Chapter 3
Jacob’s POV
“Oh, yes! Ohh!”
I groaned, closing my eyes as I thrust in and out of Monica’s wetness. She is one of the she-wolf call-girls of my pack who became my prey tonight.
Despite having sex right now, my mind can only think of my mate as if its the only thing I could place my mind into. I can’t forget her face. Her scent. Her smile. And all day, I had a boner from those simple thoughts. My mate…
Imagining her face as I pleasure her, as she reach heaven for me. Her scent lingering everywhere while she’s inside my arms, her smile turning into a pleading expression, asking for more. Those thoughts fucked me up all day, leaving me distracted.
Leaning in, I grabbed Monica’s blonde hair as I moved fast and deep inside her. My mate is driving me crazy. I’ve been having these sexual urges for weeks now, and I know I will find her this year.
Upon seeing her, my wolf immediately stumbled, wiggling its tail from excitement and I’ve been fighting over him for control. And fuck, my wolf’s heat can’t seem to cease!
“Ohh! I’m close!” Monica said in a long moan.
My thoughts snapped and brought me back to reality. I can feel I’m close as well, but this is not satisfying at all! Something is missing, and physical pleasure is not enough!
Planning to just get this done, I grabbed Monica onto her waist and slammed myself harder, my own meeting with hers.
She let out a long erotic moan as she reached her climax. A low growl escaped my throat, its not enough.
Unsatisfied, I lay on my bed, letting my nakedness in sight. Closing my eyes, all I can see is her. My mate’s face kept popping up in my head as if that is all my mind has.
“Thank you for picking me for tonight…” Monica said, grazing my chest with her fingers. I looked at her and rolled my eyes, rubbing my hand on my face.
It won’t matter who I pick, its still not enough.
And it fucking frustrates me!
Sighing heavily, I stood up and took my clothes, put them on and headed to the door.
“Leave once you’re dressed.” I said, not turning my head back to her as I slammed the door and went to my office.
Brent, my Beta, is in the room as I arrived.
“I thought you won’t scratch your itching urges, Jake.” Brent said without taking his eyes off the paper he was working on. What is he even doing here at this hour?
“Why are you here?” I slumped on a couch, resting my head on the soft chair.
He didn’t answer, instead he insert the papers he needed into an envelope and walked to the other couch in front of me.
“Don’t change the subject.” he said in a grim voice. My beta is not the playful type, he is just a serious stone statue in a human flesh.
I groaned and closed my eyes. “There was no subject to change. Why are you here?”
I bet those papers he took are just a ploy. This guy might look like an emotionless prick but he can be nosy especially on my accord.
“You went to see your mate, Jacob. That was against the rules.”
I knew it.
He came here just to nag me about that.
I hated how beta’s become the balance of a pack. Just like a mother nagging about rightful duties and responsibilities all the time.
“If you were asking if she’s here and if I saw her, yes I did.”
Its not the rules he cared about. I know Brent, we grew up and trained together. I know he wanted to settle everything in right places and finding my Luna, producing heirs, is one of his greatest sought-after task.
Its just how he thinks, anyway.
“Then why did you call for a she-wolf? You’ll meet your mate at the Ball tomorrow, and now that you’ve seen her, the urges won’t be that bad.”
You got it wrong, buddy. It even escalated in a different level.
I scoffed, deciding to ignore him and his nosiness.
And Brent being himself, ignored the hint that I don’t want to talk about this.
“I saw how you fought the sexual hyperactive urges these past weeks. You denied the company of women, not letting the thirst be at ease. So why just now?” he continued to pry.
“Mind your business.” I scowled, my eyes are still closed and I wonder how I can close my ears so I won’t have this conversation with him. “Leave. I have work to do.”
“Unless…” Brent paused and I opened my eyes, stared at the ceiling, waiting for his conclusive ideas. “You don’t want her.” it was not a question but a statement.
Groaning, I looked at him. My expression went dark and grim. I did not said a word and let my eyes send him a message that I wanted some space.
“You know you can’t reject her, Jake. No one can deny the mate bond, you won’t win against your fate. Whatever it is you seen in her shadow, its impossible to outrun it. If this is about what your brother said-”
Maybe I’ve become easy with my Beta. He never know when to stop being nosy.
“Shut up.” I said with a commanding voice, almost in a growl. “Leave.”
Brent paled as he felt my alpha order ran down to his spine. I don’t want to discuss my mate’s incredibility at the moment, or my brother, and I’m losing my patience with his insensitive behavior.
Brent cleared his throat and bow his head slightly. “Yes, Alpha.” then he left in silence.
Sighing, I closed my eyes again. My mate’s face flashing in an instant, then my brother’s smirking face flashed next. I don’t want to think of them at the same time because my mind is already clouded with just one of them.
I know I can’t choose when it comes to this mate thing. No matter how I try to, I know I will succumb to its pull but for now I needed to see how weak my mate is.
How far can you handle me, mate?
Lucianna’s POV
Oh, refreshing!
I just had a morning shower when soft knocks came from the door. When I opened it, there was food waiting and my stomach rumbled. I didn’t had enough food last night! I’m a heavy eater and what they served last night seems under a dietary schedule. If only they knew that fat is my enemy, they might gave me more. No matter how many food I eat, I don’t seem to gain weight.
Feeling excited with my meal, I pushed the food cart inside my room and positioned myself, ready to dig in.
Riiiing!
Argh! Who is this calling right before I have my bite?!
“Hello?” I mumbled through my phone and grabbed a mouthful of food, stomping my mouth with it.
“Hi, Luce! How is Shadow pack treating you?” a cheery sweet voice said on the other line.
“Mom!”
I don’t have a mom, I’m an orphan but the caller is Gamma Sol’s wife. Remember when I said that Gamma Sol kept looking out for my welfare since my parents’ death? His wife treated me well, too, and she even told me to call her ‘mom’.
She is a kind person with an everlasting love towards orphan like I am. I often visit her even though I’m of age and I found a comfort zone with their family, different but still enough for someone like me.
“It’s awesome here! I will meet my mate tonight!” I said in a high pitched voice and she giggled with me.
“Don’t forget to tell me the glory details!”
I swallowed some of the food I chew before answering her. “I will, Mom! I can’t wait for night to come and ahhh, I can’t believe I’m already meeting him!”
She giggled on the other line. “Okay, sweety. I won’t disturb your preparations now. Don’t forget to not be brusque to your mate, hmm? You always scare the boys in this pack, don’t scare your mate away.” She laughed and I pouted.
“I won’t! I will only show him that I will be the perfect wife for him!”
“Attagirl. Okay, I’ll hang up now.”
“Bye!”
I might not know how to be prim and proper or more ladylike but I will try my best!
Chapter 4Lucianna’s POVThe night of the Mapping Ball has come! I had few hours left to prepare and I spent most of the day inside my appointed room. There’s nothing to do outside, anyway. My body is asking for some sweat and work out but I’m not sure if I can use the training centers at the pack right now, nor where it is located.Well, it is prohibited to cross those red borders so it's not like I can go anywhere. But damn, I wanted to lose some steam.I tried calling Ashira but she’s not picking up her phone. I already talked to Mommy Len so I’m embarrassed to contact her again. My contact sums up to them, I guess.Rummaging my small suitcase, I took the dress I will wear to the Ball later, flattening it to the bed. The guesthouse room contains essential tools like clothing iron and such so I started fixing my crumpled dress.I bought this at a thrift store back at my pack and it still looked good as new, as well as the pumps.Being an orphan and a pack fighter, it's hard to earn
Chapter 5Lucianna’s POVI watched as the other girls move in the middle of the hall, then one of the guys will move forward, almost like a wild animal, and starts to put their claim to their fated ones neck. The way the men growls the word ‘Mine’ made my knees tremble with excitement. I can’t wait to hear my mate say it!“The Shadow pack’s Alpha is a hottie! It’s too bad we didn’t get to see him!” said a girl who rode the van with me.What now? Are they gonna keep throwing blades at me? So what if the Alpha looks good? It’s not like they still can drool over him when they meet their own mate.Argh. They start to sound pathetic in my ears! It’s almost unbearable that I can’t stop frowning!“Oh, yes! I heard the girls from the front talked about how mighty he is!”“Second strongest Alpha of the North, I wonder how he looks like!”“If it ain’t because of that bitch who came last…”I decided to just hum and focus on what’s happening in front of us. These girls won’t stop blaming me for a
Chapter 6Lucianna’s POVI was trembling, not with fear, not with excitement, but something different. A feeling I never encountered before I met him, a feeling that is there when he looks at me like this.Disgust? No. He is not disgusted but there is a faint side of that emotion mixed with something else. I can’t put a word with it.“Cat got your tongue?” he smirked, crossing his arms in front of his chest and tilted his head a bit. “Go back. I don’t want to see you.” he said in a clenched jaw.“I-Is there something wrong with me?” I managed to ask, my voice is in its lowest. I think my head is clouded with his scent, and I know its the mate bond talking but I tried my best to not get swayed by the pull.Because I feel like jumping on him right now. And if the situation is not like this, I would’ve.The Alpha just kept on staring at me, making me uneasy but I deny to avoid our eye contact. Even though this is the hardest part I ever encounter with someone. Looking straight in the ey
Chapter 7Jacob’s POVFucking Hell!I don’t want her! I don’t want her!Stop rejecting my mate! You can’t! my wolf growled inside me.Fucking shut up! I growled back at him.I know that I will never escape this mate bond, this is my fate. But how can I? How can I fucking accept her if I can see how weak she is?That gray shadow that I’ve been seeing in my own, and what my mate possesses as well. Am I getting played by fate?Lucianna…She is amazing. A beauty beyond compare. Those big dolly eyes, sharp nose and plumped lips of her invites me, pulls me, seduces me. She don’t need any words, I would have grab her and take her the moment her eyes laid on mine.But I can’t.How can I?I am an Alpha of the second strongest pack of the North but my shadow shows a gray color. I am weak.We are not weak. My wolf says. He has been telling me the same words ever since I found out about my shadow eye ability.Tell that to me when you can explain why our shadow were gray. I hissed. My wolf never k
Chapter 8Jacob’s POVWhat the fuck am I doing?Save my Gamma the trouble, my ass!Your Beta got into your head. Ha! Thank him for me. My wolf laughed and I hated how he can see through my subconscious.He might be right but there is no way in hell that I will accept this. How can I stoop this low?“What? I’m not a flirt!” Lucianna burst and my jaw tightened together with my grip on the steering wheel.She is. She is! My head screamed.You sound to be persuading yourself hard there, my wolf laughed again. He sure is enjoying this!I growled at him in my head, but my tension made me snarled loudly and it reached my mate’s ears.Lucianna gasped at the back of the car and I froze. Did I scare her? Fuck!“D-Did you just…” her voice is low, shaky, and I don’t know why but panic is starting to build in my chest.What? Panic?No. No.I cleared my throat to swallow a huge lump I feel like stuck in it. Why would I care if I scared her or whatever? This shows just how weak she really is, right?
Chapter 9Lucianna’s POVThe sun is rising and I’m still in this corner of my room, sitting like a beaten pup, scared and trembling.I don’t know when my tears stopped falling down my cheeks. I didn’t even know that it will even stop, I thought it will go on until I make a river.What did just happen?It has been an hour since the pain stopped. He stopped. Jacob…How can he do this to me?I started sobbing again, hugging myself even tighter and yet it is not enough.My whole body is aching, but it can’t be compared when I’m still being struck by the pain as clips of my mate’s dirty work flashes on my mind.Jacob, my mate, the person I owe my life to even yet meeting him has cheated on me. How can he do that? We just met last night, and not even an hour passed and he gave me this pain…It hurts.Mate! I want mate! My wolf whined inside me.My wolf kept doing that since I can’t remember. While I’m suffering from the pain inflicted by Jacob’s infidelity, my wolf--who seem to not feel the
Chapter 9Lucianna’s POVThe sun is rising and I’m still in this corner of my room, sitting like a beaten pup, scared and trembling.I don’t know when my tears stopped falling down my cheeks. I didn’t even know that it will even stop, I thought it will go on until I make a river.What did just happen?It has been an hour since the pain stopped. He stopped. Jacob…How can he do this to me?I started sobbing again, hugging myself even tighter and yet it is not enough.My whole body is aching, but it can’t be compared when I’m still being struck by the pain as clips of my mate’s dirty work flashes on my mind.Jacob, my mate, the person I owe my life to even yet meeting him has cheated on me. How can he do that? We just met last night, and not even an hour passed and he gave me this pain…It hurts.Mate! I want mate! My wolf whined inside me.My wolf kept doing that since I can’t remember. While I’m suffering from the pain inflicted by Jacob’s infidelity, my wolf--who seem to not feel the
Chapter 11Lucianna’s POV“What do you think you’re doing?” Jacob said in a rough and serious voice. He didn’t move and he stood in front of me proud, not even budging.Am I wrong? Isn’t he attracted and almost giving in to the bond? What if he is not?I watched his face and tried analyzing what is on his mind right now. I can still see the same glint in his eyes despite the darkness at the hallway, but am I right? Is that glint meant desire?“Taking my towel back…” I said in a low, careful voice.Jacob’s jaw clenched and he held his chin up. The way he gulped hard didn’t escaped my eyes. Can I take that as a hint that he is affected?“You got it now. Walk away.” he said. His voice is almost a whisper, raspy, and deep.It sounded rude, and how he said it almost made me back out, run inside my room and lock my doors in shame but I couldn’t.“No.” I whispered again, staring back at his eyes. Jacob is looking down at me with his head high up. It was supposed to make me feel little, and i
Chapter 73Lucianna’s POVI heard Jacob’s voice while Harley was talking. The Gamma reported that Roscoe came to visit and that we talked in private but he didn’t add things that will complicate a mind. Though I doubt Jacob will think odd of his brother’s visit, given the situation we are in.My breathing got heavy when the two nodded their goodbyes and Jacob looked my way. Exactly at me, in my eyes, as if he knew I’m standing there and watching them.My reflexes say I should hide, away from his soulless eyes but I can’t. I didn’t. Instead, I walked towards the front door where Jacob were also headed. Jacob stopped just outside the door, right in front of me and I stopped inside, a step away from him.We stood there, eyes locked with each other and I have no idea what’s working on his head. Jacob shows no expression, same thing he has been doing since what had happened. And I can’t read his thoughts, nor his feelings.Is he waiting? I think he’s waiting for me to speak, to tell him so
Chapter 72 Lucianna’s POV “I mean abortion, Lucianna. We have to kill the pup inside your womb in exchange of enough time.” I swear, all the blood running through my veins left. I froze, and I stopped breathing. Killing the pup… God, that sounds so wrong because it fucking is! “You’re proposing to kill my child, Roscoe.” I stated because he seems to forgot that fact. “Yes--” “My own child. Its your family, too!” “I know that, Lucianna! But do we have a choice? We’re already in this problem, and we got no other options to choose from.” he bowed his head and sighed before looking back at me. “Its either let Jacob die or kill the pup before it consume your mate.” I put my hands up to stop him, unable to can’t hear any more of this. Roscoe has a point and it is clear but I am not thinking of killing my own child. I’m hopeful,I’m still hoping for a miracle to save us all from the fate’s curse. But Roscoe is also right that we have no time. And I have no time to continue hoping. Bu
Chapter 71Jacob’s POV“And I think you’ve brought us trouble.” says the visitor.Even though I can’t see her face, I know she’s looking right at me. The emotion of fear comes to me very seldom and that’s when I have no knowledge of something. When there’s something I have no answer about, or I’m left with no resolve.But this woman, well I can’t say she’s human exactly. And I think I’m having that particular emotion right now.Fhoxia is her name, right? And this Fhoxia is not from the living, its dead. She got no presence, no scent, no shadow, nothing.All the inhibitions I had, all the doubts and mistrust was left with certainty. Lucianna and Roscoe are telling the truth and even if I believe them, this woman’s presence alone makes me believe.“He didn’t mean to.” Roscoe spoke, trying to cover up for me. Its not only I who recognize who Fhoxia was talking to.Fhoxia turned her head to Roscoe, ever slowly, the slowest motion I have ever see.“Doesn’t mean he was not to blame.” the fe
Chapter 70Ashira’s POV“Come again?” Roscoe tilted his head and his brow furrowed. “What did you say?” he asked Jacob again.I was fidgeting on my seat while watching the brothers fought glances with each other. Jacob bit his lip and looked away first. I can tell how guilty he is, Jacob never looked away first when it comes to Roscoe.“You-” Roscoe can’t finish his sentence. He backed away and sat on the chair with a thud.“I didn’t--”“She will get pregnant!” Roscoe cut Jacob’s words and he stood up as hastily as how he sat. Jacob let out a sigh and closed his eyes shut, his jaws clenching hard.I’m still in a daze here.After the ‘accident’ as we start to call it, Jacob kept on apologizing over and over again. He claim he didn’t mean it, he claimed that he has no intention to finish inside. It was not his plan, and I know he’s telling the truth.Roscoe arrived after midnight while the pack was still enjoying their booze and dancing their life. He caught us in the moment of despair
Chapter 69Brent was making his speech in the middle of the Hall where a stage was placed. The crowd was in a circle, the music had died down, and people of Shadow pack listened as the pack’s beta talked.“Let’s stay here while Brent do his thing.” Jacob whispered on my ears. We’re at the stairs, halfway down the crowd when he stopped me by clinging on my waist. His pack was oblivious of our presence, they are focused at Brent.“Do you remember your first night here?” he asked after a while, his fingers are drawing circles on my stomach.I rolled my eyes from his question. “How could I forget? That night is the first of my worst.”He grunted. “Yeah, I was a jerk. I’m sorry.”“You were forgiven. Why’d you asked?”“Well, the moment you stepped out of the vehicle that night, I already caught your scent.” then he sniffed on my hair. “…the scent haven’t changed at all.”I froze when I felt something poking behind me. Jacob is aroused!Clearing my throat, I moved, trying to inch away from h
Chapter 68LuciannaI woke up the next day with morning kisses. Jacob’s face is buried on my neck, showering my skin with wet kisses, his hand on my stomach hugged tighter when he noticed I’m finally awake.“Good morning?” he asked, chuckling a bit, his head lifted and he smirked at me. I had to roll my eyes from how confident he sounded. Well, he could act that way because clearly, he earned the confidence last night.I groaned when my body shivered when I shifted. “I can’t believe its morning already. I feel sore all over, and I wonder who’s to blame for this.” I narrowed my eyes at Jacob’s grinning face. “What did you do to me? I think I’m suffering an amnesia or something.”Jacob let out a throaty laugh. “Come on now, baby, don’t feed my ego too much.” he bent down and planted a quick kiss on my lips.“Or maybe… I was trying to have some more.” I grinned. “If I’m calculating, you still owe me fifty-nine more.”He squinted his eyes. “Because. If I may remind, you fainted.” I laughe
Chapter 67Lucianna’s POVI was watching Ashira by the garden with folded arms on my chest and a swelling feeling on my heart. My friend would rather be with the birds and listen to them sing than have Aiden by his side. Its sad, really.There is no way I could relate with how this all works. Ashira forgetting her own mate, Aiden’s pain, the unborn child that has no clue with what is happening in the world. If I’m in their shoes… nah, I can’t relate. I sighed.Footsteps coming from behind straighten my back. It’s Aiden, and I felt him stopped behind me. He’s probably looking at Ashira now, too. Gawking at his mate like how he’s doing for the past days.“She’s going to be gone for a while, is she?” I said in a whisper.The silence is deafening and Aiden’s aura has been so sad that my eyes started to form tears. I sniffed.“She won’t.” Aiden answered gruffly. “Not to me.” then he walked forward and stopped beside me. The rays of the sun glowed his golden-brown eyes and those eyes didn’t
Chapter 66Jacob’s POV“We all know that Roscoe lost his mate before they could even meet. The occurrence made the shadow eye transferred to you, the second born.”Lucianna goes on and explained further but my focus was divided as I questioned what just happened.I never lose my cool, I never lost to my wolf. The argument we had are not that intense for my alpha power to take over. Heck, I will never use it to Lucianna!Despite the confusion, I made sure to keep it to myself and mask the knocking feeling. My brother is here, and I hate showing any weakness or flaw when he’s around.Though god knows how much I wanted to kneel and hug Lucianna for using the alpha on her-- even unintentionally.“Hundred years ago, the same incident happened in Shadow pack. The second born got the shadow eye, the same reason you got yours. The first born is mate-less and he took revenge just how Roscoe did, and the second born died. Everyone thought the first born killed the second.” Lucianna inhaled deep
Chapter 65Jacob’s POVI escorted Roscoe down the mountain and mind-linked Lucianna that we will meet her at the Prime’s guesthouse. At first, I entertained the thought that our conversation could take place at the mountain, wait for Lucianna and have the decent privacy. Not when Aiden’s guards noticed Roscoe’s presence in the pack lands. I earned a bit scolding from Aiden for trespassing his territory but he has a lot in his hands right now to come down and personally meet with us. Thankfully, he let this one go.Soft knocks from the door ended the silent eye-contact Roscoe and I have been doing. I stood up lazily and gave him one last warning look which earned a sigh from him then I headed to the door.Despite the guesthouse rooms being wolf-proof, I could feel that Lucianna was the one behind the door.‘Please tell me you are decently clothed.’ I teased our portal.A loud bang came from the door when Lucianna responded with a loud knock. I’m not even sure if it was a knock.Chuckli