Chapter 6
Lucianna’s POV
I was trembling, not with fear, not with excitement, but something different. A feeling I never encountered before I met him, a feeling that is there when he looks at me like this.
Disgust? No. He is not disgusted but there is a faint side of that emotion mixed with something else. I can’t put a word with it.
“Cat got your tongue?” he smirked, crossing his arms in front of his chest and tilted his head a bit. “Go back. I don’t want to see you.” he said in a clenched jaw.
“I-Is there something wrong with me?” I managed to ask, my voice is in its lowest. I think my head is clouded with his scent, and I know its the mate bond talking but I tried my best to not get swayed by the pull.
Because I feel like jumping on him right now. And if the situation is not like this, I would’ve.
The Alpha just kept on staring at me, making me uneasy but I deny to avoid our eye contact. Even though this is the hardest part I ever encounter with someone. Looking straight in the eyes was never a struggle for me, but my mate’s eyes is just drowning, overwhelming.
It is too much for me to handle.
“I told you, someone will take you to my house.” he said, ignoring my question. So there is something wrong with me for him, huh?
I will never back down, mate! I waited for this moment just to meet you, I won’t cringe just because you said and showed me that you dislike me.
“Why wouldn’t you?”
He raised his brow at me. “Why would I?”
This--!! Okay, calm down. Win him over, Lucianna!
“You’re my mate. Even if I don’t know your name, I am your responsibility now. Isn’t it just right that you take me to my new home?”
“What?” he exclaimed. His brows are furrowed as he frown, questioning. What’s wrong with what I said?
“I’m in your care, Don’t you know about this mate thing-”
“Not that part.” his jaw clenched, and I swear! From the way he look at me right now, it’s like I will be eaten whole!
But what did he say?
Wait, what did I said that made him--Oh!
“Uh, I don’t know your name? Is that it?”
He bit his lower lip while looking at me intensely. Then, he sighed and let go of that lip. Oh God!
The way his lip got wet and red just made me so fucking hot.
“You don’t know me.” he said word by word. Is that wrong, though? We just met today so why is he acting like this?
“Oh! Do you want to introduce ourselves?” maybe he wanted to know me and he wants me to know him, right? “I’m Lucianna.” I said, extending my hand to him for a handshake.
Get it, please. Get it!
“You’re even more disappointing than I thought.” he said with a straight and stern face.
I was confused with what I heard from him but the feeling of being ashamed get to me more. My head bowed and I looked down to the ground, questioning myself.
Why? What did I do wrong to disappoint him?
Like a knife stabbing on my chest, my heart ached.
No, no. I didn’t do anything.
My hand slowly retreated together with my world that seems to be mixed in question and confusion, thoughts that are not helpful at all.
But before my hand fell on my side, he grabbed it! I looked at our hand, our skin touching each other and then I looked up at him with wide eyes.
He shaked my hand!
“Jacob.” he said shortly, giving my hand a tight squeeze. “That’s my name.” then he let go of my hand.
The way our skin touched sent an incredible electricity down to my core that I almost quiver! Damn! Damn, it felt good!
“What else, now? Harley will be here in a few so head back inside.”
I was in a haze and my heart was still in chaos! How can he make me feel unwanted and getting my hopes up again?!
Oh, God! I won’t quit with this mate thing whatever aloofness I see in him!
Jacob… Jacob… His name sounds so handsome! He is handsome!
“You look even more dumb being in a daze like that. Just get out of here.” he said and looked away, ready to turn around but I reached on his arm to stop him.
“Wait!”
He looked at my hand on his arm and slowly met my eyes.
“Let go of me.” he even growled inwardly! I got cringed that I quickly took my hold off of him, grinning awkwardly to hide my embarrassment. Why did I suddenly grabbed on him like that?
“What do you want?” he snapped and his posture didn’t changed from when I stopped him.
“Uh, you owe me an apology and you,” oh, god! Won’t I sound too desperate and in heat with this? “Uh, you owe m-my w-wound a l-lick.” I said, looking away. My fingers are crossed, pinching each other behind me and my heart is beating too loud that I think it moved to my ears!
Fucking----!! There’s no way I’ll be ashamed now! I need to seduce him!
I don’t care what’s going on in his mind, but I’m his mate so he need to do everything he needed, completing the mating process is included to that!
I looked at him and saw his expression was taken aback. His lips are parted and his eyes are slightly wide.
It took him a moment before regaining his composure and cleared his throat. He slowly turn to face me again and I swear my heart is jumping out of my chest as I look away from his intensive gaze. Or was it a glare?
“I owe you?” he said and took a step closer.
My feet moved on its own and took a step back. I was intimidated by his eyes! He didn’t look scary but there’s something in those eyes that screamed danger to me.
I gasped when the cold wall touched my skin through my backless dress. Jacob didn’t stop stepping closer and I my head is tilted up when he hovered over me. I’m cornered!
“I. Don’t owe you. Anything.” he whispered in a rough voice.
I was lost for a moment, drowned by his scent and the warmth of his body. He is so close! And I should have like it but intimidation got me first.
Jump on him! My wolf cheered but I couldn’t, I don’t think I can.
Hey! Get a grip of yourself! The guy called you weak! You know you are not!
Taking a deep breath, I matched the way he looked at me. “You called me weak.”
“’Cause you are.” he breathed. Fuck, why does he sound so sexy?!
“I’m not! You don’t know me yet and I forgive you for judging me because you haven’t got to know-”
“Forgiveness is only for those who asked. And you are weak, no more argument on that part.”
I felt my blood run cold from what he said! He is so rude! Can’t he think properly? Is there something wrong with his head?!
“I told you I’m not--”
My words are cut when he suddenly groaned as if in pain before dipping his head on my neck.
I gasped and my eyes widened when I felt his wet, warm tongue touched the wound of his claim on my neck!
“Ahh~” I could not contain my moans! The way his tongue touched my skin is electrifying, it’s blowing my mind!
Jacob groaned and I felt his hands snaked on my back! Our skin are bare touching each other!
Is this what he meant by despising me? His actions are far from his words!
I felt him suck on my neck, and he is not the claim-wound anymore! He was licking and sucking on the skin just below my ear and it was awesome!
“J-Jacob--”
More! I want more of this! More of him!
The way he touch me, I swear I felt like a gem, something he possess dearly. This is the power of the bond, this is what I wished and I’m having a taste of it!
I was snatched out of my haze when Jacob suddenly stopped, cursing softly before pulling himself away from me.
I smiled upon seeing his expression. He can’t look at me and his face are all red! Oh, my! Is he shy?
Maybe he is a virgin, is that why he kept on pushing me away?
Ohhh, I’m also inexperience but I’m ready to go all out for you, mate!
I sensed someone and looked around. I saw a guy standing in a safe distance. “Alpha Jacob,” he greeted.
I looked at Jacob and found him looking at me with the same intensity he has been eyeing me since earlier.
He sighed and turn to the man who just popped out of nowhere. “You’re late. Take this woman to my house.” he said and turned his back at me.
What? That’s it? No! I’m still after a kiss!
“W-Wait! You should come with me!”
“Don’t push it.” he just said without stopping or looking back to me.
The heck!
Chapter 7Jacob’s POVFucking Hell!I don’t want her! I don’t want her!Stop rejecting my mate! You can’t! my wolf growled inside me.Fucking shut up! I growled back at him.I know that I will never escape this mate bond, this is my fate. But how can I? How can I fucking accept her if I can see how weak she is?That gray shadow that I’ve been seeing in my own, and what my mate possesses as well. Am I getting played by fate?Lucianna…She is amazing. A beauty beyond compare. Those big dolly eyes, sharp nose and plumped lips of her invites me, pulls me, seduces me. She don’t need any words, I would have grab her and take her the moment her eyes laid on mine.But I can’t.How can I?I am an Alpha of the second strongest pack of the North but my shadow shows a gray color. I am weak.We are not weak. My wolf says. He has been telling me the same words ever since I found out about my shadow eye ability.Tell that to me when you can explain why our shadow were gray. I hissed. My wolf never k
Chapter 8Jacob’s POVWhat the fuck am I doing?Save my Gamma the trouble, my ass!Your Beta got into your head. Ha! Thank him for me. My wolf laughed and I hated how he can see through my subconscious.He might be right but there is no way in hell that I will accept this. How can I stoop this low?“What? I’m not a flirt!” Lucianna burst and my jaw tightened together with my grip on the steering wheel.She is. She is! My head screamed.You sound to be persuading yourself hard there, my wolf laughed again. He sure is enjoying this!I growled at him in my head, but my tension made me snarled loudly and it reached my mate’s ears.Lucianna gasped at the back of the car and I froze. Did I scare her? Fuck!“D-Did you just…” her voice is low, shaky, and I don’t know why but panic is starting to build in my chest.What? Panic?No. No.I cleared my throat to swallow a huge lump I feel like stuck in it. Why would I care if I scared her or whatever? This shows just how weak she really is, right?
Chapter 9Lucianna’s POVThe sun is rising and I’m still in this corner of my room, sitting like a beaten pup, scared and trembling.I don’t know when my tears stopped falling down my cheeks. I didn’t even know that it will even stop, I thought it will go on until I make a river.What did just happen?It has been an hour since the pain stopped. He stopped. Jacob…How can he do this to me?I started sobbing again, hugging myself even tighter and yet it is not enough.My whole body is aching, but it can’t be compared when I’m still being struck by the pain as clips of my mate’s dirty work flashes on my mind.Jacob, my mate, the person I owe my life to even yet meeting him has cheated on me. How can he do that? We just met last night, and not even an hour passed and he gave me this pain…It hurts.Mate! I want mate! My wolf whined inside me.My wolf kept doing that since I can’t remember. While I’m suffering from the pain inflicted by Jacob’s infidelity, my wolf--who seem to not feel the
Chapter 9Lucianna’s POVThe sun is rising and I’m still in this corner of my room, sitting like a beaten pup, scared and trembling.I don’t know when my tears stopped falling down my cheeks. I didn’t even know that it will even stop, I thought it will go on until I make a river.What did just happen?It has been an hour since the pain stopped. He stopped. Jacob…How can he do this to me?I started sobbing again, hugging myself even tighter and yet it is not enough.My whole body is aching, but it can’t be compared when I’m still being struck by the pain as clips of my mate’s dirty work flashes on my mind.Jacob, my mate, the person I owe my life to even yet meeting him has cheated on me. How can he do that? We just met last night, and not even an hour passed and he gave me this pain…It hurts.Mate! I want mate! My wolf whined inside me.My wolf kept doing that since I can’t remember. While I’m suffering from the pain inflicted by Jacob’s infidelity, my wolf--who seem to not feel the
Chapter 11Lucianna’s POV“What do you think you’re doing?” Jacob said in a rough and serious voice. He didn’t move and he stood in front of me proud, not even budging.Am I wrong? Isn’t he attracted and almost giving in to the bond? What if he is not?I watched his face and tried analyzing what is on his mind right now. I can still see the same glint in his eyes despite the darkness at the hallway, but am I right? Is that glint meant desire?“Taking my towel back…” I said in a low, careful voice.Jacob’s jaw clenched and he held his chin up. The way he gulped hard didn’t escaped my eyes. Can I take that as a hint that he is affected?“You got it now. Walk away.” he said. His voice is almost a whisper, raspy, and deep.It sounded rude, and how he said it almost made me back out, run inside my room and lock my doors in shame but I couldn’t.“No.” I whispered again, staring back at his eyes. Jacob is looking down at me with his head high up. It was supposed to make me feel little, and i
Chapter 12Brent’s POVI shook my head as I hear moans of pleasure inside Alpha Jacob’s office.He’s at it again? I groaned.Alpha Jacob is smart, his war strategies are on top. The pack respected every rules he has come up with, and feared his merciless behavior towards wrongdoings. But, since his mate showed up, he started to get out of control and I don’t think he is aware of it.What’s so hard on accepting a mate, anyway? It’s not like he can escape his fate, its not like being matched with Lucianna will even change so why do he kept on denying her?Jacob could not control the bond at all, especially the urges and that was clear from how he fucked those bitches, yet he denies his wolf from wanting to mate. Not some plain sex.Its morning and he hasn’t stopped since last night. How far can he go?Damn his stamina.I sat on the couch outside his office and sighed. I guess I will need to wait here for a while before I can work. The files and my tasks are inside his office, it’s easy
Chapter 13Lucianna’s POVWhat is he looking angry at when I should be the one feeling that?I grabbed my phone, taking my eyes off him.“Uh, I’ll call you later about my decision, Dy.”“Sure. Everything okay?”I bit my lip, feeling nervous all of a sudden. Why didn’t I felt Jacob’s arrival? Does my senses get numbed, as well?“Y-Yeah. Later, okay?”“Sure. I miss you, Luce. I hope you think about the offer, can’t wait to see you-”“Yes! Bye!”I quickly turned off the call and bit my lip hard. Damn, why did he had to say those words?! Jake was here! Ugh, it’s not like he knew but still…I decided to continue eating without looking back to Jacob again.My senses heightened when I felt him move, walking towards to me. His steps are slow, it felt deadly like a dark aura was emitting from his body and lingering to the room. To me.I cleared my throat when I felt being suffocated with my loud heartbeats.“I-I didn’t know you’ll come o-over. I did not bother cooking b-breakfast for you.” I s
Chapter 14Lucianna’s POVThe morning passed so fast and its past afternoon. I’m still inside my room, and my tears died down a long time ago. I can’t remember if it lasted for an hour, but I remember myself in daze, staring at the wall.Jacob’s presence left the house during lunch and I don’t know why he stayed that long. I’m just glad that I ate breakfast and my stomach isn’t growling yet.I don’t want to leave mate! My wolf kept whining the same since this morning and I kept ignoring her.I know, alright? I don’t want that too but everything is a blur to me, and I’m hurting.Growing up, I had a lot to take in. Living alone is one of it but it does not match the pain of being lonely.And now, what Jacob is doing despite being here for two days is already killing me. I barely survived the previous ten years but I stayed strong. But these last two days made me something else.I lose my hope.I lose my gleam.I lose myself.I even fucking tried to accept being cheated on, nevertheless
Chapter 73Lucianna’s POVI heard Jacob’s voice while Harley was talking. The Gamma reported that Roscoe came to visit and that we talked in private but he didn’t add things that will complicate a mind. Though I doubt Jacob will think odd of his brother’s visit, given the situation we are in.My breathing got heavy when the two nodded their goodbyes and Jacob looked my way. Exactly at me, in my eyes, as if he knew I’m standing there and watching them.My reflexes say I should hide, away from his soulless eyes but I can’t. I didn’t. Instead, I walked towards the front door where Jacob were also headed. Jacob stopped just outside the door, right in front of me and I stopped inside, a step away from him.We stood there, eyes locked with each other and I have no idea what’s working on his head. Jacob shows no expression, same thing he has been doing since what had happened. And I can’t read his thoughts, nor his feelings.Is he waiting? I think he’s waiting for me to speak, to tell him so
Chapter 72 Lucianna’s POV “I mean abortion, Lucianna. We have to kill the pup inside your womb in exchange of enough time.” I swear, all the blood running through my veins left. I froze, and I stopped breathing. Killing the pup… God, that sounds so wrong because it fucking is! “You’re proposing to kill my child, Roscoe.” I stated because he seems to forgot that fact. “Yes--” “My own child. Its your family, too!” “I know that, Lucianna! But do we have a choice? We’re already in this problem, and we got no other options to choose from.” he bowed his head and sighed before looking back at me. “Its either let Jacob die or kill the pup before it consume your mate.” I put my hands up to stop him, unable to can’t hear any more of this. Roscoe has a point and it is clear but I am not thinking of killing my own child. I’m hopeful,I’m still hoping for a miracle to save us all from the fate’s curse. But Roscoe is also right that we have no time. And I have no time to continue hoping. Bu
Chapter 71Jacob’s POV“And I think you’ve brought us trouble.” says the visitor.Even though I can’t see her face, I know she’s looking right at me. The emotion of fear comes to me very seldom and that’s when I have no knowledge of something. When there’s something I have no answer about, or I’m left with no resolve.But this woman, well I can’t say she’s human exactly. And I think I’m having that particular emotion right now.Fhoxia is her name, right? And this Fhoxia is not from the living, its dead. She got no presence, no scent, no shadow, nothing.All the inhibitions I had, all the doubts and mistrust was left with certainty. Lucianna and Roscoe are telling the truth and even if I believe them, this woman’s presence alone makes me believe.“He didn’t mean to.” Roscoe spoke, trying to cover up for me. Its not only I who recognize who Fhoxia was talking to.Fhoxia turned her head to Roscoe, ever slowly, the slowest motion I have ever see.“Doesn’t mean he was not to blame.” the fe
Chapter 70Ashira’s POV“Come again?” Roscoe tilted his head and his brow furrowed. “What did you say?” he asked Jacob again.I was fidgeting on my seat while watching the brothers fought glances with each other. Jacob bit his lip and looked away first. I can tell how guilty he is, Jacob never looked away first when it comes to Roscoe.“You-” Roscoe can’t finish his sentence. He backed away and sat on the chair with a thud.“I didn’t--”“She will get pregnant!” Roscoe cut Jacob’s words and he stood up as hastily as how he sat. Jacob let out a sigh and closed his eyes shut, his jaws clenching hard.I’m still in a daze here.After the ‘accident’ as we start to call it, Jacob kept on apologizing over and over again. He claim he didn’t mean it, he claimed that he has no intention to finish inside. It was not his plan, and I know he’s telling the truth.Roscoe arrived after midnight while the pack was still enjoying their booze and dancing their life. He caught us in the moment of despair
Chapter 69Brent was making his speech in the middle of the Hall where a stage was placed. The crowd was in a circle, the music had died down, and people of Shadow pack listened as the pack’s beta talked.“Let’s stay here while Brent do his thing.” Jacob whispered on my ears. We’re at the stairs, halfway down the crowd when he stopped me by clinging on my waist. His pack was oblivious of our presence, they are focused at Brent.“Do you remember your first night here?” he asked after a while, his fingers are drawing circles on my stomach.I rolled my eyes from his question. “How could I forget? That night is the first of my worst.”He grunted. “Yeah, I was a jerk. I’m sorry.”“You were forgiven. Why’d you asked?”“Well, the moment you stepped out of the vehicle that night, I already caught your scent.” then he sniffed on my hair. “…the scent haven’t changed at all.”I froze when I felt something poking behind me. Jacob is aroused!Clearing my throat, I moved, trying to inch away from h
Chapter 68LuciannaI woke up the next day with morning kisses. Jacob’s face is buried on my neck, showering my skin with wet kisses, his hand on my stomach hugged tighter when he noticed I’m finally awake.“Good morning?” he asked, chuckling a bit, his head lifted and he smirked at me. I had to roll my eyes from how confident he sounded. Well, he could act that way because clearly, he earned the confidence last night.I groaned when my body shivered when I shifted. “I can’t believe its morning already. I feel sore all over, and I wonder who’s to blame for this.” I narrowed my eyes at Jacob’s grinning face. “What did you do to me? I think I’m suffering an amnesia or something.”Jacob let out a throaty laugh. “Come on now, baby, don’t feed my ego too much.” he bent down and planted a quick kiss on my lips.“Or maybe… I was trying to have some more.” I grinned. “If I’m calculating, you still owe me fifty-nine more.”He squinted his eyes. “Because. If I may remind, you fainted.” I laughe
Chapter 67Lucianna’s POVI was watching Ashira by the garden with folded arms on my chest and a swelling feeling on my heart. My friend would rather be with the birds and listen to them sing than have Aiden by his side. Its sad, really.There is no way I could relate with how this all works. Ashira forgetting her own mate, Aiden’s pain, the unborn child that has no clue with what is happening in the world. If I’m in their shoes… nah, I can’t relate. I sighed.Footsteps coming from behind straighten my back. It’s Aiden, and I felt him stopped behind me. He’s probably looking at Ashira now, too. Gawking at his mate like how he’s doing for the past days.“She’s going to be gone for a while, is she?” I said in a whisper.The silence is deafening and Aiden’s aura has been so sad that my eyes started to form tears. I sniffed.“She won’t.” Aiden answered gruffly. “Not to me.” then he walked forward and stopped beside me. The rays of the sun glowed his golden-brown eyes and those eyes didn’t
Chapter 66Jacob’s POV“We all know that Roscoe lost his mate before they could even meet. The occurrence made the shadow eye transferred to you, the second born.”Lucianna goes on and explained further but my focus was divided as I questioned what just happened.I never lose my cool, I never lost to my wolf. The argument we had are not that intense for my alpha power to take over. Heck, I will never use it to Lucianna!Despite the confusion, I made sure to keep it to myself and mask the knocking feeling. My brother is here, and I hate showing any weakness or flaw when he’s around.Though god knows how much I wanted to kneel and hug Lucianna for using the alpha on her-- even unintentionally.“Hundred years ago, the same incident happened in Shadow pack. The second born got the shadow eye, the same reason you got yours. The first born is mate-less and he took revenge just how Roscoe did, and the second born died. Everyone thought the first born killed the second.” Lucianna inhaled deep
Chapter 65Jacob’s POVI escorted Roscoe down the mountain and mind-linked Lucianna that we will meet her at the Prime’s guesthouse. At first, I entertained the thought that our conversation could take place at the mountain, wait for Lucianna and have the decent privacy. Not when Aiden’s guards noticed Roscoe’s presence in the pack lands. I earned a bit scolding from Aiden for trespassing his territory but he has a lot in his hands right now to come down and personally meet with us. Thankfully, he let this one go.Soft knocks from the door ended the silent eye-contact Roscoe and I have been doing. I stood up lazily and gave him one last warning look which earned a sigh from him then I headed to the door.Despite the guesthouse rooms being wolf-proof, I could feel that Lucianna was the one behind the door.‘Please tell me you are decently clothed.’ I teased our portal.A loud bang came from the door when Lucianna responded with a loud knock. I’m not even sure if it was a knock.Chuckli