Chapter 3
Jacob’s POV
“Oh, yes! Ohh!”
I groaned, closing my eyes as I thrust in and out of Monica’s wetness. She is one of the she-wolf call-girls of my pack who became my prey tonight.
Despite having sex right now, my mind can only think of my mate as if its the only thing I could place my mind into. I can’t forget her face. Her scent. Her smile. And all day, I had a boner from those simple thoughts. My mate…
Imagining her face as I pleasure her, as she reach heaven for me. Her scent lingering everywhere while she’s inside my arms, her smile turning into a pleading expression, asking for more. Those thoughts fucked me up all day, leaving me distracted.
Leaning in, I grabbed Monica’s blonde hair as I moved fast and deep inside her. My mate is driving me crazy. I’ve been having these sexual urges for weeks now, and I know I will find her this year.
Upon seeing her, my wolf immediately stumbled, wiggling its tail from excitement and I’ve been fighting over him for control. And fuck, my wolf’s heat can’t seem to cease!
“Ohh! I’m close!” Monica said in a long moan.
My thoughts snapped and brought me back to reality. I can feel I’m close as well, but this is not satisfying at all! Something is missing, and physical pleasure is not enough!
Planning to just get this done, I grabbed Monica onto her waist and slammed myself harder, my own meeting with hers.
She let out a long erotic moan as she reached her climax. A low growl escaped my throat, its not enough.
Unsatisfied, I lay on my bed, letting my nakedness in sight. Closing my eyes, all I can see is her. My mate’s face kept popping up in my head as if that is all my mind has.
“Thank you for picking me for tonight…” Monica said, grazing my chest with her fingers. I looked at her and rolled my eyes, rubbing my hand on my face.
It won’t matter who I pick, its still not enough.
And it fucking frustrates me!
Sighing heavily, I stood up and took my clothes, put them on and headed to the door.
“Leave once you’re dressed.” I said, not turning my head back to her as I slammed the door and went to my office.
Brent, my Beta, is in the room as I arrived.
“I thought you won’t scratch your itching urges, Jake.” Brent said without taking his eyes off the paper he was working on. What is he even doing here at this hour?
“Why are you here?” I slumped on a couch, resting my head on the soft chair.
He didn’t answer, instead he insert the papers he needed into an envelope and walked to the other couch in front of me.
“Don’t change the subject.” he said in a grim voice. My beta is not the playful type, he is just a serious stone statue in a human flesh.
I groaned and closed my eyes. “There was no subject to change. Why are you here?”
I bet those papers he took are just a ploy. This guy might look like an emotionless prick but he can be nosy especially on my accord.
“You went to see your mate, Jacob. That was against the rules.”
I knew it.
He came here just to nag me about that.
I hated how beta’s become the balance of a pack. Just like a mother nagging about rightful duties and responsibilities all the time.
“If you were asking if she’s here and if I saw her, yes I did.”
Its not the rules he cared about. I know Brent, we grew up and trained together. I know he wanted to settle everything in right places and finding my Luna, producing heirs, is one of his greatest sought-after task.
Its just how he thinks, anyway.
“Then why did you call for a she-wolf? You’ll meet your mate at the Ball tomorrow, and now that you’ve seen her, the urges won’t be that bad.”
You got it wrong, buddy. It even escalated in a different level.
I scoffed, deciding to ignore him and his nosiness.
And Brent being himself, ignored the hint that I don’t want to talk about this.
“I saw how you fought the sexual hyperactive urges these past weeks. You denied the company of women, not letting the thirst be at ease. So why just now?” he continued to pry.
“Mind your business.” I scowled, my eyes are still closed and I wonder how I can close my ears so I won’t have this conversation with him. “Leave. I have work to do.”
“Unless…” Brent paused and I opened my eyes, stared at the ceiling, waiting for his conclusive ideas. “You don’t want her.” it was not a question but a statement.
Groaning, I looked at him. My expression went dark and grim. I did not said a word and let my eyes send him a message that I wanted some space.
“You know you can’t reject her, Jake. No one can deny the mate bond, you won’t win against your fate. Whatever it is you seen in her shadow, its impossible to outrun it. If this is about what your brother said-”
Maybe I’ve become easy with my Beta. He never know when to stop being nosy.
“Shut up.” I said with a commanding voice, almost in a growl. “Leave.”
Brent paled as he felt my alpha order ran down to his spine. I don’t want to discuss my mate’s incredibility at the moment, or my brother, and I’m losing my patience with his insensitive behavior.
Brent cleared his throat and bow his head slightly. “Yes, Alpha.” then he left in silence.
Sighing, I closed my eyes again. My mate’s face flashing in an instant, then my brother’s smirking face flashed next. I don’t want to think of them at the same time because my mind is already clouded with just one of them.
I know I can’t choose when it comes to this mate thing. No matter how I try to, I know I will succumb to its pull but for now I needed to see how weak my mate is.
How far can you handle me, mate?
Lucianna’s POV
Oh, refreshing!
I just had a morning shower when soft knocks came from the door. When I opened it, there was food waiting and my stomach rumbled. I didn’t had enough food last night! I’m a heavy eater and what they served last night seems under a dietary schedule. If only they knew that fat is my enemy, they might gave me more. No matter how many food I eat, I don’t seem to gain weight.
Feeling excited with my meal, I pushed the food cart inside my room and positioned myself, ready to dig in.
Riiiing!
Argh! Who is this calling right before I have my bite?!
“Hello?” I mumbled through my phone and grabbed a mouthful of food, stomping my mouth with it.
“Hi, Luce! How is Shadow pack treating you?” a cheery sweet voice said on the other line.
“Mom!”
I don’t have a mom, I’m an orphan but the caller is Gamma Sol’s wife. Remember when I said that Gamma Sol kept looking out for my welfare since my parents’ death? His wife treated me well, too, and she even told me to call her ‘mom’.
She is a kind person with an everlasting love towards orphan like I am. I often visit her even though I’m of age and I found a comfort zone with their family, different but still enough for someone like me.
“It’s awesome here! I will meet my mate tonight!” I said in a high pitched voice and she giggled with me.
“Don’t forget to tell me the glory details!”
I swallowed some of the food I chew before answering her. “I will, Mom! I can’t wait for night to come and ahhh, I can’t believe I’m already meeting him!”
She giggled on the other line. “Okay, sweety. I won’t disturb your preparations now. Don’t forget to not be brusque to your mate, hmm? You always scare the boys in this pack, don’t scare your mate away.” She laughed and I pouted.
“I won’t! I will only show him that I will be the perfect wife for him!”
“Attagirl. Okay, I’ll hang up now.”
“Bye!”
I might not know how to be prim and proper or more ladylike but I will try my best!
Chapter 4Lucianna’s POVThe night of the Mapping Ball has come! I had few hours left to prepare and I spent most of the day inside my appointed room. There’s nothing to do outside, anyway. My body is asking for some sweat and work out but I’m not sure if I can use the training centers at the pack right now, nor where it is located.Well, it is prohibited to cross those red borders so it's not like I can go anywhere. But damn, I wanted to lose some steam.I tried calling Ashira but she’s not picking up her phone. I already talked to Mommy Len so I’m embarrassed to contact her again. My contact sums up to them, I guess.Rummaging my small suitcase, I took the dress I will wear to the Ball later, flattening it to the bed. The guesthouse room contains essential tools like clothing iron and such so I started fixing my crumpled dress.I bought this at a thrift store back at my pack and it still looked good as new, as well as the pumps.Being an orphan and a pack fighter, it's hard to earn
Chapter 5Lucianna’s POVI watched as the other girls move in the middle of the hall, then one of the guys will move forward, almost like a wild animal, and starts to put their claim to their fated ones neck. The way the men growls the word ‘Mine’ made my knees tremble with excitement. I can’t wait to hear my mate say it!“The Shadow pack’s Alpha is a hottie! It’s too bad we didn’t get to see him!” said a girl who rode the van with me.What now? Are they gonna keep throwing blades at me? So what if the Alpha looks good? It’s not like they still can drool over him when they meet their own mate.Argh. They start to sound pathetic in my ears! It’s almost unbearable that I can’t stop frowning!“Oh, yes! I heard the girls from the front talked about how mighty he is!”“Second strongest Alpha of the North, I wonder how he looks like!”“If it ain’t because of that bitch who came last…”I decided to just hum and focus on what’s happening in front of us. These girls won’t stop blaming me for a
Chapter 6Lucianna’s POVI was trembling, not with fear, not with excitement, but something different. A feeling I never encountered before I met him, a feeling that is there when he looks at me like this.Disgust? No. He is not disgusted but there is a faint side of that emotion mixed with something else. I can’t put a word with it.“Cat got your tongue?” he smirked, crossing his arms in front of his chest and tilted his head a bit. “Go back. I don’t want to see you.” he said in a clenched jaw.“I-Is there something wrong with me?” I managed to ask, my voice is in its lowest. I think my head is clouded with his scent, and I know its the mate bond talking but I tried my best to not get swayed by the pull.Because I feel like jumping on him right now. And if the situation is not like this, I would’ve.The Alpha just kept on staring at me, making me uneasy but I deny to avoid our eye contact. Even though this is the hardest part I ever encounter with someone. Looking straight in the ey
Chapter 7Jacob’s POVFucking Hell!I don’t want her! I don’t want her!Stop rejecting my mate! You can’t! my wolf growled inside me.Fucking shut up! I growled back at him.I know that I will never escape this mate bond, this is my fate. But how can I? How can I fucking accept her if I can see how weak she is?That gray shadow that I’ve been seeing in my own, and what my mate possesses as well. Am I getting played by fate?Lucianna…She is amazing. A beauty beyond compare. Those big dolly eyes, sharp nose and plumped lips of her invites me, pulls me, seduces me. She don’t need any words, I would have grab her and take her the moment her eyes laid on mine.But I can’t.How can I?I am an Alpha of the second strongest pack of the North but my shadow shows a gray color. I am weak.We are not weak. My wolf says. He has been telling me the same words ever since I found out about my shadow eye ability.Tell that to me when you can explain why our shadow were gray. I hissed. My wolf never k
Chapter 8Jacob’s POVWhat the fuck am I doing?Save my Gamma the trouble, my ass!Your Beta got into your head. Ha! Thank him for me. My wolf laughed and I hated how he can see through my subconscious.He might be right but there is no way in hell that I will accept this. How can I stoop this low?“What? I’m not a flirt!” Lucianna burst and my jaw tightened together with my grip on the steering wheel.She is. She is! My head screamed.You sound to be persuading yourself hard there, my wolf laughed again. He sure is enjoying this!I growled at him in my head, but my tension made me snarled loudly and it reached my mate’s ears.Lucianna gasped at the back of the car and I froze. Did I scare her? Fuck!“D-Did you just…” her voice is low, shaky, and I don’t know why but panic is starting to build in my chest.What? Panic?No. No.I cleared my throat to swallow a huge lump I feel like stuck in it. Why would I care if I scared her or whatever? This shows just how weak she really is, right?
Chapter 9Lucianna’s POVThe sun is rising and I’m still in this corner of my room, sitting like a beaten pup, scared and trembling.I don’t know when my tears stopped falling down my cheeks. I didn’t even know that it will even stop, I thought it will go on until I make a river.What did just happen?It has been an hour since the pain stopped. He stopped. Jacob…How can he do this to me?I started sobbing again, hugging myself even tighter and yet it is not enough.My whole body is aching, but it can’t be compared when I’m still being struck by the pain as clips of my mate’s dirty work flashes on my mind.Jacob, my mate, the person I owe my life to even yet meeting him has cheated on me. How can he do that? We just met last night, and not even an hour passed and he gave me this pain…It hurts.Mate! I want mate! My wolf whined inside me.My wolf kept doing that since I can’t remember. While I’m suffering from the pain inflicted by Jacob’s infidelity, my wolf--who seem to not feel the
Chapter 9Lucianna’s POVThe sun is rising and I’m still in this corner of my room, sitting like a beaten pup, scared and trembling.I don’t know when my tears stopped falling down my cheeks. I didn’t even know that it will even stop, I thought it will go on until I make a river.What did just happen?It has been an hour since the pain stopped. He stopped. Jacob…How can he do this to me?I started sobbing again, hugging myself even tighter and yet it is not enough.My whole body is aching, but it can’t be compared when I’m still being struck by the pain as clips of my mate’s dirty work flashes on my mind.Jacob, my mate, the person I owe my life to even yet meeting him has cheated on me. How can he do that? We just met last night, and not even an hour passed and he gave me this pain…It hurts.Mate! I want mate! My wolf whined inside me.My wolf kept doing that since I can’t remember. While I’m suffering from the pain inflicted by Jacob’s infidelity, my wolf--who seem to not feel the
Chapter 11Lucianna’s POV“What do you think you’re doing?” Jacob said in a rough and serious voice. He didn’t move and he stood in front of me proud, not even budging.Am I wrong? Isn’t he attracted and almost giving in to the bond? What if he is not?I watched his face and tried analyzing what is on his mind right now. I can still see the same glint in his eyes despite the darkness at the hallway, but am I right? Is that glint meant desire?“Taking my towel back…” I said in a low, careful voice.Jacob’s jaw clenched and he held his chin up. The way he gulped hard didn’t escaped my eyes. Can I take that as a hint that he is affected?“You got it now. Walk away.” he said. His voice is almost a whisper, raspy, and deep.It sounded rude, and how he said it almost made me back out, run inside my room and lock my doors in shame but I couldn’t.“No.” I whispered again, staring back at his eyes. Jacob is looking down at me with his head high up. It was supposed to make me feel little, and i
Lucianna’s POV“Why proceed with it, then?” Aiden asked, wincing a bit from the heaviness of his words. I just told them about the Shadow eye and the curse of it because of a mishap that the first born didn’t inherit the gift.“Aiden! You can't tell a mother to get rid of her pup.” Ashira answered, agitated on my behalf. Aiden looked at me with apologizing gaze but the way his jaw clenched tells me his vote is just the same as Roscoe’s.“I actually tried to.” the sigh that came out of my lips was cold as memories came rushing.“Ohmy! Luce!” my friend's eyes were wide from shock, covering her mouth and tears forming on her eyes.My smile has shame lingering on it. This is a new emotion on my part. I always thought that I haven't done anything wrong when I decided to went with Roscoe on that cave. Maybe its because this is the first time I talked about it with a person of a same gender. Plus, Ash is a mother now so she can relate more than I could imagine how horrible what I did. I su
Lucianna’s POVRoscoe came and as soon as he get off his car, we exchanged a look that lasts for almost a minute. There was a lot in our eye language and it’s more like him saying ‘I told you so,’ and mine were ‘We’re in this situation so fucking try and talk with your mate’s body’. I saw his shoulder sagged as he sighed but headed to where Fhoxia was as if he read my mind.I really hope Roscoe can get something, anything, from Fhoxia. He does before, he still felt the bond between him and his mate’s body that the messenger borrowed. So I hoped, keep on hoping, there’s nothing I could do anyway.“He’s been there for how long?” Harley asked behind me.Time has reached a spot on top of my list that I prioritized to forget, so I just shrugged Harley’s question. Now watching Roscoe has made me feel dreaded in the guts so I decided to head inside and sit on the couch. Harley lingered longer by the porch, watching my brother-in-law like a hawk.I don’t know if I feel excited or anxious with
Lucianna’s POV“She’s creepy.” Harley commented as we drank coffee out at the porch. “How long has she been here?”“One week now.” I sighed. “I keep on asking her why she’s here but she won’t talk. Roscoe won’t be here until later this evening but he told me over the phone that Fhoxia didn’t reached out to him either.”“It means this messenger has no message to deliver? So, what, just being nosy?”I scoffed. “Bite me, I don’t know either.”“And Roscoe will be here? Jacob finally permitted his return?”Jacob gave a temporary ban for Roscoe after what happened in the cave. My mate hated the idea that his brother kept on deciding things for him.“Yeah, he only agreed this morning. He didn’t want to, I just convinced him since Roscoe might be the one Fhoxia could talk to or something.”“And that is why?”I sighed and nudged my mug at the messenger’s direction . “That body was borrowed from a dead woman. The dead woman was Roscoe’s mate.” Harley’s jaw dropped and before he could pry more,
A month has passed. A cough coming from our bedroom made me jumped from my deep thoughts. I was having my coffee in the kitchen and Jacob was at our bedroom. Laying down on our bed even when the sun has shone for an hour and a half.Not because he feel lazy to go to the Hall like he used to, but because he has become weak. His eyes had sunken with dark circles under it, there’s hollow in his cheeks, his skin has become dull and dry and no matter how much I put lipbalm in his lips, it keeps on cracking. His body was not as strong as he was. And everyday he get worse.I can barely look at him in this state but the only time I wasn’t by his side were morning like this. I drink my coffee alone then I’d cry my heart out without making a sound and spend the rest of my day beside him again. This is the time I used to outlet my sadness, fear and every other emotion I couldn’t show in front of him.There was still no news about another way. There’s still no another way and I lose the hope on
I was asked to lay down on a stone table. The coldness touched the bare skin of my back and arms, making my eyes shut hard.“No need to be scared,” the enchantress said, standing on my side while rummaging into a box of small bottles. A potion, maybe?Harley and Roscoe are on the other side of the cave, or the enchantress’s home, as she calls it. There’s no way they would hear our conversation.“Will it hurt?” I asked in a low, trembling voice.The enchantress looked straight into my eyes and there was something in the way she look at me. She was saying something, her eyes were saying something. She doubted my resolve in continuing with this procedure, I know that was what she think.“It will sting.” she smiles but arched a brow, as if testing if I will back down.But I closed my eyes and relaxed.“You’re not scared.” she stated, not asked. It was as if a question in her head was answered.I sighed, long and painful. “No.”“I want to know why,” she demanded with a tone that she wouldn
Lucianna’s POVI cut off the portal I shared with Jacob, feeling the severed connection like a heavy weight lifting from my chest—and yet, a gnawing pit settled in my stomach. It was better this way. He didn’t need to know where I was going, especially for what I was about to do. The decision had been far from easy, but once I made up my mind, there was no turning back. I wouldn’t allow myself to back down.“Calm down, gamma,” Roscoe’s chuckle was low, rough, and filled the silence like an unwanted echo. “You look so pale, I’d wonder if your blood left your veins.” His voice trailed off, almost as if he were talking to himself—though in a car full of werewolves, he knew better. I sighed, a breath that didn’t even begin to ease the tension coiled tightly within me.“Cut it out, Roscoe,” I muttered, my voice steady though my mind was racing. I could feel Harley next to me, practically vibrating with barely suppressed irritation. “Just drive.”The sleek growl of the engine hummed beneath
Jacob hadn’t returned home since last night and I haven’t slept a blink. Thinking over and over again about my decision, I cried all night and prayed, continuously apologizing to the unborn child in my womb.“You called for me?”It was Harley. Of course I called for him, I needed someone by my side right now and since Jacob was against this idea, I had to call for someone who wouldn’t turn down my heeding.“Yes.” I wiped my face and stood up. I probably looked like a mess right now but I couldn’t care anymore. “I also called for, uh, Roscoe. Expect his presence in a bit, I’ll just get something from my room.”Harley’s POVEverything was a mess around the pack. I heard Jacob was scolding his staff and throwing things everywhere. Brent told me, of course. He’d been snooping about what was happening with Jake and Luce that may had caused Jacob’s nonstop tantrums over the Hall.Of course I said nothing. I promised Lucianna I wouldn’t tell a soul about Jacob losing his control of his wolf
Jacob’s POVI once again looked at the corpse, it was shredded into pieces. It’s skull was crushed, bones torned apart and cracked. There was blood everywhere, from the ground up to the trees. The body was divided into four pieces and the head was retrieved up the branch of a tree.“Please forgive me, Alpha Jacob.” said Jordan. One of the council, head of trackers that also conduct the investigation. “I failed to distinguish the entity of the corpse, Alpha.” he bowed and the rest of his team bowed as well.There was no question to why they failed. The core of the corpse was gone, making it hard to distinguish it. Without the core--its heart-- a werewolf wouldn’t shift back to human. No one would know if it was a werewolf or a forest wolf.But I knew.The moment I arrived, the air whispered to my ears. The smell of death lingered in my nose. And the howl of a werewolf called my Alpha wolf.The corpse was a shape-shifter like us. Definitely a rogue because there was no distinguished pac
The door open and shut but I did not bother to look who it was. I can smell Harley, anyway. He just got back from the crime scene. I bit my fingernails from the nervousness I feel inside.What did he find out? Is it a shifter? A regular wolf? Damn it!I did not bother looking at Harley when I felt his presence in the living room. Pretending that I was watching the TV, I stopped biting my nails and inhaled slowly.“How’s everything out there?” I asked in a normal voice.Harley exhaled loud. “Just a wolf. Badly torn apart though.” he slumped himself down the couch. “How’s the talk with the brother?”I shrugged. “Just the usual.”“Yeah, like I know the usual, right?” he said sarcastically.I looked at him and squinted my eyes. Why was he so grumpy? “Someone twisted your panties or something?”Harley shook his head and looked away. It looked like he was thinking about something and wanted to say it out loud but also thinking if he should.“Don’t tell me you will act like that all day? Bec