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Limang wedding gown na ang nasusukat ko ngunit wala pa rin akong mapili. Its not because I didn’t like the designs recommended. Actually, ang iba nga ay nag surpass pa sa expectation ko. Hindi ako makapili all because of the fact that I couldn’t stop my mind from replaying what happened inside the fitting room. Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala.

Did I just let him touch me? Shit!

But it’s okay, right? After all, we’re going to get married. Wala namang masama roon. Normal lang naman ang physical contact sa mga mag-asawa, right? It just felt awkward because of course, we had a past. Kaya gano’n. But technically, we’re not doing something wrong, right?

Yes, it’s okay… it’s fine… pero bakit hindi ko makumbinsi nang tuluyan ang sarili ko? I felt like a teenager with a raging hormones caught doing something very inappropriate.

Wala na rito si Aril because he said that he had to step out for an emergency. Hindi ko naman alam kung anong klaseng emergency iyong tinutukoy niya dahil linggo n