Chapter 1
Lucianna’s POV
It's impossible to contain the overwhelming joy I'm into right now. I feel like dancing though there is no music, I want to sing but I can't find the right song which left me hum and giggle every other second! If someone sees me like this, they'd think I lost my sanity.
And I feel like I will soon!
"Let's run, Ash!"
I was talking with my best girl over the phone, Ashira. It's been days since the mapping and I finally know where my mate is! He's from the Shadow pack!
Mapping is a pack tradition. Every pack in every region do it once a year for She-Wolves to locate where their mate resides.
The mate bond of females will be activated once at the age of eighteen. The Mapping is the guide for us to find our mates, then we will travel to that pack to attend the Mapping Ball.
The only party I ever dreamed to be in!
Ahhhh! Finally!
"I can't. I need to do some things."
I rolled my eyes. "Come on! I'll leave the pack tomorrow! Don't tell me we won't bond before we go? And! You haven't told me why you run off after the mapping! From which pack is your mate? You didn't say a thing!"
"I don't want to go out. Just come here if you want and I'll tell you."
I snorted. "Fine. I'll train for a bit then I'll stop by your house."
"Okay."
I hung up the call with a wrinkled nose. Ashira is no fun! Well, she's always like that since I met her. I'm the noisy type, the extrovert and she's the silent one.
Hmm, maybe that was the reason that I befriended her when I saw her at training. She's easy to be with, and she's okay with my noisiness.
I shrugged to myself.
I'm an orphan. My parents were killed in a war with the rogues when I was eight years old and the pack took care of my needs since then. I kept living alone without any guardian, but the pack constantly visits from time to time to check on me.
I went out with my training equipment. I'm one of the best fighters of the North Region, won various exhibitions with Prime pack and Trivian pack She-Wolf Fighters Game.
Ever since my parents died, I decided to make myself strong. To improve to protect me and to fight for my pack.
"Hey, Lucy."
I stopped and looked at who called my name. It was Gamma Sol, the Alpha's third-in-command.
"Goodmorning, Gamma." I bowed slightly, showing respect.
"So you found your mate? Is he from the North?" I nodded. "Which pack?"
I smiled sheepishly, excited and proud of the person I'm yet to know, but I'm sure is worthy of my praises.
"He's from Shadow pack." I grinned and Gamma Sol laughed at my reaction.
"I can tell you're happy." he laughed once more when I scratch the back of my head. "Well, I can see you're out here to train. Don't build some muscles or you'll scare your mate, okay?." he grinned.
"Oh, I won't! I'll give him the beauty he can't resist, Gamma."
We laughed before parting ways. Gamma Sol is always like that to me. He's old and will stoop down on his position as third-in-command when his son turned twenty-one, I became close with him because he was the one who visits me often when I was young and alone.
After my daily training, I went straight to Ashira's house and found her sulking in their living room. I can't sense anyone in the house so she's probably alone.
"Hey, where's your brother?"
Cruz is not her real brother. She's a lone wolf before Beta Eric found and keep her but they treated her like their own blood.
"I don't know. I woke up and everyone's not home."
"Hmmm." I slumped on their couch and looked at my phone. Ah. I can't stop looking at the time and date. "So! Where is your prince charming?"
I could tell that my eyes were sparkling as I wait for her response. I didn't have the chance to know the result of her mapping because she ran away, shifting in the air and showing off her white wolf.
Ah! I envy how beautiful her wolf is.
Mine is the same color as my hair. A shiny golden-brown wolf but taller than Ashira because of my long-legged gift. I got that from my height from my father. Oh, damn. I hope my mate is taller than me.
Well, like I could choose, right? Whatever he looks like, he'll still look perfect in my eyes once I met him. How I love how mate bond works!
"Prime pack," she said with a bored expression. Ugh! This girl is killing off my vibe of enthusiasm!
I decided to ignore her lack of interest in the mate bond and focused on the news I just heard.
"Wow! Ash! That's the strongest pack of the North!"
The continent was divided into four Regions. The East, West, South, and North. Each region has groups of the pack and our North holds five.
First is the Prime pack, the strongest. The Shadow pack comes second where my future baby daddy lives. Oh, yes! The third is the Trivian pack then my pack, Regal, comes fourth. The fifth and last on the list is the Ravenous pack.
They have strength in numbers and skills and that's how they rate which was the strongest. Same with the Alpha.
As of now, Alpha Aiden of the Prime pack is the strongest of the North. The Alpha's strength comes from the members of its pack which mean the larger they grow, the stronger the Alpha becomes.
"I'm not interested in these mate thing."
I rolled my eyes.
"Wait until you met your mate, I'll bet you'll fall on your knees." I stuck my tongue out and she just sighed. "When will you depart?"
"The day after tomorrow. You?"
"Tomorrow is when they scheduled me. Shadow pack is farther, huh?"
Ashira nodded. Oh, sweet Lord. My energy is reducing from Ashira's absentmindedly behavior. What's wrong with this girl?
I decided to shut my mouth. Maybe she's lonely that she'll leave the pack?
Hmm…
Just when I'm in deep thoughts, Cruz entered the front door, catching our attention.
"Where have you been?" Ash asked with a low voice.
"At the Hall. Ahhh! What a busy day." he slumped himself tiredly on the couch beside me. "Hey, Luce." he greeted but he's not looking my way, just closing his eyes.
"Hi. What's up at the Hall?"
He exhaled. "Well, the Alpha of Shadow pack was supposed to visit for a meeting but he canceled at the last minute."
"That's weird," Ashira commented. Oh, so she's here, huh? I thought she's still in her other owned world. "Dad mentioned that it was an important meeting."
"It is and he is weird. I heard Alpha Jacob was about to enter the border when he backed off."
"I don't think that's weird." I need to defend the pack where I'll soon belong! "Maybe they got something important to do."
Cruz shrugged. "Still. That's inappropriate."
I pouted. Why am I even defending that pack when I'm yet a member of it? Will I see my mate on the mapping ball?
What if he's out for a mission? Nooo! Then I needed to wait for another year to rejoin another mapping ball?!
Oh, fuck! What if he died on the mission?!
No!!!
"I need to go and pack."
"This early? You'll leave the next day, pack tomorrow and stay." Ashira insisted.
"I can't! I'm too excited!" I stoop up and stopped when Cruz laughed.
"You sure can't wait to meet your mate, Luce," he said.
I rolled my eyes at him.
"What I can't wait is to have my own family. Duh."
I walked out and shouted my goodbyes when I reached the door.
It was sad but it is true.
To have my children with a loving husband, to be able to feel living in what I could call my home.
I managed to live alone all these years but it does not mean I'm not longing for a family. And since I know it's impossible to bring back my parents' life, I started dreaming of building my own family to experience the warmth of what I seemed to forget.
That's what I'm after with this mate thing.
Oh, and the sex, of course.
Chapter 2Lucianna’s POV“Hi!” I greeted over a group of girls, female wolves like me. We just arrived at the Shadow pack and the van we ride to get here just dropped us in front of the pack guesthouse. And of course, I need some friends! Shadow pack will be my new home, it is better to know someone.The three of them looked at me without any sign of friendliness. They eyed me head to toe and I felt a cold feeling down my spine.I know that look, I’m familiar with it.They didn’t said a word or greet me back, instead they walked away. Okay, they don’t like me. I get it.The nerve!!! We came from the same pack, we are of the same age, I know one of them even! That’s Leslie, one of the Regal pack’s whores! How can they ignore me like that?! Argh!Okay, calm down, Lucianna. There are other girls who’s from the other pack. You will gain a friend.I tried trashing the negative vibes out of my system and looked around. It’s better to befriend strangers than from my former pack, as it seems.
Chapter 3Jacob’s POV“Oh, yes! Ohh!”I groaned, closing my eyes as I thrust in and out of Monica’s wetness. She is one of the she-wolf call-girls of my pack who became my prey tonight.Despite having sex right now, my mind can only think of my mate as if its the only thing I could place my mind into. I can’t forget her face. Her scent. Her smile. And all day, I had a boner from those simple thoughts. My mate…Imagining her face as I pleasure her, as she reach heaven for me. Her scent lingering everywhere while she’s inside my arms, her smile turning into a pleading expression, asking for more. Those thoughts fucked me up all day, leaving me distracted.Leaning in, I grabbed Monica’s blonde hair as I moved fast and deep inside her. My mate is driving me crazy. I’ve been having these sexual urges for weeks now, and I know I will find her this year.Upon seeing her, my wolf immediately stumbled, wiggling its tail from excitement and I’ve been fighting over him for control. And fuck, my
Chapter 4Lucianna’s POVThe night of the Mapping Ball has come! I had few hours left to prepare and I spent most of the day inside my appointed room. There’s nothing to do outside, anyway. My body is asking for some sweat and work out but I’m not sure if I can use the training centers at the pack right now, nor where it is located.Well, it is prohibited to cross those red borders so it's not like I can go anywhere. But damn, I wanted to lose some steam.I tried calling Ashira but she’s not picking up her phone. I already talked to Mommy Len so I’m embarrassed to contact her again. My contact sums up to them, I guess.Rummaging my small suitcase, I took the dress I will wear to the Ball later, flattening it to the bed. The guesthouse room contains essential tools like clothing iron and such so I started fixing my crumpled dress.I bought this at a thrift store back at my pack and it still looked good as new, as well as the pumps.Being an orphan and a pack fighter, it's hard to earn
Chapter 5Lucianna’s POVI watched as the other girls move in the middle of the hall, then one of the guys will move forward, almost like a wild animal, and starts to put their claim to their fated ones neck. The way the men growls the word ‘Mine’ made my knees tremble with excitement. I can’t wait to hear my mate say it!“The Shadow pack’s Alpha is a hottie! It’s too bad we didn’t get to see him!” said a girl who rode the van with me.What now? Are they gonna keep throwing blades at me? So what if the Alpha looks good? It’s not like they still can drool over him when they meet their own mate.Argh. They start to sound pathetic in my ears! It’s almost unbearable that I can’t stop frowning!“Oh, yes! I heard the girls from the front talked about how mighty he is!”“Second strongest Alpha of the North, I wonder how he looks like!”“If it ain’t because of that bitch who came last…”I decided to just hum and focus on what’s happening in front of us. These girls won’t stop blaming me for a
Chapter 6Lucianna’s POVI was trembling, not with fear, not with excitement, but something different. A feeling I never encountered before I met him, a feeling that is there when he looks at me like this.Disgust? No. He is not disgusted but there is a faint side of that emotion mixed with something else. I can’t put a word with it.“Cat got your tongue?” he smirked, crossing his arms in front of his chest and tilted his head a bit. “Go back. I don’t want to see you.” he said in a clenched jaw.“I-Is there something wrong with me?” I managed to ask, my voice is in its lowest. I think my head is clouded with his scent, and I know its the mate bond talking but I tried my best to not get swayed by the pull.Because I feel like jumping on him right now. And if the situation is not like this, I would’ve.The Alpha just kept on staring at me, making me uneasy but I deny to avoid our eye contact. Even though this is the hardest part I ever encounter with someone. Looking straight in the ey
Chapter 7Jacob’s POVFucking Hell!I don’t want her! I don’t want her!Stop rejecting my mate! You can’t! my wolf growled inside me.Fucking shut up! I growled back at him.I know that I will never escape this mate bond, this is my fate. But how can I? How can I fucking accept her if I can see how weak she is?That gray shadow that I’ve been seeing in my own, and what my mate possesses as well. Am I getting played by fate?Lucianna…She is amazing. A beauty beyond compare. Those big dolly eyes, sharp nose and plumped lips of her invites me, pulls me, seduces me. She don’t need any words, I would have grab her and take her the moment her eyes laid on mine.But I can’t.How can I?I am an Alpha of the second strongest pack of the North but my shadow shows a gray color. I am weak.We are not weak. My wolf says. He has been telling me the same words ever since I found out about my shadow eye ability.Tell that to me when you can explain why our shadow were gray. I hissed. My wolf never k
Chapter 8Jacob’s POVWhat the fuck am I doing?Save my Gamma the trouble, my ass!Your Beta got into your head. Ha! Thank him for me. My wolf laughed and I hated how he can see through my subconscious.He might be right but there is no way in hell that I will accept this. How can I stoop this low?“What? I’m not a flirt!” Lucianna burst and my jaw tightened together with my grip on the steering wheel.She is. She is! My head screamed.You sound to be persuading yourself hard there, my wolf laughed again. He sure is enjoying this!I growled at him in my head, but my tension made me snarled loudly and it reached my mate’s ears.Lucianna gasped at the back of the car and I froze. Did I scare her? Fuck!“D-Did you just…” her voice is low, shaky, and I don’t know why but panic is starting to build in my chest.What? Panic?No. No.I cleared my throat to swallow a huge lump I feel like stuck in it. Why would I care if I scared her or whatever? This shows just how weak she really is, right?
Chapter 9Lucianna’s POVThe sun is rising and I’m still in this corner of my room, sitting like a beaten pup, scared and trembling.I don’t know when my tears stopped falling down my cheeks. I didn’t even know that it will even stop, I thought it will go on until I make a river.What did just happen?It has been an hour since the pain stopped. He stopped. Jacob…How can he do this to me?I started sobbing again, hugging myself even tighter and yet it is not enough.My whole body is aching, but it can’t be compared when I’m still being struck by the pain as clips of my mate’s dirty work flashes on my mind.Jacob, my mate, the person I owe my life to even yet meeting him has cheated on me. How can he do that? We just met last night, and not even an hour passed and he gave me this pain…It hurts.Mate! I want mate! My wolf whined inside me.My wolf kept doing that since I can’t remember. While I’m suffering from the pain inflicted by Jacob’s infidelity, my wolf--who seem to not feel the
Chapter 73Lucianna’s POVI heard Jacob’s voice while Harley was talking. The Gamma reported that Roscoe came to visit and that we talked in private but he didn’t add things that will complicate a mind. Though I doubt Jacob will think odd of his brother’s visit, given the situation we are in.My breathing got heavy when the two nodded their goodbyes and Jacob looked my way. Exactly at me, in my eyes, as if he knew I’m standing there and watching them.My reflexes say I should hide, away from his soulless eyes but I can’t. I didn’t. Instead, I walked towards the front door where Jacob were also headed. Jacob stopped just outside the door, right in front of me and I stopped inside, a step away from him.We stood there, eyes locked with each other and I have no idea what’s working on his head. Jacob shows no expression, same thing he has been doing since what had happened. And I can’t read his thoughts, nor his feelings.Is he waiting? I think he’s waiting for me to speak, to tell him so
Chapter 72 Lucianna’s POV “I mean abortion, Lucianna. We have to kill the pup inside your womb in exchange of enough time.” I swear, all the blood running through my veins left. I froze, and I stopped breathing. Killing the pup… God, that sounds so wrong because it fucking is! “You’re proposing to kill my child, Roscoe.” I stated because he seems to forgot that fact. “Yes--” “My own child. Its your family, too!” “I know that, Lucianna! But do we have a choice? We’re already in this problem, and we got no other options to choose from.” he bowed his head and sighed before looking back at me. “Its either let Jacob die or kill the pup before it consume your mate.” I put my hands up to stop him, unable to can’t hear any more of this. Roscoe has a point and it is clear but I am not thinking of killing my own child. I’m hopeful,I’m still hoping for a miracle to save us all from the fate’s curse. But Roscoe is also right that we have no time. And I have no time to continue hoping. Bu
Chapter 71Jacob’s POV“And I think you’ve brought us trouble.” says the visitor.Even though I can’t see her face, I know she’s looking right at me. The emotion of fear comes to me very seldom and that’s when I have no knowledge of something. When there’s something I have no answer about, or I’m left with no resolve.But this woman, well I can’t say she’s human exactly. And I think I’m having that particular emotion right now.Fhoxia is her name, right? And this Fhoxia is not from the living, its dead. She got no presence, no scent, no shadow, nothing.All the inhibitions I had, all the doubts and mistrust was left with certainty. Lucianna and Roscoe are telling the truth and even if I believe them, this woman’s presence alone makes me believe.“He didn’t mean to.” Roscoe spoke, trying to cover up for me. Its not only I who recognize who Fhoxia was talking to.Fhoxia turned her head to Roscoe, ever slowly, the slowest motion I have ever see.“Doesn’t mean he was not to blame.” the fe
Chapter 70Ashira’s POV“Come again?” Roscoe tilted his head and his brow furrowed. “What did you say?” he asked Jacob again.I was fidgeting on my seat while watching the brothers fought glances with each other. Jacob bit his lip and looked away first. I can tell how guilty he is, Jacob never looked away first when it comes to Roscoe.“You-” Roscoe can’t finish his sentence. He backed away and sat on the chair with a thud.“I didn’t--”“She will get pregnant!” Roscoe cut Jacob’s words and he stood up as hastily as how he sat. Jacob let out a sigh and closed his eyes shut, his jaws clenching hard.I’m still in a daze here.After the ‘accident’ as we start to call it, Jacob kept on apologizing over and over again. He claim he didn’t mean it, he claimed that he has no intention to finish inside. It was not his plan, and I know he’s telling the truth.Roscoe arrived after midnight while the pack was still enjoying their booze and dancing their life. He caught us in the moment of despair
Chapter 69Brent was making his speech in the middle of the Hall where a stage was placed. The crowd was in a circle, the music had died down, and people of Shadow pack listened as the pack’s beta talked.“Let’s stay here while Brent do his thing.” Jacob whispered on my ears. We’re at the stairs, halfway down the crowd when he stopped me by clinging on my waist. His pack was oblivious of our presence, they are focused at Brent.“Do you remember your first night here?” he asked after a while, his fingers are drawing circles on my stomach.I rolled my eyes from his question. “How could I forget? That night is the first of my worst.”He grunted. “Yeah, I was a jerk. I’m sorry.”“You were forgiven. Why’d you asked?”“Well, the moment you stepped out of the vehicle that night, I already caught your scent.” then he sniffed on my hair. “…the scent haven’t changed at all.”I froze when I felt something poking behind me. Jacob is aroused!Clearing my throat, I moved, trying to inch away from h
Chapter 68LuciannaI woke up the next day with morning kisses. Jacob’s face is buried on my neck, showering my skin with wet kisses, his hand on my stomach hugged tighter when he noticed I’m finally awake.“Good morning?” he asked, chuckling a bit, his head lifted and he smirked at me. I had to roll my eyes from how confident he sounded. Well, he could act that way because clearly, he earned the confidence last night.I groaned when my body shivered when I shifted. “I can’t believe its morning already. I feel sore all over, and I wonder who’s to blame for this.” I narrowed my eyes at Jacob’s grinning face. “What did you do to me? I think I’m suffering an amnesia or something.”Jacob let out a throaty laugh. “Come on now, baby, don’t feed my ego too much.” he bent down and planted a quick kiss on my lips.“Or maybe… I was trying to have some more.” I grinned. “If I’m calculating, you still owe me fifty-nine more.”He squinted his eyes. “Because. If I may remind, you fainted.” I laughe
Chapter 67Lucianna’s POVI was watching Ashira by the garden with folded arms on my chest and a swelling feeling on my heart. My friend would rather be with the birds and listen to them sing than have Aiden by his side. Its sad, really.There is no way I could relate with how this all works. Ashira forgetting her own mate, Aiden’s pain, the unborn child that has no clue with what is happening in the world. If I’m in their shoes… nah, I can’t relate. I sighed.Footsteps coming from behind straighten my back. It’s Aiden, and I felt him stopped behind me. He’s probably looking at Ashira now, too. Gawking at his mate like how he’s doing for the past days.“She’s going to be gone for a while, is she?” I said in a whisper.The silence is deafening and Aiden’s aura has been so sad that my eyes started to form tears. I sniffed.“She won’t.” Aiden answered gruffly. “Not to me.” then he walked forward and stopped beside me. The rays of the sun glowed his golden-brown eyes and those eyes didn’t
Chapter 66Jacob’s POV“We all know that Roscoe lost his mate before they could even meet. The occurrence made the shadow eye transferred to you, the second born.”Lucianna goes on and explained further but my focus was divided as I questioned what just happened.I never lose my cool, I never lost to my wolf. The argument we had are not that intense for my alpha power to take over. Heck, I will never use it to Lucianna!Despite the confusion, I made sure to keep it to myself and mask the knocking feeling. My brother is here, and I hate showing any weakness or flaw when he’s around.Though god knows how much I wanted to kneel and hug Lucianna for using the alpha on her-- even unintentionally.“Hundred years ago, the same incident happened in Shadow pack. The second born got the shadow eye, the same reason you got yours. The first born is mate-less and he took revenge just how Roscoe did, and the second born died. Everyone thought the first born killed the second.” Lucianna inhaled deep
Chapter 65Jacob’s POVI escorted Roscoe down the mountain and mind-linked Lucianna that we will meet her at the Prime’s guesthouse. At first, I entertained the thought that our conversation could take place at the mountain, wait for Lucianna and have the decent privacy. Not when Aiden’s guards noticed Roscoe’s presence in the pack lands. I earned a bit scolding from Aiden for trespassing his territory but he has a lot in his hands right now to come down and personally meet with us. Thankfully, he let this one go.Soft knocks from the door ended the silent eye-contact Roscoe and I have been doing. I stood up lazily and gave him one last warning look which earned a sigh from him then I headed to the door.Despite the guesthouse rooms being wolf-proof, I could feel that Lucianna was the one behind the door.‘Please tell me you are decently clothed.’ I teased our portal.A loud bang came from the door when Lucianna responded with a loud knock. I’m not even sure if it was a knock.Chuckli