Ninety seven

CHAPTER 97

GLENN

All it took was that taste of his words and yet again I would be swayed by it, he was good when he used these words… He was so good with it that most times I began to doubt my own sanity as well.

What made it more difficult was the fact that I didn't want all of this to happen, I didn't want to be swayed by his words so I had picked a harder exterior.

All my plan had been that it would make it easier for me to deal with, it was the same reason I had opted for that hard exterior knowing fully well that it would give me leverage.

I knew deep down that having him guessing would keep him off balance and he wouldn't use his biggest weapon… his words.

It didn't turn out as I had expected, while I had thought that my words might give him a totally different feeling, it made him provoked.

I was here hoping that he kissed me after cupping my face, but he left instead and now I was dying for another, I was going insane as all I wanted to —

The door slammed before I could even think and decipher what I wanted. It was that last thing that I had expected him to do, deep down in my mind I had hoped that he would at least plead with me even more but he seemed more annoyed than I had expected and all I did was call Martha name.

As I listened to Car doors slammed shut, then the sound of tires moved down the drive. I released a ragged breath… I knew it was him leaving.

I closed my eyes for a minute and ran through the moment again, wondering if I had pushed him hard, the Consciousness of that fact loomed in the dark oblivious part of my heart as I shut them against every other emotion that was flowing through me at that moment.

I knew one thing was certain if I wanted to keep all this feeling at the back of my mind,but I feared at the same time that opening them might expose my fear's.

And so I closed them tightly at the sight of

him standing there again, at the back of my mind I could see him leaving all over again …

This time the thought raged in my heart, My heart rate kicked into overdrive, fear grabbing everything that was left out of my thought.

When I finally exposed any emotions it was that same fear —

Immediately without being told I knew I needed Anna expertise, if there was anyone that could help me out of this madness it was definitely her.

Since the day I got the text that I had assumed was from Martha I had been getting this feeling at the back of my head that I was being followed, I didn't know where it came from but it was there unrelentingly.

I looked back and saw no one and continued making heavy strides toward the main street, as I turned it gave me the leverage to run .

While other days the feeling of being followed was just at the back of my mind today felt different, it felt so surreal.

I got a cab going to her end of town as soon as I was hitting the road.

I let out heavy gasps as I looked back to see if anyone was there finally but just as I had thought no one.

At this point, I was starting to think that perhaps all of this was somewhere at the back of my mind.

I couldn't help it, it just seemed like that was the case… I was insane and all of this happening was just a space at the back of my mind .

At the moment, I concentrated my mind on the most thriving issue which was settling things with him again.

I didn't wait to settle before telling Ann everything that had happened, immediately I did. She looked at me like I had done the craziest thing anyone could have ever done and perhaps I did.

"You are a crazy girl, wait I don't understand. He asked you to come with him and you immediately turned down his offer?"

If there were any consolation it was the fact that she looked shocked and that made the situation even more worse at the back of my head.

There was that little part of my mind that wanted all of this to be settled but that was just like an echo being drowned by the sound of a storm.

It was hard to explain but that was the case, I answered Yes to her initial question and as if that was not enough she looked at me like I had gone crazy

"Why would you do that, do you know how big a chance that is? "

" Well, he shouldn't have brought Martha into our talk, it made me kinda … " I was unable to complete the statement as it felt he was right afterall.

" Jealous? " As if she could read my mind she said the exact words that had made me crazy.

This time I was not, all I did was shut down every other thought from the back of my head as I was driven to almost insanity.

"Well you need to call him, think about it what if he offers this to Martha?"

I knew immediately that she was right, with the way he had left and the fact that he had called his name made it look as though he would willingly do that.

I felt troubled that I would be responsible for pushing him to her hands, and I would be doing that so easily.

The thought of that made me crazy, I wanted to rip it about from my mind before it does more harm to me than good.

"What do you suggest I do?"

She looked at me like I was the most crazy person in the room and perhaps I was, in a sort of way at least.

She picks her phone and hands it to me." Call him. "

Again I thought about the situation with a rasped breath. I didn’t know what I expected but he was all that was in my mind after losing my virginity to him and my Sanity as well.

He was my mate, bonded to me by his soul even if he wasn't aware of it , but one thing about souls was the fact that they die too…it was funny how but the fact that souls die too and wither away made me want to make that one call.

Was this insanity everyone felt, when they say they were in love …Was anything else involved?

At the next moment I could sense as my heart began to throb, but even with the pain, I didn't want it to end … I wanted it to remain in every bit of my soul and burn till it was a part of me.

It was exactly what I wanted, exactly how I wanted things to be. I ran my fingers through the but of the furniture I was resting on.

As I did the pace of my heart quickens, my rising concern was owed to the fact I hadn't even think this through at all and at the moment I left a kind of emptiness in my stomach.that roiled. My blood pressure divided so low it left my head spinning as I felt almost dizzy …so dizzy that I braced my hands on the wooden table and breathed deeply to sway the darkness rising, inside of me.

"Are you fine?" Anna asked again.

"Just feel a little bit dizzy."

As I spoke those words a cool numbness spread from my brain to my legs as they felt wonky, it felt as though my legs were growing numb, so I sat down just before my legs gave way.

She lounged on a the seat close to me right

my heart sank when I saw, she looked at me calmly for a minute and I returned the food gesture as I could sense the feeling that arose from the deepest part of me. She could tell that all was not well, but when it came to accepting help; I was just never designed to admit it. I shared the stubborn trait, and it only made me more the person I was.

With a shaky inhale, she grasped at the edge of the table just so she could look into my eyes as if trying to tell if there was a difference as silence filled the room. It all happened so fast and I didn't realize until my vision began to blur and anxiety flared in my veins.

I fainted …

***

Was she sympathetic to my plight?

She was the first person I saw when I opened my eyes and the fact that she was so close at that spoke volumes. She edged closer to me and as she did my hands grew clammy.

She lowered to her knees in front of me to get a better look of my face. Something sharp was wedged between my soul as her stare followed me, but she didn't say a word; she just withdrew herself and slowly moved inside.

As she did, I didn’t do anything but view her with steely, dark eyes. Nervously, I stayed a few feet away, at first wondering what just happened.

I knew that I fainted but what I couldn't understand was the fact that she was looking at me in that sort of way.

The idea of that filled me in a kind of way that made me annoyed, I could not stop it the feeling was just there —

"You really need to check yourself." She says finally . " You might be pregnant."

"What?"

"I am not sure yet but that is the only thing I can conclude with at the moment and trust me I am not wrong about this things.*

The idea I was getting somewhere made my chest clench with anxiety, but the emotion faded as thoughts surfaced of how in the hell I was pregnant.

I wondered to myself on how anyone would believe that was genetically possible, it was impossible that I would be made pregnant by a human and as the thought filled my head or left me confused.

I know from experience that things like this happening left a feeling of shock but at the same time I could feel the anxiety as well as I was totally confused.

“It is best you call him now. "

"To tell him about your pregnancy?

"I am not pregnant." I rolled my eyes.

She raises her hand accepting defeat,

I swore, a kingly glint in her eyes said the exact opposite but at the moment I wasn't un for that.

I did the only thing that was sane at that moment. I called him.

"Hello…"