Novels by hiraeth

Chapter 22StellaWhen can you say that love is right? When do you get hurt? When do you get tired? When are you still hoping?They say that it is not easy to love, but the others, it seems like they are just playing. So, how can you say that you are in the right person? In a right relationship? The others, they said you can just feel it. Some required for an assurance and then legality.But. We do have different set of struggles as well as the types of people we love. We cannot judge a person that easy. Sometimes we become stupid when we love and maybe I am like that. I really love Tristan even though the consequences of my action is indeed a wrong way of pleasure, we both knew that, we just didn't want to accept that because we know to ourselves it is the only way we know to make ourselves happy.

Chapter 21StellaThey say, when one of your loved ones dies, it seems that you also died. I think that's true I can hardly understand myself, it's so dull.We are now at the cemetery. My friends, dad and mom's family dad are also here and some people who cares about this thing. I can see in their faces the sadness of sudden loss of my mom. I can see the sympathy, the grief, but why do I seem to feel nothing at all? My heart seems to be exhausted, numb, nothing hurts more and my tears are already gone, and I can't even cry anymore.How I wish I could still go back to the time when we're still complete. At some point of my life, I wish I didn't grow.Once in my life, I thought I should never grow. Because as I

Chapter 20StellaI can't imagine life without mom, but maybe this time it is real, she was gone.It is difficult to lose a father, and now it becomes more horrible because I also lost my mother.And maybe if I have a chance to stop the time? It was only in the part where we crossed the road to school at the same time.We were happy, laughing and teasing each other.There is nothing more painful when you know in yourself that you are alone, that no matter how hard you try to build yourself up, you still can't. I miss you so much, mom and dad. I hope wherever you are now, you are happy, because you are together again. I will force myself mom, dad, I will choose to be strong.Because I can't do anything, it has happened, it's over and I can't bring

Chapter 19Stella"Good morning mom, dad! Come on, let's go!"We just recently moved in here, to a new subdivision. Honestly some of the children here are bully. I just want them to play with me but they will act as if I'm not existing at all. Maybe because I'm new?Well, I can conclude that one of my number one hater here is the one in the other house. Our neighbor, in the right side, the one with yellow gate. Specifically, I don't know her, but everytime our paths will crossed, she'll look at me from head to toe and then rolled her eyes continously. What? I didn't even do anything! I'm just walking!One day, I asked my mother."Mom, am I ugly?" I loo

Chapter 18StellaIt is hard on the part when even if you still want to continue, you are gradually being pushed to the highest limit of yourself. It gets to the point that even if you want to still fight the situation, it is the situation that will give up the battle you are fighting for.I do not understand. Why does the person you are getting energy from still need to disappear? At this point, I can never pinpoint what is happening.I lost my strength. Suddenly the energy in my body disappeared. My life is now meaningless, My mother is gone. The person wherein my number source of power is not breathing, she's now lifeless."When you finish school, what will you buy first? A car? A house?"We are here in my room, talking some random stuffs when my mom

Chapter 17StellaHave you ever come to the point where you have left with no choice? Because if yes, you must have gone through the hardships of life already.But, in my case, it was different. Because I prefer the wrong one, I chose the decision that I know will hurt me more in the end. And no matter how many times I think, this situation is not a good thing.I love Tristan and that's true. I do not know when, where and how I love him. I just got to the point where I realized, my heart was already beating for him.Maybe it's wrong, but when can you say that love is right? It is a mistake in the eyes of others, but is love measured by choosing to be rightfully graded?I know, I live in that belief wherein it is pr