Kabanata 9

Touch

“Can you at least tell me what’s on your mind, love?”

Bumaling ako sa kanya pero hindi ako sumagot. Nandito na kami ngayon sa parking lot ng condo ko.

My parents had tried to convince us to stay together for the night. They thought that it would be a perfect chance to open up to each other, but I insisted that I had too much work left to do, kaya hindi na sila namilit. If only they knew.

The whole ride had been filled with silence at ngayon lang siya nagsalita nang makarating kami. It seemed like I wasn’t the only one with a whirlwind of thoughts inside my head. He had said before that he was determined to go through with this wedding, but his troubled expression right now suggested otherwise.

I let my eyes linger on him for a moment as my thoughts drifted. It pains me to think that all of this was once my dream. I used to dream of marrying him someday. At ngayong andito na kami, why does it feel like my heart is being torn into pieces?

Seven years ago, I would have yearned