BEAT UP

SOLLAIRE

I remember when I was a child when my dad used to beat me up from not following his orders. Sundalo kasi noon ang daddy kaya pati sa bahay ay dala dala niya ang ganoong ugali.

Mataas ang rango niya sa serbisyo kaya hindi na ako nagtatangka pa na magsumbong. I tried once pero naalala ko lang na tinawanan lang ako ng mga kaibigan ni daddy.

They even said to him that he is doing a good job, and that his way is probably the most effective way of disciplining a child.

Oo, lumaki naman ako na may disiplina. Hindi nga lang disiplinang nag bunga mula sa pagmamahal kung hindi disiplinang nag bunga mula sa takot.

Lumaki ako na may disiplina pero kasama ko ring lumaki ang trauma na inabot ko sa aking mga magulang. My mom let my dad walk all over. I never experienced mom getting in between us or telling dad to stop.

The only one who did the hero job of defending me was my lola, ang mama ni daddy. But when she passed away, no one was there for me.

Kaya nga ganoon na lamang a