Lahat ng Kabanata ng Her Buried Desires: Kabanata 1 - Kabanata 10

Back I am completely lost in the moment. Hindi ko maalala kung pa'no ako nakarating sa table at naupo. Hindi ko na rin masundan ang usapan at tawanan nina daddy sa mesa. All I can hear is my heart beating loudly in my chest, as if it might burst at any second. Gustuhin ko mang abutin at inumin ang tubig na naka-serve sa harapan, but my hands quivered uncontrollably. Kahit anong pagpapakalma sa sarili ay walang nangyayari. Wala ako sa sarili at tulala sa kinauupuan. Ni hindi ko na rin masagot ang iilan at paminsan minsang bulong ni Elyse sa gilid ko na mukhang nag aalala dahil sa naging reaction ko. She must have thought that I'm having second thoughts about being here, about this stupid arrangement. Ang hindi niya alam... fuck! What on earth was he doing here, anyway? Don't tell me siya ang... pinasadahan ko ng tingin ang mesa. He's the only one here with my family, so technically, siya nga? Napasinghap ako sa naisip. Hindi ko mahanap ang lakas ng loob para balingan ito sa

Talk Maaga akong nagising kinaumagahan kahit anong oras na nakatulog. Buti na lang din at Sunday ngayon kaya walang trabaho. May mga sinagot lang ako na mga importanteng email at message bago mag-ayos. Nang matapos ay nagtungo na agad ako sa mansyon. Almost thirty minute drive ang mula sa condo papunta sa bahay namin. Pero kung tutuusin ay hindi naman gaano kalayo ito, talagang dahil lang sa traffic kaya medyo tumatagal ang biyahe. While driving, sinubukan kong isa isahin ang mga kailangan kong gawin para sa araw na 'to. First, I'll try to convince dad to stop the arrangement. Kung dahil lang naman sa lagay ng kompanya kung bakit ito nabuo, maybe we could find another way to save the company na hindi ko kailangang magpakasal sa kung kanino. Then, I have to set up a meeting with Dean dahil siya ang mas nakakaalam ng mga pup'wedeng gawin. I'm an Architect. And even though I'm one of the founders of our firm, hindi ko masasabing sapat ang alam ko sa negosyo. I still need to cons

Ring"Well, for starters, the bastard that you were referring to is still your cousin."Caleb raised an eyebrow at what I said.Napailing na lang ako sa reaction niya then I proceeded on telling him about what happened at kung bakit nga ba umabot sa ganito.Though I feel like he's not satisfied with my reason, pero tinanggap niya pa rin iyon."Just be careful, okay?" He runs a hand through his hair as he processed the information. "You've been through a lot. I just don't want to see you like that again."Tumango ako dito and I know what he means. I really appreciate his concern. Naiintindihan ko rin kung saan siya nanggagaling.Aril, Caleb, and Dean were inseparable before. Kaya hindi nakakapagtaka kung may tampo man ang dalawa nang umalis na lang si Aril bigla.Ani nila, even their Tito, Aril's Dad, didn't tell them anything about his departure but they suspect that their parents know the reason behind it. Hindi nga lang sinasabi sa kanila.When Aril left, alam kong hindi lang ako ang

Love Hindi ako nagsalita. Hindi na rin ako nakipagtalo. Hindi ko alam kung saan pa kukuha ng lakas para gawin ‘yon. I’m drunk and emotional. And all I know right now is that I want to go home. Tuloy tuloy ang lakad ko papasok ng bar. I didn’t bother to look behind me kung nakasunod ba siya o ano. I just want to get my purse and leave. Nang makarating ako sa table namin, napansin ko na wala na si Dean doon. While Adrian and Rico were laughing about something pero napahinto sila. Caleb, on the other hand, was talking to someone on his phone pero agad niyang ibinaba ang tawag. They were all looking behind me. I didn’t bother to explain to them kung anong mayroon o nangyari. Agad kong kinuha ang clutch bag sa tabi ni Caleb. “What the fuck is he doing here?” Sa akin siya nakatangin nang sabihin iyon. Nakakunot ang noo niya na para bang hindi niya maintindihan ang nakikita niya. “I can clearly hear you,” malamig na sagot ni Aril sa likod. Caleb snorted, pero hindi niya binati ang pins

Touch “Can you at least tell me what’s on your mind, love?” Bumaling ako sa kanya pero hindi ako sumagot. Nandito na kami ngayon sa parking lot ng condo ko. My parents had tried to convince us to stay together for the night. They thought that it would be a perfect chance to open up to each other, but I insisted that I had too much work left to do, kaya hindi na sila namilit. If only they knew. The whole ride had been filled with silence at ngayon lang siya nagsalita nang makarating kami. It seemed like I wasn’t the only one with a whirlwind of thoughts inside my head. He had said before that he was determined to go through with this wedding, but his troubled expression right now suggested otherwise. I let my eyes linger on him for a moment as my thoughts drifted. It pains me to think that all of this was once my dream. I used to dream of marrying him someday. At ngayong andito na kami, why does it feel like my heart is being torn into pieces? Seven years ago, I would have yearned