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SANTIAGOFunny how one month could seem like eternity. One month had passed since she left and her disappearance left a blank space in my soul that couldn't be filled up.While I tried every bit of my best not to think about her, the very thought of this woman filled my mind day and night not departing.Glenn took a lot with her when she had left, while my money had been the most minimal, she went away with my Sanity as well.There was hardly a way I could think without having her in my every thought, despite this time all I wanted to do was feel her presence all around me one more time.I gasped as I woke up suddenly, I took in air in quick succession as I turned off the alarm.To think that my dreams weren't free from her torment?I stood there awakened, I could feel my soul overwhelmed with both anxiety and animosity as I dragged my feet to the bathroom.Turning on the faucet warm, I stood underneath in silence as the warm water drizzled down, sluicing my skin as though it would cure me of this madness that filled my mind at the moment.As I got into a robe and walked out, my mind was filled with the question, where in hell was Glenn.There was a heavy weight in my chest, that pulled right hard at it unpleasantly.Just as I was walking out of the bathroom, my phone buzzed .My heart skipped like it had for the past month. In a rather absurd way, my heart had been filled with the expectation that she would pick her phone and call me someday—I deserved that quite alright, I deserved to know where she was.It turned out it was my secretary calling to remind me about my short trip and I groaned heavily at that .I held on to the phone for a minute going through the pictures we had the last time we had out.A smile crawled up on my face as I did, but it was quick to dissolve into a restless daze that filled up my soul with so much darkness.For a minute, the thought that she could be with another crept through my mind with so much negativity, the mere thought that it could be true made me upset, as I shut my eyes hoping that all the feeling would just disappear as mist with a deep breath.When I opened them, the feeling was still there. That anger, uncertainty that had been in my soul filled it way in so much that I could feel it deep in my skin.The trust was that I wanted this woman like I hadn’t even known you could want anyone, the mere thought of the past we shared created a feeling in my heart as memories I relived the night fleeted through: The Long drive home that evening, opening the door and dashing around, the strange feeling that ran in my mind Leaving so much fear behind enough that I was scared.Angry about the entire situation, I smashed my fist into the mirror.*****Three hours later, I made my way out. Wrapped around my knuckles was a bandage from my earlier cut.I made a stop at the facility to pick up Martha and gather the rest of the documents that would be used on the trip.Soon as I walked in , my face met with Martha —Anyone that Knew her could tell what she was wearing at that moment most especially with the fact we are traveling together.I glanced at her face and then paused, to take in the beauty, from her hair to her piercing eyes that stared at me with so much emotions as though staring into my soul and leaving me spellbound."Hi—""Hi." She interrupts."I should have come a little earlier but then I woke up late, sorry for the delay. ""No problem, can we get going. "She smiled shyly. Knowing I was watching her.His eyes were filled with a certain female magnetism that it held me while I stood.I wouldn't deny the fact that she was and perhaps I just needed to do my best and get to know her better . Hopefully, I would be able to transfer my attraction from Glenn to her.She looked at me in the sweetest of ways. "Can we get going?" She asked."Sure, we can." I muttered as I led her out.Aside from being so quick, the ride down time was quite absurd,the car was filled with silence as we drove past trees pulling up at a motel.I could feel the heaviness from my heart even as we alighted and we walked out, in a way she took in the whole view of the surrounding, enjoying what it feels like to inhale the fresh non toxified air as she inhaled each crisp air with a smile on her face.I looked around as well, as we both walked to the counter taking the room we booked."I am so certain I booked two room's." I was pissed as I explained to the girl at the counter looking confused."We have just one room left , it must had been a honest error "I groaned loudly. "Why don't we just share a room?" Martha suggested."Well I don't want to inconvenience you.""That is nonsense, let us focus on other things we take just one room."Soon, we were pulling out bags along as we made our way down the hall to our room.I could see the smile on her face that refused to depart even after walking in, I too was only then it to me that we'd be together for Three days but we had already come this far, and going back wasn't the option.Her heels clack against the wooden floor as she walked in behind me, slowly making her way to the room."I need to get soda ." I muttered to her."You can get one for me too." She called after me.I made my way down excited that she didn't suggest she'd come with me, it gave me more leverage to think about things."Where can I get soda?" I asked after checking the refrigerator at the counter."There is a hall just a stone throw from here." The receptionist answered.Soon, I was at the door of the mall turning the handle of it's door slowlyCHAPTER 42GLENNI turned to the direction of the door as I could feel my heart thudding heavily in my chest—Something didn't feel right, the scent, the atmosphere, all of it. I swallowed the heavy lump that was forming in my throat.As I stood there with my bag hanging from my shoulder, soon a shadow emerged at the doorway and the doorbell jingled.A strange feeling filled my soul and instinctively I turned to the direction of the door.Anxiety zipped through me, at that moment it looked like I was in a kind of dream and must definitely be having an illusion.Blinking my eyes, I was staring right at him as he stood there at the door, flesh and blood, looking around and lifting a pack off the shelf."Fuck."I ducked behind the counter soon as his gaze was directed toward where I was. My heart was beating heavily as I rested my back against the wooden frames.My colleague looked shocked and perplexed—What was he doing here ?What were the odds?Different thoughts fleeted through my
CHAPTER 43SANTIAGO.Was it just my mind playing tricks?For just a minute while standing at the doorway I could have sworn that she was standing right there.At the moment, I was walking back to the motel with two bags dangling, all I could think about was her ."Right in time." Martha muttered soon as I walked in .I was a bit startled. How in the hell did she get in?"What are—""Get dressed, I just got a call we would be meeting with the Investor's in..." She glanced down at her watch. " One hour. "" How did you get into my room? " I questioned.A smile formed on her face as she held her fingers to her lips. "Not saying a word." She walks out gingerly.She stops at the door. " One hour."As the door closes, I sighed deeply to myself . It was one thing dealing with her and with the fact that she was sneaking into my room now—"How did she get into my room?" I thought.I groaned rather loudly as I dropped the bags.I walked briskly and took my shirt off rather than looking around
CHAPTER 44SANTIAGO.Ever felt like doing something bad yet having that feeling it was the right thing to do, at this moment I felt exactly that way.From the hallway, soon as the lift stopped I couldn't keep my lips from her as I kissed her recklessly.I felt like a hypocrite, one minute I was preaching against why being with her was unethical but the next moment it was giving in to my lust, my lips were no stranger to her lips seeing that we once had a fling.Yet at this moment, there looked to be a whole different energy intertwined into us kissing. It came with twice the fire but without passion.Martha was standing right there but faraway, looking at her I couldn't see her face but instead a certain woman that appeared in my mind as the sole purpose of my anger —Glenn."What did you say?" Glenn moaned.It was only then I realized that I must have spoken loudly.I didn't give her answers to her questions instead kissed her again, I lifted her clearly off the ground as the door op
CHAPTER 45GLENNI gasped for air as I sat up suddenly at the edge of the bed, as I tried to catch my breath I thought again about the nightmare I just had.Feeling a crack in my neck, I stretched myself and pulled myself away from the bed walking toward the window.I swallowed, and couldn’t think of one thing to say about the moment. I was still perplexed about the whole incident with every bit of the pictures locked into one part of my brain.It was still early but there was so much inconclusive feeling rattling through my skin.The early morning sunlight creeped Into the room in rays—For one month my dreams had been freed from the thought of Santiago and today… He barely showed up today and I was seeing him in my dreams again.My stomach dipped and I closed my eyes to shut out the feeling that appeared to consume every bit of my conscience.I should feel bad for leaving him right?To think that I did all of this to get myself out of the wallowing darkness that he had wanted to c
CHAPTER 46SANTIAGOEver had that feeling that you've made the biggest mistake anyone could?At this moment, that was exactly how I felt. Immediately my eyelids fluttered and opened into the still room. As soon as I listened to the faint heartbeats from her chest I was consumed by absolute regret.To start, I tried remembering how I had gotten myself into this state—All I could remember was being pissed at Glenn and the next minute we were kissing.I groaned in annoyance, she was cuddled up against me and I could feel the warmth from her skin as it emitted through the room.Martha tossed and turned,she did this with her arms snuggling me closer. All that filled my body was that heavy tension and the quiet rustle of fabric as she moved again filled the room.As she did, the gesture bared more of her tan, smooth thighs, sending a wave of pulse through my body as I could feel my dick twitch."What did you do to yourself, Santi?" I ran my hands through my ruffled hair.A feeling of a
CHAPTER 47GLENNThey say love is a bitch when chained to a tormentor, too bad that tormentor was a man who I didn't even know cared about me or not.What should I call this, a game?I walked with Ann after work that day, all that filled my mind was every bit of the words she said and how she was glamoring that I'd give him another chance or at least listen to what he had to say."Do you think this is a good idea?" I asked Ann who was sitting close to where I was. "We can always turn back and leave.""Without seeing him?" She asked. "Are you sure —"" I don't think I am ready to do all of this. " I shut my eyes for a minute without saying another word."It is your call to make." She muttered in a calm tone and as she did I could feel it all over again that remorse, the pain that came when we realized we made a mistake.What is it about us women? We tend to feel regret for things we shouldn't."Fuck it, I am done let us leave." I said in a low tone.I had to tell myself that all thi
CHAPTER 48GLENNEarly sunrise glowed down from the morning sky as I made my way back, the night had been total madness. I was still filled with jealousy and could feel the leftover adrenaline burning off in my soul.There are three sides to a story: Your side, the side you never know about and the last of it was history.I was relying on the last at this moment, history — As it is, I was doomed to resume the same mistakes by trusting that somehow the past would heal itself over and over without truly learning from it.The truth was when it came to the reality of what I felt, it was like a large mark had been left and I had to fill the space it left behind.What made it remarkable was I was given the chance to learn from history again and again, yet I was doomed as I kept repeating it.If there was anyone I detested for no reason it was definitely Santiago, I hated the fact he was quick to get over the thought of me, did I mean nothing to him, did he see me as a vagabond?He had the
CHAPTER 49SANTIAGOMy jaw ticked in thought, deep inside of my soul a dark fear inhabiting my soul resided, it left behind a feeling that sent waves of tension round my entire body, I could feel the tension in my shoulders as it whispered with certainty the state of my mind.It wasn't just my mind playing tricks, I had to tell myself that, there was something else in the wood right there within the space I was, the last thing on earth I wanted to happen was being mauled by a wild beast, whatever it was.Maybe I was underestimating that the fact that the wood had that bit of aura about it that came with serenity, it could also be toxic —When my gaze came to where I heard the twigs breaking, it stood there still for a while to be certain all of this was not in head.The feeling had a bit of to it, almost as though I've gotten similar experiences and was reliving the moment over and over again.Sensing that all was safe at least again for that moment, I gave one nod of my head."P