Chapter 32 Hotseat

"Ms. Katie, what can you say about the rumors about you, Enrique, and Alexandria? It says there that you are the real girlfriend of Mr. Salazar."

I almost froze when the media started asking me, where did they get those again? I and Enrique are not hanging out together in one place anymore, how come?

Hotseat. Again.

"Where did you get all of this news?" I asked back, thinking if I will answer them the right answer.

"One person from our team have recorded you, you actually say there..." she paused for a while before playing that damn recording.

"Why does it seems that I am the villain on Alex and Enrique's team up? They're not even together. Why me? I am not the person to blame here and if we're gonna blame a person, it's Alex. She ruined my relationship with Enrique for that fucking publicity!"

WHAT THE F*CK? IT'S REALLY MY VOICE! WHO THE HELL RECORDED THAT? I KNOW THAT IT WASN'T NICKO.

"Oum... I guess it's just edited... Because I don't know where I said that and I don't know who am I talking too." I lied.

"But Ms. Katie, we clearly heard your voice there. How could you explain it?" The female reported insisted.

"Oh, I'm sorry but I really don't know," I said and immediately get out the table, Sir Emmanuel gave me a signal to get out the stage, I ran into the backstage.

"Sir." I nervously said when I looked at him.

"You're hurt."

My body froze when I heard my manager. It's a statement, not a question. All this time, I thought no one understands the pain inside me, I misinterpreted my manager before, yet he cared.

"I want to get out of here, Sir." I pleaded.

"Okay, let's go," he held my hand and brought me to our service van.

"How I want to join you but I can't. Jane is also there, she needs me too," he said so I responded it through a nod before he gets back to the lobby.

"Here, drink this," Ms. Cindy gave me a bottled water, calming me again.

"I know what happened there, it's so stressful being in the showbiz industry, right? So what do you want to do? Let's have this day to unwind? Do you want?" She offered.

"I just wanna have some fries, donuts, and pancakes, Ma'am. And stay there at the condo." I said.

"Do the condo giving you a comfortable feeling?" She asked.

"Yes, it's really comfortable there and I will get my Kiko from the vet's home," I guess this is the time for me to get Kiko from them. The competition are not that hard anymore, I am also one of the Semi-Finalists now.

"I'm joining you," Ms. Cindy insisted.

"No need, Gabby and Yanna are coming over, you just need to bring me on the vet's home and then you can leave, I can travel alone from there up until to my condo," I said.

"No! You are not commuting! I don't know what Emmanuel can do to me if I let you commute. I will wait for you here in the van as you get Kiko, and I will bring you to your condo! Is that clear?!"

Disgusting! I hope I can do my alone time today but no, I have a guard! My handler is the guard!

"Okaaaayy!" I rolled my eyes and immediately get a pillow and scrolled on my phone.

nicnicb: hey, are you okay? you walked out on the press conference earlier.

ktmgnrmr: I'm okay now, thanks to my manager who get me away from the press. Thanks for your message :)

After we get Kiko from the vet's home we got into my condo and from there, Ms. Cindy left me already. She just did her job, to escort their artists.

"Kiko, did you miss me? I am sorry for not getting you from them, I just got busy in the competition. Mommy is here already," I showered him kisses but he's no response at all.

"Baby, Mommy is here already. You mad at Mommy?" I asked like I was waiting for his answer, but then he barked when he heard a door bell.

"Wait a minute, Kiko," I said and look at the small monitor, Gabby and Yanna are here.

"Gab! Yanna!" I welcomed them and Kiko immediately ran at Yanna.

"Oh hello there, little one. Missed me so much?" She asked Kiko and my dog gave her a puppy eyes.

"You are clingy to Yanna, while on me, you just ignoring me." I complained.

"Katie, give your puppy some time. He's still recovering, he was in pain that time but you aren't there for him." Yanna said.

"But, Yanna—." I stopped when Yanna raised her left hand.

"No more buts, Katie." She said.

"Hey, hey, hey, the atmosphere is so hot! Could you two calm down? You were fighting because of Kiko. You know what? Kiko, play with the toys that I brought for you. I am just gonna talk with this two ladies here," Gabby said and then Kiko immediately ran at the plastic bag that Gab is referring too.

"Why are you fighting?" She asked.

"We are not fighting Gabrielle, we are just talking about Kiko's behavior today. He's avoiding his Mommy Katie, while being so clingy at me. Katie thought that it was weird but it's not. Kiko is avoiding her because she aren't there when Kiko is in pain, she's in your training."

"Yanna, I hope you understand that me and Katie needs to train, you know this because you are also a judge. So now, could you two not fight with each other? Don't be too immature." Gabrielle said.

"Okay, peace Katie." She gave her hands to me to shake our hands.

"Okay, peace." I responded.

"So guys, what are the activity for today?" Gabrielle asked.

"Oh I don't know, because earlier I just wanna stay here in the condo and eat fries." I said.

"Oh by the way, Katie. We heard what happened earlier. I am so sorry if I wasn't there, sorry... I didn't come because only Semi-Finalists are allowed, I wasn't choosed, my journey from the competition has been ended." She hugged me.

"It's okay, Gabrielle. I'm okay now, I'm totally fine, Sir Emmanuel is there for me." I said and smiled.

"You are okay physically, but how about your mental health? Is it still okay? You've in so much pain a month ago, and probably until now," Yanna said and sat next to me, she's checking on me.

"HEY! WHAT'S THIS?!" She raised her voice when she saw my wrists.

"Oh, it's nothing." I forced a smile.

"NO, KATIE! What are you doing to yourself? YOY ARE CUTTING YOUR WRISTS!" she almost cried when she saw the cuts.

"Yanna, I already said that it's nothing. Don't mind me, I'm okay."

I always say that it's okay, but in reality, it's not. I am not okay ever since Enrique and I broke up. Enrique is my best friend, he's the man who's with me since I was 10 years old. We know each other well, but sadly, the situation take him away from me.

"Katie, why don't you admit that you aren't okay? It's okay to talk to a psychiatrist, talking to them doesn't mean that you are baliw. Psychiatrist are going to be a big help. Please, Katie."

And from there, I just found my self crying.