaman ko noong nakaraang linggo, but another part of me also doesn’t want to hear the end of it. Baka kasi lalo lang akong manlumo sa kung ano mang malalaman ko.I’m not really hoping to rekindle what we had in the past.Kung ano man ang mayroon kami ngayon, gusto kong isipin na dahil lang ito sa napipilitan kami sa sitwasyon na kinapapalooban namin. And whatever happens inside of this situation, gusto kong isipin na labas pa rin doon ang kung anong mayroon
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DistantThey were sitting facing each other.Kahit na side profile lang ang kita sa babae, I am a hundred percent sure that it was her. Petite and curvy, with porcelain skin and chinky eyes. Nasisiguro kong siya talaga ‘yon.The place around them is also somewhat… familiar. Ilang segundo ko pa napagtanto na iyon ang lugar kung saan kami kumain last time. I can clearly remember the details and the ambience of the place! The same rose and heart decorations...So, I was right? Talagang may iba siya?Then why the hell would he tell me that he loves me? Para saan?At alam ba ng babae niya ang tungkol sa aming dalawa? The arrange marriage? And if she knew about it, what did she do? Pumayag na lang ba siya?It wouldn't make sense if she knew about our situation tapos wala siyang ginawa para mapigilan 'to, hindi ba?Dahil kung ako ang nasa posisyon niya, I wouldn’t let my man marry someone other than me. Kung talagang tunay kaming nagmamahalan, dapat ako lang ang ihaharap niya sa altar at wal
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PicturePagkaraan ng ilang sandali, kumalma na rin kami ni Mommy. Nagsimula na siyang kumustahin ako tungkol sa trabaho habang nag aayos kami ng mga kubyertos sa hapag.Our conversation earlier made my heart feel lighter somehow.Hindi ko alam na kahit matagal ko na tanggap sa sarili that they will never love me like their real child, kakaibang sarap pa rin pala sa pakiramdam na marinig at maramdaman ang mga salitang 'yon mula sa kan'ya.If someone had told me years ago that I would hear those words from her lips, talagang hindi ako maniniwala.And I really thought that I had been numb for years. 'Yong tipong kahit anong sakit kapag pinapamukha sa aking hindi ako tunay na anak, hindi ko na iniinda. But the conversation we had made me feel a lot of emotions na matagal ko nang itinago. O, baka talagang kahit anong pilit kong maging matatag at umastang sanay na, nanlalambot agad ako kapag ito na ang pinag uusapan. It was really a sensitive matter for me.Natigil lang kami bigla nang may
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Universes"Happy birthday," bulong ko sa kan'ya habang inaabot ang isang itim na box. Kinagat ko ang labi ko nang kumalas siya sa yakap para makita iyon."What's this?" nakangiti niya iyong inabot."My gift." Pinanood ko siyang buksan 'yon. I carefully watched his reaction.His eyes softened nang makita ang laman ng kahon."I have the same one but it's a bracelet," sambit ko at inangat ang kanang kamay para ipakita sa kan'ya.Inangat niya ang kwintas at marahang hinaplos ang pendant gamit ang hintuturo."Why would you give me this?"Niyakap ko siya ulit bago ako sumagot."Well, it's your birthday and I want to be the first one to greet you and give you a gift kahit bukas pa talaga.""You know you don't have to give me anything, right? You're more than enough, love. I couldn't ask for more as long as you're with me," bulong niya at hinalikan ang tuktok ng ulo ko.I smiled kahit nakasalampak ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya at hindi nakikita ang reaksyon ko sa kasalukuyan.I really love it wh
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Act Nakataas ang kilay ni Caleb habang palipat lipat ang tingin nito sa aming dalawa ni Aril. Nakaupo na kami ngayon sa conference room habang naghihintay sa iba pang mga dadating. Nasa harapan namin si Caleb, habang magkatabi naman kami ni Aril. And because it's still early, kaming tatlo lang ang naroon. I couldn't bring myself to meet Caleb's gaze dahil pakiramdam ko ay mas malalaman niya ang kung anong kababalaghan ang nangyari sa loob ng opisina ko kanina. Alam kong naghihinala na siya dahil ni hindi ko man lang siya pinapasok doon at agad na inaya sa conference room nang makalabas. "Will you stop it? You are making her uncomfortable," iritadong sambit ni Aril sa pinsan. Lalong nagsalubong ang kilay ni Caleb dahil sa sinabi nito. "I'm not interested in whatever you have to say," matalim na sagot ni Caleb at mariin itong tinitigan. Halos mapasinghap ako nang biglang lumipat ang tingin niya sa akin. "And why would you be uncomfortable, Kierra Adelaide?" Napapikit ako ng mar
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ColdInirapan ko siya para maitago ang kabang nararamdaman ko."No. Nagkataon lang, because Adrian is out of town and it's his client, kaya ako muna ang kumausap. Now that I answered your question, can you please tell me what are you doing here? Don't tell me because I didn't answer your call? Oh, please."Umiling iling ako dahil hindi ako naniniwalang iyon talaga ang rason niya. Surely, there must be something logical, right?Hindi naman siya mag aabala pang pumunta dito dahil lang hindi ko sinagot ang tawag niya? 'Coz that's freaking absurd! I'm with a client. Kahit na sabihin pang tanghali iyon and lunch time, hindi sa lahat ng oras ay masasagot ko ang mga tawag niya.Napaupo ako sa swivel chair ko at bumaling sa monitor. Pagkaraan ay taka ko siyang tiningnan dahil nakatayo pa rin siya sa harapan ko.Gusto ko siyang paupuin pero hindi rin ako kumportableng dalawa lang kami rito.Hindi pa rin siya nagsalita kung kaya't napabuntong hininga ako. This is making me frustrated! Seriously
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Client Buti na lang, naging abala ako sa buong linggo na ‘yon dahil sa mga ongoing projects sa firm. Paminsan minsan ay tumatawag si mommy para ibalita sa akin ang mga preparation na ginagawa nila. She tries her best to complement everything to my liking pero dahil sa nangyari noong nakaraang linggo ay nawalan ako ng gana makisali sa pagpaplano. I kinda feel bad because she seems to notice my lack of enthusiasm whenever we talk about it pero wala siyang sinasabi. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba sa simpatya o awa sa sitwasyon ko kung kaya't hinahayaan niya 'ko at hindi na masiyadong kinukulit pa. As much as I don’t like to dwell too much on what I saw, may iilang pagkakataon na nahuhuli ko ang sariling napapatulala dahil doon. It's not healthy. Kaya pilit kong ibinabaling sa trabaho ang atensyon ko. Speaking of preparations, sa Batangas daw gaganapin ang kasal at beach wedding ang theme. Nakahanda na rin ang mga invitations. Mayroon daw mga kilalang pangalan ang dadalo kaya dapat haban
