Chapter 22
Stella
When can you say that love is right? When do you get hurt? When do you get tired? When are you still hoping?
They say that it is not easy to love, but the others, it seems like they are just playing. So, how can you say that you are in the right person? In a right relationship? The others, they said you can just feel it. Some required for an assurance and then legality.
But. We do have different set of struggles as well as the types of people we love. We cannot judge a person that easy. Sometimes we become stupid when we love and maybe I am like that. I really love Tristan even though the consequences of my action is indeed a wrong way of pleasure, we both knew that, we just didn't want to accept that because we know to ourselves it is the only way we know to make ourselves happy.
Chapter 01StellaWalking along the hallway, passing through the series of chain. Seeing how people, concealed, sneaking and running away. Seems like they are chasing by death and time, figuring out many why's and cracking codes upon having numerous battles in their life.Exhausting pain begins to thrive throughout my whole system. I was sleepy and hungry at the same time. Tickling sound I made as I opened the door.
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Chapter 03Stella"Mom? I'm home, where are you?" I searched almost around our house yet I didn't even see a glimpse of her, maybe she was out? Bought some stuff? But it is somehow weird, our kitchen is still full and even if it's not, she is always with me, we're going to grocery store together. But maybe, she was reall
Chapter 04StellaI woke up, feeling giddy. What happened? Seconds later, I began to realize that I am at the Hospital. Rhea is sleeping beside me, she’s wearing a green jacket, the one that I gave to her on her 18th birthday. I was supposed to wake her up when I noticed a familiar figure sleeping also at the couch. Then, I remember! I fainted the moment I received a text, saying that my mom was too close on ending her life.
Chapter 05StellaDel Valle.That is the first word I saw as we entered the city. Rhea told us that, there are plenty of places we can explore if we choose to go here. We arrived here at exactly six in the morning, we traveled for almost ten hours from, we made a lot of stops over that’s why.“Let’s check in first af
Chapter 06Stella“Did you see my phone?” I was just holding it a while ago why I can’t see it now?“Where did you last see it?” Where… where… Ah! At the comfort room?
Chapter 07StellaI was currently lying in bed, doing everything I could to sleep but I just can’t find the will to. What is he trying to say? He’s with me? What does he mean by that?Well, as the clock strikes at six, we decided to go and by nine in the evening we are already at the hotel. The moment we entered the
Chapter 08StellaMy body felt cold as the air conditioner touched every inch of my skin, I pulled the cotton blanket and realized I wasn't sleeping alone, I have someone in my bed! Without hesitation, I opened my eyes and saw Tristan lying beside me. His eyes are close, his breathing is normal and mine isn't!What did you do Stella
Chapter 22StellaWhen can you say that love is right? When do you get hurt? When do you get tired? When are you still hoping?They say that it is not easy to love, but the others, it seems like they are just playing. So, how can you say that you are in the right person? In a right relationship? The others, they said you can just feel it. Some required for an assurance and then legality.But. We do have different set of struggles as well as the types of people we love. We cannot judge a person that easy. Sometimes we become stupid when we love and maybe I am like that. I really love Tristan even though the consequences of my action is indeed a wrong way of pleasure, we both knew that, we just didn't want to accept that because we know to ourselves it is the only way we know to make ourselves happy.
Chapter 21StellaThey say, when one of your loved ones dies, it seems that you also died. I think that's true I can hardly understand myself, it's so dull.We are now at the cemetery. My friends, dad and mom's family dad are also here and some people who cares about this thing. I can see in their faces the sadness of sudden loss of my mom. I can see the sympathy, the grief, but why do I seem to feel nothing at all? My heart seems to be exhausted, numb, nothing hurts more and my tears are already gone, and I can't even cry anymore.How I wish I could still go back to the time when we're still complete. At some point of my life, I wish I didn't grow.Once in my life, I thought I should never grow. Because as I
Chapter 20StellaI can't imagine life without mom, but maybe this time it is real, she was gone.It is difficult to lose a father, and now it becomes more horrible because I also lost my mother.And maybe if I have a chance to stop the time? It was only in the part where we crossed the road to school at the same time.We were happy, laughing and teasing each other.There is nothing more painful when you know in yourself that you are alone, that no matter how hard you try to build yourself up, you still can't. I miss you so much, mom and dad. I hope wherever you are now, you are happy, because you are together again. I will force myself mom, dad, I will choose to be strong.Because I can't do anything, it has happened, it's over and I can't bring
Chapter 19Stella"Good morning mom, dad! Come on, let's go!"We just recently moved in here, to a new subdivision. Honestly some of the children here are bully. I just want them to play with me but they will act as if I'm not existing at all. Maybe because I'm new?Well, I can conclude that one of my number one hater here is the one in the other house. Our neighbor, in the right side, the one with yellow gate. Specifically, I don't know her, but everytime our paths will crossed, she'll look at me from head to toe and then rolled her eyes continously. What? I didn't even do anything! I'm just walking!One day, I asked my mother."Mom, am I ugly?" I loo
Chapter 18StellaIt is hard on the part when even if you still want to continue, you are gradually being pushed to the highest limit of yourself. It gets to the point that even if you want to still fight the situation, it is the situation that will give up the battle you are fighting for.I do not understand. Why does the person you are getting energy from still need to disappear? At this point, I can never pinpoint what is happening.I lost my strength. Suddenly the energy in my body disappeared. My life is now meaningless, My mother is gone. The person wherein my number source of power is not breathing, she's now lifeless."When you finish school, what will you buy first? A car? A house?"We are here in my room, talking some random stuffs when my mom
Chapter 17StellaHave you ever come to the point where you have left with no choice? Because if yes, you must have gone through the hardships of life already.But, in my case, it was different. Because I prefer the wrong one, I chose the decision that I know will hurt me more in the end. And no matter how many times I think, this situation is not a good thing.I love Tristan and that's true. I do not know when, where and how I love him. I just got to the point where I realized, my heart was already beating for him.Maybe it's wrong, but when can you say that love is right? It is a mistake in the eyes of others, but is love measured by choosing to be rightfully graded?I know, I live in that belief wherein it is pr
Chapter 16Stella"Our plan worked out well."That was his statement as soon as we made ourselves comfortable at the couch near the food table. I raised my right eyebrow, so?"Good for you." I commented, not minding his continous stare from me."That's it?" he smirked, as if it's telling me he's contented. What does he wants me to do? Plan a party for his so called success? Oh come on!"You're becoming more and more grumpy Stella. If I have a mirror here I'll give it you so that you can literally see yourself and your face." he laughed, literally touching his stomach."That's what you need to say? You exc
Chapter 15Stella"Happy Birthday!" That was the word I heared over and over again in every corner of this house to cover up the celebration of Rhea's birthday. She was walking in a stunning outfit, her hair was black and braided. Her
Chapter 14StellaWe control our lives but sometimes we get to the point where even though we know we are wrong, we still choose do it. There are things that no matter how many times we want to give up, we still have the desire to fight even if it is a wrong way. If only I could turn back the time, I wish I hadn't been tempted so that I will have the chance to let it go early. But what can I do? Here it is, it is already in my system. Now, even though I want to stop it, I may not be abl