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2021-08-14 21:52:18Hanan!
"We should eat ya hafiz is sleeping, he is probably tired from work."I say sitting on thé dinning.
"Oh ok."amany say and dish me thé plate of Rice and stew, i mutter a thank you and began stuffing thé food in my mouth.
Showing his girlfriend to my face and later he will come out pretending as if everything is cool, i wishe he can just love me even do is a little.
"Hanan!"i look up from my food and amany give me this weird look.
"Are you alright?
You are just rushing thé food as if you ré fighting with someone."she say looking at me worriedly."I am fine,
I.....ju...s...I need to rest."I say and leave thé dinning.I go to my bedroom slamming thé door shut, i lay on my bed and begin to sob.
Why is this happening to me, i love him why can't he see that?
Why am i not good enough i just want a happy life with my husband.Th door to my bedroom open i dont b
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Hanan!Opening my bedroom window i climb on and sit on the balcony giving me the full access to the view of our street, the morning cloud is a little chill yet the sun has started to rise, my mind drift to 5days days ago at the hospital and i smile, just seeing him makes me alright and everyday i see him he just look handsome than i last saw him, i always pray that God should make him mine i don't want to pray to God to remove his love in my heart because honestly i just want to be with him the man of my dream.I want God to fulfill my wishe even do that is the only wishe he will grant me in this life."Hanan."i snap out of my thoughts and turn to face my mum."Good morning mummy."I say jumping back inside the room."Morning.How are you?"she ask worriedly and i nod."I am ok mum."I say she nod and sit on the edge of my bed."Come and sit hanany."my mum say patting the space next to her on the bed.I sit,she sm
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Hanan!"I know that will happen i wasn't expecting him to say yes."I say to Amani after she finish telling me how her parents talked to ya hafiz about our marriage and he declined."But mummy say she doesn't care if he wants to be with you or not , I am just worried about you hanan when ya hafiz is forced into doing something he doesn't want to,it usually ended up into a disaster."she say worriedly and i smile."I don't care Amany,I love ya hafiz for a very long time and i don't care if he doesn't love me back in return I will be with him until he learn to love me."I say and my bestfriend sigh."Hanan let's not fool ourselves here and by now you should know this is real life not all those novel you're reading, you can't convince someone to love you in as much as that person is already in love with someone else it's difficult, you're crazy."she say and i smile just in time my bedroom door open."Hanan.Hafiz is here to see you."my m
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