CHAPTER 39
SANTIAGO."Glenn!"I called out as I stormed into the room, the room was filled with silence and I could feel it radiate in every bit of its crook.Diverse thoughts crept through my mind at that moment, and I could feel my heart confiscated by how dark the atmosphere was.Where was she?It was one question my mind was finding difficult to answer at the moment, right there in the middle of the room I stood there confused.The events of the past one hour filled my mind vividly as it was quite picturesque."Glenn?" I called out when I thought I heard the sound of the door.The wind moved swiftly as I made my way up the stairs, taking in every bit of the view that was screaming at the fact that she wasn't by anyway around—Sighing to myself, or perhaps too scared to find out the truth I moved quite slowly.My phone buzzed and I turned the caller ID to see that it was the same person that had orchestrated this in the first place."Glenn?" I called this time my voice was filled with uncertainty, ahead of me was a creak from the door every now and then.My footsteps creaked against the floor as I moved more calmly—cautiously aware that anything could happen any moment.Flipping the dark hallway lights on, I walked closer to the door of my room that had been the cause of the unrest I had as I tried to remember if it had slipped in my mind to lock the door before leaving that morning.Soon I covered the rest of the steps to my room and looked around, there looked to be nothing wrong except perhaps the hint of her perfume."She was here." I muttered to myself as I made my way out after shutting the door .I walked to the study, where she stayed at times, as I stood in front of the doors. I could feel the emptiness behind its wooden frame already.I tried the doorknob and saw it wasunlocked and pushed my way in gently,as my eyes adjusted to the dim room that filled the room.Goosebumps ran up my arms at that moment, it was becoming reality I was starting to feel silly that I had thought she would come home after the manner she had left the facility.Several thoughts filled my mind,however. nothing to hint at where she was at that moment, as I took a step back.It turned out there was one space left, perhaps the last and the most important.Slowly, it was drawn on me that she was perhaps gone but still my mind was refusing to accept that brute fact, my mind was scared to search in that last place —Her room.Left with no choice I made my way in her room, the air was filled with every squeak made .The sound of my footsteps seemed to be the only things that filled the air at that moment and somehow its uneasiness settled under my skin leaving every part it touched cold.Sensing the unease, I took a deep breath to push the odd sensation away as I stood by her door. Knocking with an unnatural calmness.After waiting a while, I let myself in like I had done to the other room, and searched every part of it. The balcony. The bathroom and in what apparently was heartbreaking her wardrobe.All empty.I was torn by the fear, some part of me felt betrayed even as I felt a painful tightened in my throat leaving me speechless as it pierced me in the chest.I sank back to her bed, taking in what was left of her scent.I tried to play the thoughts at the back of my mind, the reality that she was left, the fact that she disappeared from my life the same way she came.I ran my hands through my hair and eyed the vase by her bed rest before smashing it against the wall from across the room.Her clothes as well as her bag were all gone,she left nothing behind that would have given me the hope she would come back.Slowly, my mind processed the fact that she was gone—gone from my life, perhaps disappeared the same way she came.I inhaled deeply and made my way down the steps while trying to make a call to the closest train station.I knew the man that headed the place and granting me the request of delaying her wouldn't be too hard, that being the fact that she had not gone far.My finger's in a way trembled as I held on to the phone, the ringing sounded faraway, immersing itself Into the heavy pumping of my blood as it flowed through my bloodstream.“This is M&T ” The receptionist's tone crept through the line. I rolled my eyes . "Get me across to your boss..I rasped.“He is in a meeting now, can you drop your message? "I groaned. " How soon would the meeting end?" I gritted my teeth before adding, "I really need to Speak to him."A quiet moment passed." Let's say one hour. "I fisted into the table, and tried to muffle the pain."I would be there in one hour, tell him I'd be on my way.""Yes, I would. Your name—"I hung up and tried all I could to muffle the pain I was feeling, my knuckles still hurt from the time before but with the way my heart was raging I needed to do something —hit something.Still angry I ran my hands over her table and swept all the content off it before pushing the entire thing over.Glass shattered as it hit the hardwood still it did nothing to stop the bitterness that bit into my chest even as I ran my hands through my hair till I was overwhelmed by a calm that swept over me."Where are you Glenn?" I muttered to myself.CHAPTER 40GLENNThe door closed and a man walked in, he had the color of his hair —Santiago.For a long moment, I watched the couples as they walked past where I was holding hands, deep in my heart I felt that thud birthed by the loneliness I was succumbing to on a daily basis.Closing my eyes I sighed deeply, it had been one month since I left the city and While I had thought that it would help me get over whatever feeling I had for him, it made it worse.It seemed to me as though I had gone against the will of the universe and all it was doing was making sure I faced a hell of a time for my mistake .I still thought about him, the best times we had. The worst. The—"Can you make it snappy?"I drifted back to reality, apologizing to the woman right in front of where I was.Recently, I just got the job as a storekeeper to keep the bills running, most times I had thought about going back home but at the moment, home seemed like something that was nonexistent.Where would I call home a
ÇHAPTER 41SANTIAGOFunny how one month could seem like eternity. One month had passed since she left and her disappearance left a blank space in my soul that couldn't be filled up.While I tried every bit of my best not to think about her, the very thought of this woman filled my mind day and night not departing.Glenn took a lot with her when she had left, while my money had been the most minimal, she went away with my Sanity as well.There was hardly a way I could think without having her in my every thought, despite this time all I wanted to do was feel her presence all around me one more time.I gasped as I woke up suddenly, I took in air in quick succession as I turned off the alarm.To think that my dreams weren't free from her torment?I stood there awakened, I could feel my soul overwhelmed with both anxiety and animosity as I dragged my feet to the bathroom.Turning on the faucet warm, I stood underneath in silence as the warm water drizzled down, sluicing my skin as though
CHAPTER 42GLENNI turned to the direction of the door as I could feel my heart thudding heavily in my chest—Something didn't feel right, the scent, the atmosphere, all of it. I swallowed the heavy lump that was forming in my throat.As I stood there with my bag hanging from my shoulder, soon a shadow emerged at the doorway and the doorbell jingled.A strange feeling filled my soul and instinctively I turned to the direction of the door.Anxiety zipped through me, at that moment it looked like I was in a kind of dream and must definitely be having an illusion.Blinking my eyes, I was staring right at him as he stood there at the door, flesh and blood, looking around and lifting a pack off the shelf."Fuck."I ducked behind the counter soon as his gaze was directed toward where I was. My heart was beating heavily as I rested my back against the wooden frames.My colleague looked shocked and perplexed—What was he doing here ?What were the odds?Different thoughts fleeted through my
CHAPTER 43SANTIAGO.Was it just my mind playing tricks?For just a minute while standing at the doorway I could have sworn that she was standing right there.At the moment, I was walking back to the motel with two bags dangling, all I could think about was her ."Right in time." Martha muttered soon as I walked in .I was a bit startled. How in the hell did she get in?"What are—""Get dressed, I just got a call we would be meeting with the Investor's in..." She glanced down at her watch. " One hour. "" How did you get into my room? " I questioned.A smile formed on her face as she held her fingers to her lips. "Not saying a word." She walks out gingerly.She stops at the door. " One hour."As the door closes, I sighed deeply to myself . It was one thing dealing with her and with the fact that she was sneaking into my room now—"How did she get into my room?" I thought.I groaned rather loudly as I dropped the bags.I walked briskly and took my shirt off rather than looking around
CHAPTER 44SANTIAGO.Ever felt like doing something bad yet having that feeling it was the right thing to do, at this moment I felt exactly that way.From the hallway, soon as the lift stopped I couldn't keep my lips from her as I kissed her recklessly.I felt like a hypocrite, one minute I was preaching against why being with her was unethical but the next moment it was giving in to my lust, my lips were no stranger to her lips seeing that we once had a fling.Yet at this moment, there looked to be a whole different energy intertwined into us kissing. It came with twice the fire but without passion.Martha was standing right there but faraway, looking at her I couldn't see her face but instead a certain woman that appeared in my mind as the sole purpose of my anger —Glenn."What did you say?" Glenn moaned.It was only then I realized that I must have spoken loudly.I didn't give her answers to her questions instead kissed her again, I lifted her clearly off the ground as the door op
CHAPTER 45GLENNI gasped for air as I sat up suddenly at the edge of the bed, as I tried to catch my breath I thought again about the nightmare I just had.Feeling a crack in my neck, I stretched myself and pulled myself away from the bed walking toward the window.I swallowed, and couldn’t think of one thing to say about the moment. I was still perplexed about the whole incident with every bit of the pictures locked into one part of my brain.It was still early but there was so much inconclusive feeling rattling through my skin.The early morning sunlight creeped Into the room in rays—For one month my dreams had been freed from the thought of Santiago and today… He barely showed up today and I was seeing him in my dreams again.My stomach dipped and I closed my eyes to shut out the feeling that appeared to consume every bit of my conscience.I should feel bad for leaving him right?To think that I did all of this to get myself out of the wallowing darkness that he had wanted to c
CHAPTER 46SANTIAGOEver had that feeling that you've made the biggest mistake anyone could?At this moment, that was exactly how I felt. Immediately my eyelids fluttered and opened into the still room. As soon as I listened to the faint heartbeats from her chest I was consumed by absolute regret.To start, I tried remembering how I had gotten myself into this state—All I could remember was being pissed at Glenn and the next minute we were kissing.I groaned in annoyance, she was cuddled up against me and I could feel the warmth from her skin as it emitted through the room.Martha tossed and turned,she did this with her arms snuggling me closer. All that filled my body was that heavy tension and the quiet rustle of fabric as she moved again filled the room.As she did, the gesture bared more of her tan, smooth thighs, sending a wave of pulse through my body as I could feel my dick twitch."What did you do to yourself, Santi?" I ran my hands through my ruffled hair.A feeling of a
CHAPTER 47GLENNThey say love is a bitch when chained to a tormentor, too bad that tormentor was a man who I didn't even know cared about me or not.What should I call this, a game?I walked with Ann after work that day, all that filled my mind was every bit of the words she said and how she was glamoring that I'd give him another chance or at least listen to what he had to say."Do you think this is a good idea?" I asked Ann who was sitting close to where I was. "We can always turn back and leave.""Without seeing him?" She asked. "Are you sure —"" I don't think I am ready to do all of this. " I shut my eyes for a minute without saying another word."It is your call to make." She muttered in a calm tone and as she did I could feel it all over again that remorse, the pain that came when we realized we made a mistake.What is it about us women? We tend to feel regret for things we shouldn't."Fuck it, I am done let us leave." I said in a low tone.I had to tell myself that all thi